Extra - Male Protagonist's Perspective
Humans may believe that gaming worlds are created from data, but they aren't. Unbeknownst to humans, there exists a divine realm. Each divine messenger within this divine realm controls a specific dimension. Only with the divine messenger's permission can humans exist within their dimensions.
At first, he was just an ordinary little divine messenger, in charge of a small gaming space. But something strange happened: his space was extremely difficult to cooperate with humans. While other small spaces had already been designed by humans to display different scenes and many players had entered, his small space was completely silent, with nothing appearing at all.
The space was empty and quiet, with only him, a bored divine messenger, wandering around, lying down to rest when he got tired. He didn't know how many years he had existed, only that a long time had passed. Many of the spaces around him had once been inhabited by a large number of players, but eventually, the players grew tired of them, and the number of humans entering these spaces dwindled.
He no longer liked to float in space, and preferred to sleep. He did not understand the meaning of his existence, and his life was really boring.
After a long time, he even had a terrible idea that he wanted to disappear along with this space.
But soon after he had this thought, when he woke up from his sleep again, he found that a little light appeared in his empty and dark space.
Just like the stars in the human world that he had seen in other dimensions.
The little stars are cute, bright and beautiful.
He was so happy at that time. It was the first time he felt happy. He couldn't wait to run to the little star and look at it carefully.
The little star was probably a little stupid, and after many days, no other little stars appeared. There was no change in his dark space either.
His heart, which was originally full of hope, gradually cooled down, and he finally understood what it meant that there would be no disappointment without expectation.
About two years later, his little star finally changed.
The little star grew a little bigger and brighter.
A few days later, something else appeared in his space: a broken wine bottle and some strange garbage.
He had requirements for his space, not all things could exist in it, so he ruthlessly cleared out these things.
After that, every time he woke up from his sleep, he could see all kinds of garbage appearing in his space.
In fact, some things can be seen as prototypes. Maybe the designer there is too bad and she doesn’t know how to design anything at all.
There is one more thing to do in the boring life, which is to clean up all kinds of garbage that appear inexplicably in the space.
It was obvious that the designer over there was a novice and everything he designed was completely meaningless.
Moreover, designing these things is boring and tedious, and it is difficult for people without a basic foundation to persist and complete the entire world.
But to his surprise, the young designer never gave up. She made rapid progress, and his world gradually became brighter and brighter.
He also became interested in the designer there and wanted to meet her.
Later, he finally got the chance and met her.
I had thought it was an adult, but it turned out to be a frail girl in a wheelchair. She must be ill, as she was on an IV drip. Her face was pale, but she wore a faint smile.
Her eyes curved when she smiled, which inexplicably reminded him of his little star.
He kind of wanted to get to know her.
For the first time, he broke the rules and separated a part of his spiritual consciousness. This part of his spiritual consciousness left the space and went to the human body. He successfully recognized the little star.
Little Star has a very good personality and speaks softly. He especially likes her voice.
He easily became good friends with her.
Because of her poor health, she has never traveled far and the place she often stays in is her laboratory.
Sometimes she would stare out the window in a daze. She said that it would be great if she were a bird so that she could fly freely wherever she wanted to go.
For the first time, he had a goal.
He wanted her to see the real scenery of other places, and he wanted to create a world of their own with her.
He kept expanding his space, and she was also working hard to enrich his world.
He stayed by her side for many years. They grew up together, studied together, and were each other's best friends.
But he knew in his heart that he didn't want to be just friends with her.
Their world gradually grew larger and more perfect. It became brighter and filled with countless NPCs. Later, when the game launched, many players entered their world.
Everything was going well until one night she collapsed on the table with a nosebleed.
Her illness relapsed and her life was coming to an end.
She was sent to the emergency room and underwent surgery again and again, but she continued to become weaker and weaker, and her already thin body became even thinner.
The day he went to see her in the ward, he couldn't control his trembling body and his tears for the first time. But she was in a good mood. Even though she had become so thin, she smiled at him and comforted him softly.
She said that he was the most important friend in her life, and if possible, she hoped they could still be good friends in the next life.
But he doesn't want to, he doesn't want a next life.
After her death, his punishment came.
He was locked in his own game space, enduring the punishment given to him by the main god realm.
He accepted all the punishments calmly. There were several times when he almost lost his soul, but he survived because he didn't want to die yet.
No one knew that he used a very dangerous method to protect her.
Normal humans don’t know that as a messenger of God, he can take away human spiritual consciousness.
At the moment of her death, he secretly collected her spirit and hid it away. Without a container, spirit would gradually weaken until it disappeared. So he used his own body as a container, nourishing it with his own divine nature.
There were two spirits in his body, and his body and mind were in a state of extreme pain every day. But he didn't care, he just wanted her to live, and his star to continue to exist in this world.
His punishment gradually ended, and he still controlled this space. He waited for a long time, and finally found the right opportunity. He met a player who was very compatible with him. The player died suddenly in the game. He then released her consciousness, allowing it to enter another body.
The first time he met her, he used Su Ruan's body.
This was his first time dressing up as a woman.
He knew her well. She looked gentle, but she was actually a little wary of boys. Girls, on the other hand, were more approachable to her. He successfully became her good friend. They worked on tasks together, played games together, and it felt like they had rekindled their old feelings.
At that time, he also used a little trick. At the end of the game, he died to save her. Little Star is loyal and he wants her to remember him.
It was just a little surprising that she recognized him. They even made a promise, and she wanted to see the real him.
Little Star is also smart. Maybe she had noticed something before...for example, he is not human.
The second time he really used his most authentic appearance, and Xiao Xingxing seemed to like it very much.
The feelings in his heart once again took root and grew uncontrollably, and he wanted her to be by his side forever.
The third time, he used a little trick. He deliberately chose the identity of the Earl and arranged her identity as his fiancée.
Even though he knew it was fake, when she called him her fiancé, he was secretly happy for a long time.
But the happy time did not last long, his behavior was discovered by the Lord God, and God's punishment came again.
And he must accept the punishment, otherwise her consciousness will disappear.
He didn't want her to disappear. He wanted her to live a healthy life, to see the vastness of the universe, and to do whatever she wanted.
The punishment was painful, he was imprisoned in the abyss and suffered all kinds of torture. A messenger of God could not have such a thing as love.
He had seen some fragments of her life in the human world, and a voice kept saying in his ears:
Look, she lives so well without you.
She has forgotten you.
Nothing you do is worth it.
He pretended to be in great pain because he wanted the judge to see the effect, and he wanted the judge to punish him in this way so that he could see her and see how she lived every day.
The pressure on the God of Emotions is real, and the punishment he receives puts him on the brink of collapse every day.
Until I saw her that time, she seemed to have calmed down. She was living a good life and became a respected teacher. She smiled less often and never mentioned him to others again.
The God of Emotions wanted to use her to bring out the dark side of his heart and torture him. They all wanted him to see clearly that human emotions were the most unreliable.
But he noticed something that others didn't.
Her favorite color was pale pink, but now many things in the room have turned into his favorite silver. She wears the necklace he gave her around her neck, which she has worn for a long time. She especially likes spicy food, but he never eats spicy food, so later on, chili peppers never appeared on her table again.
Some of her subconscious actions became more and more like her, and he seemed to see his own shadow in her.
She never mentioned his name again, but all her actions seemed to say that she missed him very much.
The stars in my heart became bright again.
He thought he would live well and he would see her again.
He did not admit defeat, and later the Lord God was willing to give him one last chance.
This time they erased all his memories and arranged his identity to be opposite to hers.
But the Lord God Realm underestimated him. Although he didn't remember her, his heart began to beat violently the moment he saw her for the first time.
He liked him, although he didn't understand where this liking came from at that time.
He loved her closeness, her touch.
Even though they were on opposite sides, he still couldn't bear to hurt her in the slightest.
She was also very determined to recognize him and save him.
Later, their mission was successful and they left the game together.
He gave up his godhood and became human.
Other gods thought he was crazy, but only he knew how worthwhile everything he did was.
He held onto his star forever.
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