Princess Mingyue felt a little uncomfortable after hearing Long Junhai's words. She smiled and said, "Master, I still have a lot of questions I don't understand tonight. I hope you can help me solve them."
Long Junhai smiled and said, "Just speak up. I will tell you everything I know."
"That's good. I just want to ask, Master, do you feel lonely at night when you are alone?" Princess Mingyue asked very seriously.
Long Junhai was stunned for a moment, then thought for a moment and said, "If I were meditating and seeking enlightenment normally, I wouldn't have this feeling. Of course, sometimes if I don't meditate, I still have this feeling."
"Haha, if that's the case, then everything will be easy, because you really need someone to care about you, so that you can feel less lonely." Princess Mingyue said with a smile.
"Yes, having one more person does make me feel less lonely, but sometimes even if there is one more person, they may not understand my emptiness and loneliness!" Long Junhai said with a smile.
"Okay, I understand. But no matter what, Master has the thoughts of a mortal, not a pure one. So, I would like to stay in your room tonight. What do you think?" Princess Mingyue asked with a smile.
"This is definitely not possible. Men and women should not touch each other, and I am a monk, so this is definitely inappropriate." Long Junhai said with a smile.
"What's wrong with that? I've had a good impression of you since I first saw you, and after talking to you for a lot yesterday, I felt that you are not a pure person who is pessimistic about everything. I feel that you are a person of true temperament, and you do everything according to your heart. So I like you very much. You should know that I am the only one like you in this palace. I don't have any relatives, and when I came to the emperor's house, my relatives are not close to me, not to mention that I really have no relatives. But you, Master, give me the feeling of a real relative. I like you! This is my sincere words. I hope you can really accept me! I will also be devoted to you, at least when we are together, I will never leave you!" Princess Mingyue burst into tears as she spoke. She was really moved.
Long Junhai sighed, then said, "Princess, please don't think about these things. I came here because I felt that I was destined to be with you, and I am willing to help you with some things. Now that the emperor has agreed not to marry, you are free. Why don't you go find your own love?"
"No! Master is my love! Since I am already free, why can't I find someone like Master? I like Master, I love Master, why can't I have this kind of love?" Princess Mingyue asked back.
Long Junhai was silent for a moment. He really didn't know what to say because he really had nothing to say.
In addition, there are also some flames in Long Junhai's heart. These flames are mercilessly burning his heart and his soul, making him forget himself and unable to extricate himself.
This is the fire of love, three parts poison and seven parts love. It is hard to forget, hard to refuse, and very painful. People really don’t know how to accept or refuse it!
Long Junhai took a deep breath and said after a moment: "Princess Mingyue, you are a princess and I am a monk. This is simply not allowed by the secular world. Moreover, sometimes it is mutual affection. I only have friendship for you, princess, and no other feelings!"
"Am I deceiving myself, or is the Master deceiving himself? Many times, it's impossible for one person to explain things clearly. Why don't you just face your own heart? I feel I'm not wrong, and neither is the Master. As long as we face it, nothing is wrong. We haven't violated common sense, committed crimes, abandoned our wives, or done many things we shouldn't have done. Why has this kind of love become a burden? I really can't understand it, and I beg the Master to explain!"
Princess Mingyue asked the master to clear up her confusion again. Long Junhai was speechless because he was also confused. What Princess Mingyue had just said was really not wrong. If it was not wrong, why couldn't people accept it?
So what was the root of all these problems? Long Junhai didn't know, and he couldn't figure it out. Even though he had a soul that had existed for countless years, he was still confused at this moment and didn't know how to answer this question!
But many times it was so confusing and so difficult that Long Junhai felt that he was a little out of control. At this time, Princess Mingyue might have also felt the fire in Long Junhai's heart, so she no longer said anything and lay in Long Junhai's arms and cried for a long time until she fell asleep.
Being able to sleep soundly in the arms of your lover is a kind of happiness. Long Junhai is very calm at this moment, and the reason for his calmness is the other person's tears.
Women's tears are really a magical thing. Sometimes they can give people infinite strength, sometimes make people angry, sometimes make people pity, and sometimes make people despair. Now it makes Long Junhai very calm.
Long Junhai was calmer than ever before, a calmness that even frightened him. Within this calmness, he felt he would soon become a demon. What was a demon? A demon was a fire within one's heart, unable to burn itself, and ultimately only burning oneself!
Long Junwai looked cold on the outside, but his heart was already burning. He placed Princess Mingyue on the bed, then picked up his Zen staff and walked out of the room.
Sitting alone under the bright moon and chanting scriptures silently, Long Junhai felt that he was really guilty. His sin was not towards others, but towards himself.
Long Junhai never felt sorry for a woman before, because he had a clear conscience for everything he did. But now it was different. This situation made him feel a little ashamed. He felt that he was sorry for Mingyue, and even more sorry for himself. He couldn't correct his own heart.
Was it the robes that were suppressing me? Or was it the scriptures in my mind? Or was it the demons within me that were beyond control?
There is no self that cannot be controlled in this world. It’s only whether you are willing to control yourself.
So Long Junhai kept chanting for a very long time. He himself didn't know how long, nor how long it would last. He only thought in his heart that he could solve this matter as soon as possible, as soon as possible!
But my heart is getting more and more confused. This confusion is indescribable, and I don’t know how to describe it. I can only say that I have to endure my own suffering.
Long Junhai was unwilling in his heart, but what could he do? He could only digest it bit by bit, trying to calm himself down as much as possible.
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