The next morning, Long Junhai finally opened his eyes. Beside him was Princess Mingyue, who had fallen asleep at the head of his bed, looking very tired.
Long Junhai felt completely powerless. The reason for this was that his meridians were reversed and his muscles were disordered due to his inner demons, so it was very difficult for him to move at all.
In addition, Long Junhai's soul was also severely damaged. Although no one attacked him, his soul was extremely weak. One reason was that his soul was too strong. When he forcibly suppressed his inner demons, he was rejected by the laws of nature in this world and suffered great damage.
Secondly, after Long Junhai's own physical body had problems, his soul and body began to repel each other, so the damage to Long Junhai's physical body was secondary, and the main reason was still because of his soul.
Fortunately, Long Junhai's current strength is very weak and his body is not that strong. Even if his soul is weak now, there will be no danger to his life. If he wants to recover to his peak state, it will take some time, probably at least two or three years. This must be maintained with a large amount of medicine, otherwise the recovery speed will be even slower. After all, damage to the soul and damage to the body are completely different things.
Long Junhai did not wake up Princess Mingyue. His inner demons had dissipated a lot at this moment, but they had not disappeared completely. They were just hidden in a certain part of his body. Once he lost control of his emotions, they would take advantage of the opportunity and sneak in!
Long Junhai was now pondering what had driven him mad. Was it because he had suppressed his inner thoughts? What would have happened if he had accepted Princess Mingyue's words yesterday?
Long Junhai didn't quite understand, nor was he very clear about it, but since this situation had already occurred, he should calm down and think carefully about his response strategy, at least so that he wouldn't faint again when the next outbreak occurred!
Long Junhai thought about it for a long time, but he had no clue, because this matter was not something he could control. After all, many things came to his mind involuntarily, and he didn't know what he cared about and what he didn't care about.
Or maybe Long Junhai has some kind of psychological defect in his heart, because the general inner demons are actually a kind of mental illness that is infinitely magnified and then completely erupts.
It is precisely because of psychological defects that people are difficult to control. After all, a person’s biggest enemy is himself. Only he himself can overcome his own psychological defects, and no one else can help.
Although Long Junhai understood this truth, it was difficult for him to do such a thing. After all, he was who he was. Even if he knew his own mental flaws, he would not overcome them.
Long Junhai can face god-like enemies, but he cannot face his own heart. It is said that if you defeat yourself, you will be the most powerful person. Long Junhai can become that powerful person, but he cannot defeat himself. This sounds contradictory, but it is not actually contradictory.
Many times, a person's situation cannot be judged by rational analysis. This is the case with Long Junhai. Over the years, his character has basically not changed much. Even if he separated his dark side and sunny side back then, it was just his wishful thinking. In fact, he was just being a good person on the one hand and a bad guy on the other. In fact, there is never absolute good and absolute bad!
It is easy to change the country but difficult to change one's nature. This sentence is most appropriate for Long Junhai, but no matter how appropriate it is, it is useless. He cannot change, no matter what you say, he cannot change.
Long Junhai thought carefully about his own nature. He had been greedy, selfish, lustful, righteous, vicious, and unscrupulous from the very beginning. In short, there were more dark sides and fewer bright sides in his life.
This kind of character is something that is deeply rooted in the soul, and Long Junhai himself does not think it is wrong.
For example, in the past, when I encountered an enemy, I would choose to kill him, no matter if he was old, weak, sick or disabled, or of different genders, the enemy should be eliminated.
In the past, I never rejected any woman who came my way, but it was precisely because of the appearance of these women that a seed was planted in Long Junhai's heart, a seed of love.
Long Junhai has experienced the love of others, but he has not yet experienced loving others, because he is a person who loves himself more than others. Even if he is willing to risk his life for the woman and family around him, it is only because he regards the other person as his most precious thing. In the final analysis, it is for himself.
True love is not just about possession and taking, but also about letting go, escaping, blessing, etc.
When Long Junhai moved from a narrow emotion to a broad one, he felt conflicted and didn't know how to deal with it. He felt that if he was not selfish, he would not be like himself, but being selfish also seemed wrong, so he developed a demon in his heart.
Long Junhai's previous inner demon was a spirit that had been suppressed for so long that it needed to explode. The best way to solve it was to vent it physically, strangle it with force, and destroy everything. But now his inner demon has nowhere to be released. It is meaningless to let him kill as many enemies as possible, and no matter how beautiful a woman he finds for himself, it cannot eliminate his true inner needs.
It is not scary to have inner demons. What is scary is that this inner demon makes you too calm, too clear-headed, and knows too clearly what you want but cannot get. In order to cover up your inner dissatisfaction, you need to suppress it layer by layer, just like wrapping up explosives layer by layer. The tighter it is, the more dangerous it is!
The explosion of an ordinary inner demon is like the crisp sound of firecrackers, but Long Junhai’s current inner demon is like a super bomb!
It was a stroke of luck that Long Junhai was not killed by the inner demon’s outbreak yesterday. Who knows when the next outbreak will be.
Just as Long Junhai was pondering these questions, he suddenly heard a palace maid outside running over to report: "Princess! The twelfth captain of the assault battalion has arrived!"
Hearing this, Princess Mingyue regained consciousness. She waved her hand and said, "Let them wait outside. I'll see them later."
"Princess, help me up. I want to see what these twelve captains and generals look like." Long Junhai said with a smile.
"Master, you are awake. How do you feel about the current situation?" Princess Mingyue asked immediately after hearing Long Junhai's voice.
"I'm fine, let them all in." Long Junhai said.
"Don't be anxious. These twelve captains and generals are all disciples of the Jidao Sword Sect. They are usually very arrogant and look down on others. This time is a good opportunity to dampen their arrogance. Otherwise, it will be really difficult to discipline them in the future!" Princess Mingyue immediately reminded Long Junhai.
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