Some people's lives are very short, but as gorgeous as flowers; some people's lives are long, but as boring as chewing wax.
There is another kind of people who say they are facing the sea with spring flowers blooming, but they themselves are heading towards death. There is also another kind of people who complain about everything all day long, but still live like a piece of meat on a rolling pin.
Different people and different lives are their own choices. Whether they live well or badly, there is no turning back. The so-called traveling into the future or returning to the past is nothing but self-deception. Because is the past still the past? It is just the past of the future. When you step into the past, the past becomes your future, because the past is unchanging, and because it cannot be changed, it makes people yearn for it.
As for the future, it is something even more illusory and cannot be pursued. The so-called travel to the future is actually changing the present self. It is only by changing the present that there is a different future. The definition of the future is an unknown event that can never be obtained.
Or perhaps the definition of the past and the future is too narrow, which is why there is so much confusion, but whether it is a problem of definition or not is no longer important, because Long Junhai's cognition has returned to the starting point.
This origin is the present. No matter what others say about the past or the future, it has little impact on Long Junhai. What he can do is to change the present. The change now is to do whatever he wants, change everything, and be in control of everything. This is the ability he possesses, an ability that no one else can deprive him of.
Sometimes dark negative emotions such as irritability, panic, anger, depression, emptiness, loneliness, sadness, and numbness may cause a person to develop in the wrong direction, but it is normal for a person to have such emotions, because he or she must also have various bright positive energies such as sunshine, cheerfulness, liveliness, kindness, and self-confidence.
All great principles have the same origin. Long Junhai has achieved great enlightenment. The rest of his life will be to experience all the things he has never experienced in this perfect pure land. His nature is to like to challenge new things. No matter what the result is, he likes to do so. He also feels that this way he can have a perfect life.
Long Junhai has never thought about how a person should spend his life, because in his inner world, he feels that he is a selfish villain. However, he does not need to pretend or hide, and he does not care about what others say about all the grudges, good or bad.
Long Junhai also wanted to be a great man like Pavel Korchagin, with a will of steel, but unfortunately his ideological awareness was not up to the mark, because he could serve the people, but he could not serve despicable villains. He was not the kind of person who would not resist being oppressed. What he advocated deep in his heart was freedom.
Therefore, Long Junhai's outlook on life and world view may still be a bit narrow, but this is his nature. It is not easy to change, and he does not want to change. He feels that it is fine the way it is.
Time is actually the best proof. Long Junhai has experienced countless years of life, but the final result is that his character has not changed at all. This may be what people often say: it is difficult to change one's nature while it is easy to change the country.
In this so-called perfect pure land, it is actually like being locked in a huge cage. Sometimes when you don’t know how big the world is, you can’t feel the invisible restraint, but once you know how big the world is, it’s like being trapped in a small cage forever.
Long Junhai has experienced tens of thousands of years of tempering in the perfect pure land, and the edges of his body are still clear. If he were to be easily smoothed out by the world here, he would no longer be himself.
Long Junhai stood alone on the top of the mountain overlooking the earth and the sky. His inner world was calm. He felt that he had reached the end of his life and it was meaningless to go on, because endless life was an endless cage. There was nothing wrong with people chasing life and they should cherish life. After all, life is only once.
But for Long Junhai now, he has everything he should and shouldn't have. His life is regret-free and there is no need to pursue the limits of life anymore.
In fact, for Long Junhai now, isn’t letting go completely a different kind of life experience?
So Long Junhai released all his power and truly became an ordinary person, a mortal, who did not have any power to destroy the world. He was just so ordinary, lost his endless life, and would have his own birth, old age, sickness and death.
But this is not cruel to Long Junhai, but something he longs for very much. He has a feeling that the dust has settled after going through all the vicissitudes of life.
On this day, Long Junhai sat on the top of the mountain and watched the changes of the world. His eyes passed through countless cosmic skies and looked at the distant starry sky.
All the past experiences came to mind, including beautiful women, lovely smiling faces, people that Long Junhai liked, figures that he hated, and unforgettable and unintentionally missed things.
There is a cup of cold tea next to Long Junhai. Life is like tea. The rich aroma has been dispersed, leaving only the lingering fragrance, which makes people savor it in their hearts.
Long Junhai smiled at the white clouds in the sky, and the influences in his mind slowly disappeared. He packed up his teacup, poured the unfinished tea onto the road, and walked with heavy steps. His hunched back reminded people that he was no longer young, and now he only had less than thirty years left to live.
Now, Long Junhai likes the tranquility of every day, the noise of every moment, or the serenity of the sunset, because his life is about to end. This is a real life. Although the time is short, it has much more meaning than the long river of his previous life.
Leaving behind the mundane world and entering it again, you are still the same person as before, but what has changed is your heart, but what remains unchanged is also your heart. The contradiction and non-contradiction exist. After all, where does perfection come from in life?
Twenty years later, Long Junhai's climbing speed has slowed down a lot. He climbs the mountain at dawn every morning, reaches the top of the mountain for a short rest at noon, and comes down at night. He repeats this cycle over and over again, but the time consumed is getting longer and longer, and the time left is getting shorter and shorter.
The next morning, the sun was shining through the window onto Long Junhai's bed, but he had no intention of getting up. He was wrapped in a thick quilt, but still felt cold because he was sick. Elderly people become very vulnerable in the face of illness, and sometimes it can even be the last straw that breaks the camel's back.
It is a bit sad to live alone until the end of one's life, but Long Junhai had already let it go. He climbed out of the yard with difficulty and sat in a rocking chair to bask in the sun on the last day of his life.
The book is finished.
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