April 1, 20XX.
April Fool's Day, it is said that the jokes told on April Fool's Day are often the truth.
But I didn't even dare to say it in a joking tone.
This is the year I fell in love with him. I never knew it felt like this to like someone. I would pay attention to his joys and sorrows, and would ask about his preferences and get news about him.
Every day before going to bed, when I write in my diary, I will check my phone to see if there is any news about him on the forum.
When I saw him talking about the dangers he encountered outside, I was happy that he was safe, but I was also worried that he had encountered such a dangerous monster and I was not by his side when he was in danger.
But now that he's by my side, what can I do?
My strength is not as good as his, and I am not qualified to go out on missions with them.
X month X day, 20XX.
This is the fifth year that I have had a crush on him. I never thought that I would have a crush on someone for five years.
In the past five years, I have rarely had the opportunity to have much contact with him. He is either on a mission outside or helping to build Dawn City when he comes back. He is busy all day and is nowhere to be seen. I always tell myself not to worry, don't worry, what is mine will not run away. He is so busy, and in the end times, how can he have the mood to talk about love?
Everyone is busy surviving.
If it weren't for Dawn City, my life would be very difficult.
I tried to forget such a person, but the more I tried to forget him, the clearer his outline became. Maybe this is my fate.
Yes, it’s so hard to have a crush on someone.
When will he notice me?
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It's the seventh year.
There has not been any breakthrough between him and me. If there is any, it is that we spend more time together and meet each other. Does that count?
People say there is a seven-year itch, but why do I like him more and more?
How many seven years can a girl have? I am tired and sad, but I feel even sadder when I think about not liking him.
...
The tenth year.
He and I picked up an ordinary orange cat outside that had not mutated.
This is rare and precious.
Actually, I don’t like cats. I don’t like small animals like cats and dogs. But in order to have more opportunities to interact with him, I endured my lack of love and brought this orange cat back. I named the orange cat Qingqing, which sounds like Qingqing. I hope that one day I can call him by such a loving name.
My parents have been urging me to go on a blind date.
The life in the end of the world has ended, and my excuses are almost no longer valid. My parents are old, and they really want to see me get married and have children. They really want to hand me over to a man who loves me, but how can I say that I have liked a boy for ten years.
It took me a full ten years to go from being strangers to knowing each other, and then to being able to get along like friends.
I hate myself for not having the courage when it comes to feelings.
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Twelfth year.
I finally chose to confess my feelings to him.
It was not until this day that I realized that not everyone can be two-way, and not everyone can get what they want after being obsessed for a long time.
Didn’t he say being friends is bad?
Not good, not good at all.
I'm tired of just being friends.
Goodbye my twelve years.
I don't love you anymore.
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Shi Qinghe read the diary from beginning to end, and wiped away the tears that flowed uncontrollably from his face.
He was such a bastard, and he didn't realize it until later, allowing a girl to secretly love him for twelve years.
This diary records her heavy love.
And he actually enjoyed a girl's precious twelve years and consumed her love.
How could he be such a jerk?
How could he subconsciously laugh at himself for thinking the wrong thing every time he suspected whether Lu Yaoyao was interested in him? If he had been more confident in himself before, maybe she wouldn't have needed to express her feelings first, but him.
If he didn't like her, why would he still find time for Lu Yaoyao every time she came to see him even though he was very busy?
If he didn't like her, why would he share his affairs with Lu Yaoyao?
If he didn't like her, why would he subconsciously deny it and want to continue being friends when Lu Yaoyao expressed her feelings?
He was afraid, he was worried that there was no way they could get together.
But what's the point of worrying about all this? He denied himself without even trying.
He had been single for a long time and had never been in a relationship. When he heard that someone had liked him for many years, he suddenly panicked.
Shi Qinghe reached out and slapped himself.
Then Shi Qinghe stood up, picked up Qingqing who was still eating food, held the diary in one hand, and ran out.
He was going to Shangjing City to find her. He wanted to tell her that this time, he would be the one to love her.
Shi Qinghe didn't know where Lu Yaoyao's home was in Shangjing City.
It was only after he got out of the car that he realized that his cell phone was left at Lu Yaoyao's home in Shuguang City.
Fortunately, he kept his resident card in his pocket. He took a taxi to the service hall on the first ring road of Shangjing City. After a lot of effort, he finally found out Lu Yaoyao's home.
He looked at himself, who looked a little slovenly, and booked a hotel. He washed and dressed himself before going out to buy gifts.
Shi Qinghe was very glad that he had stored a lot of energy coins on his resident card, so that even if he forgot to bring his mobile phone, he could still buy things as he pleased.
"I want to go back now. Thank you for taking the time to go shopping with me today."
Shi Qinghe was just paying and picking up the gift she had just bought when she heard a familiar voice. She turned around and saw the beautifully dressed Lu Yaoyao.
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