64 Chapter 64
◎ "Yang Xueyi, I love you, I love you, I love you."◎
Yang Xueyi had the most peaceful sleep since coming to Africa.
It's like returning to some kind of warm package, but it's not soft enough.
Yang Xueyi woke up in a daze, only to find that it was because Ying Yun was holding her. The muscles of his forearms were stretched across his chest, as if he was afraid that Yang Xueyi would slip away in her sleep, and he subconsciously held her tightly.
As soon as Yang Xueyi moved slightly, Ying Yun opened his eyes alertly. After a moment, when he saw Yang Xueyi's face clearly, his gaze softened. He leaned over and kissed Yang Xueyi's cheek smoothly and naturally, as if he had rehearsed it in his mind thousands of times.
Just a good morning kiss.
Ying Yun also looks very innocent.
"Yang Xueyi, I still feel like I'm dreaming."
He stared at Yang Xueyi's face for a long time before he couldn't help but come over and kiss her cheeks and chin. His expression was a little shy, and his words were even more silly.
However, when Yang Xueyi saw the scratches on his arms and back, her face turned red quickly.
Had she pushed so hard last night?
Ying Yun's body was completely messed up by Yang Xueyi, but she, on the other hand, did not feel any uncomfortable sticky feeling from the sweat.
Last night, Yang Xueyi felt as if someone was wiping her clean while she was half asleep. She thought it was a dream, but now she realized that it was Ying Yun who had helped her clean it before going to bed, which allowed Yang Xueyi to sleep comfortably and soundly on the hot and humid night in Africa.
Yang Xueyi sat up and stretched, only to find that Ying Yun was still staring at her, which made her feel a little embarrassed. She wanted to crawl back into the quilt and cover her head.
Why have I never felt so awkward and nervous the day after an incident before?
It was obviously not the first time, but Yang Xueyi's heart was pounding like a drum. She didn't understand what was wrong with her. She just felt a rare shyness and clumsiness.
Fortunately, Ying Yun was not much worse off. Although he pretended to be calmer, he actually did not look much better than Yang Xueyi.
Although he didn't sleep much, his face looked bright and he looked energetic.
"Is it really okay to sleep so little?" Yang Xueyi was a little worried. "You must have stayed up late for surgery before."
"It doesn't matter."
Ying Yun glanced at Yang Xueyi and said, "Haven't you heard of this? People feel refreshed when they're happy. In ancient times, people would get married to ward off evil when they were about to die. And then everything would be fine. After all, it's hard not to feel refreshed when it comes to this kind of thing."
Yang Xueyi: "..."
Fortunately, the rescue has come to an end, so even if Yang Xueyi is a little lazy today, it won’t affect anything.
Tomorrow, the rescue team that Ying Yun is in will evacuate, and all the colleagues stationed here by Duan Fang Biology will also evacuate together - all of them will be sent back to China on a chartered flight funded by Duan Fang Biology.
Because the earthquake destroyed the staff dormitories, for everyone's safety, all subsequent work will be temporarily carried out remotely. Duanfang Bio will also temporarily build a new base in a nearby city. If necessary, Yang Xueyi will fly to Africa alone to handle the new drug launch. After the reconstruction of the earthquake-stricken areas is completed, the team will be stationed back.
"Is chartering a plane your request to Mr. Jiang?"
In fact, Yang Xueyi still had a lot of questions, but she was so lustful last night that she didn't have time to ask.
So he immediately started to question me: "Why didn't you tell me anything before? Is it so great to be Jiang Yi's only son? Will you be able to drive a Rolls-Royce in the future? I've never been in a Rolls-Royce!"
"Yang Xueyi." Ying Yun's expression turned helpless, as if he had no way to deal with Yang Xueyi. "I don't think this is a big deal."
"Besides, it really won't have much impact on me."
Ying Yun prepared some simple ingredients for breakfast for Yang Xueyi while briefly explaining the whole story between him and Jiang Yi. He lowered his eyes and explained, "I didn't accept his shares or properties. I just agreed to appear as his son. I also discussed with the PR team not to show my face."
He glanced at Yang Xueyi and said, "I don't want to be overly scrutinized by the media because of this identity. I don't want my private life to be exposed to the public eye. I really hate it. I like to live a life with boundaries."
This was expected and was in line with Ying Yun's personality.
It sounds regrettable to reject her father who owns a listed group, but Yang Xueyi actually feels secretly happy in her heart.
If Ying Yun had not accepted Jiang Yi's assets, he would still be an ordinary orthopedic surgeon Ying Yun, and there would not be such a huge gap between him and Yang Xueyi.
If you can’t ride in a Rolls-Royce, then don’t ride it. Yang Xueyi didn’t think so.
What's more, after Yang Xueyi joined the company, she heard a lot of rumors about Jiang Yi's dominance. If Ying Yun really returned to his roots, Jiang Yi might not agree that Ying Yun and Yang Xueyi would be together.
Aren't wealthy families full of arranged marriages? Ying Yun looks like a decent man, what if he gets married off?
That won’t do!
However, Yang Xueyi still couldn't help but criticize Ying Yun.
She sighed seriously, "Ying Yun, can't you just let me live a good life?"
"When you were the only son of the chairman of Yuanyang Freight, you didn't stay with me. Now that you have finally become the 'crown prince' of Duanfang Biology, you refuse to ascend the throne again."
"Am I destined to be poor?" Yang Xueyi blinked, feeling a bit regretful. "Why didn't you let me squander my money when you had it?"
"If you hadn't heard me saying bad things about you on your birthday, wouldn't we have gotten together long ago? We could have enjoyed two more years of your wealth! Even if I had asked you for a little more money back then, I would have been rich long ago! It's all your fault!"
However, Ying Yun was not very optimistic about this assumption. He calmly reminded Yang Xueyi: "Given your dislike for me at that time, I think if I confessed to you without caring about anything, you would probably still reject me, and then you would be arrogant and laugh at me every day. I probably won't get rich."
"..." I have to admit that Ying Yun really understands Yang Xueyi. Yang Xueyi really wants to scold him, but she really can't refute him.
"Yang Xueyi, I know you don't care about money that much, otherwise you wouldn't be so good to me after my family was in trouble." Ying Yun lowered his eyes. "It was then that I realized you would be good to me, but you just wanted me to be a little miserable."
He reached out and touched Yang Xueyi's face: "If I had known you were like this earlier, I would have been miserable sooner."
Yang Xueyi's face flushed again, and she turned her head away awkwardly, trying to hide her feelings. "Ying Yun, what nonsense are you talking about!"
She looked away, calmed down a little, and then stared at Ying Yun again. She couldn't help but reveal a pointing expression on his face: "Anyway, since you liked me so early, even if you didn't confess on my birthday, what happened later? Why didn't you confess earlier and be with me?"
"If it's true love, shouldn't you still love me so much even if you hear me cursing you behind your back, and then shamelessly continue pursuing me?"
Yang Xueyi didn't realize it at first, but as she spoke, she suddenly got into the role and glared at Ying Yun angrily.
"You should at least let me live like a rich young lady while you still have money, using your secondary card to spend lavishly."
Although Ying Yun confessed his feelings, Yang Xueyi always felt that there was still a lot she didn't understand, and couldn't help but secretly observe Ying Yun.
Yang Xueyi has already decided that if Ying Yun dares to laugh at her for loving money too much, Yang Xueyi will scold him to death.
If he was just silent and a little angry, Yang Xueyi would coax him.
However, Ying Yun did not make any of the choices Yang Xueyi had predicted. He just glanced at Yang Xueyi calmly, not angry at all. Instead, he smiled faintly: "Yang Xueyi, I can't tell that you are still dreaming of being a young mistress."
"Is dreaming illegal?"
"And don't you always slander me? You targeted me in Hokkaido, kicked me out of the church, and left me standing in the cold wind. It was my birthday."
"And yet, when I was wishing for wealth under the fireworks, you mocked me, saying that being with a man is considered a career? I was seeking revenge against your uncle and Li Junxin, but you misunderstood me as someone who wanted to marry into a wealthy family. If you like me, why don't you let me be with you? It's only natural that you can't get me!"
Yang Xueyi had forgotten about this matter, but now that she thought about it, she couldn't help but bring up the past like a troll.
However, despite being questioned and accused by Yang Xueyi one after another, Ying Yun remained calm.
He had just been soaking something in hot water behind Yang Xueyi's back. He turned around at this moment and pushed the thing in front of Yang Xueyi.
It’s a bucket of instant noodles!
Ying Yun lifted a corner, and the smell of braised beef instant noodles came to him without hesitation with the rising mist, accurately focusing Yang Xueyi's sense of smell, making her speechless.
Supplies were limited after the earthquake, and Yang Xueyi had been eating almost nothing but compressed biscuits, instant curry, and canned food for the past few days. Now, seeing this instant noodles, she almost burst into tears.
"I brought it for you."
Ying Yun's voice was a little low: "Don't you like eating instant noodles?"
"I rushed here in a hurry. I just wanted to be by your side as soon as possible. I didn't think much about anything else. I also had a luggage quota, so I only brought one bucket."
"If you hadn't come to see me, I would have left the instant noodles at the door of your room sometime."
"I thought you didn't want to see me before, and there were too many patients here due to the earthquake, so I restrained myself from disturbing you."
Ying Yun's explanation was actually very concise, and his tone was calm, without any accusations or seeking credit.
Yang Xueyi was stunned for a moment, but her heart started beating heavily again.
It turns out Ying Yun remembered.
Yang Xueyi's arrogance of finding fault and blaming others just now suddenly subsided. In the aroma of the hot instant noodles, she lowered her head, without looking at Ying Yun, and started eating the instant noodles.
No matter how delicious the delicacies are, she still likes the simple and not very healthy instant noodles.
"Maybe wild boars can't eat fine bran. Anyway, I don't like steak or fancy restaurants. I just like junk food like instant noodles and fried chicken."
"It's okay if you're not the only son of Yuanyang Freight and don't inherit Jiang Yi's money. After all, an orthopedic surgeon's income can buy me instant noodles and fried chicken."
"I don't eat much. If you don't have money, I'll eat even less. Anyway, I won't get fat if I eat less, and I can stay in shape without going to the gym."
"Besides, I've changed jobs and got a promotion and a raise. Is there anyone who doesn't know that I make a million dollars a year?"
"If you ever lose your job, I, a successful person, will be there to back you up."
Ying Yun obviously didn't expect Yang Xueyi to say this.
"Yang Xueyi."
He just looked at Yang Xueyi and called her name softly.
"Now you can be a young lady."
"You can eat whatever you want in the future. Eating steak and Western food is no better than eating instant noodles."
"I'll give you my salary card."
In fact, Yang Xueyi did not have a strong desire for material things. The fact that Ying Yun said he would give her the salary card was like a huge dream bubble. A week ago, if someone told her that Ying Yun would say such a thing to her one day, Yang Xueyi might think that the other person had some problems with his brain.
She glanced at Ying Yun and said, "It doesn't matter whether you become a young lady or not. What matters is who you are with."
It was obvious that Ying Yun didn't like the taste of instant noodles, but he still moved closer to Yang Xueyi and kissed her on the cheek. He pursed his lips and smiled faintly: "It's still possible. I'll be your companion."
He glanced at Yang Xueyi and paused, as if choosing his words: "Actually, I lied to you about one thing."
"I'm not as difficult as you think."
"My mother has her own businesses and investments. She was already pregnant when she met Ying Wenjun and she didn't cheat on him. So even though they're divorced, it's not as outrageous as the outside world is saying. Ying Wenjun was the one at fault for the infidelity and compensated my mother in the division of property. He and I haven't broken up as the outside world is saying. We still keep in touch during holidays."
Yang Xueyi was a little slow to react: "Then you were..."
Ying Yun looked away, his voice a little unnatural: "You said at the time that the neighborhood was unsafe and there were stalkers. I had originally planned to move out, but I was worried that it would be unsafe for you to live alone."
"After I settled down, I wanted to continue living with you."
"I've discovered that you're very sympathetic to the weak. You thought I was miserable, but unlike others, you didn't kick me when I was down. Instead, you helped me when I was in trouble. You've been really good to me. I originally thought that there was no hope for me in the past ten years, but I just don't give up easily. But seeing how you treated me, I didn't want to let go even more. So I finally decided to lie to you and didn't clarify your misunderstanding. I just let it go and stayed with you like this."
"I know I shouldn't have lied to you, but I've never regretted it." Ying Yun's tone was without a trace of hesitation. "Yang Xueyi, if I hadn't lied to you, there wouldn't have been any chance later. You wouldn't have thought of me when you couldn't sleep."
When talking about insomnia, Yang Xueyi became a little angry and embarrassed. She lowered her voice and said, "If you weren't by my side, I wouldn't look for someone else if I had insomnia!"
"Because that person was you, I didn't explain, didn't push you away, and that's why I maintained this relationship with you. But I still have an excuse to treat my insomnia. Since you also like me, and I use you as a treatment for sleeping with you, don't you have any self-respect? Why didn't you protest earlier?"
Yang Xueyi bit her lip and said, "I don't like anyone else. The person I like is you."
Ying Yun raised his eyes, and for the first time, he couldn't hide some resentment in his tone: "Then why don't you block me from the entire internet?"
"You were so stubborn, pretending you didn't really like me. It just so happened that An Xin came back at that time, and I heard from Yu Shiqianqian that you had someone you'd liked for years, and you wanted to sort out some relationships before confessing your feelings. So, doesn't that mean you're ready to sort out your relationship with me and officially start a relationship?"
"No matter how much I like you, after hearing this, I will of course choose to say goodbye to you."
"Besides, I just happened to get an offer from Duanfang Biology right then. Isn't making money good? When I'm making a million dollars a year, I'm this beautiful, and I have a great personality. I'll be able to find any man I want."
Ying Yun learned the truth for the first time. After a pause, he was speechless: "So Yu Shi drank with me and said he understood me, but then turned around and sold me out?"
"Yang Xueyi, the relationship I'm going to clarify is with Jiang Yi. I'm also going to have to confess to you even though I've lied to you and created such a difficult situation. This is giving me a headache because I'm so afraid of losing you. After all, you have such a bad temper and you're always going to block us and never have anything to do with us. The person I want to confess to is you. Is there anything else I'm not clear about?"
He seemed a little helpless: "Why don't I like you? I have always only liked you."
"When did I not look for you the first time after returning from the hospital?"
Yang Xueyi thought about it and said impartially, "Do you mean asking me questions right away?"
As long as Yang Xueyi is in the villa, Ying Yun will always have endless things to find when he gets home from get off work.
Sometimes he couldn't find his professional books, sometimes he couldn't find his notebook. Every time he would take advantage of Yang Xueyi's mother going out to buy groceries and remember to look for these things. If he couldn't find them, he would come to ask Yang Xueyi.
In the past, Yang Xueyi was too lazy to pay attention to Ying Yun and never gave him a good face. When she was in a bad mood, she couldn't help but make sarcastic remarks to Ying Yun - he was three years older than her, his memory had begun to decline, and his brain was not as sharp as before.
But even so, Ying Yun would come to ask every time.
Yang Xueyi used to think that Ying Yun was just looking for trouble and asking for scolding because he had nothing to do after eating, but now she realized that—
"Are you childish, Ying Yun?"
Ying Yun was a little embarrassed. "I don't know what to say to you, but I'm unwilling to say nothing. You were already living in the staff dormitory most of the time at that time, and you didn't have many opportunities to come back to the villa."
"So even though I know you'll scold me every time I look for you, I still can't help it." At this point, he glanced at Yang Xueyi, "You don't need to tell me, I know you're a bit mean."
Good to know.
"My memory isn't as bad as you think. I always know where things are. I just run out of things to talk about." Ying Yun explained in a low voice, a little uncomfortably, as if he was very concerned about his age. "I'm not that old even though I'm three years older than you. I'm pretty good in every way. Don't misunderstand me."
Yang Xueyi thought of someone's energetic performance last night. She almost wanted to roll her eyes. How could she have misunderstood? "Our Doctor Ying is in his prime, and last night he was like he had taken some medicine..."
"I'm not taking any medicine." Ying Yun interrupted Yang Xueyi helplessly. He only glanced at Yang Xueyi, then leaned over and kissed her face without much confidence. "It's just that I'm finally confirming our relationship, and I'm quite excited. I don't need to take any medicine yet. You should know this best."
Thinking of every night in the past, Yang Xueyi's face turned a little red. Of course, Ying Yun didn't need to take medicine. If he still took medicine, Yang Xueyi couldn't imagine what she would do to him.
Last night, Yang Xueyi couldn't stand it anymore, so she leaned on Ying Yun's shoulder and bit him. As a result, Ying Yun just groaned, and didn't stop at all. He even became more violent and stronger.
As a result, this man has now learned to turn the tables.
He seemed to not want to refute, but in the end he couldn't help it——
"Yang Xueyi, I haven't dared to confess my feelings for ten years. I admit that I was wrong, but it's not my fault alone. I didn't realize that you liked me, but you were very active in scolding me. If there was a competition to mock me, you would definitely win first place."
"You've never been so proactive in inviting me to dinner, but you've been incredibly active in inviting Zhong Tian to dinner. You even told Aunt Yang that you were planning to develop a relationship with him. I've never felt that I like you, but you've been so quick to sense Zhong Tian's affection for you even though we've only known each other for a short time."
"If I hadn't mediated and persuaded Aunt Yang to stop it rationally, you and Zhong Tian would have really become a couple."
Yang Xueyi realized it later. She remembered Ying Yun's words of praise for Zhong Tian, and finally realized Ying Yun's hidden ambition at that time.
He wasn't praising Zhong Tian, he was clearly clearing the minefields! He wanted to point out all the minefields in Zhong Tian to Ms. Yang Meiying one by one!
Ying Yun glanced at Yang Xueyi with a cold expression, his tone filled with accusations of injustice: "You even misled me into collecting abalone. I worked so hard collecting it, but in the end, not only did you not invite me to dinner, you kicked me out and only gave me one abalone. Yang Xueyi, I collected it for you for so long, and you only gave me one. The rest were left to Zhong Tian."
Yang Xueyi: "..."
Ying Yun has a really good memory.
However, if they bring up old grudges, he is definitely no match for Yang Xueyi.
"Ying Yun, are you embarrassed to say that to me?"
"Before, when I was afraid of the dark, I leaned towards you, and you pushed me away. Last time in the nanny's room, you kicked me out and hid in my room, I don't know what to do. You also deliberately bought pink couple clothes that were not on sale to ruin my romantic prospects. Tell me what good things you have done? Do you think I should praise you?"
When Yang Xueyi recalled these things, she became excited. She pushed Ying Yun and said, "Tell me, why did you push me away? You didn't give me any face and drove me away."
She wanted to scold Ying Yun, but her hand was quickly caught by Ying Yun.
"Yang Xueyi."
Ying Yun called her name softly: "Do you really want to know why I pushed you away at that time?"
"Hmm!" Yang Xueyi wanted to see what kind of sophistry and excuses Ying Yun could come up with. Would it be reasonable for him to push her away?
"When the power went out, you suddenly hugged me and pressed your chest against my arm."
Ying Yun looked a bit confused. "Yang Xueyi, I don't know if you really thought I was a mop back then, but unfortunately, a mop is just your perception. The truth is, I'm not. I'm a very normal male going through puberty."
"I can be very sensitive, you know?"
Ying Yun spoke very restrainedly, but Yang Xueyi understood.
When the power went out, she was just scared and didn't think too much about avoiding suspicion or keeping distance.
And just when she was completely terrified of the darkness, Ying Yunzheng reacted and became distracted...
Men and women really can't empathize...
As if he already knew what Yang Xueyi was thinking, Ying Yun was a little helpless: "I originally liked you and wanted to give you a birthday present and a love letter to express my feelings, but then I heard that you hated me. It was already humiliating enough. Then you approached me unintentionally, and I still did this. Anyone would feel self-loathing and irritable, but it was my fault for speaking without thinking at that time."
So he got angry and embarrassed and his first reaction was to push Yang Xueyi away.
"Is this also the reason why you kicked me out of the nanny's room that time?"
So, not wanting Yang Xueyi to notice, he could only angrily drive Yang Xueyi out of the room again, and then after calming down, he pretended to walk out with a cold and arrogant look on his face again?
"Um."
Ying Yunbie started off by admitting it reluctantly.
But he turned the tables and reiterated, "Yang Xueyi, that's a normal reaction. You should keep your distance from me."
Yang Xueyi didn't need to ask about the discounted couple's clothes because she already knew the answer.
It was all done intentionally by Ying Yun.
Looking at his bright and clear appearance, this person is actually very scheming.
Thinking back on the past now, Yang Xueyi felt a little amused and helpless.
Now that I think about it, it was all a misunderstanding.
Ying Yun's first love was Yang Xueyi.
Yang Xueyi was the one who made him so distressed that he drank alone and even lost his composure after drinking and confided in Yu Shi.
This is the first love that he couldn't give up even after ten years.
For ten years, Yang Xueyi believed from her own perspective that Ying Yun could not possibly like her. However, she did not know that from Ying Yun's perspective, the story was completely different.
She felt a little regretful: "Then, if we hadn't developed this illicit relationship in the beginning, wouldn't we have avoided a lot of detours? Would we have been together a long time ago? Ying Yun, do you regret it?"
"I regret it." Ying Yun thought for a moment, "I shouldn't have cared about Yu Shi's life or death when he was drunk in the bar after a breakup."
He paused and added impartially, "Or maybe just break up with him sooner rather than later and solve the problem at the source."
"If it weren't for him, would you have misunderstood that I was trying to sort out my relationship with you and pursue my first love? If he and Qiao Qianqian hadn't said all this nonsense, you wouldn't have blocked me and cut off all contact with me, and you wouldn't have run to Africa alone and suffered an earthquake."
But as if remembering something, Ying Yun sighed again: "Forget it, Yu Shi might not have meant it. He still cares about me and taught me a lot of methods, although none of them worked."
"What did he teach you?"
Ying Yun was a little embarrassed, but he finally said it.
After he finished speaking, perhaps noticing Yang Xueyi's strange expression, he couldn't help but add, "But you and Qiao Qianqian may have completely different personalities, so his 'disconnection' plan won't work on you at all. On the contrary, it has the opposite effect. You don't even want to pay attention to me anymore. But it unexpectedly worked for Qiao Qianqian."
Ying Yun is usually such a calm, rational and steady person. It is hard for Yang Xueyi to imagine how confused and worried he was about this relationship at that time. He was like a desperate drowning man floating in the ocean. He couldn't wait to get on any piece of driftwood he saw and was so foolish as to believe Yu Shi's lies.
Seeing Ying Yun still looking grateful to Shi, Yang Xueyi struggled again and again, and hesitated many times to speak, but she couldn't help but tell Ying Yun the cruel truth.
Although Ying Yun was taught to cut off contact, to be a self-respecting hero, and not to give in, when it came to Yu Shi himself, he slid down to Qiao Qianqian very smoothly...
He talks a lot about ideology, but his mind is full of other things...
As expected, after hearing this, Ying Yun's face turned dark and he remained silent for several minutes, which was unusual.
After a moment, he spoke again, enunciating each word.
"I made the wrong choice of friends. I poisoned Yu Shi and made him mute upon returning to China."
Yang Xueyi couldn't help but burst out laughing.
Is this a real problem?
This is Ying Yun's own problem, okay? Or is it because he's too obsessed with face that he's suffering? Pretending to be stubborn brings retribution!
Thinking of this, Yang Xueyi felt a little unhappy again, blaming Ying Yun for not taking action earlier: "Come to think of it, we have never dated before!"
However, Ying Yun didn't seem to have much regrets about this: "We've been on a date."
?
"It's a garden party." He looked away, feeling a little uncomfortable being stared at by Yang Xueyi, but he still said, "It's a date."
"At least in my heart. And when I took you to the amusement park before, that counts too."
Yang Xueyi was speechless: "What about other things? Shouldn't couples explore the world hand in hand? Go see new movies, eat at new restaurants, go shopping..."
“Also explored.”
Ying Yun's expression became somewhat subtle. Although his voice was steady, his face and ears were slightly red. "At least in some areas, the exploration is quite thorough."
Yang Xueyi understood almost instantly, and her face turned red quickly. She wanted to scold Ying Yun, but looking at his handsome and calm profile, she finally held back.
"Yang Xueyi, I didn't dare to show that I liked you because you seemed to only want a man who would maintain a physical relationship but definitely not be entangled."
"Of course, this kind of relationship with you is not what I want. I want to start a more traditional, long-term relationship with you that is recognized by mainstream social values."
Ying Yun's voice was low but clear: "I know I like you secretly. In order to stay by your side, I don't hesitate to treat my body as a cheap commodity that can be given away at any time. It's really undignified to say this. But Yang Xueyi, have you heard it?"
"'When the door you long for opens to you, you don't ask why.'" Ying Yun gently touched Yang Xueyi's lips. "Yang Xueyi, when you asked me if I wanted to continue that relationship with you, I couldn't think straight. I couldn't tell if such a relationship was too frivolous, or if it would have a negative impact on my future with you. I just felt my heart beating faster, and I knew the door was open."
"So I ran and rushed through the door before it closed, without even thinking about what was inside."
"Because all the opportunities given by fate are fleeting."
"You opened the door to me and told me that only one person could come in through it. So I lost my mind and became blindly impulsive because I wanted to be the only one who could come in before the door closed."
"So when you mentioned wanting to find someone to treat your insomnia, I didn't think much of it."
"I struggled with it later and thought about ending it, but in the end I just gritted my teeth and continued."
Ying Yun lowered his eyes: "Firstly, I really don't have much determination for you, and secondly, if you must find a man, then I think it might as well be me."
"I hid my true feelings because I was afraid that if you discovered my feelings, you would ruthlessly block me."
Speaking of this, Ying Yun hesitated for a moment, but finally said, "Besides, you've blocked me many times before, and you're still blocking me now."
"..." Yang Xueyi was speechless. How could a man hold a grudge like this!
Ying Yun's accusation was silent. He just looked at Yang Xueyi with his eyes, as if he was reluctant to say a word of blame to Yang Xueyi. But compared to questioning her fiercely, Yang Xueyi seemed to be more receptive to Ying Yun's current approach.
Or maybe it wasn't what he wanted because the other person was Ying Yun.
She didn't want Ying Yun to feel wronged.
She never imagined that Ying Yun would confess his feelings to her like this.
It's clearly plain language, without any corny lines, and the tone is calm, as if it's just a straightforward description.
However, Ying Yun's words were like butter and jam spread on bread, full of fragrance and sweetness. It was the simplest bread accompaniment. In today's bakeries with a variety of styles, there were no fancy gimmicks. The plain and old-fashioned ones seemed to be eliminated. However, they were the enduring classics in Yang Xueyi's heart, which still made her moved and shy.
"Okay, okay, okay." Yang Xueyi finished the instant noodles. Not wanting Ying Yun to see her blushing, she just lowered her head, took out her cell phone, and removed him from the blacklist in front of Ying Yun.
But I couldn't help but excuse myself: "It's not like I've blocked only you. There are so many men I've blocked. You're not alone."
"What did they do? Harass you?" Ying Yun leaned over, as if he really wanted to conduct a large-scale due diligence investigation on the people on Yang Xueyi's blacklist.
"That's about right."
Upon hearing this, Ying Yun became unhappy. He pursed his lips tightly, and the corners of his lips turned down slightly: "Yang Xueyi, you put me together with these people who harassed you. Am I really that bad?"
In the past, when Yang Xueyi didn't express her feelings to him, Ying Yun was obviously very tolerant. But now, once he knows Yang Xueyi's feelings for him, Ying Yun starts to fight and compete for her.
Do I have to group them after I block them?!
"They were just harassing me. I'll be fine if I block them. What about you? You're even worse!"
Fortunately, Yang Xueyi was quite talented at distancing herself from responsibility and blaming others: "Ying Yun, you were lying to me from the beginning! You pretended to be poor, and then took advantage of my sympathy!"
Of course, looking back now, Yang Xueyi realized that there were clues all along.
What lack of money, what persecution...
No wonder Ying Yun was so calm at that time. Yang Xueyi thought he was numb from the huge blow.
He should never have been short of money! The clown was actually Yang Xueyi herself!
"You were going to contact Lawyer Wu back then, weren't you? Even if I didn't lend you 60,000 yuan, you could definitely cover the legal fees and compensate your colleagues in the department for their lost bonuses, right?"
"You're not so short of money that you need to take wedding photos with me, right?"
…
Yang Xue said angrily, "Okay, Ying Yun, I now realize that you have low moral standards and questionable character. Thinking back, you've lied to me so many times that I feel like you're not trustworthy anymore!"
Ying Yun seemed a little helpless: "Yang Xueyi, I haven't been lying to you all the time."
Yang Xueyi didn't know what was going on. It was possible that there was indeed a bad background in Geri. He used to like to quarrel with Ying Yun and make trouble. This bad habit seemed to continue to this day. Even after dating Ying Yun, he still couldn't change this bad habit. When he saw Ying Yun being forced into a helpless situation by her, a kind of bad joy rose in his heart.
Ying Yun, who is usually cold and seems not to care about anything, seems to have such drastic mood swings only when he meets her, and is no longer at ease.
Yang Xueyi showed a serious expression that showed she would not let you fool her this time. She knocked on the simple table in the board room and said, "Now I'm giving you a chance to tell the truth. How else have you lied to me?"
"Yang Xueyi."
Ying Yun called Yang Xueyi's name again in a low voice.
He looked away and lowered his eyes to the ground: "Can you not say it?"
"Can't!"
"Then I told you not to bring up the past."
Yang Xueyi thought about it and said, "Okay."
Ying Yun paused, his expression becoming a little embarrassed: "Let me think about it and start from the beginning."
Still starting from the beginning?
Yang Xueyi was a little surprised. Could it be that Ying Yun had really lied to her a lot?
We definitely can't let him get away with it so easily!
But for some reason, Yang Xueyi couldn't help herself. She grabbed Ying Yun's collar, tilted her head and kissed his chin: "Tell me everything one by one. Be honest!"
“Not a lot, actually.”
"I've been sarcastic and mocking you about Li Junxin, but I'm actually more worried that you'll be deceived. Li Junxin has always had a bad reputation among our relatives. He's especially casual and irresponsible in relationships between men and women, but he's also very good at coaxing people and is very passionate when pursuing them. I'm worried that you'll be deceived."
"It's always hard for me to be rational and fair to you. Maybe it's because I find it hard to accept failure. I know you don't like me, so I'm childish and stupid and always try to think the worst of you. This is to warn myself to stay away from you and not be fooled again."
"You know what happened next. After I realized it was a misunderstanding, I actually sent you a message to apologize, but you blocked me. So, it wasn't until the garden party that I found an opportunity to apologize to you in person for the misunderstanding."
Yang Xueyi wrinkled her nose. "You deserve to be blocked! Who told you to be so annoying back then?"
"But how could I be fooled by him! He's not good-looking! How could my taste be that bad!"
This is slander!
"Ying Yun, I look at your face every day. Could it be that after eating too much clean food in five-star hotels, one day I'd become desperate and resort to eating at a street stall selling gutter oil? If you don't have confidence in me, you should at least have some confidence in yourself."
Ying Yun's face was a little helpless again: "Yang Xueyi."
He lowered his eyes: "I have never had confidence in you."
"I know, I know." Yang Xueyi was a little embarrassed. This was the first time she was completely in the upper hand in her relationship with Ying Yun. She was also a little shy and unaccustomed to it. She just waved her hand compassionately, "I won't interrupt you, Doctor Ying. Please continue your speech."
Ying Yun couldn't help but laugh, as if he couldn't control himself, like a little boy who just got his favorite toy and couldn't bear to unwrap it, just stroking it back and forth. He stretched out his finger and poked Yang Xueyi's dimple like a dog and a cat. "I didn't know at the time. I thought you were easy to be deceived. In fact, I was overly worried about you."
"But the way I used it was wrong, and the words I said were unpleasant to hear. It seems like I always become rude and harsh to you."
"I kicked you out of the church because I heard that the drink Li Junxin was about to give you was mixed with a lot of alcohol. He must be planning to get you drunk and then attack you."
"I didn't know how to explain it to you, and I didn't think you would listen to me. I couldn't think of a better solution, so I kicked you out once and for all."
No wonder he not only kicked me out, but also kept the glass of wine from me...
Ying Yun lowered his head. "I regretted it after I kicked you out. I brought hot cocoa and wanted to find you. I wanted to explain the reason to you and give you my coat, but I found out Qiao Qianqian had already brought you food. You're still scolding me like crazy, saying I'm mean and mean. I'm actually ugly according to your aesthetic standards, and I have bad character and low quality. It would be best if I fell down in the snowy Hokkaido and broke my bones, and I can't be humane from now on."
"After making such a precious birthday wish, you still generously gave me one and wished me bad luck."
Yang Xueyi scolded Ying Yun so much that she couldn't even remember what she scolded him for. However, being kicked out of the church by Ying Yun was like being slapped in the face in public, so it was normal for her to scold him in anger.
What Ying Yun said sounded like something she would curse, and her curse that Ying Yun would break his bones and never stand up again sounded very much like her vicious train of thought. Therefore, she rarely made excuses and felt guilty for a few seconds.
However, if it were in the past, Yang Xueyi would find it hard to imagine that the same thing could be interpreted in completely opposite ways from different perspectives.
These details that had previously made Yang Xueyi grit her teeth and curse Ying Yun to death behind his back, in the end, turned out to be proof that Ying Yun cared about her to death, even though the way he expressed it was really distorted.
The couple outfits at the garden party were because they didn't want to see a constant stream of men coming to chat up Yang Xueyi.
After having sex with Yang Xueyi for the first time, he ordered flowers and thought about confessing his feelings, but before he could say anything, Yang Xueyi interrupted him.
Because he was afraid that if he confessed his feelings, even getting close to Yang Xueyi would become a luxury, so he didn't say another word.
He pretended to be broke and took a part-time job with Yang Xueyi to take wedding photos simply because he didn't want Yang Xueyi to take photos with others.
As for not introducing Yang Xueyi to her original friends, lying to them and saying that she had lost contact with Yang Xueyi, it was simply because -
"You look like this, and they're not blind. If they get to know you more, they'll definitely pursue you."
Ying Yun's voice was low, as if he still cared about it. "I know I'm being selfish, but I don't want you to be with someone else. You can't hold me to the same standards as a saint, right? Who would create a competitor for themselves? I'm not crazy."
"Besides, if you can be with someone else, why can't it be me."
Lying is like Ying Yun's exquisite brand-name coat, which makes him look decent and upright after putting it on. The bright colors of the clothes cover up his jealousy, possessiveness and the love that he doesn't know how to express secretly.
One thing after another, Ying Yun's expression was calm, but Yang Xueyi felt as if her breathing had slowed down and her nose had become sore. The emotions she had felt for Ying Yun for so many years, both caring about him and pretending to be strong, and both hating and liking him, turned into a heart full of throbbing and bitterness, surging like a tidal wave.
"So it was you who beat Li Junxin? You were the one who made him go abroad, right? You even told me to make a wish and it might work. I almost believed it myself. I even secretly bought lottery tickets for several days, but I didn't win a single one! Ying Yun, you should compensate me!"
Ying Yun didn't say anything, as if he didn't want to admit it. He glanced at Yang Xueyi for a moment, then said in a deep voice, "You can make a wish to me in the future."
"Then I made other wishes but they didn't come true! I also hope that you will see that I helped you in your time of need and repay me with millions of dollars."
"Didn't I repay you with myself?"
Yang Xueyi glanced at Ying Yun sideways, and wanted to ask Ying Yun if she was worth millions, but then she thought about some of the nonsense that Qiao Qianqian had said, recalled Ying Yun's physique and strength, as well as his outstanding performance in some aspects, and was suddenly speechless.
Ying Yun is still worth it.
"Yang Xueyi, I've fulfilled all your wishes. And when you were fifteen, you made a wish for me to study a combined master's and doctoral program and live in a school dormitory. Didn't that come true?"
"You hate me so much, I think you probably wouldn't be happy if I gave you 'The Last Summer', so I might as well give you something you actually want."
Ying Yun's tone was calm, but Yang Xueyi was shocked: "You studied medicine just because of something I said in anger?"
She was a little embarrassed, "Ying Yun, I was only fifteen at that time. Fifteen-year-olds make a lot of random and illogical wishes. Are you so careless about such an important life choice as choosing a major?"
"I just didn't want to go abroad, nor did I want to study business or management. It didn't matter to me what I studied. If you wanted me to get a master's and doctorate so badly and you didn't want to see me, then I'd just study medicine."
But soon, Ying Yun revealed his irritating side. He glanced at Yang Xueyi and pointed out a fact in a very calm and infuriating manner: "Anyway, I can learn anything well."
Yang Xueyi was a little dissatisfied, but she really couldn't provide any evidence to refute it, so she could only stare at Ying Yun without saying anything.
She is not a fool. Ying Yun's confession is just enough, but she will learn from it.
Since Ying Yun had never been in poverty, his part-time job as a medical translator and lecturer was naturally not due to the practical reasons that Yang Xueyi had originally believed. And Zhong Tian's offer to Yang Xueyi at the Medical Translation Company was probably not a coincidence. After all, it was only after Yang Xueyi joined the company that she learned that the large-scale recruitment of the Medical Translation Company would actually be in a few months. It was really rare for her to be recruited from the society in the middle of nowhere.
"Since you liked me then, were you furious when I invited Zhong Tian to dinner at my house and kicked you out?"
Ying Yun didn't say anything, as if he didn't want to answer.
Yang Xueyi touched his chin in a disorderly manner: "Ying Yun, go ahead and talk. Why are you silent?"
"Yang Xueyi, can you please give me some face?"
"No." Yang Xueyi refused on the spot. "It's fine if you didn't confess, but I clearly asked you if you liked me and gave you the chance to be honest, but you lied! You said you didn't like me! You made me take so many detours and broke my heart several times because of your fake first love."
Ying Yun lowered his head. "When I said I didn't like you, I hid my hands behind my back and crossed my fingers. I'm not religious, but at that moment, I still hoped that God would forgive my lie."
Yang Xueyi studied English and knew the meaning of cross fingers in European and American folk traditions.
When people cross their fingers and put the middle finger on the index finger, the posture formed is similar to the shape of the cross in Christianity. It is usually used when people are forced to say something against their will, and they express their repentance for white lies by imitating the shape of the cross.
"Yang Xueyi, I don't feel guilty when I tell other lies, but it's very difficult to lie about liking you."
Yang Xueyi looked into Ying Yun's dark eyes and suddenly felt that Ying Yun was much more naive than she thought, and sometimes he was so naive that it was scary - such a cold-hearted person would actually care so much about a lie.
It seems like he is easy to bully.
Yang Xueyi's inner malice was rising: "Ying Yun, you should have confessed your feelings to me ten years ago. Now it's like you owe me ten years. You should compensate me double with interest, right?"
The dim light in the wooden room shone on Yang Xueyi's long black hair. The tiny, frizzy strands of hair cast furry shadows on the wall, making her look like she was emitting a warm glow.
Yang Xueyi's hands and feet were slender, and even after being stationed and working in Africa for a period of time, her skin was still fair, and in the hazy light, she looked even more pure and innocent. However, the look and expression she gave Ying Yun were clearly malicious and relentless.
Ever since the devastation outside the nanny's room at the age of eighteen, Ying Yun knew that Yang Xueyi's beauty was only on the outside, but she was more like some kind of addictive drug, a poisonous candy pill wrapped in a dream. She was not as temperless as she appeared, nor was she really gentle enough not to get angry, nor was she really someone who would just follow Ying Yun enthusiastically and provide a constant stream of emotional value.
The good ones are all fake, just like the seasonal limited edition of a certain product. Once the season is out, there is no trace of its existence and it quickly disappears.
The Yang Xueyi that Ying Yun saw was also fake, a personality she disguised.
The real Yang Xueyi can also get angry and has a bad temper. She is ruthless when attacking others and can be very harsh in her words to people she dislikes. She is not as magnanimous as she pretends to be. Not only does she hold grudges, but she is also very good at taking advantage of others. Once you show weakness to her, she will complacently believe that she has you in her arms and start to make all kinds of aggressive demands.
After accidentally hearing Yang Xueyi's true evaluation of himself, Ying Yun looked at her coldly, thinking it was some kind of warning to himself, but he ended up falling into a new trap, and fell even deeper.
Ying Yun couldn't hate the real Yang Xueyi, he still liked her very much.
Her hypocrisy is more like showing off her strength, and her aggressive behavior is just bluffing. Everything about her is good, and the only shortcoming is that she doesn't like Ying Yun.
As Sartre said, when you are obsessed with someone, you have pawned yourself to hell.
Ying Yun hates himself because of his love for Yang Xueyi - liking someone who hates him makes everything he says sound humble and without self-respect, so despicable that he can't even say it.
Many times, Ying Yun was grateful for his dull expression, which Yang Xueyi had always criticized him for, and was glad that no one could see that he was always absent-minded when facing Yang Xueyi.
And now, his secret crush has come true.
Yang Xueyi held her head high, proud and complacent, and forced Ying Yun to make up for the lost ten years.
Ying Yun took her hand, gently kissed the back of her hand, and decided to make amends and promises with the simplest words.
He heard his own low voice—
"Yang Xueyi, I love you."
"Eighteen-year-old me loves you."
"Nineteen-year-old me loves you."
"Twenty-year-old me loves you."
"Twenty-one-year-old me loves you."
"Twenty-two-year-old me loves you."
"Twenty-three-year-old me loves you."
"Twenty-four-year-old me loves you."
"Twenty-five-year-old me loves you."
"Twenty-six-year-old me loves you."
"Twenty-seven-year-old me loves you."
"Now at the age of twenty-eight, I still love you."
"Not being able to confess my feelings for fear of rejection was the stupidest thing I've ever done in my life."
"I should have put aside my pride and ego earlier and confessed my true feelings to you."
Ying Yun looked into Yang Xueyi's eyes. Even though he looked like a cheating candidate who had the answers revealed in advance, he was still nervous.
"It may be a little late to say it now, but Yang Xueyi, can you be my girlfriend?"
"Give me the chance to make up for what I owe you in the past ten years in the future."
【Author’s words】
You can go back and study the time when Ying Yun said he didn't like Xue Yi, hahahaha, one hand behind his back, you kid really have your
Because most of the previous part is from Xueyi's perspective, Xueyi will definitely not talk about how she scolded Ying Yun, after all, people will beautify themselves (for example, scolding him about JJ breaking his bones in Hokkaido, our Xiaoxue will not talk about it), hhh
In the future, I will consider writing a story about Ying Yun’s youth from his perspective. Xue Yi also scolded him a lot, hahahaha (I don’t mean to end the main story now!)
PS: "When the door you long for opens to you, you will not ask why." I saw this on the Internet, I forgot the source, so I added quotation marks.
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