34 Chapter 34
"That size is wrong. I bought a new one."
Yang Xueyi stuffed the room card and contraceptive condoms into Qiao Qianqian's hands. Ying Yun had made her feel completely down, so she simply bought some fast food and a can of beer at a convenience store. She naturally wasn't in the mood to watch a movie alone, so she decided to go home directly.
"What's wrong? Are you in a bad mood?" Qiao Qianqian keenly sensed that something was wrong with Yang Xueyi and called her.
Yang Xueyi smiled, not wanting her to worry: "No."
"I'm sorry I can't have dinner with you tonight, but I'll treat you to hotpot tomorrow!"
Qiao Qianqian patted Yang Xueyi's shoulder. As if remembering something, she unpacked the condom set, took out a few, and stuffed them into Yang Xueyi's pocket. "I really can't bear to watch this anymore."
She winked at Yang Xueyi and said, "This is for your... friend. She didn't even prepare something like this, did she?"
Yang Xueyi was stunned.
"Didn't you say your friend has a crush on a guy?" Qiao Qianqian said in a subtle tone, her face full of understanding. "If she does, I'll encourage you... your friend to pursue him. If she succeeds, you can sleep with her. If she doesn't, you can sleep with her too. Who knows... your friend's infatuation with that guy might stop here, and a good night's sleep will dispel it."
"Actually, I think that guy is quite suspicious. Your... friend must be pretty, too. If he's unmoved by a pretty girl's advances, you should consider whether there's something wrong with his physiology. Don't chase her for a long time and then find out she's not a good match! A harmonious sex life is an important part of a quality relationship!"
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After being lectured by Qiao Qianqian for half an hour, Yang Xueyi returned home feeling dizzy and fell on the bed.
Alcohol could indeed numb most of the depression. She ate something casually, drank half a bottle of beer, and stared at the ceiling in a daze, in a state of being sober yet slightly drunk.
In the end, Yang Xueyi failed to return the condom that Qiao Qianqian had stuffed into her hands. Now it is still lying obediently in Yang Xueyi's shirt pocket.
Qiao Qianqian was very smart and saw through it but didn't say anything, but Yang Xueyi thought she was just worrying too much.
Ying Yun is not only not interested in dating me, he is even less interested in anything happening between us.
There was a missed call from Ying Yun on her phone. Yang Xueyi didn't know what to say to him. She didn't call back after missing his call. It couldn't be that Ying Yun missed her.
A moment later, she received a message from Ying Yun—
[Yang Xueyi, where are you? ]
【Can you go home quickly? 】
I forgot my keys and need to go home to get something. I have a journal article that I need to revise urgently. Could you please open the door for me?
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That’s right, Ying Yun would only come to me for this kind of thing.
Yang Xueyi was in a bad mood and didn't want to see Ying Yun at all.
She pursed her lips, stood up, and took out her keys, fearing that if she left too late she would run into Ying Yun who was rushing home. She didn't have time to change her clothes, nor did she bother to pick flat-heeled shoes. She just casually put on the pair of high heels she had worn before, picked up her bag, and walked out.
After hiding the key under the flowerpot at the door, Yang Xueyi prepared to send a message to Ying Yun to let him get it himself.
As for her?
Anyway, she didn't want to stay at home and be alone with Ying Yun, so she could just go for a walk in any park.
However, just as Yang Xueyi finished sending the message and was about to turn around and leave, a "ding" sound came from the elevator in the corridor.
Yang Xueyi subconsciously became nervous, wishing she could turn into the key that could be hidden under the flowerpot.
She prayed that it wasn't Ying Yun in the elevator.
However, the opposite happened. Before she could escape from the stairwell, Ying Yun had already seen her with his sharp eyes.
"Yang Xueyi."
Ying Yun called her name in a low voice.
The voice-controlled lights in the corridor responded, making it impossible for Yang Xueyi to hide, and also illuminating Ying Yun's handsome outline.
As usual, Ying Yun stood upright with a serious expression. He always looked polite and cultured, the kind of reliable person who would be praised if he walked on the street.
The jersey that had been changed was held in his hand, and the cuffs of Ying Yun's new shirt were rolled up to his forearms, with clear lines. The lights in the corridor cast an ambiguous light and shadow on Ying Yun's face.
This core journal article must be very important, so Ying Yun, who is always slow and measured, now has a slight rise and fall in his chest, and it is obvious that he is running back home.
"The key is under the flowerpot at the door, you can take it yourself."
Yang Xueyi didn't look into Ying Yun's eyes. She threw down these words and just wanted to run away.
However, Ying Yun stepped forward quickly and soon stood in front of Yang Xueyi, blocking the light above Yang Xueyi's head, forcing Yang Xueyi to subconsciously hold her breath and had to take a few steps back.
"You want to go out?"
Ying Yun looked at Yang Xueyi, his expression becoming unhappy: "Yang Xueyi, where are you going?"
"Are you going to meet someone?" Ying Yun didn't seem to be really waiting for Yang Xueyi's answer. He took a look at Yang Xueyi's clothes and said, "Aunt Yang just contacted me and asked me what you were doing. If you are going out, tell me who you are going to meet so that she won't worry."
Yang Xueyi was already in a bad mood, and now after hearing Ying Yun's words, she became even more irritated and resentful.
"Ying Yun, are you my mother's police dog? Yes, I'm going to meet someone. What's wrong with dressing like this to meet a man? I'm 25 years old. Do I have to report to you before going out to meet a man? You have nothing to do after eating, right?"
Of course, she could explain it to Ying Yun and find an excuse to fool him, but Yang Xueyi didn't want to.
At this time, she couldn't talk to Ying Yun properly.
She naturally knew that Ying Yun's words were just a promise to Yang Xueyi's mother. Judging from Ying Yun's ugly expression, he himself might be very annoyed that he had to delay the revision of his core journal paper in order to take care of Yang Xueyi.
Perhaps her short-lived friendly relationship with Ying Yun should not have lasted. The best state of their relationship would be for them to be irreconcilable.
"Get out of the way."
Yang Xueyi was too lazy to pay attention to Ying Yun and just tried to push him away. However, her forceful movements had no effect on Ying Yun. Ying Yun hardly moved at all and stood in front of Yang Xueyi like a wall.
Ying Yun did not fight back. In response, he just remained silent, pursed his lips, and then used the key to open the door with a somewhat rough movement. Without even pushing the door open properly, Ying Yun kicked the door open and brought Yang Xueyi into the house.
"Go home first, I have something to tell you."
In fact, Ying Yun's action was not strong, and he did not use much force in holding Yang Xueyi's wrist. However, due to the resistance, Yang Xueyi subconsciously began to struggle, and then Ying Yun tightened his hand as if subconsciously.
Yang Xueyi was no match for Ying Yun and was just bluffing. As she moved, something flew out of her shirt pocket.
This one-shoulder tube top with ruffles was originally worn by Yang Xueyi to meet Ying Yun. The shallow pockets on the top were originally just for decoration. It was fine when there was no big movement, but once the movement was big, the things inside would all fall out.
These were a few condoms that Qiao Qianqian stuffed into her.
When they fell to the ground, Yang Xueyi could see clearly that there were three of them.
She tried to snatch it with a stern face, but Ying Yun got there first. He picked it up and obviously recognized what it was.
"Yang Xueyi."
Ying Yun looked up and stared at her, his eyes carrying a stern and murderous look that was unfamiliar to Yang Xueyi.
He didn't say anything, but the look in his eyes when he looked at Yang Xueyi said it all. It was obvious that he thought Yang Xueyi was going out to check into a room with a man and use up all three condoms in a big way.
Yang Xueyi originally wanted to explain, but Ying Yun's eyes made her deflate like a worn-out ball.
What's there to explain?
Ying Yun sees himself as someone with distorted values, hypocritical, inconsistent, and casual.
So when he saw Yang Xueyi approaching Li Junxin in Hokkaido, he guessed that Yang Xueyi wanted to use this opportunity to marry into a wealthy family, so he drove Yang Xueyi out of the Ice Church; because he did not really approve of Yang Xueyi in his heart, he was not willing to introduce Yang Xueyi to his single friends; now he even saw the condoms and concluded that Yang Xueyi was going to check into a hotel with someone.
He already had a preset position, wore tinted glasses, and used the principle of presumption of guilt to predict Yang Xueyi's crime early on.
Yang Xueyi didn't know whether she was angry or drunk. She glared at Ying Yun. By the time she reacted, she had already spoken in a fit of rage.
"Yes. I just want to find a man to check into a room with. What's it to you?"
"You're my guardian? You have to take care of everything?"
Ying Yun didn't answer her question, but just stared at Yang Xueyi: "You have a boyfriend? Who? How did you meet him?"
As if sensing Yang Xueyi's resistance and hostility, Ying Yun also restrained his emotions. After a moment, he regained his calm and upright appearance and put on an approachable posture: "I'm sorry, Aunt Yang just asked me for a favor, and she is also worried about you."
"If you go out later and she can't find you and asks me where you went, I don't know how to answer. Aunt Yang is very kind to me, and I can't lie to her to hide it for you. At least you should tell me."
Ying Yun stared at Yang Xueyi, and Yang Xueyi's appearance was reflected in his pupils. Perhaps Yang Xueyi's mother's request really embarrassed him. Although his voice still carried the coldness of snow that never melted all year round, his expression was a little uncomfortable.
His tone was sincere. "I'm a man myself. As a doctor, I've seen far more people than you. I know some men have bad intentions. Yang Xueyi, even if you get a boyfriend, it probably won't last long. Men are very good at disguising themselves. It's easy for them to pretend to be gentlemen and nice guys for a few months. It's easy to create that persona, and you're easily fooled. Plus, this is your first time in a relationship, so how can you tell if you're inexperienced?"
"I just think it's a bit too hasty for you to decide to take the next step in your relationship after just knowing each other for so long. Aunt Yang would definitely be angry if she knew. She's a bit overly sensitive about this kind of thing and thinks the men around you are suspicious."
"If you don't believe Aunt Yang's words, you can bring your boyfriend to meet me if necessary. I'm about your age and I'm also a man. I can talk to him and help you check it out."
As if remembering something, Ying Yun looked at Yang Xueyi: "You said before that you wanted to fall in love in order to cure your insomnia, so now you are doing this, are you also selfish?"
He looked at the aromatherapy lamp on the table. "Otherwise, I can't think of any reason why you would want to push the relationship to that point so quickly." Like a test, like doubt, like concern, and also like a sense of responsibility to fulfill a request, Ying Yun raised his eyelids, "Or... have your relationship with him reached this point?"
"You're only twenty-five, very young, and have a lot to offer. I personally don't think there's any need to rush into a relationship or get married. Don't let some talk of marriage urging you to make decisions that might cloud your judgment. It's always better to be cautious in relationships."
Ying Yun's eyes really looked like those of a friend who was asked by an elder to care about her. He looked reliable and trustworthy, but Yang Xueyi really hated Ying Yun like this.
He might as well have been awful to her.
Ying Yun, who seemed to be very upright because he cared about others, made Yang Xueyi feel that she couldn't hate him with a clear conscience.
It would be great if love could be retrieved by making a wish.
Ying Yun in front of her was handsome, sincere and upright. Even though Yang Xueyi warned herself, her heart couldn't help but beat fast.
Ying Yun is such a person. Even if he thinks that Yang Xueyi is hypocritical and artificial, and does not possess the qualities he appreciates, and he does not like Yang Xueyi at all, he will still stand up when Yang Xueyi is slandered as a "mistress". At this time, he will talk to Yang Xueyi and persuade her to be cautious and not impulsive.
Just out of his good morals.
Out of his gratitude to Ms. Yang Meiying, he also felt a little sense of responsibility towards himself.
Ms. Yang Meiying treated him as half a son, and Ying Yun probably also accepted this relationship and regarded himself as Yang Xueyi's half brother. Now he was patiently explaining the reasons why girls should be especially cautious in love.
Yang Xueyi stared at his overly handsome profile, and the malice in her heart suddenly rose——
"Yes, falling in love is troublesome."
"I'm not in a relationship. Actually, I don't want to be in a relationship. I lied to you before."
After hearing this, Ying Yun was indeed stunned.
Without waiting for him to speak, Yang Xueyi looked away and lied in a rage, "I just want to find a man to sleep with."
"You're right. What really relieves insomnia isn't dating. Dating is like riding a roller coaster, not very good. What can relieve insomnia without causing any trouble is sex."
This is not pure nonsense from Yang Xueyi. What she said about her having tried all the methods recommended in the insomnia patient group is actually not accurate, because she has never tried sex as a way of life and has no intention of trying it.
But now it is appropriate to use it as an excuse to scare Ying Yun away.
He hated her so much that he was unwilling to reach out to "save" her, and this also saved Yang Xueyi's mood from being catastrophically hit by a huge wave like a tsunami.
She pretended to be free and easy and avant-garde: "So don't worry about me being cheated in a relationship. It's just a tacit alternative cooperation between mature men and women. I'm not serious about it, and I don't want to develop a long-term relationship with the other party. Why should I evaluate the other party's character?"
Yang Xueyi acted very relaxed. "Of course, my mother wouldn't understand. But Ying Yun, you're young too. Who's still obsessed with finding a virgin when getting married or dating? That's old-fashioned and feudal thinking. It's normal to have sexual experience."
If possible, Yang Xueyi hoped that Ying Yun would return to his original state - ignoring her.
She hoped Ying Yun would stay away from her as far as possible.
When he feels that she is indeed the stubborn and hypocritical woman he hates the most, and that she is stubborn and refuses to listen to advice, Ying Yun will leave.
He didn't like me much anyway, so it wasn't a difficult thing.
It’s a pity that a few words did not scare Ying Yun away. He was silent for a while, but still stubbornly blocked Yang Xueyi’s way and prevented her from going out.
Perhaps Yang Xueyi's remarks were truly treasonous and heretical to the law-abiding Ying Yun. Ying Yun's expression was very ugly, but he still seemed to be trying to save Yang Xueyi from falling, and he patiently put on a professional attitude.
"Yang Xueyi, there's absolutely no academic evidence or clinical data to support the idea that sex can cure insomnia. Just like treating insomnia through dating, it's all pseudoscience. Even if it works in individual cases, it's not universally applicable. It doesn't make any sense at all. Instead, it sounds like a trap carefully designed by men with ulterior motives to target female insomniacs..."
"Ying Yun! Have you ever suffered from insomnia for a whole year like me? Long-term insomnia can cause neurological disorders, decreased immunity, and emotional problems. Many insomniacs eventually develop depression."
Yang Xueyi was already in a bad mood, and her sleep hadn't been great in the past few days. She was already upset, and when she talked about her insomnia, she felt genuinely aggrieved and sad. "I've been enduring it, trying everything, but nothing works. Insomnia is so agonizing that it's almost affecting my normal life. Compared to insomnia, the side effects of trying safe sex are obviously much smaller."
"So just leave me alone and stay away from me. I'm not a teenager. I certainly have enough knowledge about physiological safety and hygiene to deal with risks."
Yang Xueyi just wanted to get rid of Ying Yun as soon as possible, but even after saying this, Ying Yun still didn't abandon her and run away.
"Yang Xueyi, condoms cannot guarantee 100% contraception."
His tone was low: "There are also some men who are more insidious and immoral, and will deliberately puncture the condom."
"What's more, many men have no sense of responsibility or accountability. Some even have girlfriends, but they go on one-night stands just for the thrill. How can you tell the difference between them?"
"Do you think a one-night stand won't get you into trouble? If you get involved in someone else's relationship, you could easily be put on the defensive and even have your reputation tarnished by them."
"Some people you thought were having a one-night stand with, but they used it to harass you. Some even used hidden cameras to secretly film you. Whether they later use the private recordings to threaten you into submission or directly sell these secretly filmed videos, it is a huge danger to you."
"In addition, there are some STDs that condoms cannot completely prevent. If a condom falls off during sexual contact or the condom itself leaks and breaks, you are very likely to be exposed."
Yang Xueyi had no such thoughts, so she had never learned this knowledge in depth. After Ying Yun talked about it, she became a little scared. She even wondered how Qiao Qianqian overcame this fear and spent a night with men, because it sounded like there was not only no benefit in having sex with men, but it would bring bad luck if she got involved.
Ying Yun spoke in a very clear and concise manner, and considering his identity as a doctor, it was indeed convincing.
If Yang Xueyi really wanted to have one-night stand, she would probably hesitate and stop there.
Fortunately, she didn't really do it.
Yang Xueyi glanced at Ying Yun, deliberately looking stubborn and saying, "Everything has two sides. You can't catch a wolf without sacrificing your child. There are risks in everything you do."
Please just go away!
Ying Yun looked at Yang Xueyi expressionlessly without saying a word.
It might have been Yang Xueyi's illusion. A moment later, his voice rang out again, already with a hint of intimidation: "Yang Xueyi, did you know that men who go out for one-night stands are usually sexually experienced and more likely to carry various viruses? Your method of just sleeping with someone without dating is even more careless. You can't screen out clean and safe men at all. It's tantamount to blind suicide."
"I understand that insomnia is painful and can make people irrational, but you still have to control your emotions. You can't make this attempt just for insomnia, or you'll regret it."
"I will help you with your insomnia. There is always a way to cure it."
I don’t know if it’s because the down-to-earth life after becoming poor has made Ying Yun more human. Yang Xueyi has never noticed Ying Yun talking so much before.
However, the time he spent in poverty was obviously too short, and the words he said were so light that Yang Xueyi felt angry.
"Can you help me cure my insomnia? How will you help me? Find me a man with a clean private life, good character, flawless morals, who won't take secret photos, and who is truly single and a virgin, for me to sleep with?"
"Is there such a man in this world?"
Yang Xueyi didn't know how the topic had deviated to this point. She became emotional and started to become unreasonable.
But after she finished her hysterical outburst and stared at Ying Yun with a slight gasp, she suddenly realized, absurdly, that there actually was such a man in the world, and he was standing right in front of her.
Yang Xueyi didn't know what was wrong with her. Maybe it was the half bottle of beer that made her dizzy, or maybe it was Ying Yun's overly handsome and cold face that distracted her, or maybe it was the conversation on the court that made Yang Xueyi so discouraged that she gave up on herself.
"You're right, the men out there are really dirty and don't know their details. After thinking about it, don't you meet the requirements?"
Yang Xueyi glared at Ying Yun: "Anyway, I need to find someone to sleep with. Ying Yun, didn't you just say you would definitely help me? Then sleep with me."
Yang Xueyi glanced at Ying Yun lightly, but her tone was aggressive.
Why did Ying Yun accuse Yang Xueyi of being hypocritical? How was she hypocritical? Wouldn't it be the same for him?
Hypocrisy is a common human trait.
It's easy to say you'll help, but actually offering that help is another matter entirely.
Ying Yun talks a lot about propriety, righteousness, integrity and morality, and seems to care a lot about Yang Xueyi, but in fact he is unwilling to introduce her to his friends.
Perhaps he has a line deep in his heart: some people can appear on the surface in his world, while others cannot.
In Ying Yun's world, Yang Xueyi belongs to the latter.
Just as many people feel sympathy for stray cats and are willing to feed them if they have enough money, few people will actually take stray cats home to raise them.
Because Ying Yun became poor, he had to interact with Yang Xueyi privately. He then felt that she was naughty, pitiful, stupid, and had gone astray, so he felt overwhelmed with sympathy and extended a helping hand out of compassion.
The moment he stretched out his hand, Ying Yun's inner desire to do good deeds every day was satisfied. As for whether Yang Xueyi really needed his hand or whether he held this hand, it was not within his consideration. It was like those formalities in the company's KPI. You just have to do it, regardless of the results, and it will not be included in the year-end assessment.
Ying Yun probably didn't expect Yang Xueyi to make such a request, and he seemed to be stunned.
Perhaps because Yang Xueyi actually dared to think about him, Ying Yun seemed greatly shocked and looked at Yang Xueyi with a gloomy face.
The light in the living room with a neutral color temperature shone on Ying Yun's face. One of the lamps had poor contact and had been flickering frequently since the day before yesterday. As a result, the light flickered on Ying Yun's face like flickering emotions, making Yang Xueyi unable to see the emotions in Ying Yun's eyes.
After a moment, Ying Yun said through gritted teeth, as if squeezing out a sound from between his teeth: "Yang Xueyi, don't make such a joke."
Yang Xueyi went forward fearlessly: "I'm not kidding."
"You said sex can relieve insomnia is pseudoscience, so why not try it once? Instead of asking me to go through all the trouble of looking for a strange man, wouldn't you be better? And I can even save money on a hotel room. You're a virgin, right? Doesn't that ensure you're clean and trustworthy? Don't you want to help? Then help."
Ying Yun's self-cultivation was far better than Yang Xue had expected.
Even though he was asked such an unreasonable and shameless request, Ying Yun did not yell at Yang Xueyi. He just had a strange and calm expression on his face and remained abnormally silent.
Yang Xueyi knew that Ying Yun would never agree. She couldn't express her feelings. It was a bit expected, but also a bit disappointed and sad.
She is not as strong as she appears to be. She is actually a timid person at heart.
She was afraid that Ying Yun's silence was just a brief moment of daze after being overly shocked, and that he would soon come to his senses and organize words to scold her; but she also didn't want to appear like a poor person who had offered himself up and failed in his attempt to propose love.
"Forget it if it doesn't work." Yang Xueyi turned her head away, her tone cold and hard as if she didn't care. "If it doesn't work, I'll find someone else. There are plenty of men anyway. I don't really want your help, it's just that it's easier and more convenient for you."
Ying Yun has good looks. A few years ago, before all the troubles at home, he was still the eldest son of Yuanyang Freight. With the filter of his doctor profession, he never lacked girls chasing after him. However, he remained a single until he was 28 years old, as if he had remained a virgin for his first love.
People like him would probably regard Yang Xueyi as a heretic who deviated from the norm and should be burned to death.
Sure enough, Ying Yun's voice was difficult, as if he couldn't understand Yang Xueyi at all: "Do you really have to try?"
"Yeah." Yang Xueyi felt numb and dizzy, so she simply put on an annoying and willful attitude. "Yes, I won't give up until I try. Besides, I drank alcohol today, and now I'm in the mood for drunken sex."
"It doesn't matter if you don't help me, just leave me alone in the future. You go your way, I go mine, and we'll keep our distance."
That's it.
The relationship with Yingyun is completely over.
Yang Xueyi didn't want to see him at all at this moment. She wished Ying Yun would be so angry with her that he would leave immediately.
Ying Yun's reaction was as expected.
His voice was low: "Okay, I understand."
It seems that he is ready to draw a clear line between himself and Yang Xueyi.
Yang Xueyi didn't want to see Ying Yun's expression. What would be in his eyes right now? Coldness, contempt, or sympathy? In any case, it wasn't what she wanted to see.
A moment later, Yang Xueyi heard the sound of Ying Yun opening the door at the entrance, followed by the sound of the door closing. Ying Yun's footsteps sounded hurried, as if he had made some decision without hesitation.
He probably finally realized that Yang Xueyi could not be reformed, so he gave up. Fearing that he would be involved with her, he ran away quickly.
Haha, you still say that you have never disliked Yang Xueyi, but now you scare away all those who don’t dislike her?
Weren't you in a hurry to revise your paper? Why did you run away without revising it? Are you really that scary?
But it’s good, as it saves Yang Xueyi from being distracted.
She felt somewhat relieved looking at the empty room again, but her heart still felt like a huge rock weighing on her. The depressing feeling had not gone away, like a town after a tsunami, razed to the ground and devastated, with nothing left and the air filled with the smell of ruins.
As soon as Ying Yun left, Yang Xueyi was too lazy to put on airs anymore. She was in a low mood. She kicked off her high heels, drank the remaining half bottle of beer, lay down on the bed in a deflated manner, then lifted the quilt and crawled into it like a silkworm cocoon.
Just go.
Ying Yun should go as far as possible.
But it would be a lie to say I'm not sad.
Ying Yun never liked himself, so he never thought well of Yang Xueyi.
She wiped away her tears carelessly. It was all her fault for wanting to like Ying Yun.
It's my own fault.
Fortunately, alcohol does bring temporary numbness to people. Yang Xueyi was not drunk and her mind was still clear, but her thinking became slow, as if separated by a layer of gauze. The sadness, grievance and sorrow were no longer so intense, but a little hazy and trance-like.
Maybe it was because she had suffered from severe insomnia in the past few days, and the quilt was really warm, so Yang Xueyi was drowsy and actually felt a little sleepy.
Just when she was about to fall asleep, she heard the sound of the door opening. Before she could react, Yang Xueyi's door was pushed open forcefully. The dusty person brought in the cold air from the living room.
Yang Xueyi was still a little confused, and the next second, her quilt was lifted up.
Ying Yun looked like he had just gone out to buy something, holding a bag in his hand. Yang Xueyi threw the bag aside with a cold face, and then pulled Yang Xueyi out of the quilt without any explanation.
Yang Xueyi didn't turn on the lights. Through the night outside the window through the gap in the curtains, she saw Ying Yun's profile. His expression was grim and he looked like a real living devil in the moonlight.
"Yang Xueyi, I'm going to ask you one last time, do you really want to find someone to sleep with?"
Yang Xueyi clearly didn't do anything, but Ying Yun acted as if saying the word "go to bed" was defiled. Ying Yun's face was grim: "You can't change it, right?"
What's wrong? Is this an ultimatum? Is he going to hit me if I don't change my mind?
"I can't change." Yang Xueyi said stubbornly, "Stop bothering me. I can't change, and I won't change in this lifetime. There's no hope."
She said stubbornly: "I just took a break. Now I'm leaving and going to the bar to find a suitable man."
Since Ying Yun is back, then Yang Xueyi will leave!
Go for a walk in the park near the community and come back in the middle of the night. I don’t want to see Ying Yun anyway!
But just as Yang Xueyi was about to get up, Ying Yun pushed her back onto the bed.
He said hoarsely: "Don't look for it."
Is he addicted to controlling others? Is her "self-degradation" illegal?
Yang Xue was so angry that her eyes turned red and she wanted to scold Ying Yun harshly.
But before Yang Xueyi could speak, Ying Yun looked at her dimly and spoke first——
"Is this something you really want to try?"
Ying Yun is always like this, always at ease, always aloof, always calm and self-possessed. Even when he asked such questions, he looked cold and stern, making people feel no warmth at all. He was like a researcher in a laboratory, only coldly asking Yang Xueyi, the experimental subject, and faithfully recording her data.
So what was he thinking when he asked this question?
Do you despise Yang Xueyi?
A girl actually took the initiative to ask a guy to have sex with her.
Indecent or shameless?
But it is not shameful for women to have needs. Women have the initiative over their own bodies and are the subjects of desire, not just the objects of men's desire. Why should they be pure if they have no desires and always passively wait for boys to choose them?
Yang Xueyi didn't really have any strong opinions about this sort of thing, but she was a normal adult woman. Even if she had such desires, wasn't that normal? Why should she be judged?
Feeling a mixture of anger, unwillingness, and impulse, Yang Xueyi glared at Ying Yun: "Yes, I want to do it, I just want to. Is that not allowed? Can't girls have this kind of desire?"
Ying Yun seemed to be surprised by Yang Xueyi's excitement. He paused and turned his face away: "I didn't say no."
"But you can't go to strangers."
Yang Xueyi almost laughed out of anger: "If not a stranger, then who should I look for? Doesn't your request mean that I can't do anything?!"
The instigator threw away the unreasonable request and ignored Yang Xueyi behind him. He just turned around and started taking something out of the bag he brought back.
The next second, a small square box was thrown in front of Yang Xueyi.
"I'll help you."
Ying Yun's voice was cold and hoarse, and his expression was so stern and calm that it frightened Yang Xueyi. It was as if the words "I'll help you" were an illusion she had misheard, and what Ying Yun really meant was "I'll kill you"...
"What?" Now Yang Xueyi was confused and flustered. "Didn't you slam the door and leave in anger?"
Ying Yun lowered his voice and said, "You were the one who said we must try it."
"I didn't slam the door and leave. The size you bought was wrong, so I just went to buy a new one."
He stared into Yang Xueyi's eyes: "Since you want to do it so much, I will do it with you."
…
In great shock, Yang Xueyi became numb and slow. She lowered her head and finally saw the pattern on the small box in front of her. Against the orange background, there was a red evil mushroom with a dotted pattern, and above it was a conspicuous white product name: Durex Raised Dot Thread, Pleasure Max, 12 pieces.
In the darkness, Ying Yun's voice carried a sense of calm madness—
"The style is bought according to your preference."
【Author’s words】
200 red envelopes in this chapter [covering face and peeking]
Durex, give me money!!!
This is the story of two awkward and stubborn people, who are in love with each other.
Tomorrow Ying Yun will also be able to be a free duck
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