58 Chapter 58
◎If you want to have a relationship, can you give me a chance first?◎
Ying Yun accidentally opened his heart to Yu Shi after getting drunk last time. Unexpectedly, he and Yu Shi became close friends from ordinary friends, and their relationship became closer.
The two of them were actually quite familiar with each other before, but Ying Yun would not discuss such private topics as feelings with him.
But now——
"To sort things out, I've already paid back the money I lent her. I want things to be pure, without any financial entanglements. Besides, I've also lied to her about something, so I have to pay her back first and then find an opportunity to confess."
Although they were both frustrated in love, for some reason, Yu Shi had been able to eat and sleep well these past two days, and his face was radiant with joy. This was in stark contrast to Ying Yun, who had become increasingly haggard after the "break in contact."
When Ying Yun asked, Yu Shi argued confidently, saying that it was because he was mentally strong and would not be distracted by trivial love affairs. He also criticized Ying Yun a few times between the lines.
He even lectured Ying Yun: "We men must not be led by such sentimental sentiments. We must have a clear mindset. Cheer up, Ying Yun! Don't embarrass us men! Don't be so love-brained."
Unfortunately, Ying Yun couldn't cheer up. He listened to Yu Shi and had been deliberately keeping a distance from Yang Xueyi recently. He wanted to count on Yang Xueyi's initiative, but Yang Xueyi didn't say anything at all. There was no sign of her realizing the importance of Ying Yun or coming to her senses.
Her insomnia seemed to be getting better, even faster than Ying Yun fell asleep.
And no one knows what Yang Xueyi is busy with recently. Not only does she go out early and come back late, but even when she comes back at night, she is often alone in the room, as if she has endless overtime to work.
Sometimes she doesn’t even eat dinner at home. To Yang Xueyi, this home is almost like a hotel where she only comes back to sleep.
A female colleague in Ying Yun and Yu Shi's department had just given birth and was on maternity leave, so the rest of the staff took the initiative to share the shifts and became busy. Their schedules were almost completely out of sync with Yang Xueyi's, and sometimes they only saw each other a few times a day.
I am a doctor and I have to be busy because my patients can't wait. But Yang Xueyi mostly handles document translation. Does she need to be so busy?
When did Zhongtian Company give her such great work pressure?
Ying Yun frowned and decided to find some time in the near future to give Zhong Tian some indirect advice, asking him if some bosses could stop exploiting their employees like this. Even Ying Yun couldn't stand it anymore.
Originally, he just wanted to cool down the "disconnection" on certain things, but when the time came, it almost became a real disconnection - Ying Yun really had no chance to sit down and have a good chat with Yang Xueyi.
However, Yu Shi thought this was a good thing: "That's the significance of breaking off contact. The more thorough the break, the faster she'll wake up."
"She won't feel any pain in the first few days, and she won't react yet. Instead, you'll be the one feeling anxious and uncomfortable. This is normal, but as long as you get through this initial period of pain, later on, when you're out of it, it'll be her turn to get into it."
Yu Shi said clearly, "Without going through the storm, how can you see the rainbow? You can't even endure this little pain, right? Is she some celestial beauty? Why are you so distracted?"
Ying Yun understands the general principles, but it is still difficult to stick to them when it comes to himself.
Yang Xueyi is indeed a beautiful goddess.
He was indeed obsessed with Yang Xueyi.
Fortunately, there are still surgeries and outpatient clinics, and once Ying Yun is busy with work, he will not have time to think about Yang Xueyi.
But occasionally, during the short breaks from work, he missed her like crazy.
Just like withdrawal, after a short period of stay away from the addiction, you will be eager to go back to the past, or even want to give up on yourself and just call it a day. If you can't quit, then you can't quit.
Ying Yun felt that his addiction was almost terminal.
This kind of "disconnection" is basically a form of self-torture.
Yang Xueyi was not affected at all. She went to bed on time, was full of energy, went out early and came back late. Even Ying Yun didn't know what she was busy with recently, as she could be so passionate.
Yu Shi's advice to Ying Yun to cut off contact would not show any effect for at least another week, but Ying Yun felt that he was almost at his limit.
Originally, he could still comfort himself that Yang Xueyi at least needed him in bed, and even because of Yang Xueyi's inertia and nostalgia, Ying Yun occupied an important position. But now, for several days in a row, the two of them treated each other with respect, more apart than together. Although Ying Yun remained calm and composed on the surface, he couldn't help but feel anxious inside -
If this continues, what if Yang Xueyi finds one day that her insomnia is completely cured and she no longer needs Ying Yun?
Besides, she didn't know what she was busy with right now. Had she made new friends? Were there any men among her new friends who harbored ill intentions towards her? Could it be that her so-called "disconnection" had actually given these sinister men the opportunity to lurk around Yang Xueyi and gradually invade her life?
Although he did not refute Yu Shi's principles, Ying Yun felt that he might be letting his friend down and could no longer do as he taught.
Anyone who can truly “break off contact” must be strong enough in heart, strong enough to even be able to withstand the complete loss of the other person after “breaking off contact”.
But when facing Yang Xueyi, Ying Yun found that he couldn't afford to lose at all.
There are indeed various tutorials on relationships in the world, but Ying Yun found that none of them applied to him, because using the tutorials required calmness, and it was difficult for Ying Yun to remain calm towards Yang Xueyi.
And when he received Zhong Tian's call, the last bit of dignity and calmness that Ying Yun had managed to maintain was finally broken -
"Ying Yun, what a shame! The capable person you recommended to me is leaving! I just got back from a business trip and heard this sad news from our partner!"
Ying Yun didn't react at first.
Zhong Tian sighed and said, "It's Yang Xueyi!"
Ying Yun was stunned for a moment, frowning slightly: "She's leaving? Where is she leaving? Is she going to change jobs?"
Why didn’t Yang Xueyi tell him anything?
However, with this kind of work intensity, job hopping is reasonable.
Ying Yun's face darkened: "As a boss, you should reflect on why you failed to retain talented people."
Zhong Tian screamed: "Can you blame me for this?!"
"That's not just a simple job change! She's actually changing countries! She's going to Africa!"
Zhong Tian's tone was full of regret, but he couldn't hide his blessing. "Duanfang Biotechnology is currently preparing to launch several new drugs in several African countries, so they are building an overseas translation team and are trying to recruit people with high salaries. People always strive for higher positions. She is very talented and is going to Duanfang Biotechnology. We are just a small startup, how can we compare with Duanfang Biotechnology? What can I offer to keep her? They are offering annual salaries of one million!"
Ying Yun was stunned and asked in a deep voice, "Duan Fang Biological?"
"Yes, it's a big company! And Yang Xueyi will be the director in charge of overseas translation of pharmaceutical products. It's a newly opened department. Duanfang Biological's HR department is already recruiting department employees. She will be assigned three subordinates when the time comes. She will have her own small team to manage in the future. I didn't expect that I would have to call her President Yang when we meet again. But she is indeed an excellent person and very hardworking."
Ying Yun heard his own voice coming from far away, almost distorted: "She's going to Africa? When? How long will she be away?"
"He took a flight today. He just came to the company yesterday to say goodbye to us."
today?
All that was left in Ying Yun's ears was tinnitus, like the ruins after a bombing. He could not hear anything else. There was only the residual heat of the burning bombs and the devastated land. The whole world seemed to have fallen into ruins.
At this moment, everything else seemed to cease to exist.
As a surgeon, Ying Yun's hands have always been steady, but at this moment, he discovered for the first time that his hands were not that steady.
When calling Yang Xueyi, Ying Yun could almost feel the muscles in his hands trembling.
It turns out that when people panic to a certain extent, they will really tremble slightly.
However, it seemed as if God was against him. Ying Yun was anxious and worried, but after the "beep" sound of the phone, Yang Xueyi did not answer the phone until the mechanical female voice said ruthlessly, "The number you dialed is currently unavailable."
Ying Yun really wanted to keep calling Yang Xueyi until she answered. He no longer cared about following the love manuals that Yu Shi had taught him. He just wanted to hear Yang Xueyi's voice, tell her how he felt, and ask her why she suddenly left him and went to Africa without saying a word.
But the nurse's voice made Ying Yun return to his professional role——
"Doctor Ying! A patient just arrived. He fell from the scaffolding at the construction site and has an open fracture!"
In the case of an open fracture, the fracture ends pierce the skin and are exposed to the air, which can easily cause infection. Therefore, it is necessary to complete the debridement in a hurry and then use a fixator or steel plate screws to fix and reduce the fracture.
Ying Yun had to put away his phone and suppressed his emotions: "Which construction site was the patient sent from?"
"On the outskirts of town, on the construction site for the new office building."
Ying Yun understood. If it was in the suburbs, although the First Affiliated Hospital was the nearest hospital, because the construction site was located in a remote suburb, it would probably take the patient almost an hour to be sent here from the time he was injured, and the condition of the wound was more serious than expected.
There is no time to delay.
“Call me back when you see it.”
Ying Yun pursed his lips, sent the WeChat message to Yang Xueyi, stopped thinking about anything else, put away his phone, and began to arrange the debridement.
**
In the end, Yang Xueyi's trip to Africa was temporarily advanced by three days. Because she urgently needed a translator, she only had time to go back to the medical translation company to get her resignation form and say goodbye to her colleagues one by one. She didn't even have time to treat them to a farewell dinner before she was pushed by life to board the plane.
Because the travel time was temporarily moved up compared to the original plan, Ms. Yang Meiying's new employer had an important dinner that day and Ms. Yang Meiying could not leave. Qiao Qianqian was also busy with work on a promotional video, so neither of them could come to see her off at the airport.
As for Ying Yun...
Yang Xueyi has been busy these days and has been deliberately avoiding Ying Yun, and has not said anything to him at all.
After all, he seems to be very busy, not only busy with work, but also busy communicating with An Xin.
Of course, Yang Xueyi didn't want Ying Yun to come to see her off, because she didn't want to make it a drag and be reluctant to leave, and seeing Ying Yun might make her feel unbalanced again.
Moreover, perhaps what she needed more than the job at Duan Fang Biology was the opportunity to get away from Rong City that this job brought her.
A few months in Africa would be a great opportunity given to her by God, allowing her to finally be physically away from the addictive drug, so that she could let go of this hopeless relationship, focus on her career, and make a fortune.
We are all adults now. Instead of having a sentimental farewell at the airport, it is better for us to keep our distance and deal with the situation calmly as we do now.
Anyway, when Yang Xueyi comes back next time, Ying Yun will definitely have moved out of his house.
Besides, Yang Xueyi herself couldn't tell when she would be able to return to China.
In short, she finally went to Africa alone with her luggage and boarded an international flight.
I feel a little lonely, but also a little excited, like rushing to a completely new and unfamiliar battlefield alone.
The future will no longer be a predictable life from nine to five. It may be full of turbulent changes, difficulties and challenges, but it has all possibilities. It is like a blank piece of paper, spread out in front of Yang Xueyi, extending to the distant distance, with no end in sight. She can paint and create pictures in any style as she pleases.
In fact, after Yang Xueyi passed the security check, she looked at her mobile phone and found that Ying Yun had missed several calls to her and left a message asking her to call back after seeing it.
Yang Xueyi didn't mean to ignore the calls, but it might be fate's arrangement. In short, Yang Xueyi missed several calls.
But it doesn't matter if she missed it. Yang Xueyi really hasn't figured out what to say to Ying Yun in person.
It takes courage to make this decision, but Yang Xueyi has no regrets.
After boarding the plane, she took out her cell phone, said goodbye to Yang Meiying and Qiao Qianqian again, and then she clicked on Ying Yun's pure black avatar.
She decided to finish the last thing left in the country——
Although time has passed, Ying Yun is not a fool. He will always hear from others that he has gone to Africa. After a few months, they will tacitly stop contacting each other. Without saying it explicitly, he will know that the relationship between the two is over.
But Yang Xueyi thought about it and decided to end it herself.
Talk things over with Ying Yun and set him free.
The sooner the better, the less time he has to wait and can move on to a new life without any worries.
He no longer has to worry about having to force himself to sort out his relationship with Yang Xueyi. He can start his new life lightly and without any psychological burden.
To pursue the person he truly loves, to fall in love, and to welcome his new family.
Yang Xueyi would completely withdraw from his life, without even bringing any sequelae or side effects to his future, and would completely eliminate all traces that should be eliminated.
**
After completing the debridement surgery and ensuring that the patient's fracture received the best treatment, Ying Yun finally left the operating room.
Almost immediately, he took out his cell phone.
Yang Xueyi didn't call him back, but sent him a message.
The signal outside the operating room was not good, and Ying Yun could only see the little red dots indicating unread messages on WeChat. Yang Xueyi had sent him many messages, but many of them did not pop up. He walked all the way, waiting for the signal to improve so that he could see the content clearly.
But Yang Xueyi's many replies obviously made Ying Yun relieved. It must be inconvenient for her to make phone calls, but she still replied to him so many times so seriously. No other opposite sex could make Yang Xueyi reply so many times because of a missed call.
Ying Yun calmed down a little.
He was impulsive just now and should have listened to what Yang Xueyi had to say first. She must have something to explain.
Zhong Tian had been away on business recently and hadn't seen Yang Xueyi. Besides, how familiar could Yang Xueyi be with him? Which subordinate would tell the truth to their boss? What did he know?
There was no way Yang Xueyi was going to Africa without telling him.
She must have changed jobs because Zhong Tian’s company was not doing well. Maybe she had been wronged and had a lot to complain to Ying Yun.
If this is true, Ying Yun will definitely do justice for her.
When they reached the pharmacy in the lobby, the signal finally returned to normal. The first message had already popped up. Ying Yun quickly clicked on it, expecting to see some coquettish emojis from Yang Xueyi. However, what caught his eye was her rare serious words:
"Ying Yun, I've thought about it carefully and I don't want to continue this relationship that's difficult to make public."
Almost in an instant, Ying Yun's heartbeat became very heavy and incredibly fast.
He knew he should be calm and rational like a mature doctor, but he couldn't suppress the crazy beating of his heart.
What Yu Shi said turned out to be true.
The "disconnection" and cold treatment during this period actually worked.
Yang Xueyi has re-examined this relationship and no longer wants to continue this non-public model.
She finally figured it out and wanted to give Ying Yun a legal and suitable identity that could be presented to the public, and was willing to make her relationship with him public.
From now on, Ying Yun no longer has to be sneaky in front of Aunt Yang, but can hold hands openly.
Ying Yun had a feeling that after years of forbearance, the clouds had finally cleared and the moon appeared.
The days when he had to be silent and always available for Yang Xueyi's call without any self-respect were finally over. He could finally hold his head high and no longer had to hide his relationship with Yang Xueyi from anyone. He was qualified to stop and deal with those men with bad intentions who were around Yang Xueyi and waiting for an opportunity to strike.
Ying Yun picked up the phone and wanted to call Yang Xueyi, but he was worried that his overly nervous and trembling voice would reveal his emotions due to his homesickness.
Yu Shi said that if the other party takes the initiative after "breaking contact", Ying Yun also needs to show calmness and self-control, and show a strategic retreat. Otherwise, if he is too excited, it will seem cheap, and the other party will not cherish it after getting it.
Ying Yun held the phone and tried to stay calm, but his heartbeat was as loud as a roar.
He couldn't bear it any longer. Instead of calling, he could just reply on WeChat, right?
After all, Yang Xueyi is an impatient person, and Ying Yun doesn't want her to wait too long for his reply. Otherwise, if she gets angry, won't Ying Yun be the one to be coaxed after all the effort?
But he will be Yang Xueyi's boyfriend from now on, so it's my duty to coax her.
Just as Ying Yun was thinking about how to word his reply to show his approval of the change in the traditional mainstream of this relationship without appearing too happy, he saw other messages from Yang Xueyi buffered out one by one, flooding into his eyes.
She said—
"My insomnia is gone. So we don't need to continue. That's it."
"Also, I'm going to Africa for work. It might be a few months, half a year, or even a year. The duration is uncertain, so it's good for both you and me to end it now."
"We're not young anymore. This relationship doesn't need to continue. After it ends, you and I are free to find someone else, whether it's dating, marriage, or having children. It's time to start a new journey and have a relationship that's accepted by traditional mainstream society."
"Let's part ways amicably from now on. There's no need to contact each other anymore."
…
Although the weather was clear and sunny, Ying Yun felt that the weather suddenly changed. For the first time, he truly experienced the feeling of being struck by lightning from the blue sky.
At this moment, Ying Yun threw all the thoughts about wording and choosing the right words out of the window.
He no longer had time to question the correctness of Yu Shi's theory. His mind was blank and he was no longer able to use any of the so-called love skills. All he felt was panic and helplessness after the huge shock.
So what he waited for was not Yang Xueyi's initiative and recognition, but her ruthless separation.
Even after breaking up with Ying Yun, she wanted to immediately fall in love, get married, and have children?
Ying Yun tried hard to recall, but couldn't think of any new opposite sex contacts Yang Xueyi had recently.
So it was the White Moonlight that Qiao Qianqian had been speculating about? How had things suddenly progressed so rapidly, all the way to love and marriage?
What good can a man like that be?
Yang Xueyi is so nice and likes him, but he hasn't been in a relationship for so many years. Isn't this just keeping Yang Xueyi hanging? He is simply a scumbag.
This isn't how things should have turned out.
Ying Yun couldn't calm down at all.
At this moment, he no longer wanted self-respect, tolerance, restraint, and propriety.
He just desperately wanted Yang Xueyi to come back to him.
Even if it's out of pity for him, he'll accept being a free duck.
Ying Yun picked up the phone and ignored everything else. He tried to call Yang Xueyi, but for some reason, the tone was always busy.
So, he settled for the next best thing and started sending messages to Yang Xueyi. Even if Yang Xueyi sentenced him to death, he wanted to fight to the death and not accept his fate easily. At least he wanted to express his feelings and fight for a glimmer of hope.
"Yang Xueyi, don't end it with me. Even if you go to Africa, I will wait for you for a few months, half a year, a year, or even several years. If possible, when you want to have a relationship, can you think of me first and give me a chance?"
Ying Yun's mind was in a mess and his rationality was falling apart. At this moment, all the reserve, pretense and stubbornness of the past ten years were gone.
He hated himself for losing the opportunity while hesitating and waiting.
At this moment, Ying Yun really couldn't think too much. When he reacted, he found that he had already clicked send.
In the past, I thought it was difficult to be honest with Yang Xueyi. Letting Yang Xueyi know that she liked her would mean showing her cards and getting out early. But now Ying Yun realized that it was actually very simple.
It only takes a second of desperate impulse, as strong as the desire to survive in a desperate situation. In order to stay alive, you can do anything.
However, his excitement and panic did not last a second.
Because he received a reply almost immediately, not from Yang Xueyi, but from the WeChat system——
[The message has been sent, but was rejected by the other party. ]
Yang Xueyi blocked him.
Ying Yun didn't believe it and switched to other social media, but the result was the same.
Yang Xueyi blocked him from the entire Internet.
【Author’s words】
This chapter will drop 200 red envelopes
Let us congratulate Ying Yun for winning a trip to Africa
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