The relationship between Xu Qingli and I is different from others.
She never asked me for money.
Because she is not short of money.
What exists between us is simply the desire to expand our relationship. We also agreed not to disturb each other's lives. If the other party has a partner, our relationship will end immediately.
So when I was having an affair with Gong Xiaoai, she asked me to end our relationship.
But unfortunately, Gong Xiaoai found out about this. She thought Xu Qingli and I were in love, and then I cheated on her.
But I know that I am not in love with anyone.
Gong Xiaoai accepted my flirtation, undoubtedly because she saw that I was a "potential stock" and was attracted by my appearance and other external conditions.
I'm not noble, but she's not much noble either.
Men who play around in the world will not make women hold a grudge against them. At most, women will hold a grudge against those men who cheat. Of course, if the man admits his mistakes well enough, he will also be forgiven by women.
But I think my behavior is not much better than those "cheating" men.
But there are women who are eager to "forgive" me.
My "tricks" are not sophisticated, it's just that greedy women are so easy to deceive.
The easiest women to "cheat" are those who have no self. They wrap themselves in material things, but expose their inner insecurity and cowardice. They want to change, but don't want to rely on themselves. Instead, they want to find a man to help them change their fate.
Gong Xiaoai is such a woman.
I don't even have to put in much effort. As long as I satisfy all her "fantasies" about material things, she will listen to me.
But later she woke up and was not so easily fooled.
So I flipped over.
Men are naturally confident, while women are naturally unconfident. It seems to be a natural tendency.
In psychology, there is a term called the "gaslight" effect, which refers to the emotional abuse and manipulation imposed on the victim, causing the victim to gradually lose self-esteem, develop self-doubt, and be unable to escape.
I feel that this is the relationship between me and Gong Xiaoai.
But it is not so easy to control a person, Gong Xiaoai realized.
My "strategy" failed.
Especially after she awakened, she also awakened almost all the girls I had flirted with. All the girls avoided me, and it was not so easy for me to succeed with other people.
In my opinion, the so-called cheating is nothing more than a superficial physical relationship. Even if there is harm, it is not as great as the emotional harm.
But many people often overlook the mental harm it causes.
This kind of harm may have a slight PUA attribute. When the person is in it, it is not easy to notice it. But after getting out of it and looking back, the control of the mind and the suppression of self-personality are the most fatal.
The impact brought about by this is not just about the attitude towards feelings, but may be a change in the entire life.
I have come into contact with many women, but Xu Qingli and Ding Ning are the ones who are least susceptible to my approach.
Needless to say, Xu Qingli has a good family background and is not short of money, but she loves Han Chen but cannot get him.
She has no emotional expectations from me and only wants physical pleasure, so it is impossible for me to "control" her.
Ding Ning had a different reason. She was tolerant of me as if I were a "family member". That tolerance was the tolerance of kinship. She and I didn't even have any "feelings" with each other, so how could she fall for my trick?
The key is that I seem to have a different attitude towards Ding Ning.
I also realized this difference later.
Like Xu Qingli, my desires and feelings are never consistent.
Of course, this was the case before I met Ding Ning.
In the past, I thought that desire and emotion were not unified, but after falling in love with Ding Ning, this idea gradually faded in my mind.
I used to think that playing games between women was a very interesting thing.
Because I like to see them flatter and compliment me.
Which man is not lustful? It’s just that everyone’s moral standards are different.
Unfortunately, I am that person with low moral standards.
It is my luck and her misfortune that Ding Ning knows me.
I am more comfortable dealing with innocent and harmless little girls like her.
Because even a slight proximity would make her distracted and her breathing disordered.
But when I was exposed by Gong Xiaoai and everyone avoided me, Ding Ning was the only one by my side.
Someone teased me, saying that even though the fish pond was overturned, there was still a fish loyal to me.
For some reason, I am very annoyed by this kind of joke.
In the past, I would have just treated it as a joke.
Ding Ning is a little different, she is very persevering.
She was extremely patient with me when she learned that I might be her long-lost half-brother.
Even after I was seriously injured while saving a child, she still took care of me carefully, even though I treated her coldly.
I know that she doesn't have that kind of love between a man and a woman for me, but is trying hard to "atone for her sins".
Yes, atonement.
She was atonement for her father's sin of losing me and causing my subsequent life to be displaced.
I actually hated her father for not having high hopes for me and letting me suffer such a turbulent life for no reason.
But I didn’t tell Ding Ning that I was not her “brother”, or her biological brother.
Her mother is not my biological mother. My biological father and uncle died in a mining accident. My biological mother was pregnant and was very emotional when she heard the news. She later had amniotic fluid embolism and could not be saved.
Ding Ning's mother is actually just my aunt.
Both my parents are dead, and my uncle is gone too, so I became a complete orphan. My aunt, Ding Ning's mother, is kind-hearted and asked me to follow her from now on and she would raise me.
Later, in order to hide the truth from others, she asked me to call her mom so that no one would look down on me as a burden to someone else's family.
Later, Ding Ning's mother met Ding Ning's father, and the two got to know each other and got married.
Ordinary people don’t really care about that many things. As long as their personalities are compatible and they feel that the two of them can live together, they will be together.
Ding Ning's father is also a good man. He knows that he and my mother, Ding Ning, have no blood relationship, but he still assumes that I am Ding Ning's mother's son and considers himself my stepfather.
However, I was kidnapped later and my memory was confused. I couldn’t figure out whether he thought I was a burden and deliberately lost me.
Anyway, I hate it.
Ding Ning's appearance reminds me of the past.
She tried her best to be nice to me, but I just watched her every move coldly and remained unmoved.
Of course, being unmoved is just what I thought, not what I really was.
I can't resist such an innocent girl.
She tried her best to invite me back to her family and brought her parents along to treat me well.
I am not a completely cold-blooded person, especially when I was in the worst health and most helpless, she was still by my side.
Just this alone can make me fall.
Fall into the tenderness she gives.
No man doesn't like a gentle woman.
Ding Ning’s gentleness makes me feel particularly at ease.
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