Chen Pan hugged Zhou Mo, rested his head on her legs, and sobbed softly.
Zhou Mo gently stroked her back as a silent comfort.
"How did Lu Zhishu offend you again? Is it simply because he's on a business trip and not with you?"
Zhou Mo didn't think that Chen Pan was the kind of person who would make trouble for no reason. The fact that she could endure living in such a remote place showed that she had made some mental preparations.
Shen Pan: "So tired."
Zhou Mo: "How do you mean?"
Chen Pan: "I'm tired."
Zhou Mo: "Because of Lu Zhishu?"
Chen Pan: "Not all of them, life, love, work... a lot."
Zhou Mo sighed, "I have a similar feeling."
This life seems to eat people. They greet every day with the most energetic spirit, but when they look back and reflect, they always feel that why there are so many disappointments and unfulfilled things in life.
There is no hope in life.
The lover is nowhere to be seen.
Chen Pan reached out and took some tissue paper from the bedside table, wiped her tears briefly, continued to lie on Zhou Mo's legs, and started a new topic.
"Aren't things going well between you and Han Chen?"
“It’s not going well.”
"You two are childhood sweethearts, first loves, so you know each other well. It shouldn't be difficult for you to get along with each other."
Zhou Mo shook his head. "If he knew what kind of relationship I really needed, we wouldn't have broken up in the first place."
Shen Pan was curious, tears still wet in her eyes, and looked up at Zhou Mo, "So why did you dump him in the first place?"
"He wants to leave Dongjiang, and I want to stay in Dongjiang. We are in different places, and there is no future for us."
"That's too absolute. Being in different places isn't something we can't overcome. Aren't you all in Dongjiang now?"
Zhou Mo was speechless.
"Being in different places is definitely not the fundamental reason for your breakup." Shen Pan said.
"That's the most fundamental reason," Zhou Mo said.
"If so, it means you still don't love each other enough. You're not separated by death. Even if you're in different places, there's still a chance you can meet again. As long as you have the will, there's always a way to solve it."
"What if one party is heartless?" Zhou Mo asked back.
Chen Pan got up and said, "I said, there must be other reasons. When you said 'one party is heartless', you were referring to Han Chen, right?"
Zhou Mo turned his head away, "I don't know."
"You don't have to hide it," Chen Pan lowered his head, "I understand this feeling, because that's how I feel right now... I'm terrified and worried about losing everything."
"Yes, this feeling is not good." Zhou Mo is greedy for the sweetness of love, but also hates the fear when he is not with his partner. "I want to have a good relationship, but I don't want to lose myself because of a relationship."
"Love is like this, no one is free from grievances," Chen Pan said a little discouraged, "sometimes I feel like I'm being pretentious, and I'm afraid of being called pretentious."
"That's nothing. No one wants to be hypocritical, but if it really happened to me, I'm afraid I would just cry even louder secretly."
The more Zhou Mo spoke, the more Chen Pan felt he could relate.
She looked up at Zhou Mo's expression, who seemed listless, "Are you and Han Chen having a fight too?"
Zhou Mo remained calm. "Isn't it normal to be upset? Who doesn't have a temper and emotions?"
Chen Pan: "Which of your weaknesses did he touch again?"
Zhou Mo looked at Chen Pan again and said seriously: "As expected, you know me best. Chen Pan, if you were a man, I would definitely ask you to be my boyfriend."
Shen Pan immediately backed away and looked at Zhou Mo warily: "I am a straight woman."
Zhou Mo glared at her: "Can't you bend over occasionally?"
Chen Pan crossed his arms and made a cross: "Da Mai."
Zhou Mo glared at her, "It's all in vain that I took care of you."
Chen Pan: "I still have Lu Zhishu, I can't cheat on him, right?"
Zhou Mo: "Are you thinking about him again now? Weren't you crying like a tearful child before?"
Shen Pan sighed, "What can I do? I just like him."
Zhou Mo: "It's because I like him that I can't forgive him so quickly. People don't have that much empathy with each other, especially men. They are not emotional creatures. Career, money, power, there are many things more important than love. Love is just the spice of their lives, the icing on the cake."
Chen Pan stared at Zhou Mo in a daze: "You're right, absolutely right. Lu Zhishu takes work too seriously. Sometimes I think, why not just fall in love with his work, why bother looking for me. Then I think about it, work can't satisfy his physical needs. Thinking about it this way, I feel like a prostitute, or a white-collar one at that. It's not worth it."
Zhou Mo: "So, before the relationship is stable, don't give yourself up too early."
Chen Pan looked at her suspiciously: "So, you and Han Chen have obtained the marriage certificate, but you are still just a couple in name only?"
Zhou Mo: "...Why do you suddenly bring this up?"
Chen Pan: "You said it yourself, your relationship is not stable yet, you can't give yourself up in advance."
Zhou Mo: “…”
Chen Pan: "It's good that you're so cautious, unlike me, who would just jump in and end up losing more than he gains."
Zhou Mo: "Have you ever thought about leaving or taking your own path?"
Shen Pan: "What road?"
Zhou Mo: "Find a stable job and move closer to work."
Shen Pan bit her lip, "What about Lu Zhishu?"
Zhou Mo: "He has hands and feet, and he can live without you. If he really cares about you, he will consider the practical problems that concern you instead of turning a blind eye."
Shen Pan hesitated.
"Chen Pan, you were determined to make a fortune before. We all agreed that making money comes first and everything else comes second. Are you willing to just take 2,000 yuan a month like this?"
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