Chen Pan smiled foolishly, but was extremely happy.
She was so naive at that time that she didn't even realize that Lu Zhishu was flirting with her.
Her love for Lu Zhishu was also very simple. Being with him was like being in love.
Although Lu Zhishu did not confess his feelings at that time, they were not officially boyfriend and girlfriend.
In other words, they are in the ambiguous stage and have not yet reached the stage of confirming the relationship.
But at that time, Shen Pan felt that it was her happiest moment.
On the contrary, after confirming her relationship with Lu Zhishu, she was not so happy.
Lu Zhishu was a well-educated gentleman. The amount of rice she ordered was not enough for two people, so he gave her the extra portion, letting her eat her fill first, and the rest was his.
It was a typhoon, with heavy rain and strong winds howling all night long.
Lu Zhishu asked Chen Pan not to go back, but to stay in the company for one night and go back tomorrow morning when the weather is better.
Chen Pan looked at the stormy night and nodded.
She was not on guard against Lu Zhishu.
Perhaps it was because she was not vigilant, or perhaps it was because in her eyes, Lu Zhishu was not a bad person and had no bad intentions.
He was as gentleman as ever, giving her the only single room where he could sleep, while he himself hunched over in a chair in front of the computer, staring intently at the screen, observing the program that automatically refreshed the equipment in the game.
"There's a hair dryer in the bathroom," he reminded.
Shen Pan understood what he meant.
He meant that she could use a hair dryer to dry her wet pants and shoes.
"Oh," Shen Pan went to the bathroom to get a hair dryer and slowly blew his pants and shoes.
After blowing for a while, she turned off the hair dryer, stuck her head out and asked, "I turned it to the highest setting. Did the noise just now disturb you?"
"No."
"Um."
Shen Pan slept in his bedroom all night.
When I left the next day, Lu Zhishu was still lying on the computer desk and hadn't woken up yet.
She bought two breakfasts, one for the two of them to eat on, and one for herself to take away and eat while walking.
During the morning class, Shen Pan received a text message from Lu Zhishu.
He said: Thank you.
Without further ado, Shen Pan knew that he was thanking him for breakfast.
Gentleness and courtesy are Lu Zhishu's consistent style.
Even after they were together, Lu Zhishu was extremely gentle when doing the most intimate things.
He would use his hands to protect her head to prevent it from hitting the headboard.
She just said that the fully-furnished apartment Zhou Mo rented felt very good, so Lu Zhishu found a brand new fully-furnished apartment in Gan Ding Apartment and even chose the style according to her preferences.
Except, of course, that the place is a bit far away.
Lu Zhishu never intended to let her resign from Bojian. It was her own idea to leave Bojian.
She didn't want to cause any inconvenience to Lu Zhishu's work because of herself. Even after they were really together, Shen Pan asked Lu Zhishu not to leak the news of their relationship.
At that time, Bojian had already recruited several technical talents and experienced administrators. After looking at Bojian's financial report, they decided to optimize the personnel structure. People like Chen Pan, who were of no use to Bojian and were just sitting there doing nothing, were of course the first to be optimized.
Lu Zhishu had a private meeting with those people and insisted that anyone could leave except Shen Pan.
No one else understands why.
Only Lu Zhishu knew that there were so many people coming and going along the way, but the only one who stayed with him from beginning to end was Chen Pan.
Once a company is established, there are many interests involved. As a boss, it is very difficult to strike a balance among them.
Lu Zhishu couldn't afford to get into an awkward situation with these talented people over such a small matter, and he was even more unwilling to resign from Chen Pan.
He proposed a compromise: Shen Pan would remain in the company, but his salary would be paid as usual, and his salary could be reduced.
In other words, Lu Zhishu used his own salary to subsidize Chen Pan.
Chen Pan felt that Lu Zhishu's behavior was outrageous and could easily cause resentment.
His preference is too obvious, and it is actually a kind of shackle.
Others would inevitably wonder if Lu Zhishu could even reduce his salary for Chen Pan, and if he offended Chen Pan again in the future, would his own salary or work be paid or carried out as usual.
Shen Pan didn't want to put Lu Zhishu in a dilemma, so he resigned.
However, after resigning, her relationship with Lu Zhishu seemed to have changed drastically.
On weekdays, they were in the company, seeing each other every day, and were basically together when going out for social events, business trips, etc. But after she resigned, she found that Lu Zhishu still ate and lived in the company as before, but was no longer by her side.
Gan Ding Apartment is far away from Bo Jian, and it takes Lu Zhishu a long time to come back.
It’s not that Lu Zhishu didn’t want to rent a place closer to her, it’s that Lu Zhishu really has no money.
Despite this, Lu Zhishu still tried his best to meet her needs within his ability.
There is no doubt that Lu Zhishu is a qualified boyfriend who is responsible, caring, and ambitious.
They clearly did nothing, but were pushed further and further away by the torrent of time.
The more Chen Pan is alone, the more he longs for a family.
She didn't want to live this kind of aimless waiting and wandering life anymore.
She wants a safe haven, she longs for the warmth of family, she understands that love and marriage are two different things, and love cannot be eaten.
She could talk about love with Lu Zhishu, but she couldn't talk about marriage with him.
Because there are too many uncertainties, and she needs to be more patient.
Wait until he grows up, wait until he makes a name for himself, wait until he realizes his aspirations and ambitions.
At that time, she was afraid that she would be an old woman, or even... after accompanying this man to grow up, she would end up making wedding clothes for others.
If the future is uncertain, Shen Pan hopes to make some decisions that give her control, so she chooses to break up.
What she was sure of was that she could temporarily put aside this uneasy love, go to work, and earn money. After she had a little bit of savings, perhaps on a certain weekday, by some chance, she would be able to meet a boy with a similar family background and a similar mind to her, and embrace a new life that was within her reach.
Her new life does not necessarily have to include a car and a house. As long as the two of them can snuggle up to each other every night and share their innermost feelings, whether they are happy or complaining, as long as they are united, their life will definitely get better and better.
Don’t be afraid of the present hardship, just be afraid of having no hope in the future.
Lu Zhishu made her experience the present suffering, but he could not give her hope for the future.
So, she came to her own.
Chen Pan was sure that she couldn't forget Lu Zhishu so easily. After all, he was her first love, and it was also an unforgettable sweet memory that lasted for two years.
But the reality is right in front of her, and she will never forget how lonely and helpless she felt during those months in Gan Ding Apartment.
It takes a reason to fall in love with Lu Zhishu, and it also takes a reason to give up on him.
It depends on which one she cares more about.
Chen Pan stared at the message sent by Lu Zhishu in a daze again.
After much thought, she said, "I'm not as resolute and heartless as Zhou Mo, nor can I completely cut off contact with her after breaking up. Let's just be friends for now."
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