Rather than being afraid that Ai Zhiyin would not dare to answer, it would be better to say that he did not dare to listen to Ai Zhiyin's answer.
People are like this, they care a lot, but they are also scared to death.
"Are you doubting me and Han Jue?" Ai Zhiyin understood Han Ji's silence.
"No," Han Ji didn't know how to explain, "I'm just... worried. I can't really explain it, just pretend I didn't ask."
"You've already asked, so how can I pretend you didn't ask?" Ai Zhiyin laughed, an angry laugh. "Han Ji, you always treat others as fools, don't you? You want me to pretend you didn't do something you did, and you want me to pretend you didn't ask something you asked. Who do you think I am to let you fool me like this?"
"No, I didn't mean that," Han Ji panicked, at a loss for words. "Zhiyin, I never meant to fool you. I just... I just really want you to forgive me. I know I'm not qualified to say this to you, so I don't dare to yell at you, I don't dare to say anything harsh to you, and I don't dare to talk to you in a questioning tone. I... I don't know what's wrong with me. I just care too much about every word you say, and how you feel. So much so that I can't control what I'm saying at all."
It's too confusing. Han Ji has never spoken like this before, without any logic or thinking.
Embarrassed and humble, melancholy and flustered.
This is Ai Zhiyin's direct feeling towards Han Ji now.
She just looked at him without blinking, recalling the past in her mind, especially the look on his face when he left home, always smiling and talking about something he had to do.
At that time, he looked much more charming when he lied with full confidence than he does now.
"Do you know why I don't think you're dirty?" Ai Zhiyin suddenly asked.
Han Ji was stunned. "W-What do you mean..."
Ai Zhiyin walked to the bookcase behind Han Ji, bent down, opened the lower cabinet door, and took out a heavy blue file box.
She opened the file box and pushed it in front of Han Ji.
"All your medical examination records," Ai Zhiyin said. "I only have sex with you after your medical examination results come out. I'm afraid of contracting a disease. You should be thankful that your examination results are all normal."
"You..." Han Ji looked at the thick stack of medical examination forms and finally understood why Ai Zhiyin always gave him such frequent physical examinations. "In your eyes, am I so hungry that I won't be picky about food?"
"What else?" Ai Zhiyin pointed at the medical examination form and said, "Being healthy and disease-free is the most I can tolerate. What else do you want from me? Keep me in the dark like a fool? Or wait for some woman to come and make trouble with me one day?"
“…” Han Ji couldn’t refute.
He was the one who did the wrong thing, and no matter what he said, it is not worth explaining.
What could he say? Did he say he didn't just go after every woman he met? Or was he picky, looking for high-end escorts with high security levels? Was he not as shameless as she imagined?
But he has done such a thing, so what's the point of talking about bottom line?
He himself knew that he was untenable.
What's more, what Ai Zhiyin said was right. He wanted to keep these things secret forever, preferably for a lifetime.
Later, when Kan Tong came to his house, he suddenly realized the crisis.
He was inexplicably afraid, afraid that Kan Tong would say something to Ai Zhiyin, afraid that he would be exposed.
"From the moment you did these things and let me know, you've lost all hope of gaining the upper hand over me," Ai Zhiyin said with a wry smile. "I can tell you very clearly that if you remain stubborn, angry, and refuse to admit your mistakes even though you know you're wrong, the consequences will be even more tragic than they are now. You've damaged my reputation as the eldest daughter of the Ai family, and I will not let you off lightly. Do I need to continue?"
"So...you mean, let's part ways amicably?" Han Ji raised his eyes, his eyes full of sadness.
"It's really easy to talk to smart people," Ai Zhiyin said. "I really like that."
Han laughed at himself coldly, "After so many years of marriage, this is the only thing I like about you, haha."
"It's better than having no good impression at all."
"It's better to have nothing," at least it stopped him from feeling smart now.
"Are you done talking?" Ai Zhiyin asked.
"No," Han Ji said, "but I don't know what to say next."
"It's okay, Haoxuan is asleep. I still have time. I can wait. You can think about it slowly."
Han Ji raised his eyelids tiredly and looked at her. "You are so kind and indifferent. How did you do it?"
Those were clearly considerate words, but when she said them, they sounded so cold and piercing.
"I'm kind because we're all in this together, and this boat can't capsize. Being indifferent is my weapon to protect myself. I don't want to be like those women who become self-pitying and desperate after being cheated on."
Han Ji smiled bitterly and said, "You are a bit like Fifth Aunt. Even more stubborn than her."
Ai Zhiyin: "I'm like Aunt Wu, but you're not as good as Uncle Wu. Although Uncle Wu didn't have any feelings for Aunt Wu, he at least respected her and never messed around outside. He came back on the 30th and asked Aunt Wu and Han Chen why they hadn't come back. He also spoke up for Han Chen and Miss Zhou in front of Grandpa. Uncle Wu didn't believe in love either, but he always put responsibility first. Even if there was no love between husband and wife, he still did what a husband should do."
Han Ji pulled the corner of his lips helplessly.
Of course he understood what Ai Zhiyin said.
It was he who was irresponsible first. It's useless to say anything now. Don't use the excuse that he has no feelings for Ai Zhiyin, because Han Zhen is the biggest example that slaps him in the face.
The absence of love and affection between husband and wife does not mean that you can cheat with a clear conscience.
Since the marriage contract has been signed and it is the most beneficial choice after weighing the pros and cons of both parties, even if there is no so-called love, one should still shoulder the responsibility of the family.
If Ai Zhiyin also used the excuse of having no feelings, she wouldn't have had to have a sexual relationship with him, or even give birth to Han Haoxuan.
From the very beginning, she rushed into this loveless marriage with a sense of faith and responsibility, and did not leave herself any way to turn back. It was he who played around and ignored his identity and responsibilities as a husband in the marriage.
It hurt Ai Zhiyin as well as myself.
"There's something I just remembered and forgot to tell you," Ai Zhiyin said.
"What?" Han Ji was in a daze.
"Kan Tong is coming over today to pay New Year's greetings," Ai Zhiyin said, "We agreed on that yesterday."
The implication was that she didn't ask her to come on purpose.
However, Han Ji was even more shocked and heartbroken after hearing this. Even at this time, Ai Zhiyin was still so calm and composed, and even wanted to explain that this was not her deliberate design.
He should be the one to explain all this.
"I'll go talk to her and tell her to make up any excuse she wants. Not today, not ever again."
Ai Zhiyin chuckled, "You still want to contact her? Aren't you afraid of further misunderstandings?"
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