"Yes," Qi Tan said, "It's because I wasn't ruthless enough, because I hesitated and looked ahead and behind, that I ended up in this situation. I couldn't bear to see the people I care about get hurt, so I couldn't bear to use harsh methods. I always felt that being gentler and leaving some room would at least make my conscience feel less sad. But... indecision hurts others and yourself. He was so glorious, he didn't love you but he monopolized you, and his ruthless and tough methods also allowed him to get everything."
Special Assistant to the Top Leader...
Don't underestimate this inconspicuous name of special assistant. In less than two years, he will be a member of the top leadership team of the Shanghai Stock Exchange.
But his life is much more glorious than his, a newly promoted director in the health department.
"Don't say that," Yan Yi said, "You are really gentle and considerate of other people's feelings. I like you like this. You are humane and not indecisive."
Qi Tan smiled. "Thank you for the compliment, but... I can allow you to hug me because you're sad and discouraged, but... I can't give you much in return. I'm not in a good state right now to talk about love. I still have a lot to deal with in the future: rumors, gossip, and so much more. I also have a lot to think about. I also appreciate your company and comfort, which is exactly what I need right now."
Yan Yi's tears fell like rain, and he continued to bury his head in Qi Tan's arms.
This man, why is he always so gentle?
At this moment, she felt that they were like two pieces of ice that had been covered in dust for a long time and abandoned by the world.
The only way to get closer to each other and warm each other is to hug each other.
"It's okay, you still have me."
"But you shouldn't have come to Dongjiang, let alone come to see me," Qi Tan said. "You sneaked in a few times before, and I didn't really want you to come. You always ignored my advice."
Yan Yi?: "I can't control it. I can't contact you because he will check my phone. If I want to find you, I can only rely on Qi Yan."
Qi Tan: "Check your phone... Maybe he still has you in his heart."
Yan Yi shook his head frantically, "No, absolutely not. Being around him is too depressing and suffocating. I don't want him to have feelings for me. I've already gotten to the point where I can't avoid him anymore."
Qi Tan patted her and comforted her, "I understand you and sympathize with you. I hope you can escape from his control as soon as possible."
Yan Yi?: "I came to Dongjiang this time... and I didn't plan to go back."
Qi Tan was shocked: "Aren't you afraid that he will come looking for you?"
"I bought a ticket to Hangzhou and Kangding, and I plan to leave when you feel better. I'll stay in Hangzhou and Kangding for a while, and then fly directly to Singapore." Yan Yi stood up, stared at Qi Tan, and asked seriously, "Do you want to go with me?"
Qi Tan smiled bitterly: "There is still a lot of mess waiting for me to clean up here, and my family is all here, I can't leave."
Yan Yi nodded, and then she thought of something and asked, "Do you still like Zhou Mo?"
Qi Tan's face stiffened. "How did you know..."
Yan Yi?: "Qi Yan told me that before you met me, you and Zhou Mo had a relationship. She is now with Han Chen and is very happy."
Qi Tan smiled bitterly and said, "I know."
Yan Yi asked: "Is it because of her that you moved in with Duan Feng? I've been to her and Han Chen's house, and you can see Duan Feng's house from the balcony."
Qi Tan didn't answer, but asked, "Do you know why I said I was indecisive?"
Yan Yi shook his head.
Qi Tan: "On the day of the job title evaluation, in order to help Duan Feng get promoted, I resorted to a shady trick and brought Ren Huaibo here. I wanted to use Zhou Mo as a scapegoat to lure Han Chen over, causing him to fail in his promotion. But in the end... I swear I didn't want Zhou Mo's life. I just wanted her and Ren Huaibo to have a quarrel downstairs, and I went down to mediate. If Ren Huaibo refused to give in, the most he would do was smash Zhou Mo's car. If that happened, I would call the police and then take the opportunity to have Zhou Mo call Han Chen over."
Yan Yi was not surprised at all by what Qi Tan did.
Because Qi Tan and Han Chen are the same kind of people, Han Chi can do similar things more easily than Qi Tan.
"Who knew... Ren Huaibo went crazy and almost strangled Zhou Mo to death. If I hadn't gotten down in time..."
The consequences are unimaginable.
After that day, he was terrified and lived in self-blame all day long.
This self-blame tortured him so much that he was driven to despair. He wondered if Zhou Mo had really died that day, and if that had been a relief. Was he not cruel enough? Why had he used Ren Huaibo to harass Zhou Mo and lure Han Chen here? Wouldn't it have been safer to do it himself? Wasn't it simpler to deliberately provoke Zhou Mo and make Han Chen jealous?
But he didn't want to do all this selfishly.
Zhou Mo and he were over, so there was no need for him to deliberately add to her emotional distress.
At the same time, he also knew that if they just met and said hello, he could still say a few words to Zhou Mo. But if he deliberately provoked her and seduced her, Zhou Mo would be afraid to avoid him.
I don't know what he was expecting, but he didn't do that.
It was also because of this incident that he saw his own weakness - indecision.
He did not come from a political family, but fought in the political arena entirely out of passion.
After all, he was not as ruthless and decisive as those who came from aristocratic families, and his failure was inevitable.
In the imperial capital, he couldn't defeat Han Jue because he didn't want Yan Yi to be exposed.
In Dongjiang, he couldn't defeat Han Chen because he didn't want Zhou Mo to get hurt.
All of this can only be blamed on his overflowing sympathy.
You consider other people's feelings, but put yourself in danger.
Yan Yi understood and said, "Although you didn't answer my question, I know what you mean. You and Zhou Mo were in love, and you were moved by her. It was true love, but the past is the past. You may have nostalgia, but you are more rational. Similarly, you are a person who does 'evil' things on the surface, but you are restrained by the kindness in your bones. You can't ignore Zhou Mo at all, and you can't be cruel enough to be an emotional cheat. This emotion is very complicated. Perhaps it is because of the friendship in the past, or perhaps... you are not an unforgivable person."
Qi Tan: "But I did something unforgivable. I still hurt Zhou Mo, and I still almost killed her. And you, I still chose to date you."
Yan Yi smiled and said, "Our relationship, in the eyes of outsiders, is indeed immoral. But how can one explain matters of the heart? If Han Chi is willing to let go, why would I... Never mind, let's not talk about it anymore."
Qi Tan: "Don't think about it, it's all in the past."
Yan Yi?: "Yeah. I knew that coming to you would definitely bring me comfort."
Qi Tan: "I can't treat you like this every time. It's just that I need comfort too."
Yan Yi?: "It doesn't matter. I just want to find comfort and redemption from you."
Qi Tan: "Then I probably can't give it to you."
Yan Yi?: "No, you have already given it to me. As long as I am close to you, I will relax and feel at ease. That's enough."
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