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Be careful! *[March 3, Shangsi Festival]

It's Shangsi again, the mountain peach blossoms should be in bloom.

I still remember when I was eight years old, I sneaked out and climbed on the back of Qingyang and his friends’ carriage all the way to the grassland on the top of Cuiyun Mountain. The sun was shining brightly and I suddenly appeared, scaring them into a cold sweat.

The scorching sun left me with sores all over my body. My father beat me badly and my mother cried and cursed me, but I was very happy.

I’m glad that they still know that I exist in this world.

I haven't left Yinyuexuan for ten years, and I almost forgot the color and fragrance of the peach blossoms. I just remember that they were beautiful, much more beautiful than the flowers growing in the graves in my yard.

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She should be able to stay longer.

I killed someone, the first time I killed someone on purpose.

It turns out her name is Huilan, and she has a younger sister named Huixin.

……[May 9]

Huilan told me about a very interesting person, a storyteller, someone who can make ghost stories come true.

【March 14】

Why does Huilan have to bear the fate of others? Why does the sin of Mingfu fall on me? What did Huilan and I do wrong to deserve such punishment?

Today’s experience was so wonderful that I was afraid I would forget it when I fell asleep.

I would rather be covered in sores again and get beaten again, but I still want to go out and see the world.

She had a nightmare in which children pulled her and asked her to play with them.

Huilan picked a lot of black grass, saying that it could be used to make dye. She would dye my hair and eyebrows black, and then use the curtain on my hat to cover my eyes, so that no one would think I was a freak anymore.

Huilan asked me if I wrote such stories because no one played with me since I was a child.

Huilan was not scared away. She looked at me for a moment and actually said that I was very pretty. It was the first time in my life that someone said I was pretty.

I couldn't sleep, so I went to count how much money we had saved.

Huilan is back! In the evening we counted the money and Huilan said it was enough to hire a car to take us to Wangshan City.

The first time in the side courtyard, the paper figurine of the old lady suddenly appeared. According to the storyteller, she actually wanted Sang Que to leave.

If I have nothing to eat, I can eat bamboo shoots for every meal.

Huilan is right. I am too weak. I will have to help Huilan more with work in the future, otherwise I won’t be able to catch up with her even if I run.

Huilan brought back a pheasant today. The pheasant stewed with dried bamboo shoots in the evening was delicious. In fact, I wanted to have another bowl, but I didn’t dare go out and tell her.

But if a sinner like me dies, I will just go to hell.

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If I had this ability, I would make everyone become like me, so that I would no longer be a freak.

Huilan put a bunch of yellow flowers in my study. I don’t know what they are called, but they are very beautiful.

The maids in front are all lazy, and I won’t increase their monthly salary, so who should she be working hard for?

If Huilan hadn't disagreed, I could have stolen my mother's jewelry and sold it.

After that day, Huilan refused to call me sister anymore.

The smell of the sunlight mixed with the scent of flowers makes people feel comfortable, but I can't get close to the sunlight, it will make my whole body fester.

Huilan put a paper toad in the food box. It would jump when you pressed its butt. It was a children's toy, but she actually used it to amuse me.

July 1

I cried a lot. I thought I had forgotten what the outside world looked like, but when I saw the peach blossom, I realized that the memory of when I was eight years old had not faded at all.

Today, I slipped out wearing the cape Huilan made for me, and I saw the murderous man holding a straight knife again. (Note ②) He is my father's good friend, an official in the evil suppression department.

There were more and more racks for drying bamboo shoots outside the yard. She also climbed out from the back wall of Yinyuexuan and went to the back mountain to get some mountain products that I didn't even recognize.

The next maid probably won’t be like her and bring flowers to decorate my study, and neither did the previous maids.

Go see the outside world and find the legendary 'Bell Doctor' who can bring the dead back to life. He will definitely be able to cure me.

She must be scared and will hide from me from now on.

Today Huilan finally helped me make a sun-blocking cloak and said she would take me to the back mountain tomorrow.

What did I do wrong? Why was I born a freak?

I asked Huilan if she was afraid?

Such a diligent and kind girl should be loved like a pearl in any family. Why did she come to Ming Mansion to be a maid? Was it because of a change in her family?

I know that the butler has ordered that no one can let me leave Yinyuexuan, and anyone who violates the order will die.

I didn't make things difficult for Huilan. It wasn't easy for her either. Her sister would come to the yard and cry every few days. Huilan didn't eat a single bite of the pheasant that day. She gave all the rest to her sister.

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I never thought that one day I, the eldest daughter of the Ming family, would be so money-grubbery-minded and concerned about my monthly salary.

That man made me feel very dangerous and scary.

She taught me how to make paper flowers, fold gold ingots, and cut paper money...

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Today, her sister came to see her. She was so scared that her face turned pale and she dragged her sister away, as if there really was a man-eating evil ghost in the yard.

I talked a lot with Huilan today, more than I have talked in a year, and I am very happy.

Huilan smiled and said that she could now walk around the Ming Mansion with impunity and no one dared to stop her. Others avoided her like the plague. She had never been so arrogant before.

Every year before the Zhongyuan Festival, he would come to Mingfu to find my father and discuss the matters of the Jue God Festival. After the Jue God Festival, he would come again and stay in the ancestral hall in the back mountain for a while.

Today I was waiting for Huilan in the study early in the morning. As soon as she came, I asked her to take me to dig bamboo shoots. Seeing her nervous look, I felt sad and funny at the same time.

Finally, Huilan changed the dish, a plate of green... wild grass! It seemed to be from the back of the yard. I had seen it several times before, and it was actually edible, not bad.

Ever since I scared three teachers to death when I was ten years old, those books have been gathering dust in the cabinet. My mother gave up and no longer used this incident to embellish her image as a loving mother.

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Huilan, she just treats me like a lady and respects me, and abides by the duties of a maid, right? Today Huilan taught me how to make paper figures. Next time I write a ghost story about paper figures, I will write that the paper figures are kind beings wearing scary clothes, deliberately scaring people and keeping them away from danger. (Note ①) After all, sometimes people are scarier than ghosts.

After asking her, I found out that she used to try to get close to a senior maid in my mother's courtyard every day and send her small gifts every now and then. Today, she asked the maid to lead my mother to the accounting office and expose the fact that they had withheld my monthly salary.

Huilan came back looking very depressed. Did she really think that the monthly salary in my courtyard was so easy to collect? Someone should have sent it over at the beginning of the month, but it was delayed for seven days. Even if she went to her house, she could only get half of it.

Huilan won't leave. She wants to save her sister, but who can come to save me?

I don’t know how long this maid can hold on, and how long I can hold on, but as long as she doesn’t break the rules I set, I won’t hurt her.

She said that if I was willing, she could save money, and when she had enough money for the journey, she would take me away from Mingfu.

I think that for at least the next six months, no one will deduct my monthly salary.

【March 11】

There is meat for lunch today, so I asked Huilan to save some. If there are no bamboo shoots, I can survive by eating wild vegetables and drinking water.

I will never allow it!

My little courtyard suddenly has a hint of homely atmosphere, which is great.

Tomorrow is the fifteenth day of the lunar month again. I need to remind Huilan not to stay at Yinyuexuan tomorrow night.

【March 16】

When cleaning and cooking, don’t go to places you are not allowed to go to, and don’t touch things you are not allowed to touch.

Although my mother didn't like me, she wanted to play the role of a loving mother, so she naturally wouldn't tolerate the servants treating me harshly.

not bad.

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Nanny Wang's blood smelled as bad as her body, but the frightened faces of my grandmother and the maids in her courtyard were pleasing to the eye.

I received my monthly salary today and asked Huilan to save it all. We can leave Ming Mansion as soon as we have enough money for the trip. I don't want to stay here for even one more day.

【April 20】

But she is too kind, especially to her younger sister. She spoils her younger sister even though she knows that she is lazy and likes to eat. I even help her younger sister with the work in the yard when I am too busy with it.

【March 5】

There will be a new maid coming to Yinyuexuan today, so I'd better hide first so as not to scare her.

Huilan is very timid and would shrink back at the sound of my footsteps, but her cooking is delicious, better than those maids who only tried to fool me before.

How could I not do this? Didn't she say that the eldest sister should take care of the younger sister? If I don't do this, her kindness and weakness will only kill her.

I'd rather die. If there is an afterlife, I'd like to ask all the gods and ghosts to let me be a normal person. It would be great if I could meet Huilan again.

Although I am the eldest daughter of the Ming family, no one cares about my life or death. It is only because the clan rules do not allow it that they left me with something to eat and let me suffer in this Yinyuexuan.

There is no need for her to hide. I will never see her again in the future. Just like before, I know how to avoid her.

July 10

I forgot that I am the evil ghost.

No, I have to show my demeanor as the eldest sister.

This maid can read and has carefully read the rules I wrote.

It is not safe for Huilan to go to the back mountain to pick mountain products, so I gave her two talismans to ward off evil spirits.

It's me. I'm to blame for all this. I laughed at Huilan's cowardice, but I'm also a coward. I survived by drinking the blood of innocent people. I knew that every year the Ming government would sacrifice nine innocent girls to the God of Jue, but I never did anything. Because the God of Jue was there, I could survive. This was my sin, so the punishment from heaven had come.

Forget it. I'll eat less recently and leave more food for Huilan. She looks younger than me and has to do so much work every day.

Why do I feel like she looks like my elder sister?

She said I should live, because only by living can there be hope.

I locked myself in the bedroom and didn't have any breakfast or lunch. Huilan knocked on the door, put down the lunch box, and left.

[April 1st]

I was afraid that I would scare her, and I would be sad if she was scared away.

I told Huilan that a freak like me didn't deserve to live. There were many maids in the graves in the yard who died because I lost control. If I didn't die, she would have become one of them.

Are there a lot of bamboo shoots in the bamboo forest outside Yinyuexuan? These days, Huilan goes out early and comes back with a basket of bamboo shoots. She washes and peels them in the yard, cuts them, and dries them in the sun.

Huilan agreed.

The second time when entering the main courtyard, he saw the paper bride hanging under the eaves when he was struck by lightning. He also wanted to scare away Sangque because there was "Play with Me" in the main courtyard.

Huilan said that I would feel weak after the attack on the 15th of every month, and she asked me to take more supplements so that I could run better when I was in good health.

I will sleep with the cash box as my pillow these days. This money must not be lost.

When I didn't want to die, she was going to die.

Finally, the ghost story I wrote scared Huilan.

【June 1st】

It was you who told me that as an elder sister, I should protect my younger sister, so this time, I will still protect you.

Huilan laughed at me and said that there were no bamboo shoots at this time of year.

In the past, I lived with gritted teeth because of hatred. I wanted to make my parents, grandmother, and people like Qingyang, who hated me, feel uncomfortable because of my existence.

In the end, it was Huilan who gave me her own blood, which helped me get through the night.

【March 7】

But what is filial piety?

When I woke up and saw Huilan was fine, I hugged her and cried for a long time.

I want to go to the back mountain with Huilan to dig for mountain products and set traps.

I am willing, why would I not want to? If there is someone in this world who can cure me, I am willing to pay any price! Of course, except Huilan, I will not allow anyone to hurt Huilan.

【March 6】

Huilan actually received the full monthly salary without any deductions from her subordinates.

【March 13】

How could anyone want to be friends with a freak like me?

This morning, I deliberately stayed in the study waiting for Huilan to come and clean. Huilan suddenly saw me and screamed in fright, and the flowers she had just picked fell all over the floor.

From now on, I will let everyone know that I am not an easy person to deal with. Bullying Huilan is going against me!

Even though there is only a door between the bamboo forest and Yinyuexuan, I cannot step out of that door.

Huilan was a little hesitant. I knew she couldn't bear to leave her sister, but I didn't want to take that leech with me. Huilan could only live for herself if she left her.

【March 10】

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I lost control last night. It was the first time I felt scared, afraid that I would hurt Huilan, just like I had done to those maids before.

Huilan said that she was the eldest sister in the family and that the eldest sister should take care of her younger brothers and sisters.

There is a peach blossom in my study! It is placed in a pure white vase on the desk where I usually write ghost stories.

I showed Huilan the ghost story I wrote, and she said she couldn't understand it. She certainly didn't dare to say that I wrote it badly.

In the past, I would deliberately let those maids see me sucking human blood on the 15th of every month, so that they would be afraid and not try to bully me again.

This morning, Huilan came to Yinyuexuan and saw the room full of blood. I looked like a wild beast and was terrified.

Is she scared? Why doesn't she say a few more words to me?

She didn't.

Huilan cried and begged me not to do this.

It was never them who imprisoned me, but I just imprisoned myself in Yinyuexuan because I understood their difficulties.

I picked mountain products with Huilan. Huilan taught me many taboos about walking in the mountains. As long as I remember those rules, I will be fine.

When she didn't want to die, she saved me who wanted to die.

【March 4】

Huilan's handwriting is actually better than mine.

You can see that she is very scared, but she does not have any overly curious thoughts. She closes the door tightly at night and behaves very well.

Huilan, even if you no longer call me elder sister, you are still my Ming Wanxi's only sister.

She did not refuse the talisman I placed on her desk, left me a letter to express her gratitude, and asked if she could read the books in the bookcase.

It turned out that Huilan was sold to the Ming Mansion by her family, but her family was not poor, and her parents didn't care about her, just like me.

I asked Huilan how she learned to read and write so well. Huilan said that she had a younger brother and had been going to school since she was young. She learned secretly from her brother and sometimes even helped her brother write articles that the teacher asked him to copy as punishment. This was how she learned from his practice.

Huilan slapped me and then she cried and told me that everyone wanted me to die, but she didn't.

She also helped me open the windows to ventilate and dispel the moisture in the room.

But I didn't want Huilan to see me like this, and Huilan came back too early, so early that I didn't have time to clean up.

Huilan has been smiling more often recently and has become much bolder than before. She even dares to tell you directly that the ghost stories I write are not good.

From now on, we are no longer master and servant, but sisters!

Huilan actually said that I was a good person, that I was not a freak, that I was just sick.

After finally getting human blood, Qingyang pushed him down and broke the jar of human blood. There was also news that the jar was poisoned.

Is being like Huilan or me filial?

We picked a lot of wild fruits, and I even fell from a tree once.

Does it really not look good?

Even the Ming family, even the God of Jue, cannot take you away.

After returning from the mountain, I couldn't fall asleep.

Huilan came to say goodbye to me, and I asked her to call me elder sister again.

Huilan said that we have to live even if we leave the Ming Mansion. We cannot steal all our lives. We should learn to make money on our own and live an upright life.

She also taught me to identify wild vegetables and various mountain products, and how to make simple traps. She said that her grandfather used to be a hunter and later moved to Dongyang County. When her grandfather was alive, he taught her a lot of things.

① The notes mentioned that Ming Wanxi and Huilan made paper figures. Ming Wanxi wanted to write a ghost story about paper figures. The paper figures in the ghost story are kind beings that scare people and remind them to stay away from danger. Everyone can recall the paper figures that Sang Que encountered in the Ming Mansion, and they did not cause any substantial harm to her.

For three consecutive days, bamboo shoots were included in every meal.

【May 11】

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Huilan understood this logic, and finally she promised me that we would run away after the Ghost Festival.

【May 10】

Now when I think about the monthly salary that was deducted in the past, I feel heartbroken.

【June 17】

I am also the eldest sister and I have younger brothers, but Qingyang doesn't need my care. He wishes he didn't have a freak sister like me.

【June 16】

Why was I born a freak? Why can't I be a normal person like Huilan? I hate myself and I don't want to live like this anymore.

I know that she doesn't want me to disobey Ming for her, and doesn't want me to be branded as unfilial.

Only then did I know that Huilan was beaten with a stick by Nanny Wang, who was by my grandmother's side, in order to save me that night.

I was convinced by her.

【March 12】

They all just called me a freak, even my parents looked sad and disgusted when they saw me.

But now, I want to die, because my life is very dangerous to Huilan. If she is hurt in any way because of me, I will blame myself and feel upset.

Huilan is so smart.

I was overthinking it. The food cooked by Huilan was as delicious as always.

The third time Xuanyu saw the paper child on the beam, after Xuanyu was scared away, the bearded man and the Mingfu freak appeared, also to remind Xuanyu.

* ②The notes mentioned that the man from the Suppression of Evils with the knife was a good friend of Ming Wanxi's father. He would appear before the Jue God Festival every year, and would also appear after the Jue God Festival, and would stay in the back mountain for a few days.

This shows that Mingfu has someone in the evil-suppression department, so Mingfu's use of living people for sacrifice in the Jue Shenji will not be exposed. Moreover, this man Jue Shenji came to make arrangements, and Jue Shenji later naturally came to see if there was any evil spirit of the bride. This corresponds to the fact that the man with a knife later captured Huilan and sealed her in a mirror to raise a ghost.

The man with the knife refers to Bearded Man's father. Bearded Man inherited the knife from his father. Bearded Man is also considered a person related to the Ming Mansion incident.

* 　　The above is a hidden foreshadowing. It is not appropriate to reveal it directly from anyone's perspective in the text. You need to think about it before you can understand it. I will write it directly here so that everyone does not need to think about it. 　　 　 (End of this chapter)