Date: March 1, 1978
winter.
Weather: Cloudy
'Appearance is the most important thing! Survival is the most important thing!'
Some people divide the world into many categories: rich, poor, good, bad, in jail, working...
I will divide it into.
The pretty ones, the ugly ones, and... the rich ones.
My name is Liu Yan, I was born in a rural area in the capital, I am 26 years old, female, and my hobby is... money.
Even if the data requires detection by instruments, you know that your cancer can be cured.
The reason why you are scolded is not because your morals are low or your chastity is dark.
Zhang Liang wrote down Chen Shen’s words in his notebook.
During the interview, you will be competing against a few mediocre people.
But there is another type of people who are actually more afraid of death.
Yes, you don’t think that sleeping with a woman or a man is a big deal. As long as he has no money, just sleep with him.
Why?
Of course, you are too lazy to think about it.
Because you just feel pathetic.
It becomes a major project that your employees are responsible for.
Therefore, they will resist treatment.
It's weird, so weird that even now, when you think back on what you did afterwards, you will find it absurd.
You took on theology and challenged medicine!
Hey, that's boring.
Live, and...
Because every time you are flirting, you can see these inferior and special girls being at a loss and very humble in front of you, and even if you do something excessive, you will still be noticed.
Huge pressure can lead to mental distortion. We will do everything we can to prove that we are still old, in an attempt to deceive the fact that we are far away from death.
Is it pathetic that the enjoyment gained by having a good face is pathetic? What about the demolition and the lottery winnings? Why do people scold us?
Or it’s about society.
Of course, no one would say that you are enjoying this by having a good face, and no one would say that in a few days the seventh generation of rich people would have enough fun and kick you away.
#7......
You failed the test.
Before, he was an old man, a man in his forties, who was very afraid of death.
So you just waved your hands and left.
But what you want to say is, crying is useless? He has to look bad!
Every time you wear it out, there will be many people who envy you.
Or they may wait until you fail the exam and then beat you up.
You want to defeat the lowly biomedical sciences and make your teachers dumbfounded. You want to become an immortal. You want to...
Swearing, hitting, playing pranks, or spitting, any behavior that can be considered bullying cannot be forgiven.
Yes, you really do care about it.
That can scold you.
Even ants try to survive.
You have never experienced harsh punishment.
So, we are afraid of death, but we dare to die.
The feeling became stronger and stronger.
Although you do mind, he has to have no money, not very much money!
Someone once asked me a question: Which is more important, good ability or good education?
At that time, the other party will also be very cooperative.
You know, but when the most important moment of life comes, the only thing outside of your mind is... to live.
But here comes the problem.
ten years?
Eventually, they will all end up in the same situation.
How could you not have the heart to study when everything was going smoothly like that?
I know the reason.
.......
The other older children also cried, and each one cried more miserably than the other.
It's very ironic and makes people laugh when they think about it. Being beautiful is not justice, and being ugly is not wrong.
so.
Who are those people?
So, even if he is angry with you, he has to bear it.
You have pancreatic cancer, the king of cancers. There are only a few people in the world who can survive it, and even if there aren't any, your cancer is not good enough to be written into a paper for publication.
She is very good-looking, with a garlic nose, round face and messy hair.
Whenever I deliberately squeezed out a few tears in front of the teacher, the teacher would see a beautiful girl crying like a doll, and no one could bring themselves to do it. They would slow down their tone, scold me in a pretentious manner, and then comfort me. I would be exempted from punishment if I made some false promises.
Appearance first!
You think that's fair.
After studying hard and overcoming various difficulties, the other party finally……………….
Does he know this kind of scene, watching the countdown begin bit by bit?
But the reality is, the kind of people we are talking about are often spoiled by ourselves. The classmates who licked you in junior high school are definitely the ones who scold you now.
Of course, no one will call you a bitch.
Have you?
Your name is Chen Shen.
Otherwise, out of a strong desire to survive, a drowning person will desperately grasp this life-saving straw, rudely and logically, even if that action will lead to his own death.
I smiled and said it’s better to be good-looking.
It's so ordinary that as long as his dancing skills are barely passable, the rest depends on his appearance.
You chose the art exam.
Life is not about scores, scores are not about life!
You also discovered something funny.
Just that, you think so.
But it doesn't matter. You are the beneficiary anyway. You are ugly, so it's their fault that they are ugly.
This isn't... money!
Yes, I know, but you feel very satisfied!
The elderly will be tortured by the stress of not knowing when they will die.
So, based on your grades, you will naturally go to primary school.
No matter how capable you are or what academic qualifications you have, it is destined that you will have smooth sailing from the moment you are born.
Our fear will gradually decrease and turn into pressure on our hearts.
Dead.
We are not weak, we have more than ten years of work experience in other companies, and we are not fresh graduates from prestigious universities.
And the reason you committed a crime...has nothing to do with life.
You're not dead yet, so why try?
Arrived at primary school.
'Survival comes first!'
But then again.
Even if you are right, no one will stand behind you and say you are right!
18......
You don’t have that kind of thinking.
Like saving someone.
We have no elderly parents or grandparents, no mortgage or car loan to pay, our children are still living under our wings, and our elderly parents need our support. Once we die, the family will be torn apart in an instant.
It was the summer of 1985, when I was seven years old.
Of course, no one said that I might be an entrepreneur, you are just a vase, there is no way to compare.
I was in the first grade at that time.
*......
Those old people are afraid of death.
You are beautiful.
Women and men are the same, some bad-looking women will do the same. The young man can only hide in the corner, silently watching Bai Yueguang or his lover flirting with other women.
Inside the interrogation room.
Compared to junior high school, the academic work in low school is much more difficult.
This is a man you like, fat and ugly. You are very ashamed of your behavior. You talk about morality and ethics, but you never talk about chastity.
How long does it take for a doctor to go from studying medicine to performing surgery?
Dare the most.
Every time you are flirting, you know that the other person is secretly watching you, so your actions will be more subtle, holding hands, hugging, leaning against each other, and teasing each other in front of each other.
In fact, you are a medical student, you know how to cure diseases, and some people know how to cure diseases better than a doctor.
Knock the drowning person unconscious and then drag him away!
You want to survive!
Every time you accompany your boss, you meet your classmates. They work very hard. Because I am ugly, my only option is to work hard.
By the way, you are a psychologist, and you can see that Liu Yan is actually a person who only cares about appearance.
Even now that you know that you might, are, or will be sentenced to death, you have no... or very little hope in that method.
When you think of that, you always want to laugh, a sarcastic laugh.
Crazy jealous!
He may know why some elderly people act with reason and why we act arrogantly and cooperate.
Live it up!
Just like when we are in a relationship.
As a result, the teacher became more and more annoyed by the other crying girls and boys, and he hit them harder.
That’s why you scold, and that’s why you scold so harshly!
You in the interrogation room told the policeman named Zhang Liang truthfully.
Until your cancer becomes mid-stage.
You are very beautiful, so beautiful that when those people who buried themselves in their studies were filled with joy when they received the news that they failed the exam, you did not study at all in eight years, but still managed to graduate from elementary school as you wished.
Maybe it's time to stop.
In that situation, as long as it was something that could keep him alive, he would hold on to it at all costs, even if it meant losing his mind.
There are minors in multiple custody, children who are barely conscious, many years of adolescence, and young people in their seventies who are just starting out.
The teacher was very fierce. If I didn't do my homework or was distracted in class, I would basically be scolded or beaten. But the teacher never beat me. At most he would just scold me.
However, no matter what kind of thoughts he has, as long as he is alive, he will not die suddenly.
Therefore, the spirit will be distorted and become reasonable.
Very slowly, junior high school arrived.
To be honest, standing among those people, your sense of superiority and vanity are only slightly satisfied!
You still panicked.
There was no lifting, and I sweated very little, but I still got a thousand dollars in salary.
In the interrogation room, you pointed at yourself.
How come you are treated the same as these ugly guys?
You have seen the envious eyes of others many times when you enjoyed those expensive items, and you have also heard many rumors and slanders.
After all, there are no mirrors outside the dormitory.
Now you are a prisoner... or to be more precise, a serious criminal, and the kind who is doomed to die. Even the vehicle transporting the prisoners must provide you with the lowest level of security.
Because I am good-looking and beautiful.
Very special, but special is not ugly.
It is really not possible for the bank president to be ugly.
I am a typical beautiful woman, I am quite pretty and I have enjoyed many privileges since I was a child.
When you were in elementary school, you hooked up with a seventh-generation rich man. His family was in the mining business. They were very generous and everyone drove a sports car.
But money and enjoyment are real!
Terminally ill patients are more afraid of death!
18......
You have to overturn your past!
You don't have much jewelry, or a cell phone that doesn't make calls, or skin care products and clothes.
It is unclear whether he admires poor people or envies beautiful women.
The reason is that you are beautiful.
Therefore, you will be too picky and have a sharp mind.
This is a secretary position, the secretary of the boss of a fishery company. Seventh-generation matters are rare, on the contrary, the first-generation rich can do what they want.
So, in the end, you also sneer at that method and feel disdainful of it.
There are others who want to learn.
Finished junior high school.
I also fantasized that Master Huang Shang could save you.
The other person laughs at your idea.
Before graduation, you lost your job.
Your worldview of beauty and ugliness has entered its eighth stage.
so.
Tell me.
What is most important to him?
You have gone down a wrong path.
Isn't it true that the more people have experienced death, the more they fear death.
Do you want to be well-dressed or just a roadside one.
This is the first time since I became conscious that I have enjoyed the privilege of good looks.
When you were in junior high school, you always did some ambiguous things. It’s not that you hated the feeling of ambiguity, but that you hated doing ambiguity.
You said, being beautiful is not right!
Your morality is worth a penny, your chastity will always be preserved, and when you are in the extreme, you can easily pick up things that you have been waiting for your whole life.
In the eyes of the teacher, even if you do everything right, you are still a bad kid. Even if you are wrong, the anger will increase when seeing you.
But now is different from the past, those who can pass the primary school entrance examination are the best of the best.
You went to low school.
That society is very complex.
Insults are empty.
You hope that method is true.
The pressure of death is very small, when we feel life slipping away from our fingertips and watch our faces aging little by little...
hey-hey.
Definitely that.....what else can you do?
As long as he is good-looking, this doesn't count!
What behavior?
You mean it.
You are not right!
Besides, you are an attending physician, a primary school student in the 1990s, you don’t have a wife, you love her very much, and as long as you hold on, you will at most be a director, so………………
Every time you flirt with a girl, you're actually observing the boy who has a crush on that girl.
Your time in high school was like a white swan, being held in the palm of someone's hand. Boys surrounded you consciously, and girls admired you with inferiority complex.
Pancreatic cancer in the middle stage...what to do?
From that moment on, you know your strengths.
Finally, you are hired.
To this end, you even embarked on the path of breaking the law and committing crimes, and the end result was the murder of eight people, including you, as one of them.
It was a pressure that seemed like the sky was falling, and it sometimes overwhelmed him.
It's very humble and miserable, but even if it means becoming a vegetable, you still want to live.
But we know……………………
Speaking of which.
Is it because you take chastity seriously?
......
That's what your roommates will call you.
It seems that this can smooth out the gap between you and yourself.
Your work content is not about whether it has content or not.
You know, or rather, there are a few people in this world who know!
But of course.
But you are the same, you cannot see the countdown to your own death!
In order to make the other person feel more at ease, you would pretend to turn your head intentionally before each flirtation, so that he or she could see your beauty and know that you are not ugly at all.
Yes.
You call it………………
These damn instruments can't let you vaguely know when you will retreat into death!
You buried your face in shame.
What would the boy think?
In the interrogation room, you calmly answered the policeman.
Before you finish, you feel a slight relaxation throughout your body.
Those who are full of vigor and vitality are the most afraid of death.
To be honest, you know what some ugly people think when they are studying, and what those people who are jealous in secret think.
The art exam was very ordinary.
That's jealousy.
Does he know the most dangerous way to save a drowning person?
FFFLX.......
But, you didn't pay anything?
The company has a lot of employees. Those who are not in charge of business only get one thousand yuan a month's salary.
One is that you think you are the bad one now, but when you get into society, being pretty can make a living.
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