Xia Che listened quietly without interrupting.
Just a second ago I was still feeling sleepy, but now my heart skipped a beat and an indescribable palpitation surged up, completely dispelling my drowsiness.
This feeling is that what Chu Yuying is about to say is quite unusual.
It was like some kind of explosive news.
"I'm actually a very troublesome guy. I realized this when I was very young. My relatives all avoid me like the plague. Only one elder was kind to me, introduced me to the industry, and taught me how to plan and make money using psychic arts. But later... I found that this elder wasn't as good as I imagined. His so-called kindness to me was just a pretense. He just thought I had some value and wanted to exchange me for money."
"A person needs something to rely on in this world. Anything will do—people, things, promises, anything... But there always needs to be something to support one's survival. Although it sounds a bit sentimental, it is indeed my true thought. Before I met you, I didn't have anything decent to support my survival."
"So I lived in a daze, my daily life was like a stagnant pool, without any ripples, like a walking corpse, going to school, coming home, taking orders, planning, making money... and then repeating the same cycle, living like a robot with a pre-programmed routine."
Chu Yuying hugged the other pillow on the bed, like she was hugging the little bear she needed to hold to fall asleep every night. Every time she hugged the little bear, it made her feel at ease and fall asleep.
She always believed that the bear was her knight. After she fell asleep, the night would turn into monsters, and it was the bear that guarded her and protected her sleep.
"...But now it's different, everything has changed."
Xia Che paused for a moment, then said calmly, "Your life is gradually getting better, isn't it?"
His heart was sinking.
Because Chu Yuying's current reaction is too similar to that in the original work.
In the original comic, Chu Yuying took Li Junyang as her spiritual support and lived her whole life for him. After reading the whole story, Xia Che clearly understood that among all the female protagonists in the comic, Chu Yuying actually had the most mental problems.
she……
Misancholy.
Just like that law, every seemingly unserious person often has another side, a contrasting side.
Cheerful people sometimes shed tears silently in the middle of the night.
A rigid and serious person will smile in front of their children.
The person who laughs and jokes all day long, the life of the party, is actually suffering from severe depression.
Everyone has a side they don't want to reveal to the public; this side is their deepest privacy, and Chu Yuying is one of them.
She could have had a happy childhood. If that tragedy had happened a little earlier, when Chu Yuying was more prepared, she wouldn't have become so cynical.
If time could be turned back a little, to when Chu Yuying was young and naive, she wouldn't be so cynical, because she didn't understand anything back then.
But this unexpected turn of events happened precisely at a time when Chu Yuying was recording events but was not mentally prepared.
The death of her parents completely destroyed Chu Yuying's world. Before she could even develop a complete worldview, the last vestiges of beauty in her heart were washed away by this devastating event.
From then on, Chu Yuying became the one who fell into the water.
But the storyline was changed, and he became the lifeline that Chu Yuying clung to tightly.
Xia Che understood this.
This is precisely why Xia Che has almost endless patience with Chu Yuying; he feels sorry for this girl and is therefore willing to tolerate her.
As the days went by, Xia Che thought that Chu Yuying's psychological problems were gradually improving. This little devil who occasionally made people grit their teeth in anger was probably already willing to accept this world.
But now...
Xia Che straightened up and leaned back on the sofa. The room was dark, so Xia Che couldn't see Chu Yuying's expression clearly. But his sixth sense told him that Chu Yuying's misanthropic mood had not lessened but had actually intensified.
Why?
Xia Che couldn't understand it.
Life has clearly improved, so why have my mental health issues gotten worse?
What exactly went wrong?
At this moment, Xia Che had no desire to sleep at all; his mind was completely awake.
"Seriously... Xia Che, why are you so nervous?"
Chu Yuying smiled gently, her tone softening and losing all trace of the sharpness of a little devil. Judging from her voice alone, Chu Yuying sounded more like an older sister at this moment.
"...You never used to call me by my full name before."
Xia Che's hands clenched unconsciously. Chu Yuying always referred to him as "Little Yellow Hair," "Dead Yellow Hair," or "Incompetent Yellow Hair," and rarely called him by his full name.
What exactly happened?
Xia Che really wanted to ask, but now was clearly not the right time.
"Yeah?"
Chu Yuying followed Xia Che's example and sat up, leaning against the headboard. The darkness veiled her eyes with a layer of mist.
A silence fell over the room.
But soon, Chu Yuying broke the silence once again.
“I’ve been very happy these past few days. I thought I could remember those things from the past for the rest of my life and never forget them. But every time I realize this, I find that… I can actually forget the things I hated to the core back then. So what was my hatred back then? Words written on the sand?”
Chu Yuying tilted her head and said softly.
"The past will always pass. Let those bad experiences go. Some hatred is not really hatred. Letting go of it will make you feel better and also free yourself."
Xia Che hesitated for a moment, but still spoke.
He understood that the hatred Chu Yuying spoke of was not directed at his relatives, much less his parents.
Rather, it was the accident that killed Chu Yuying's parents...
But an accident is still an accident. The original comic didn't mention this accident, so even if Chu Yuying hates it, what can she change?
Xia Che couldn't bring himself to say such a thing, as it sounded like he was indifferent to matters that didn't concern him.
"No, I was just expressing my feelings. I won't let this trap me for the rest of my life."
Unexpectedly, Chu Yuying shook her head decisively.
Xia Che was taken aback.
So it wasn't because of that?
Why is that?
"I just feel that even hatred can fade with time, so what in this world will never disappear?"
"I am living a wonderful life now because I have a new source of support."
"But what if... your support is gone?"
Chu Yuying looked at Xia Che quietly, then suddenly asked, "You'll leave sooner or later, won't you?"
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