In March, when hyacinths were in full bloom, the girl decided to die.
In fact, not only the hyacinths are blooming beautifully, but the daylilies are also blooming beautifully, and the trumpet creepers, roses, crabapples... are all blooming in full bloom.
Outside the window of her room, she could see a flower bed covered with fresh flowers. The house was filled with the fragrance of flowers, and the various fragrances of flowers made up this rich season.
The hyacinths on the windowsill had been watered, and the suicide note was placed neatly on the table.
She didn't suddenly want to die. There was no specific triggering reason for her desire to die.
It’s just that at a certain stage in life, I suddenly felt like I had hit a wall and couldn’t go on.
She put on a simple, plain pair of white pantyhose, followed by a white chiffon camisole.
She wore a pink and white Lolita-style dress with lots of lace.
There was also a pleated collar, tied with a red lace at the neck, and the bodice was fastened with brass buttons and tied with a bow on top.
She wore pink lace-trimmed leather shoes and a white hairband with flowers.
She wears each piece of clothing very carefully because it is her favorite.
Since it's your last day, there's no reason not to wear your favorite clothes.
The Persian cat stood on the wardrobe, its beautiful eyes staring at her. She grabbed the cat's cheek and said:
"Shamisen, Shamisen, if I die, will you eat me?"
Shamisen didn't want to answer the question and pulled her face out of her hands like a plug from a water pipe.
"Miss, it's time to eat." The nanny came over to deliver the message.
Liu Ruyan said, "I don't want to eat."
The nanny's face showed a pleading look: "Miss, the master specially invited a professional Japanese chef to prepare Kaiseki cuisine today, and he told you to go and eat it."
Liu Ruyan had been feeling extremely relaxed as she was planning to go to the afterlife today, but now she suddenly felt very sad again.
Her father never physically punished her, but he would punish her nanny if she disobeyed.
Liu Ruyan went downstairs and found her father and mother already sitting at the table.
"Wearing this kind of clothes again, don't you have anything to wear?" Her father frowned at her.
"I……"
"Ruyan, haven't you been in a bad mood recently? Your father specially invited a chef from Japan. How about coming and trying it?" The mother looked at Liu Ruyan with a smile on her face.
"What is this?" Liu Ruyan looked down at the pale green and red contents in the bowl and felt like she had no appetite at all.
"Water shield soup, it's good stuff, drink it while it's hot."
My father explained to my mother, as if showing off his knowledge: "Water shield can only grow in the purest water. Even if there is even the slightest pollution, it won't grow. It is the purest natural good thing."
Liu Ruyan took a sip and a sour taste came over her, making her want to vomit.
But she held it back and forced herself to hold it back.
Her parents were still discussing how grand Kaiseki cuisine was. When the sound of bowls and spoons clashing could be heard, Liu Ruyan felt that they were very far away from her.
After finishing the meal, she felt even hungrier.
The nanny was sorting clothes. She went over and asked, "Sister, have you ever taken a bus?"
"Yes, what happened?" The nanny was still busy.
"How can I take the bus?" Liu Ruyan asked.
“Wait at the bus stop, and when it comes, get on.”
Liu Ruyan asked, "Then how did it know you were waiting there? Are there any sensors at the bus stop?"
The nanny turned around, looked at her with a smile, and then hugged her.
"My dear lady, you are so cute."
Liu Ruyan pushed her away: "You don't know how to take the bus. You're not cute at all."
"No, it's cute."
Liu Ruyan, with a suicide note in her arms, sneaked out the door.
Beautiful clothes may not be practical, and she soon began to regret choosing the small leather shoes.
My feet hurt from walking on the cement road that was hot from the sun.
Fortunately, the bus stop had a sunshade. Liu Ruyan walked around the station and did not find any sensor-like device.
So she sat obediently on the bench at the station, with her hands on her knees and sitting upright.
If a bus sees someone sitting like this at the stop, it will definitely know that she is waiting for it.
After 20 minutes, Liu Ruyan felt her back and waist begin to ache.
Just when she began to wonder if the way she was waiting for the bus was wrong, the bus finally arrived.
After getting on the bus, the driver asked her to put in some coins, but she searched her body and found nothing.
Fortunately, a boy paid for her, so she sat next to him.
During the journey, the boy kept looking at her secretly. In fact, many people in the whole car were also looking at her secretly.
But she sat very still and didn't say anything.
When she got off the train at Liyuan Station, she got off.
The Pear Garden has a central garden with a lake and many benches by the lake.
This is her favorite place, and she plans to end her life here.
But the girl started to struggle with how to do it specifically.
For example, where should her suicide note be placed?
She certainly couldn't have just kept the suicide note in her pocket. When they fished her out of the lake, the paper was so wrinkled that it was hard to read what was written on it.
If it were just left on the bench and picked up by a passing child, it might be mistaken for an elementary school student's composition.
In addition, there are so many people around. What if I jump down and someone rescues me?
Based on her experience swimming in her own swimming pool, she would definitely not sink if she just jumped in like this.
Speaking of swimming pools, Liu Ruyan remembered that when she slipped out, she saw a lot of fallen leaves in the swimming pool at home.
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