Chapter 1 I Want to Be Reborn

When you lack too much in life, no matter how much you gain in the future, it will be difficult to make up for it.

Lin Xiao really wants to be reborn.

Lian Yi is Lin Xiao’s white moonlight, and also the white moonlight of countless male classmates.

Lin Xiao had been secretly in love with her since his freshman year in high school but never dared to confess his feelings, but everyone knew it.

Finally, at a class party on the eve of the National Day in 2001, which was also Lian Yi's birthday, he got half drunk and finally confessed his love to Lian Yi in front of everyone.

She also gave out the gift she had carefully prepared: a castle built with a paper box, which contained dark chocolate warriors holding lollipop weapons, and on the throne was a little princess carved out of white chocolate.

He conceived of this gift for a long time, worked on it for even longer, failed many times, and overdrew two months' living expenses before he was able to make it by himself.

At that time, this confession shocked the whole class. Long, long after, Lin Xiao's infatuation became a legend, and someone would mention it at every class reunion. In the first few years, it was a laughing stock, but after he turned 30, it became a story of admiration.

Of course, Lin Xiao’s confession was unsuccessful this time.

Because he was born in the countryside, his family was poor, his academic performance was poor, he looked good, but he developed late, and when he was in his third year of high school, he was still thin and small, and his temperament was not impressive.

Lian Yi is from the city. Her father is a department-level cadre and her mother is the head of the department at the city’s First Hospital.

She is sweet, has a good figure, comes from a good family and has good academic performance.

After the college entrance examination, Lian Yi was admitted to Aurora University as she wished. After completing her master's degree, she went to the United States to study for a doctorate, and then returned to China to teach. Soon after, she became the youngest associate professor at Aurora University.

Lin Xiao didn't even get into college, and entered society early, wasting many years, going through countless hardships, and taking many detours. (The total score of the college entrance examination in 2001 was 750 points, and the college entrance examination score was about 460 points.) In 2013, Lian Yi resigned from Aurora University and disappeared from everyone's sight.

In 2018, Lin Xiao, who was in his thirties, made a fortune of tens of millions through overseas e-commerce. He also had several women, but none of them lasted long.

In 2019, Lian Yi once again appeared in the public eye and returned to Aurora University as a professor.

After Lin Xiao found out, he started pursuing her again, but Lian Yi rejected him.

Until she was a visiting scholar at Wuhan University and was infected with the new coronavirus. Lin Xiao took care of her for more than a month. Both of them were infected and both recovered.

A few months later, the two got married successfully.

Lin Xiao was already thirty-six years old at that time.

Twenty years of love seemed to have come to a perfect end.

But not at all, the real pain has just begun.

Being touched is not love.

If I don’t love you, I don’t love you.

No matter how hard Lian Yi tried, she still didn't love him.

Until one day, Lian Yi received a call from her ex-husband and then burst into tears.

Lin Xiao asked, I am worth nearly 100 million now, am I still not worthy of you? !

Lian Yi hugged him and cried: I'm sorry, I met you too early.

Yes, that was when Lin Xiao was the least attractive and the least outstanding. Although it was only two or three years, the impression he left on Lian Yi was eternal, and it would be difficult to change even if he became outstanding in the future.

Sometimes, first sight is eternity.

Lin Xiao said hoarsely: If I could do it again, on the eve of National Day in 2001, I would never confess to you.

Then, Lin Xiao chose to divorce, and Lian Yi went abroad to live alone.

He was invited to cut the ribbon at the completion of a nursing home in his hometown. However, Lin Xiao had a car accident on the way back to his hometown. Although he was rescued, he was paralyzed in bed and had no hope of getting up again. His entire life fell into absolute darkness.

He became a useless person.

He was already rich enough, but money no longer meant anything to him since he was paralyzed in bed.

At this time, he fantasized about how great it would be if he could be reborn. And one day, after falling asleep,

He really went back to the eve of National Day in 2001, back to the moment when he confessed his love to Lian Yi.

At that time, he really felt that he was reborn.

However, as all the mocking and booing sounds entered his ears, and all the sarcastic looks were directed at him, he woke up, still lying on the specially made hospital bed.

Although it was very realistic, it was not a real rebirth, just a dream.

But he had an idea in his mind: what if I was really reborn?

The time spent paralyzed in bed is almost endless and extremely boring.

I have finished reading all the good novels, watching all the good movies and TV series. Everything that was originally interesting has become boring.

So, he played a game with himself, the game of "What if I were really reborn".

There are too many regrets in this life.

The first regret was the failure in the college entrance examination, and the subsequent series of failures put my family in misfortune.

Since he was a child, he has been a top student in school, the pride of his family and the pride of the village.

But after entering high school, Lin Xiao was daydreaming every day and completely neglected his studies.

He will never forget the desperate and disbelieving looks on his grandparents and parents' eyes when the college entrance examination results came out.

Since then, he has been failing, and it seems as if the elder's back was broken and has never straightened up again.

But by the time he became rich, it was too late.

The second regret was that he failed to save a woman, that was his former English teacher Xiao Momo.

This exquisite and sexy woman was once the sexual fantasy of many boys in school.

But how unfair was fate to her?

He had two chances to save this woman, but he failed.

He was unable to help when the first disaster occurred.

More than ten years had passed since their second meeting, and Lin Xiao had become rich, but the two broken-hearted people began to huddle together for warmth and had an incomplete relationship; her love was passionate yet suffocating.

However, because Lian Yi once again broke into Lin Xiao's life, the two separated.

Not long after, news came that Xiao Momo committed suicide due to depression.

This also became the last straw that broke the camel's back for his divorce from Lian Yi.

The third regret was that he was unable to repay his benefactor.

The woman who completely changed his destiny.

Xia Xi.

If there is a goddess in this world, she is it.

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Just out of a trace of pity and appreciation, she reached out and pulled Lin Xiao out of the quagmire and onto the clouds without asking for any reward.

But she herself fell into the abyss, an extremely huge abyss.

Even if Lin Xiao had tens of millions in assets, it was not only not enough to save her from the abyss, it was just a drop in the bucket.

Most of the white moonlights in the world are fake. They are not that beautiful. They are just wishful fantasies in the hearts of many boys. They cannot withstand the passage of time and the scrutiny of reality.

But Xia Xi is not Bai Yueguang.

People still dare to fantasize about Bai Yueguang, but most boys probably don't even dare to fantasize about her.

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Next, Lin Xiao, who was paralyzed in bed, was deeply immersed in this rebirth game.

First, I found the textbooks for junior high and high school, and studied on my own while taking online classes, devoting myself to studying.

While studying, he also had to look for countless information from more than 20 years ago, looking for a reliable way to make money and become rich.

Extreme concentration leads to extraordinary efficiency. And just like that... two years have passed.

He found the 2002 college entrance examination papers and answered the questions within the specified time.

After answering, find the correct answer and grade yourself.

In the end, he scored 666 points.

This score was not good enough, so he continued to work hard on the questions.

Half a year later, he found the 2003 college entrance examination paper, and this time his score was 676.

Then, he started taking online courses and began studying computer and economics-related courses.

When he was in high school, he was obsessed with the entrepreneurial myths of Yang Zhiyuan and Bill Gates, and often skipped classes to go to Internet cafes to create personal websites.

After entering the society, he was still obsessed with his personal website, trying to find another way to rise. He wasted his time and achieved nothing.

More than ten years later, when he looked back, he found it ridiculous. He was going in the wrong direction and no amount of effort would be of any use.

I have written a total of two million words about the process of starting my own business and making money.

It's even like a business simulation game, a very realistic simulation game, but in a text version.

During these few years, Lin Xiao entered the dream of rebirth dozens of times.

Every dream was the same. It was the eve of National Day in 2001, when he confessed his love to Lian Yi.

But every time, after Lian Yi refused, the sneers and ridicules around him would wake him up.

At first Lin Xiao was very surprised and felt that he was really reborn, but he would wake up every time, and always at the same time.

Gradually, he lost hope.

One day, he received a phone call from his hometown, which brought him bad news.

He has no relatives left.

Lin Xiao was very quiet. He took out the sleeping pills he had prepared a long time ago, stuffed them all into his mouth, and washed them down with Coke.

Then he waited quietly for darkness to fall.

Gradually I fell asleep, and that familiar dream appeared again.

He once again returned to the National Day eve of 2001, the senior class party.

The moment he publicly confessed his love to Lian Yi! At that time, he held flowers, 999 paper cranes, and a chocolate castle, and half-knelt on one knee and said to Lian Yi: "In a corner of this world, we met by chance. At that moment, it seemed that time slowed down, just to give me the opportunity to gaze into your eyes."

"I never thought that a simple eye contact could stir up such a huge wave of emotions in my heart."

"Lian Yi, before this, I had no faith."

"From today on, please become my faith."

Fuck, I'm a few minutes late again. I've already confessed my feelings. The key line is so fucking disgusting.

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