Chapter 55: Nothing is right. That person is standing there, with a huge disease...
The man stood there, his oversized hospital gown looking empty. His hair had been trimmed, making him look fresh, delicate, handsome and generous. It seemed that as he returned to the outside world, the imposing aura that had been temporarily suppressed in his bones was restored a little.
But she didn't know if it was her illusion, but his face seemed even more haggard than when he was in the space.
From just now until now, those familiar yet unfamiliar eyes have been staring at her, motionless.
Lin Xicai tried her best to reduce her presence. She quickly lowered her head in the blank but inexplicably intense and hot gaze. Except for the unavoidable glance she just made, she did not look at him again. She subconsciously leaned towards Fu Yanxiu.
Fu Yanxiu noticed her little movement and his brows relaxed. He looked at Li Ci, calmly interrupting Li Ci's gaze on her, nodded politely and courteously to Li Ci, and naturally took Lin Xicai's wrist and left.
Li Ci turned around in a daze, his eyes falling on the hand that Fu Yanxiu was holding, and a hint of rage suddenly appeared in his eyes as if he had lost control.
Unexplained, without cause, without knowing the source, fury.
No, maybe it wasn't rage, it was just the pain in his heart, so much pain that he mistook it for rage.
But he was at a loss as to why he felt heartbroken.
He stood there as the housekeeper came out of the ward. Seeing him looking distraught again, he couldn't help but be startled and asked cautiously, "What's wrong?"
The butler followed his gaze to the end of the corridor. Fu Yanxiu and Lin Xicai had already turned the corner, and he could only vaguely see the back of a girl.
"What happened?" the butler asked. "Who is that girl?"
yes……
Li Ci couldn't answer.
He had no idea about this person at all.
But my heart...but my heart aches.
I just felt like my heart was crushed in that instant.
It was crushed and then forcibly pieced together, leaving a bloody mess.
…
Fu Yanxiu took Lin Xicai's hand and walked for a long way. When they turned a corner, he let go of her and suddenly stopped.
Lin Xicai's face turned slightly pale. She looked over and met a complicated gaze.
Fu Yanxiu stared at her, and after a moment of silence, he said, "Does Li Ci's disappearance have anything to do with you?"
Lin Xicai pursed her lips and looked at him, "What do you think?"
"Now you tell me there's still room for maneuver."
"If I say yes, will you cover for me?"
Fu Yanxiu's gaze on her suddenly became sharper, and his eyes wandered over her face, as if he could tell the truth from the falsehood from her expression that was good at pretending if he looked at her long enough.
This person always speaks like this, saying five percent and hiding five percent, and saying five percent is true and five percent is false.
There was never a moment when he wished she was lying.
When he looked at her, those beautiful and pure eyes were also looking at him. Then she suddenly smiled, and she looked harmless and innocent. "I'm at school during the day and at your house at night. If it were me, do you think I hid him at school or at your house?"
Fu Yanxiu was speechless. This was exactly what he couldn't understand.
"You searched my room. You know what's inside, don't you?" Lin Xicai smiled calmly. "Besides, I just met him. He's not mute. If it was really me, would he let me go without shouting?"
Yes, that's right.
Fu Yanxiu thought that every word she said was right.
But, but…….
When reason and intuition conflict, which one is correct?
In other matters, Fu Yanxiu always believed in his intuition, but in this matter, he hoped that his intuition was wrong.
…
Li Ci recuperated for a few days, recovered a little, and returned to school.
After disappearing for a few months, he returned to school. All his former brothers gathered around him, flattering and obeying him as before, and treating him with great respect. Zeng Jinghuan was also there, and they also called Xu Tian, as if they were there specifically to celebrate his return.
These people surrounded him, and every face brought him back to the past.
Li Ci spoke in the tone he remembered, smiled with the expression he remembered, and cursed with the catchphrase he remembered. He himself seemed to think that he should go back to the past.
He was playing his old self, but nothing was right.
He was extremely awkward at being himself, as if he was playing someone else, and nothing was right.
This feeling of being unwell was like ten thousand ants crawling on his body, making him itchy so much that he wanted to scratch his heart and skin until they bled, just to stop this itch that seemed to come from his soul.
He remained calm and tried his best to hide the precarious fragility beneath his intact skin, pretending that his soul was still intact.
What happened? When they asked him what happened, he was more confused than they were. He wanted to know the answer more than any of them.
When he can't answer, this confusion will turn into anger, and he will take his anger out on the person who asked the question.
So, including Zeng Jinghuan, his younger brothers didn't dare to ask any more questions. They just made a big fuss to welcome him back and held a welcoming banquet for him at the KTV they used to go to.
In the luxurious box that he had reserved for many years, there was a lot of noise all around, some were singing, some were drinking. Li Ci sat in his usual seat and watched all this, his eyes blank again.
Is this his life before?
Yes, that's right.
He remembers.
This was the life he had lived before.
So what is he not adapting to?
While he was stunned, a tall and thin girl came in from outside, surrounded by people. They had specially come to pick up Xu Tian.
Xu Tian... He knew Xu Tian.
How could he forget that she was his girlfriend, the one he had worked so hard to pursue and whose freshness had not yet worn off.
Those people were cheering and pushing Xu Tian forward, so he smiled and waved at Xu Tian in a skillful and charming manner. As he moved, they cheered even louder, and Xu Tian was pushed directly into his arms.
The body in his arms was soft and warm, but those beautiful eyes were filled with fear and sadness.
In the past, these fears and sorrows would become stimulants for him, easily arousing his interest and making his heart eager to move.
But at this moment, her head was close to his heart, but he felt it was empty.
He pretended not to feel the emptiness and numbness, and stretched out his hand skillfully. The younger brother beside him immediately handed him a cigarette and lit it. Li Ci put the cigarette to his lips, but was choked by the smell of the smoke.
Pungent, unpleasant, and even a little nauseating.
He threw away the cigarette in his hand and, under everyone's gaze, lowered his eyes to look at Xu Tian's face in his arms.
The younger brother who had just lit the cigarette habitually teased and flattered him, "Brother Ci, it's been so long since we last met. Do you have any feelings?"
Li Ci looked at Xu Tian and smiled like he remembered her, looking very charming. "Of course I miss my girlfriend."
As soon as these words were spoken, the crowd started to boo even louder. They laughed, made noises, and made all kinds of jokes.
It's time for a kiss. Li Ci thought, yes, it should be.
Amid the crowd's cheers, Li Ci hugged the person in his arms tightly, held her chin with one hand and kissed her.
Under everyone's gaze, he pretended to be very focused.
But his heart, which was calm without any movement, told him how boring this kiss was.
In fact, he was even rejecting.
He suddenly let go of her without warning and turned to walk out.
Everyone looked over and Li Ci smiled, "Play yourselves, I'm going to go out and get some fresh air."
Li Ci walked in the corridor, the lights were flickering. He leaned against the wall, and let his heavy body squat on the ground with some fatigue. He was playing with an exquisite lighter in his hand, his eyes were empty and blurred, just like the hazy light above his head.
Zeng Jinghuan followed him out, holding a bottle of water in his hand. He walked up to him in a daze and squatted down.
The two of them were so close that Zeng Jinghuan burst into tears.
Li Ci raised his eyes and looked at her blankly, indifferent to her gaze.
He could not empathize with her sadness, nor did he understand why she was sad.
I just remembered the failed kiss in the box just now.
Is it his fault?
Maybe not, it’s because of Xu Tian.
As if just for verification, he suddenly grabbed Zeng Jinghuan's neck and forcefully pushed the face towards him.
Zeng Jinghuan's body stiffened and he was stunned for a moment, but he did not refuse. He even closed his eyes as he approached.
Li Ci kept his eyes open, watching the expression on her face mechanically and calmly.
Their lips moved closer, inch by inch, but when they were about to touch, he suddenly turned his face away.
Loosen the shackles on her.
wrong.
He had absolutely no desire for her, for them.
Like a castrated dog, he has no interest in anything.
Not only was he not interested in women, but he even lost the desire to bully others.
Today at school, at the door of the bathroom, a boy rushed out with hot water and bumped into him, splashing the hot water all over him.
Li Ci's eyes changed on the spot, becoming vicious and violent. He picked up the boy who was already frightened and apologizing continuously from the ground and dragged him roughly to the hot tub.
He had even turned on the hot water, but before he could pull the man's hand over, he suddenly started to get a headache.
He stood there holding the boy who kept begging for mercy, feeling miserable because of the sudden headache.
That was the first time he was magnanimous. It was as if something had imprinted his thoughts on him. That kind of discipline was deeply rooted in his bones, forcing him to obey.
It was as if every evil thought that was about to pop up in his mind would be punished, making him dare not do so.
Li Ci didn't know what was wrong with him, why was everything wrong! Why was everything he did wrong?
He couldn't go back to the past, couldn't be himself again, his soul felt like it was on a gallows, suspended in the air by an invisible force, neither up nor down, neither dead nor knowing how to live, like a pile of rotting zombies.
Why did he become like this? Who made him like this?
Li Ci stood up and Zeng Jinghuan was sobbing softly at his feet, looking like she was crying very sadly.
He lowered his head to look at the person at his feet, looking into her moist eyes, but the look he encountered in the hospital corridor suddenly flashed through his mind.
Almost in an instant, his numb heart seemed to suddenly beat a few times, and the blood in his body became warmer.
who is she?
That girl, who is she?
He racked his brain but could not find any memory of her.
He has forgotten a lot of things. Will he know her? Is she among the people he has forgotten?
…
This was the nth time Xu Tian had been in a daze.
He was back, and these past few months of borrowed peace were over.
How he disappeared was a mystery, and Xu Tian hoped it would remain so forever.
This was the last class of the morning. Less than ten minutes before the end of get out of class, there was a commotion in the classroom. Xu Tian looked up and saw Li Ci standing in the corridor outside.
She stood tall and graceful, leaning against the railing.
Just like many times before.
He seemed to be distracted. Although he was standing there, his eyes were not on her and were a little out of focus.
The bell rang for the end of get out of class. Xu Tian took a deep breath and followed the crowd out of the classroom.
Li Ci looked over and Xu Tian pursed her lips, "Why are you here?"
Li Ci was silent for a moment and then said, "I haven't been to your school for a long time. You must be hungry. Let's go eat."
Xu Tian thought he was going to take her out to eat again, because this person never liked to eat in the cafeteria, but Li Ci was walking in front and was clearly taking her to the cafeteria.
Li Ci's disappearance caused a lot of uproar in the school. When he suddenly appeared and walked around the campus of Xuling College, he attracted attention and caused a lot of discussion wherever he went.
The cafeteria was crowded, noisy, and crowded. Xu Tian took Li Ci in. The moment she entered, she saw Li Ci frowning in disgust.
Xu Tian sighed in his heart. It was obvious that he didn't like it, so why force himself?
She couldn't understand this man. She didn't understand him before, and even more so now.
Xu Tian led him inside. She looked up, as if trying to find a window where there were not too many people around. But the moment she looked up, she caught a familiar figure in the crowd.
She saw Zhong Fei and one of her friends in the crowd. The two girls were less than ten meters away from them, talking and laughing. Her smile was bright and innocent.
Xu Tian didn't dare to look for too long, for fear of attracting Li Ci's attention. She looked away and even blocked Li Ci's sight without making a sound, trying to pull him to the other side.
She never admitted that Li Ci's disappearance had anything to do with her, but Xu Tian's intuition made her not want to take risks. This girl, whom she had met by chance and had never met before, had once shown her kindness. Now, Xu Tian hoped that trouble would not get into her.
Xu Tian calmly grabbed Li Ci's arm and walked in the opposite direction, but Li Ci stopped and his eyes fell on the figure not far away.
Li Ci pushed Xu Tian away, his eyes fixed on her, and walked towards Lin Xicai.
Lin Xicai and Xiang Ling were standing in front of a dessert shop ordering soda. They sensed someone behind them and turned around in a daze. The moment they turned around, they met Li Ci's face.
Li Ci appeared behind her like a ghost, wearing the Qingwu uniform that was familiar to her. His skin was pale, and only his eyes seemed to be burning with a dark fire.
He stared at her, his eyes empty and intense, as if he wanted to burn a hole in her.
The soda in the dessert shop was ready. The proprietress handed it to Lin Xicai. She took the soda and was extremely calm from beginning to end. She even nodded at him politely and unfamiliarly. Then she walked around him with the soda and left as naturally as possible.
Aside from his eyes, he also looked calm.
But the next second, when she was about to pass by him, the cup in Lin Xicai's hand shook and her arm was grabbed tightly by someone.
The force was so great that it seemed to crush her bones.
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