Chapter 39: Let’s Go Lin Xicai’s mind went blank and she felt dizzy…
Lin Xicai's mind went blank, and she was pushed into a taxi in a daze. She sat in the taxi in a daze and looked back, watching the dark figure getting smaller and smaller through the window.
He was clearly in the crowd, yet he was all alone.
He walked towards the woman in the heavy rain, his shoes already soaked and covered in blood.
This was the first time that Lin Xicai had witnessed such a scene. She should have avoided it, no matter what. But as she stared at the person who was getting smaller and smaller in her pupils, the heart in her chest, which she thought was hard, suddenly ached.
Then she stopped a taxi, got out and ran towards the man.
Then she realized that the woman lying on the ground, already breathless, was the hero's mother.
At that time, worry outweighed fear, and her eyes fell on Xie Shi's face. Xie Shi didn't look at her, but calmly called the police and the emergency number, doing it mechanically and skillfully.
When the lights in the emergency room went out and the doctor announced that the rescue was ineffective, he was not surprised at all. There was not a single tear in his dry and desolate eyes.
Lin Xicai followed him quietly, stunned, and suddenly realized something in an instant.
This is the ninth time in this day's cycle.
So the reason for repeating this cycle so many times is to...save the mother?
Lin Xicai suddenly grabbed Xie Shi's hand. She held onto him tightly, a bleak hope in her eyes. "There's still a chance! Try again tomorrow! If it doesn't work tomorrow, try the day after tomorrow. I can help you. We'll definitely be able to stop it! Pull Auntie away sooner rather than later, or just stay home with her. We'll definitely be able to change the situation..."
Xie Shi interrupted her, slowly raised his hand away, and drove her away with his eyes.
"Go away," he said, his voice heavy.
"I won't leave," Lin Xicai stared at his face, her tone serious and firm, "Let me stay, I really want to help you."
Xie Shi looked at her, his eyes dead, like a handful of cold ashes, "You can't help me."
"Maybe it can work?" Lin Xicai's tone was a little anxious, even with a bit of inappropriate anger, "You've only tried it nine times, just nine times. If it were me, I would try it 100 times!"
Xie Shi raised his eyes to look at her, his gaze was sharp and sad, "How do you know I don't have it?"
Obviously, she had confused cause and effect.
He thought he had cycled so many times to save his mother.
But in fact, it was because he rescued his mother that so many cycles occurred.
If this world is viewed as a game, this is a major event that must happen to him as an NPC. As long as he takes action to prevent this from happening, this day will never pass.
Every time the world restarts to this day, the same thing happens.
When he faced his mother's death for the first time, he went through the same process hundreds of times. He refused to believe in evil and refused to accept his fate. He almost turned himself into a madman. He stubbornly trapped himself in that day, stubbornly wanting to keep his mother.
But after too many times, when the scenes around you are repeated too many times, people will become numb and desperate, which is an emotion more dangerous than "going crazy".
He began to question his choices, his experiences, and even his own soul.
So much so that when he finally failed to save someone due to a mistake, even he himself could not tell whether this failure was due to careless negligence or desperate indulgence.
He pressed the forward button at the cost of his mother's life.
His father died when he was very young, and that day he lost his mother, who he depended on for everything, and became a real loner in this bizarre world.
He spent his senior year of high school in a daze, which had completely changed beyond recognition. Just when he thought his miserable life would continue in this daze, he was thrown back to the starting point.
The moment the game restarted, he saw his mother's loving face again at that new starting point.
Stunned, shocked, and dazed, he looked at his mother's face and felt everything that seemed calm around him. For a moment, he thought he had just had a horrible and long nightmare.
But then, when the details of his life repeated themselves endlessly, he couldn't deceive himself. The same experience happened again, like... a game restart.
Everything around him was repeating itself. He was like an NPC living out a grand, pre-written play, seemingly back to square one, yet in reality, he was burdened with shackles. He wanted to change something, but soon discovered that if he altered any of his choices or the plot, the day would be reset.
Then, a girl began to appear frequently around him - that was the first conqueror, of course he didn't know it at that time - he just found that only that girl was not bound by this framework, and her every behavior and every choice would directly affect his life.
In this strange repetition, she is the only difference.
This girl seemed to know him very well, and her approach and advances towards him were very purposeful but he couldn't guess. He observed this person calmly, allowing and even to some extent fueling this approach. He was eager to know what she wanted to do, or what she could do.
She acted so kind and friendly in front of him that he almost regarded her as his only comrade in the world, until one day when he was seriously injured and hospitalized and unconscious, and he heard the girl talking to herself in front of the bed with his own ears.
He had his eyes closed at that time, his body could hardly move, but his mind was clear. He could hear her voice, and heard her talking to something called a system.
"System, are you there? System? The hero is so badly injured, he won't die, will he?"
"I can't hear you. I've already stepped half a foot into the grave. How can I wake up so soon?"
"He's really hard to conquer. I've been acting like a sunny-eyed kid every day and I'm almost breaking down laughing, but he's still indifferent. His favorability is only 20. I'm almost out of patience. If it weren't for the bonus, I wouldn't bother with him."
"Don't worry, I'm just saying that. When he wakes up, I will definitely stay by his side and keep him warm."
"......You mean, after the hero's mother passes away next month, his psychological defenses will be at their weakest. That will be my last chance. Damn, it's so hard to conquer him."
......
Xie Shi quietly listened to the girl's tone, which was completely different from usual. His heart suddenly shrank, and the hope that was about to ignite in his chest turned cold again.
The girl's words were like a cold hammer, mockingly shattering his expectations.
He thought they were of the same kind, but he didn't know that she had actually been observing him from a higher dimension.
He wanted to use her to change the situation and rescue his mother, but he didn't consider that all this might be welcomed by the other party, or even fueled by it.
It seems that her purpose is to push him into the quagmire, then lend a helping hand and gain his gratitude and affection.
But why? His body felt like it was broken into pieces, and even breathing hurt, but the confusion, doubt, and anger that burrowed deep into his soul overwhelmed everything. He hated being fooled, played with, and deceived. He was eager to know the truth, the damn truth—even if it was horrible.
The girl wasn't as scheming as he was. After Xie Shi was discharged from the hospital, he remained calm and even deliberately acted closer to her. Finally, he unraveled the fragments and tentatively integrated the truth that made him hate and fear -
His world was created by some force.
In other words, it is similar to a love-oriented game world, and he is the protagonist of this game.
The girl is left here by the player, and the game task is to conquer him and make him fall in love with her. Success in conquering him is considered as mission accomplished. After clearing the level, the player can return to his own world and fulfill a certain wish.
He existed in this world, just an awakened, captured NPC.
His awakening is undoubtedly a bug.
That's good.
It is better to suffer soberly than to sink numbly.
Since the world wants to play tricks on him, let's destroy it together.
Xie Shi watched the attacker perform in front of him, and those hypocritical eyes made him feel annoyed.
Xie Shi's emotions were directly reflected in the favorability level that the attacker could see. The number kept decreasing, and he saw panic, helplessness, and an eagerness to make amends on her face as he wished.
When that number becomes negative, everything is irreversible, the strategy mission is declared a failure, and the game restarts.
In just a few days, the situation reversed.
So what if he was an NPC? He still held the initiative firmly in his own hands.
A twisted and dark desire for revenge grew and was vented, leaving him feeling empty and satisfied.
When the game restarted again, he was calm.
He can face this ridiculous world calmly and face the new round of attackers.
While they were attacking him, he was also analyzing them—analyzing their motives, analyzing what they wanted to exchange through this game. This was his only pleasure in this world.
He wasn't anxious for them to fail. The extent of change in his life depended on these people. Only plots related to the Captors offered any possibility of change, a hint of novelty amidst this nauseating repetition. And he needed this novelty, this fluctuation, this difference.
He was trapped in this game for too long, and later, in addition to becoming a madman, he also became a monster.
He forgot which raider it was, but he began to hear the voices of those raiders.
While they were performing hard, he could clearly hear what they were thinking. He didn't even need to analyze what he wanted to know. It was laid out in front of him and he couldn't escape it.
What's worse is that it's not just the voices of his inner thoughts that he hears. His perception of the world becomes more and more sensitive. In the end, it's as if he has an extra pair of eyes in his heart. Not only can he hear their voices, but he can also be forced to sense their locations and some things happening to them.
He was tormented and troubled, feeling irritated and disgusted by it.
This bug in him seems to be getting bigger and bigger.
Xie Shi had a premonition that when this bug continued to expand and attracted the attention of certain forces, that would be the day he would be wiped out.
But he was sober and didn't know how to restrain himself.
He is not afraid of being exposed.
In fact, he looked forward to it ending more than anyone else.
A true end.
Before the end comes, he has to continue to endure and deal with these sufferings that are tailor-made for him.
He was both a witness and a spectator of these hardships, having experienced them so many times that he became numb to them. With the exception of his mother's death, the other blows inflicted on him didn't stir the slightest ripple in his heart.
The only thing he couldn't let go of was his mother's death, no matter how many times he reset the game.
Even though he knew they would meet again someday, every time that day approached, he couldn't help but feel terrified and couldn't help but try to stop it. However, in the end, it was always in vain.
It was the same this time, he couldn't help but try, but it was doomed to fail.
And at this moment, when he had given up, this person stood in front of him, looking more anxious than he was, urging him to try again.
He had revealed too many flaws in front of her.
He was not surprised that she was so smart and could figure out some things.
He was surprised by her sadness, surprised by her heartache. She was sad and heartbroken for him. Apart from the man lying lifeless in the emergency room at that moment, she was probably the only person in the world who would shed tears for him.
This person's heart was cold and hard, but at this moment he softened a little.
…….
Lin Xicai was locked in his gaze.
She only felt that his eyes became extremely complicated and deep, so deep that she couldn't deconstruct it.
Dangerous, dark, intense, aggressive.
Lin Xicai's heart trembled when she was stared at by this kind of gaze, and her breathing became disordered for a moment.
She forced herself to calm down, realizing she might have overstepped her bounds. She didn't understand the full picture, nor did she know all about him. The person who had died at that moment was the most important person to him. He wouldn't have given up if there had been a glimmer of hope. There must have been a more horrific reason for his choice.
Xie Shi stared at her, his eyes trembling. He was silent for a moment, then turned his gaze away from her, hiding the strange color in his eyes: "Go away, go back to where you should be and do what you should do."
No one in this world is worth wasting your time on, including me.
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