Hate back then
"...then, then," Bai Roushuang asked stutteringly, "what happened next? Did they chop it off?"
"No," Xu Shulou looked at her, "If it had been chopped off, you would have definitely heard about it."
“Why didn’t you cut it?”
Xu Shulou smiled and said, "Let's go out first and talk about it later."
"good."
Xu Shulou waved his hand, and the imperial city in front of him disappeared, replaced by the scene of the brothel when Bai Roushuang came in.
This scene stayed at the moment when she and Immortal Master Chang Yu left.
"I want to take another look." Bai Roushuang said softly.
Xu Shulou didn't ask her what she wanted to see, but just stayed by her side quietly.
Bai Roushuang walked towards the backyard familiarly: "I want to see the jealous face of Sister Lan after Master takes me away."
The scene before my eyes came alive.
Under the moonlight, Sister Lan knelt on the ground, looking at the direction they flew away, and she shed tears: "I am sorry for you, Shuang'er, I hope you can become an immortal and live a peaceful and smooth life without having to experience the sufferings of the world."
Bai Roushuang was filled with rage, as if she was suddenly held up, unable to express or stop herself. She could only stand there in a daze.
Xu Shulou walked over to her side and sighed, "Human nature is complicated."
Bai Roushuang didn't want to look at her. The senior sister in front of her was a great saint who could let go of even the hatred of the destruction of her country and the demise of her family. Bai Roushuang thought sarcastically that what she didn't need most right now was probably someone persuading her to let go.
She bit her lip and said, "Given your personality, you must hope that I forgive her."
"Of course not. What she did to you was indeed excessive." Xu Shulou shook his head. "Since I have not experienced what you have experienced, I am not qualified to be generous to others."
"That's good," Bai Roushuang sighed softly, "I was really afraid that you would persuade me, saying that if you could let go of such a great vengeance, why couldn't I do it?"
"My hatred is mine, your hatred is yours. Who says my hatred must be heavier than your hatred?" Xu Shulou blinked at her. "Do I look so self-righteous?"
Bai Roushuang was inexplicably comforted by Xu Shulou's words. She stood there for a long time before she sighed again: "Except for those memories that really happened, is everything in the water mirror real or fake?"
"I don't know either," Xu Shulou shook his head, "If you want to believe it is true, then it is true. If you want it to be false, then it is false."
Bai Roushuang thought for a moment and said, "Then can I believe that Sister Lan's tears are real and my mother's cruelty is fake?"
Xu Shulou smiled and touched her hair: "Of course."
Bai Roushuang raised her face, as if she was afraid of tears flowing out. It was night time and all she saw was an endless starry sky.
"It turns out that the moonlight that night was so beautiful."
The starry sky before his eyes flashed white light, and all the images shattered again. The fragments were blown away by the wind, and Bai Roushuang was also bounced out by the water mirror.
The first thing she did was to look for Xu Shulou. When she turned around, she saw her senior sister smiling at her from behind, and only then did she feel relieved.
At this moment, a male voice sounded not far away: "Junior Sister Bai! Are you here too?"
The two looked in the direction of the sound and saw a group of people from Lingxiao Sect flying to the top of the mountain on their swords.
Bai Roushuang had a lot of mysteries waiting for Xu Shulou to answer, and when she saw Lu Beichen at this moment, she actually felt that he was a bit of a spoiler.
Lu Beichen flew directly to Bai Roushuang and jumped off the flying sword in a graceful manner. After seeing her appearance clearly, he was slightly startled and asked with concern: "Junior Sister Bai, are you crying?"
Bai Roushuang touched her face subconsciously. She had shed too many tears in the illusion, and her eyes were still red and swollen.
Lu Beichen had already looked at Xu Shulou: "Could it be that someone took advantage of my absence to bully you?"
Xiao Ya followed closely behind Lu Beichen and also stepped onto the cliff, but did not move forward. She looked at Xu Shulou from a distance, obviously guarding against her.
Bai Roushuang quickly shook her head: "No, I accidentally fell into the Heart Demon Mirror, and Senior Sister went in and saved me."
Lu Beichen knew it was a misunderstanding, and his expression softened slightly. However, Xiao Ya's expression changed behind him, and she put her right hand on the weapon at her waist: "Xu Shulou, have you entered the Heart Demon Mirror?"
Even Lu Beichen was stunned: "Junior Sister Xiao, what are you doing?"
"Brother Lu, you know very well what the Heart Demon Mirror is, and you should also know the relationship between me and her," Xiao Ya snorted coldly, "What else could Xu Shulou's heart demon be other than the destruction of her family back then? She has just emerged from the water mirror, and her mind is still unstable. When she suddenly sees me, what do you think she will do to me?"
Xu Shulou, Xiao Ya silently repeated this name in her heart. When her father and mother sent her to the immortal gate, they reminded her that there were people from the royal family of the previous dynasty in the cultivation world, and asked her to be careful.
It was Xiao Ya's grandfather who destroyed the Xu royal family. As a legitimate princess who witnessed everything back then, does Xu Shulou really have no hatred in her heart and really not intend to seek revenge on her?
If the two were in the other's place, Xiao Ya believed that she would definitely find ways to take revenge. After entering Lingxiao Sect, she almost lost her color when she heard about the engagement between her senior brother and Xu Shulou. Later, she realized that Lu Beichen kept delaying and seemed to have no intention of this marriage, so she was relieved and continued to stay in Lingxiao Sect to practice.
Before Xu Shulou could speak, Bai Roushuang could not help but complain, "My senior sister hasn't done anything to you yet, but you have been the one who has been pushing me, right?"
Lu Beichen looked at Bai Roushuang, who was always gentle and charming in front of him, in surprise. She noticed his surprise and gritted her teeth, but didn't want to retreat. For a good person like the senior sister, it's okay to be nicer to the people in the sect, but she can't let outsiders bully her.
Xiao Ya glanced at her and didn't even bother to answer her, with contempt evident in her words.
Wuchendao and the others noticed the conflict here. Most of them were protective of their own people. When they saw someone drawing swords against Xu Shulou, they ran over without asking why or distinguishing between right and wrong, and immediately drew their weapons to attack the eldest sister.
Seeing this, Xiao Ya sneered: "No matter how powerful you are, Xu Shulou, can you defeat the hundreds of cultivators of Lingxiao Sect with just a few of you?"
Lu Beichen frowned: "My fellow junior brothers and sisters, please give me Lu Beichen some face, don't be impulsive, and talk it out nicely."
Xiao Ya stared at Xu Shulou's every move and said, "Brother, your face alone is useless if I give it to you. It depends on whether your fiancée is willing to give it to you."
That probably won't be given. Lu Beichen cleared his throat, stood between the two of them, and tried to persuade Xu Shulou to put the overall situation first and it would be unwise to cause a conflict in the secret realm.
"Miss Xiao." Xu Shulou had already flicked his sleeves to brush Lu Beichen away, walked forward, and handed a handkerchief to Xiao Ya.
"What is this?" Xiao Ya did not raise her hand to take it, but looked down cautiously. The handkerchief was printed with the familiar palace seal. "Is it something from the Xiao Kingdom's royal family? Where did you get it?!"
"Decades ago, I went to the Xiao Kingdom's palace," Xu Shulou said frankly, "I went there to kill someone."
Xu Shulou did not lie. She had indeed planned to massacre everyone in the palace.
Xiao Ya's face changed drastically: "You..."
Xu Shulou casually put up a soundproof cover to prevent others from hearing his conversation with Xiao Ya, and then continued: "At that time, I landed in the palace, right in front of a six-year-old girl. She probably thought I was some kind of fairy, and didn't notice the murderous aura on me. Instead, she asked me, 'Fairy sister, can I make a wish?'"
Xiao Ya suddenly fell silent.
"She said her royal grandfather had stayed up all night for state affairs and was coughing up blood. She asked me if I could bless her royal grandfather to be healthy and safe."
“…”
"I asked her, why do you think your royal grandfather rebelled?" Xu Shulou said slowly, "Your grandfather... Xiao Juncheng is the general my father trusts the most. They are also friends in private. Whenever I saw your grandfather, I would call him Uncle Xiao. You also have an aunt who is my study partner. I could never figure out why he did this. That's why I asked this question."
“…”
"Do you remember how she answered?"
Xiao Ya continued in a daze: "The girl answered proudly that the last emperor of the previous dynasty was a tyrant, and my grandfather had the ability to make people live a better life. The throne should be occupied by the capable."
These words were said by her great-grandfather, and in order to please him, Xiao Ya had remembered them clearly since she was a child.
Xu Shulou nodded: "Then she handed me a handkerchief and asked me to wipe my tears. I said I wasn't crying, and she said...but you look like you're about to cry."
“…”
"This is the origin of this handkerchief." Xu Shulou handed over the handkerchief again.
That was the first time Xiao Ya and Xu Shulou met.
"..." Xiao Ya took the handkerchief, feeling mixed emotions. After all, she was young at the time, and immediately forgot about the "seeing the fairy". Now that the person in front of her was talking about the past, she realized that the "fairy sister" she met when she was young was Xu Shulou, and that the six-year-old herself might have been through the gates of hell.
"Why?"
Why didn't you do it?
"My father has been so good to me, I should avenge him, but..." Xu Shulou shook his head, "He is a good father to me, a good husband to my mother, and a good friend to those around him. My father is such a good person, how can I let go of this hatred? But... to the people of the world, he is not a good emperor."
“…”
"And your grandfather was insidious and cunning. He deceived my father in the name of friendship. He was the most murderous. When the two armies were fighting, my female companion was pushed to the front of the battle. Without saying a word, Xiao Juncheng shot an arrow at his own daughter, but the distance was too far and the aim was not good, so only half of her ear was cut off." Xu Shulou smiled bitterly, "But he happened to be a wise ruler in the eyes of the people. If I kill him, I am afraid I will be sorry to the people of the world."
"..." Xiao Ya knew about this past event. Later, before the palace fell, the last emperor of the previous dynasty knew that the situation was hopeless, but he finally released the female companion from the Xiao family and let her escape on her own.
Xiao Ya had always despised the kindness of the last emperor of the previous dynasty. How could an emperor hold on to this position without being a little ruthless? But when these words came out of Xu Shulou's mouth, she inexplicably felt a little compassion.
"When I hated it the most, I also thought, what does the world have to do with me? They choose to submit to the new dynasty, and they deserve to die just the same," Xu Shulou sighed, "but in the end, I couldn't do it."
That day she left the palace in a daze. It was raining heavily. Xu Shulou did not use her spiritual power. She just walked in the pouring rain. Passers-by held umbrellas and walked with her on her way.
“…”
"I have traveled all over the country and asked many people. After Xiao Juncheng ascended the throne, he cleaned up the bureaucracy and reduced taxes. Most people praised him," Xu Shulou sighed. "I can only recognize one fact: a good emperor is one who can make people live well. It has nothing to do with his temperament. What is right and wrong should be judged by the people, and only by the people. I am not qualified. I hate him no matter how much."
Xiao Ya was speechless.
Xu Shulou looked into the distance, his eyes filled with nostalgia and loneliness: "In fact, there was no such thing as the destruction of the country and the destruction of the family. The country was not destroyed, it just changed its name, and only my Xu royal family was destroyed."
“…”
"I have been in the mortal world for decades, and most of the time I lived like an ordinary person," Xu Shulou laughed self-deprecatingly, "I told myself that when the Xiao family has a tyrant, I will immediately seek revenge. But..."
"..." However, they all knew that Xu Shulou would probably never take revenge.
In just a few words, Xiao Ya heard the hatred, helplessness and eventual relief of a princess of a fallen country.
Xu Shulou had calmed down and turned to look at her: "Miss Xiao, I said this to reassure you and not to be on guard against me. Since I didn't do anything to you back then, I won't do anything to you now."
Since she saw it so clearly, Xiao Ya had nothing to say and could only nod stiffly: "I believe you."
The others couldn't hear the sound, but judging from the expressions and actions of the two women, they guessed that they couldn't fight for the time being.
Lu Beichen breathed a sigh of relief and no longer dared to invite the people from Wuchen Island to join his team. After expressing his concern for Bai Roushuang, he led the group straight to the target they were looking for.
Bai Roushuang finally got rid of Lu Beichen and went to look for her senior sister.
But he saw Xu Shulou in the leeward side of the cave, staring at a clay jar in a daze.
Bai Roushuang approached cautiously: "Senior Sister, what are you doing?"
Xu Shulou held a fan in his hand and fanned the fire in the small stove under the clay pot: "You were frightened in the Heart Demon Mirror. I will make you some mind-calming soup."
Bai Roushuang's eyes turned red and she called "Senior Sister" in a crying voice.
Xu Shulou looked at her with a smile: "Don't cry, don't worry, it won't be hard."
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