88 Chaos
Human sanity no longer exists
Zhu Ning closed his notebook.
She hugged her knees and buried herself, as if she had made a cocoon for herself, and the cognition she had accumulated over the years was gradually disintegrating.
When she first came to the wasteland world, she didn't even have an accurate understanding of this world. She didn't feel that this place was real at first.
Entering the contaminated area, completing the grave-sticking task, and undergoing training and assessment at the cleaning center were all like a game to her.
A game that is a bit difficult, but the overall feeling is relaxing.
Experiment No. 777 was the first time she encountered a crisis. The killer from Eternal Life Pharmaceuticals made her realize that she would die, and also made her realize that she had to become stronger. However, her concept was very vague at the time. How to become stronger and in which direction to become stronger?
What is she fighting against?
She had no idea of all this and was just being pushed around by Prometheus.
She enters one polluted area after another and encounters one mystery after another. She is a designed program and a arranged puppet.
Later, she got to know more and more people here, including Liu Niannian, Lin Xiaofeng, Li Nianchuan, and Song Zhizhang who treated her very well.
She became more and more integrated into the wasteland world, as if she had lived there for a long time and was no different from the locals.
She had partners and people like her, she began to feel more at ease, began to understand Yongsheng Pharmaceutical, began to get in touch with Genesis Technology, and she knew the world outside the wall.
Her worldview began to take shape, and she herself became stronger and stronger.
This process, for real humans, is a kind of growth, but for her, it's more like... growing into a mature experimental subject.
Her bottom line is getting lower and lower. At first, she felt that the world might not be real. Later, she felt that her feelings might not be real. Now, how can she guarantee her own authenticity?
It would be difficult for a normal human to realize that they are experimental subjects, and she is no exception. This is too advanced.
Am I just a thing created by someone?
She exists entirely because the Creator needs her to exist. Her mother is not Zhu Yao, but may be an experimental researcher.
All her emotions, personality, and choices may be input codes.
It's so sad that what she thinks is unique is actually the characteristics given to her by the Creator.
"By the way, do you defective people know who you were before?" Zhu Ning remembered Li Nianchuan's question.
She now knew that she was an experiment and should be an artificial human.
"Some artificial humans are created just to be consumables." Li Nianchuan said this so freely at the time.
Since he was born, Li Nianchuan has naturally accepted the fact that he is just a consumable. He is like a tool that was developed and will be worn out sooner or later.
A pair of scissors, an axe, a Li Nianchuan, and a Zhu Ning, these things are arranged together and there seems to be no sense of incongruity.
In this world where the relationship between people and things is very blurred, people are becoming more and more like things, and things are becoming more and more like people.
She has long known the underlying nature of this world, alienating people and humanizing objects.
She is actually... an object?
How can humans prove that they are human?
How should humans realize their own existence?
Zhu Ning couldn't understand this, and all her feelings were confused for a moment.
If the previous world was clearly laid out before our eyes, the world had rules, and humans needed to abide by the rules to survive in the world, as long as you abide by the rules, you would know what would happen next.
Obey the law and don't commit crimes.
Obey traffic rules and avoid traffic accidents.
Comply with employee rules and regulations and avoid having your wages docked.
Follow the logic of the contaminated area and don't die.
Rules are like roads. People can find their own coordinates when walking on them, and they can live within the rules.
The past could be explained by existing knowledge, but now she was in chaos because she didn't even have a reliable reference to compare with.
She was lost in the world. All roads were open to her, and all roads could lead to any direction. She didn't know who she was or where her destination was.
Zhu Ning closed his eyes.
When all truth is shattered, human sanity ceases to exist.
…
Song Zhizhang manages the shop upstairs.
It is now the business hours of the Queen's Store, but business has not been good recently, with only a few regular customers.
He leaned against the bar and yawned. The employee next to him teased him, "Boss Song, you can't do this. You work during the day and at night. She's exploiting you too much."
Song Zhizhang is already a boss, but he is more tired than most of their employees.
Before Zhu Ning lived in their store, Song Zhizhang's biological clock was opposite to that of normal humans. He worked at night and slept during the day.
Now Song Zhizhang has to help Zhu Ning take care of Lin Xiaofeng, and his biological clock has been messed up recently.
The employees next to him were very gossipy and kept wanting to ask him why he liked Zhu Ning so much and what exactly attracted him to Zhu Ning?
Song Zhizhang looked like a prostitute who had met a benefactor and had been serving her ever since.
Song Zhizhang leaned against the bar. He was clearly being teased by his employees, but he wasn't angry at all. He was genuinely thinking about what attracted him to Zhu Ning.
The nature of Song Zhizhang's job requires him to work at night. Over time, Song Zhizhang seemed to have entered a dark world, completely disconnected from normal society.
Song Zhizhang only comes into contact with two types of people: the rich women who come to their store to consume, and the people who come to exchange contaminated spores and rotten meat.
Zhu Ning was the latter, but he lived in his shop.
She is full of vitality, a kind of overly vigorous vitality that is very rare in this world.
Song Zhizhang's workplace is full of debauchery, and love and desire are the basis of their industry, but putting aside all related imaginations, Zhu Ning is still very attractive.
Song Zhizhang believed that he was not the only one attracted to her. Regardless of gender, regardless of love, everyone would be attracted by her characteristics. She was too much like an alien in this world.
Song Zhizhang's eyes darkened when he thought of Zhu Ning. He could feel that Zhu Ning was not in a good state recently. She was always a little lost, which was very different from when they first met.
Song Zhizhang had not experienced what Zhu Ning had experienced, but he could probably understand a little bit: the more people come into contact with the world, the more they will understand the absurdity of the world. If humans stop thinking, they will not feel pain.
But Zhu Ning is too smart. She is smart and empathetic, and she will definitely feel pain because of the truth of this world.
Suddenly, Song Zhizhang's body stiffened and his face suddenly turned cold.
The employees next to him were still joking with him, only to see Song Zhizhang's face suddenly turn very bad. Song Zhizhang always kept smiling. No matter how tired he was or how difficult the trouble was, he was always so gentle.
It was the first time the employees saw him with this expression, and it was very serious.
The blue earrings that Song Zhizhang usually wore flashed, and a faint light appeared on the sea-blue surface.
Song Zhizhang left immediately and walked into his office.
This office has received many demon hunters and cleaners. This is the office that Zhu Ning first entered, but Song Zhizhang pushed open the door inside.
Then he pushed open three doors in succession. In the innermost room was a large screen filled with data that laymen could not understand.
The room Song Zhizhang prepared for Zhu Ning was specially customized, so even if someone inside became a source of pollution, the scene could be controlled instantly.
When Zhu Ning came to him, they were more worried that Lin Xiaofeng would be difficult to control. Now it was not Lin Xiaofeng who was in trouble, but Zhu Ning.
As he promised, there was no surveillance in the room, so Song Zhizhang couldn't see exactly what was happening.
Data showed that the pollution concentration in Zhu Ning's bedroom was rising, which was a precursor to becoming a pollution source.
Is she infected?
When? Why now?
Zhu Ning is worthy of being an S-level mental value. The starting data of pollution concentration is 200%, which is already the level of A-level pollution area.
Song Zhizhang called Zhu Ning's deputy chief, but no one answered.
"Zhu Ning?" Song Zhizhang pressed a button. He had a way to communicate with the inside of the room. There was a loudspeaker inside. As long as the contaminated area was not opened, he could maintain communication with the inside. "What's wrong with you?"
No one responded.
"Zhu Ning, answer me!"
"Zhu Ning!" Song Zhizhang did not respond to any of his inquiries.
"Damn it!" Song Zhizhang had always maintained his elegance, but now he could no longer maintain it and cursed.
Zhu Ning's sanity was collapsing and her mental state was fluctuating violently.
Lin Xiaofeng is still inside. Lin Xiaofeng is too young and she doesn't have the ability to control herself well.
Zhu Ning is now like a pollution source that continuously emits pollution. If she really collapses, it will continuously affect the surrounding environment. Song Zhizhang can lock her in the room to minimize her risk.
But Lin Xiaofeng lived next door to Zhu Ning, and the first person to be affected after Zhu Ning got into trouble was Lin Xiaofeng.
If Lin Xiaofeng collapses at the same time, it means that they will create a double source of pollution. Lin Xiaofeng is at least Class B, and Zhu Ning's lowest level is Class S, or considering her mental value, this number is conservative.
If an S+ level contamination area appears in the Queen's Store, all safety measures in this room will be meaningless.
Song Zhizhang went to call Lin Xiaofeng's deputy brain, and Zhu Ning gave her a communication tool.
Fortunately, Lin Xiaofeng's communication was able to get through. The other party was in a daze and must have been woken up in the middle of his sleep.
Song Zhizhang: "Xiaofeng, come out! Get out of there!"
Lin Xiaofeng rubbed her eyes, still a little confused. She could feel that the situation seemed very urgent. Was she in danger?
"What's wrong? What should I do, Sister Zhu?"
Lin Xiaofeng is still paying attention to Zhu Ning.
Song Zhizhang: "Don't worry about her, come out right now!"
Song Zhizhang talked as he walked, and he immediately ran to the basement. There was little he could do now. What he could still do was to bring Lin Xiaofeng out before the automatic response device in the room was locked.
Lin Xiaofeng trusted Song Zhizhang very much. She had been very obedient since she was a child. She immediately got up from the bed very quickly. She was wearing plush slippers and had just opened the door of her bedroom.
She originally wanted to run straight to the door, but she subconsciously looked in the direction of Zhu Ning's bedroom. Zhu Ning was the closest person to her in the world now, and Lin Xiaofeng's reaction was completely instinctive.
Then she froze.
Zhu Ning's door was tightly closed, but black mucus was pouring out from the gap, as if the inside of the door was already filled with black mucus. The room could no longer bear the weight, and it would sooner or later flood the entire room.
Is this why Song Zhizhang asked her to leave?
What happened to Zhu Ning?
Lin Xiaofeng wanted to listen to Song Zhizhang's words. Song Zhizhang's judgment must be reasonable and most in line with current logic.
Lin Xiaofeng didn't want to cause trouble for others, so she should leave obediently. She felt that Song Zhizhang could handle the aftermath.
But she couldn't move.
What she meant was that she couldn't move at all because panic was taking over and she felt like she was stuck in place.
Every cell in her body was clamoring to escape, and her heart was shouting at her to leave. Her body sensed the danger. It was a powerful and mysterious force, and Lin Xiaofeng faced it as if she were facing a tsunami.
When people see a tsunami erupting and a wall of huge waves right before their eyes, they know that once this wave hits, all life will be gone.
Lin Xiaofeng was fortunate, or unfortunate, to get a glimpse of this corner.
She felt like she was dying, but she couldn't move at all.
…
Zhu Ning took a deep breath.
Gao Yingcheng's notebook was placed at Zhu Ning's feet, and the old notebook seemed to be mocking her.
The warm orange bedside lamp cast her shadow on the ceiling, and a huge black shadow was suspended in the air. It was Zhu Ning's shadow, but it was not Zhu Ning's shadow.
The shadow grew thicker and darker, and finally became like flowing liquid, as if it had solidified into another kind of creature.
They became more and more numerous, spreading from the ceiling and gradually flowing to the other four walls, blocking the entrance to the bedroom door and the vents in the bathroom.
They blocked all exits, like building a nest or a cage.
A drop of black slime hung from the ceiling, and twitching lines began to appear in the background, as if an eye was looking down at her from above.
Another force, or rather the force flowing out of Zhu Ning, was observing her.
At that moment, she seemed to have become two different people. Everything was so chaotic to Zhu Ning. When her sanity collapsed, her thoughts were confused, and now the chaos began to materialize.
This place is like Zhu Ning’s inner world.
She felt her body was very hot, but her back was very cold at the same time. Some of the horrible touches left by the high-level alien species at that time were revived.
It felt like something cold and sticky was attached to the back of her neck. It was growing bigger and bigger, multiplying and wriggling like crazy.
A dark mass enveloped her, as if hugging her.
"Zhu Ning?"
"Zhu Ning!"
Someone was calling her in the distance. It sounded like Song Zhizhang's voice. Zhu Ning had never heard Song Zhizhang so anxious before.
But it was too far away, she could only hear vague sounds, and then she could hear nothing.
This place was a whole new world, all sounds were isolated, and all she could hear was the rustling sound of the black slime flowing.
Rustling——
Rustling——
She couldn't even hear the system sound. The mechanical sound disappeared and she couldn't open the system panel.
The system panel was like a freak accident, and turned into strips of data fragments.
She seemed to be completely abandoned here. She could not find her connection with the world, nor the meaning of her existence.
Boom——
Suddenly, she heard her own heartbeat.
Zhu Ning rested her forehead against her knees. There was only a shadow in front of her eyes. She could not see anything, but she could hear her own heartbeat.
Her heart was beating, her heart was beating under the pressure.
That was a very panicked heartbeat. When humans encounter danger and terror, adrenaline is secreted and the heartbeat speeds up.
The sound of heartbeat is like a lamp in a chaotic world. The light is dim, but it exists.
Zhu Yao gave her a strong heart.
Zhu Ning couldn't be sure whether Zhu Yao existed, but this heart existed.
Boom——
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