Chapter 186 Qingqing, That Person Is Me

Bai Xu hugged Luo Qing with trembling hands. He tried to comfort her, or rather, he was comforting himself who had committed a crime.

"Qingqing, no, he won't appear again."

"Do you trust me? Don't be afraid, Qingqing. I will protect you."

Luo Qing dodged his embrace.

She stared at him blankly, her lips moving, "Ah Xu, how do you know he won't show up?"

"You are not him..."

"That man pulled me in on my way home from get off work, and he covered my eyes while doing it. He must have known me, and I might have known him too..."

"Ah Xu, I'm really scared. I've been scared for seven years. I can't stand it anymore..."

The rain outside is getting heavier.

With every word she spoke, Bai Xu's face turned paler.

Every word she says says you are not that person.

But every word reminded him that it was he who ruined her life and he also ruined his qualification to stay with her forever.

Luo Qing's face was full of tears, and her helpless eyes were filled with pleading, "Ah Xu, I beg you, please help me... I really can't hold on any longer..."

She looked at him like this and said, "Please help me."

Bai Xu just remembered that seven years ago, she said, please let me go.

Bai Xu didn't say anything, but just hugged Luo Qing tightly, as if he wanted to melt her into his bones and blood.

Perhaps no one would believe that he now hates his past self countless times.

Luo Qing waited for him to speak, but he remained silent.

Luo Qing's heart was filled with sarcasm.

She wondered why he stopped talking.

She wanted to hear what excuse he had.

"Ah Xu, does that person you mentioned occasionally feel guilty over the past few years?"

"I don't think so. He must be very proud of himself and must be laughing at me secretly where I can't see him, laughing at how stupid I am."

"You see, he left such a huge psychological shadow on me, but I don't even know who he is..."

Luo Qing's voice became a little hoarse, and upon careful listening, there was a hint of despair in her voice, as if there was nothing in this world that could hold her back.

"Qingqing, stop talking..."

"Just let yourself go, okay?"

"That person, that person might be dead..."

Bai Xu hugged Luo Qing, and no one could see that hot tears were streaming down his face.

How could he not feel guilty?

Over the years, whenever he thought about it, he always felt extremely guilty.

Bai Xu was a little too self-deprecating.

At first, he appeared beside Luo Qing in a joking manner.

He wanted to see her in pain and despair, yet at the same time seeing it as a lifeline, completely unaware of what he had done.

He even filmed himself committing two crimes.

It was to wait for Luo Qing to fall completely in love with him and be devoted to him, and then tell her at this time that he was the culprit who committed crimes against her twice.

That would be fun.

But--

Bai Xu closed his eyes, but in the process, he gradually fell in love with Luo Qing.

It's not that she can't live without him.

It was he who discovered that he couldn't live without her.

He deleted his evidence six years ago, thinking that this had erased the fact that he had committed the crime.

But it turns out that the sins he committed can never be completely wiped out.

The bullet he fired seven years ago hit him right between the eyebrows today.

Bai Xu had thought about confessing before.

But he didn't dare.

He knew better than anyone how much impact those two incidents had on Luo Qing. To this day, she dared not walk alone at night.

Luo Qing just cried and laughed at the same time, with infinite sarcasm in her heart.

Does Bai Xu want her to let him go?

Or do you want her to let him go?

"Ah Xu, you are not that person, how do you know he is dead?"

"He might be watching me from somewhere."

"Ah Xu, I can't hold on any longer. I feel like I'm dying. Ah Xu, I'm sorry..."

"How could that man be so smart and cruel? He harmed me to such an extent, yet he is still at large..."

She clutched Bai Xu's clothes tightly, like a drowning person grabbing the last straw to save his life.

Bai Xu's face turned paler by the second.

He is the culprit.

It was he who forced Luo Qing to become what she is now.

Yes, how could he be so cruel?

How could he be so cruel to him?

Bai Xu wiped Luo Qing's tears with shaking hands, her voice also trembling, "Qingqing, you are not sorry for me."

“Your body belongs only to you.”

"Qingqing, please tell me, how can you get better? Don't give up on this world, don't give up on me..."

Luo Qing was in a trance.

The man who dragged her body into the gauze tent and broke her into pieces now told her that her body belonged only to her.

See, he is not some born criminal, he also knows what is right and what is wrong.

He knew exactly what he was doing when he committed the crime.

But he dragged her into the abyss without hesitation.

His crime was not a spur-of-the-moment act; it was a long-planned one.

Now he wants her not to give up on him.

How ridiculous!

If he really didn't do those things, how could she bear to give up on him!

Luo Qing lowered her head, "Ah Xu, you can't help me."

"I want that person to be punished by the law. I want to know who that person is and want him to suffer as much as I do."

"How can you help me? I don't even know who that person is!"

She burst into tears and pushed away Bai Xu who was holding her tightly.

Under Bai Xu's stunned eyes, she wiped her tears and ran into the bedroom and locked the door.

Bai Xu was very upset and raised his hand.

He banged on the door, panicking, "Qingqing, open the door, don't do anything stupid!"

He tried to pry open her door with tools.

Luo Qing's tired voice floated out from inside. The voice was so light that he felt it was vague and unreal.

"Ah Xu, I'm very tired."

"Please let me rest for a while."

"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have lost my temper with you just now. You are not that person..."

Bai Xu felt as if something cold and hard was hitting his heart again and again, causing him so much pain that he could hardly breathe.

It was clearly him who caused her to be like this, but she was still apologizing to him.

Every word she said was that he was not that person.

But in fact, every word she said was intended to shatter his self-deception.

From inside, there was the sound of someone opening a drawer and searching for medicine.

Bai Xu panicked, "Qingqing! What are you doing!"

Luo Qing's tired and cold laughter floated out through the crack of the door, "Ah Xu, I'm too tired, please let me sleep for a while."

"Just take a nap."

"I know I will never find that person again in my lifetime, so forget it. Just leave it at that. Be well in the future."

These don't sound like something you would say before bed.

Instead, it was like someone who had fallen into deep despair, and when the last glimmer of hope was shattered, he calmly gave his last words.

Bai Xu finally collapsed.

Self-blame, guilt, regret, all kinds of emotions intertwined, the past and the present intertwined in his mind, his legs finally went limp, and he fell powerlessly to the ground.

"It's me!"

"Qingqing, that person is me!"