Chapter 387 You Must Learn to Love Yourself First

Su Yu held Wu Min's hand tightly, "Minmin, I'm sorry..."

He knows, he knows it all.

Wu Min's voice was hoarse, her eyes were red, and she repeated over and over again, "Su Yu, I don't owe you anything..."

"I really don't owe you anything..."

"If you don't like me, you can just tell me directly. Why did you spend seven years with me?"

"You made me feel like my past seven years were a joke, but I don't owe you anything, why do you treat me like this!"

Her shoulders trembled from crying and she wanted to pull her hand back, but Su Yu held her wrist tightly and refused to let go.

“Minmin…”

Su Yu opened his mouth, but the words he wanted to say were stuck in his throat.

He always knew that this was unfair to Wu Min.

He also knew that Wu Min never owed him anything.

He didn't know why, even though he was planning to leave carefully.

But at this moment, he was holding Wu Min's hand tightly and was unwilling to let her go.

Wu Min pried open his fingers one by one, his eyes dropping slowly, "Let go."

Su Yu looked at her in astonishment.

At this moment, he suddenly felt his hands were very cold.

It felt like ice and snow covered his fingertips, so cold that his heart ached.

“Minmin…”

Su Yu wanted to ask Wu Min if she could not abandon him, but also not like him.

But he himself thought this request was ridiculous and unreasonable.

Not everyone is like him, who can delay someone for seven years even though he doesn't like them.

There are few people in this world who can be as selfish as I am.

Su Yu felt extremely self-deprecating.

He hated himself for being like this. He also wanted to stay with Wu Min forever, but he could never do it.

He tried seeing a psychiatrist.

But the doctors couldn't save him.

Su Yu closed his eyes, "Minmin, liking me and being liked by me are both terrible things."

He knew that he was unlikely to like anyone other than Wu Min, but he and she couldn't continue to be together, "You must not like me..."

"It was my own cowardice and selfishness that delayed your life for seven years."

He always wants to have it both ways.

But nothing is so cheap in this world.

God made him lucky enough to meet Wu Min.

However, the malice he experienced in his youth made it impossible for him to accept this good fortune.

"You are cowardly and selfish," Wu Min looked at him with a cold tone and mist in her eyes. "You actually know how to love people, but you can only share your love with people who don't love you."

"When I loved you, you felt that my love suffocated you and made you feel disgusted."

"When I don't like you anymore, you will know how to love me again."

Wu Min had never noticed his wandering or his perfunctory attitude before.

When she finally saw the truth, she discovered that he had been planning to leave every day they were together.

How can people be so cruel?

She is not an iron man, she also feels pain.

"Su Yu, I really want to pretend that I know nothing and continue to like you. I always thought that as long as I loved you enough, you would gradually forget the hurt you suffered in your youth, but I found that I was wrong."

Su Yu was unwilling to let him go.

So nothing she did was of any use.

Su Yu's eyes darkened little by little.

He grabbed Wu Min's hand, as if at that moment he had grabbed his whole world.

"Minmin," he called her name, "If... I mean if, if I can struggle out of the pain of the past, can we not get divorced?"

There was a hint of pleading in Su Yu's eyes.

He didn't dislike Wu Min, it's just that no one would ever love someone like him.

He planned to escape, not because she was not good enough.

It was just because he didn't deserve her wholehearted love.

Wu Min pulled his hand back, half-closed his eyes, and looked at Su Yu indifferently.

If she hadn't heard from someone else that he was planning to run away from her after being with her for less than a week, maybe she would have softened her heart today because of what he said.

But now, how can she be soft-hearted?

"Su Yu, can you tell that your temporary reluctance to separate is because you have discovered that you like me and you can't bear to leave me, and you want to be good to me?"

"Or is it because you suddenly realized that I didn't love you that much anymore, that I gradually stopped liking you, and so your heart started beating for me again?"

"Su Yu, can you really tell the difference between the two?"

She asked each word directly and crisply.

Every word left no room for Su Yu to escape.

She just looked at Su Yu, looking into his eyes.

I want to get a definite answer from him.

But Su Yu's expression just froze on his face.

Can you tell the difference?

Su Yu didn't know either.

Because he himself didn't know, he had no way of telling Wu Min the answer.

Wu Min showed an expression of "as expected".

The smile on her lips was a little self-deprecating, and tears hung on her eyelashes. "Su Yu, before you can love yourself well, don't love others first, okay?"

"It's not your fault that you got hurt. You should accept yourself and love yourself."

"Otherwise, the person who was liked by you at first and who later likes you will be very miserable."

She pulled the quilt up for Su Yu, but her hands were cold.

"I have experienced this kind of pain, and it is enough. Please promise me that you will not let others experience it again."

After saying this, Wu Min fell silent.

Su Yu felt a sharp pain in his heart.

He wanted to say that he didn't want anyone else, he only wanted Wu Min.

I just want the best Minmin in the world.

But he knew that he had already lost the qualifications to say this.

Even if I tell her, she won't believe it.

"By the way, Su Yu, just pretend I didn't tell you to love me well this month. I'll be back this afternoon, so please do as you please."

She was previously troubled by reluctance.

Now she understands.

In fact, whether you are willing or not is not very important.

Even during these thirty days, could he really love her as well as she imagined, and could he change the fact that he didn't like her fundamentally?

After a pause, Wu Min added, "Su Yu, if you really feel guilty, then don't try to make up for me, try to make up for yourself."

"You must first learn to love yourself before you can have the ability to love others."

After she said this, she turned and went out, leaning against the wall and crying secretly.

Su Yu stared blankly at the ceiling.

Have you learned to love yourself?

Su Yu's eyes showed confusion.

From childhood to adulthood, he was not taught how to love himself.

He always felt terrible about himself, and deep down, he had nothing but deep disgust for himself.

If even the doctors couldn't save him, could he really save himself?

Su Yu didn't know.

But he couldn't imagine the day without Wu Min.

His world was originally gray, but when Wu Min came, he saw other colors.