I'm very sorry that those rumors made me have a bad impression of you; this is what I truly feel, and I didn't want to lie to you.
But after getting to know you, I gradually realized that you are completely different from the rumors. After all, what kind of simp has such ability and such confidence?
Gradually, I can't quite pinpoint when it started, but I've already fallen for you. It's truly a strange and wonderful feeling.
It had a sour, a bitter, and a sweet flavor; that faint, hazy feeling made my heart, dormant for a thousand years, beat again.
Let me tell you another secret. My real name is Jiang Ni. I am a descendant of the royal family of Bashu in the Holy Realm, but I was raised by my enemy.
I was once attracted to the son of my enemy, but that was before I knew the truth. Later, after I understood the whole story...
I was utterly disillusioned with love, thinking I would never fall for any man again in my life, until I met you. Only then did I experience what true attraction feels like.
It turns out that loving someone doesn't require so many complicated emotions. It's just that things from the past have always prevented me from mustering the courage to tell you my feelings.
Xu Fengqing, Xu Xiao, everything about the Xu family has been like a nightmare, tormenting me day and night, making me mentally and physically exhausted.
I'm afraid of loving the wrong person again, afraid you'll reject me, afraid that we won't even be able to be ordinary friends anymore.
In your past life, you were a married man who loved his wife very much. Even though she didn't treat you well, you were still willing to give her everything.
That genuine affection truly moved me. From that moment on, I knew I couldn't interfere in your lives, nor did I want to ruin your relationship.
So I went to your wife, the Empress, hoping she would treat you well, but...sigh...that was the first time in my life I was so angry that I shed tears.
Forget it, there's no point in talking about this now. Young Master Shen, do you know what made me happiest after I came back in this life?
The first thing was meeting you outside the Ancient River Sect; the second thing was that you distanced yourself from that terrible woman.
I'm also very sorry that after you were killed by Yu Xiyan, I never had the courage to stand up and seek justice for you.
It's not that I'm afraid, but I genuinely lack the courage. My childhood experiences have made me extremely timid and introverted.
I don't dare to step forward and face everything. Besides hiding under the covers and crying for you, there's nothing I can do.
Can you forgive my cowardice, forgive my selfishness?
Young Master Shen, now that we meet again in this life, I no longer dare to hope for anything that is so unattainable, for I know I am unworthy.
After all, I don't even have the courage to stand up for you, so how could I dare to hope for that kind of relationship?
I only ask that when you have free time, you spend more time with me, talk to me, and compose a few pieces of music, okay?
After saying all that, I don't even know what I'm trying to say, Young Master Shen. All Qingluan wants is for you to live happily every day and not repeat the mistakes of your past life.
Signed: Jiang Qingluan, a timid and insecure woman who dares not look you in the eye.
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