By the campfire, Yu Xiyan hugged her knees, her eyes fixed on the burning fire.
At this moment, she looked particularly heartbreaking, her exhaustion was clearly visible.
Suddenly, Yu Xiyan spoke up: "Jiang Haitian, have you ever truly loved someone?"
"Oh……"
Jiang Haitian chuckled lightly: "So what if I loved you, or I didn't? What difference does it make?"
"Yes, is there a difference?"
Yu Xiyan gently bit the strand of hair that hung down beside her lips, and after a long while, she continued speaking.
"Once, there was a man I admired for a long time. He was really good to me, better than you can imagine."
Even if I wanted the moon, he would pluck it down for me without hesitation.
But I utterly ruined this man who had my eyes and heart completely.
Jiang Haitian sneered: "So, since you know he's so good to you, why do you still treat him so badly?"
Yu Xiyan shook her head: "It's all my fault. I was too calculating and self-centered, and I treated my efforts for him as a form of charity."
We've been together for years, and he will always believe in me, even if I've betrayed his feelings.
Whenever I need help, he will still solve all my problems without hesitation.
But I never even gave him the most basic trust, and even pushed him into an abyss of no return.
Finally, I realized that deep down, I couldn't live without that figure.
He left, avoiding me like the plague. I tried to bring him back, but instead, I only pushed him further away.
Now, he finally has a woman who loves him wholeheartedly. She is gentler and kinder than me. In her presence, I feel as dark as a shadow of my own.
Actually, I should have known from that moment that he would never come back, but…
Yu Xiyan sniffed.
"I really can't let him go. I want to wish them well, but the thought that he will never stay by my side again, that his smile and his heart will only belong to another woman, makes me..."
I really didn't want to see him. For the last time, I tried to win him back, telling him I was getting married—to a man I didn't love.
My goal was for him to appear before me like those legendary heroes who would do anything for love, and take me away from the wedding.
Back in the Heavenly Sacred Land, I was so envious of Nangong Zixin. Xiao Fan, for the sake of his love, didn't hesitate to disrupt the wedding and ultimately they were together.
Honestly, I'm so envious. I also hope that on my wedding day, he will suddenly appear in front of me, reach out his hand and say: "Xiyan, will you come with me?"
I think I would definitely abandon everything and go anywhere with him then.
For this day, I even brought out his most respected father and mother, but until the eve of the wedding, he didn't make a single move.
I think he's probably really disappointed in me.
Jiang Haitian listened silently to Yu Xiyan's story, and without making a sound, he hung a pot of spiritual spring water on the fire stand.
"Really, I'm really panicking. I really don't want to marry my senior brother, and I don't want to deceive him. I just... I just hope a miracle can happen."
I just hoped he could stay with me forever, but he really doesn't want me anymore, he really doesn't want me anymore.
Two lines of clear tears slid down Yu Xiyan's cheeks, and her body began to tremble slightly with excitement.
Perhaps it was because of Jiang Haitian, an outsider, that she was able to express her true feelings and thoughts for the first time.
"Since you don't love him anymore, why be so persistent?" Jiang Haitian poured himself a cup of water and casually said, "Wouldn't it be better to let him go and let yourself go too?"
Some things, once wrong, are wrong; they can't be fixed by simply making amends or offering an apology.
"But I really can't let go!"
Yu Xiyan looked up at Jiang Haitian.
"You have no idea how much I've suffered since he left me, how much pain I felt when I learned he was completely indifferent to my wedding!"
"He truly doesn't care about me anymore; he's genuinely indifferent to me. He already has someone better by his side."
He no longer needs me, the villain who once hurt him so badly.
I should wish them well, right? I truly should wish them well; I wish them a happy marriage and a long and lasting love.
After all, I know that the woman is more suitable for him than I am, because she won't hurt or mistreat him like I did, and she will give him all the tenderness and care he needs.
But I truly can't let go. Remembering all he did for me, and the hurt I caused him, how could I possibly let go so easily!
Yu Xiyan smoothed her hair, took a deep breath, and continued, "You might not know this, but when the people from the Demon Realm came to kidnap me that day..."
I deliberately let them bring me here, because only in this way can I avoid that marriage, and only in this way can I perhaps hope that he will come to rescue me.
But only now do I realize that he truly doesn't care about me at all!
At this point, Yu Xiyan could no longer contain her emotions, which she had suppressed for so long, and buried her head in her knees, bursting into tears.
"He doesn't want me anymore, he really doesn't want me anymore. It's all my fault. I pushed him away with my own hands, and I broke his heart completely with my own hands. It's all my fault, it's all my fault!"
Tears, like a bursting dam, streamed down Yu Xiyan's face.
"well……"
Jiang Haitian sighed softly, picked up the kettle from the wooden shelf, poured a bowl of hot water, and handed it to Yu Xiyan.
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