Suddenly, a heavy sense of powerlessness washed over him, and Boss Huang realized that he had overestimated himself in the end.
He once thought he could definitely take good care of his wife and children, but now he finds that even getting along peacefully with his children is a luxury.
After a long silence, Huang Chuan got up and went to the next courtyard.
When Xiao Wu saw Boss Huang, he was initially pleasantly surprised, but then his face hardened with displeasure. "You still know how to come home?"
go home?
These two words made Huang Chuan feel very uncomfortable. It seemed that only Xiao Wu still considered himself a member of the family. Even Er Niu and the others felt like outsiders and were closer to their third brother.
Despite his mixed feelings, he still subconsciously followed Xiao Wu's words and replied, "I have some free time today, so I'm going home to visit."
As he spoke, he forced a smile, turned to Er Ya, clapped his hands, and picked her up.
"Don't..."
Before Xiao Wu could finish speaking, a deafening cry rang out.
After realizing what was happening, she immediately ran over to comfort her, "Er Ya, don't cry, Auntie will hold you, let's not cry, okay?"
While comforting Er Ya, she also gently soothed Daya beside her, saying, "Da Ya, be good too. Your little auntie loves you the most. Don't cry, okay? I'll shake a rattle for you right away."
After a cup of tea, Er Ya stopped crying and fell asleep in Xiao Wu's arms.
After placing the person on the small bed and covering them with a blanket, Xiao Wu pointed unhappily to the door, signaling Huang Chuan to go out.
After walking a little further away, he couldn't help but ask, "Big brother, do you have a grudge against Er Ya?"
“Of course not, I didn’t expect this either,” Huang Chuan said, puzzled. “She used to be very clingy to me, and she would giggle nonstop every time I picked her up.”
"That was before. You haven't been here for so long, she's long forgotten you, how could she possibly let you hug her!"
Xiao Wu was very dissatisfied.
She doted on her two maids, and aside from studying with Doctor Gu, she spent most of her time with them.
Hearing this, Huang Chuan felt very guilty. "I will try to come more often in the future."
“No, please don’t,” Xiao Wu refused directly. “Master said that children shouldn’t cry too much, as it will harm their health. Please don’t come again.”
"I really didn't mean to."
“That’s not important,” Xiao Wu waved his hand dismissively. “Er Ya cried, and it was you who made her cry.”
Xiao Wu was very unhappy.
Xiao Wu wasn't clear about many things; she only knew that her older brother and sister-in-law had made mistakes and been separated from their families. She didn't feel these things deeply.
Although she felt slightly dissatisfied that Huang Chuan hadn't returned for so long, deep down she still hoped that he would come home soon.
But at this moment, I suddenly realized that things weren't as wonderful as I had imagined.
The reunion that his older brother brought was not the one he had imagined, but rather chaos and even harm.
He hasn't been home for so long, yet he still takes it for granted that the child should be close to him, without ever considering how old the child is. When he tries his best to coax the child, the child just stands there blankly.
I can't feel any effort from him at all!
"I really didn't mean to," Huang Chuan explained again, his head aching.
“I’ll say it again, it’s not important,” Xiao Wu was really angry when she saw Huang Chuan still not reflecting on his actions. “Whether you did it on purpose or not, you made someone cry, so it’s your fault.”
Upon hearing this, Huang Chuan was both amused and exasperated. "Whatever you say, then it is."
He didn't take it to heart; it's normal for children to cry and fuss.
Besides, he really meant well. There was nothing wrong with him holding his own daughter, and he didn't want to see the little girl cry.
Hearing this, Xiao Wu felt a lump in her throat and stomped her feet angrily, "I can't reason with you, I'm going to tell Mother!"
After saying that, he called someone over to watch the child, and then ran off to complain.
When Boss Huang realized what was happening, he was about to call out to Xiao Wu, but Xiao Wu had already disappeared.
After hearing Xiao Wu's explanation, Jiang Nuan frowned deeply. "Your older brother hasn't left yet?"
"No," Xiao Wu pouted. "She made Er Ya cry as soon as she got back. How annoying."
"Don't be angry, you play here for a while, I'll go check on things."
"Mother, I want to go too."
"Can."
Xiao Wu's words made Huang Chuan very uneasy. He didn't know how his mother, who was already dissatisfied with him, would deal with him.
Originally, I wanted to just leave, but after thinking about what happened today, I gritted my teeth and sat nervously in the courtyard waiting for someone.
A moment later, hearing footsteps, he quickly looked up, stood up awkwardly, and said uneasily, "Mother."
"What exactly do you want to do after coming back today?" Jiang Nuan asked her son directly.
Although they hadn't spent much time together, she still knew her eldest son quite well. He was very concerned about his image; in the past, if the whole family disliked him, he would have left with a sullen face and wouldn't come back until he made something of himself.
"It's nothing," Old Huang said, his eyes darting around. "I just came back to visit."
"Now that you've seen it, you can leave."
The tone was calm, yet inexplicably it made people feel depressed.
“Mother,” Huang Chuan said, feeling very uncomfortable, “Even if we separate, I’m still your son. There’s no need to be so distant.”
“That’s pointless,” Jiang Nuan couldn’t help but shake her head. “Since you made that choice, you should have known the consequences. You took the first step and walked away yourself. You can’t regret it now and blame others for pushing you away.”
"Mother, it's understandable that you resent me, but..."
"No buts. I've said it before: I'll walk the path I've chosen, even if I have to crawl. Thoughts don't matter. Now that you've chosen to separate, just settle down and live a good life with your wife. Don't come loitering around the house unless it's important."
Jiang Nuan completely lost all hope in Huang Laoda because she couldn't even soothe her own child.
"Mother," Huang Chuan's heart sank to the bottom upon hearing this, "You don't want me anymore?"
Although I had this feeling before when we separated our families, it wasn't as obvious as it is today.
Before, I just felt that my mother was very dissatisfied with me, but now, she has completely despised me.
"Big brother, aren't you ashamed?" Little Five pouted and complained, "You're such a grown man, yet you're still acting like a child towards your mother. Aren't you ashamed?"
It's absolutely an eyesore.
"Go home if you have nothing to do," Jiang Nuan said, too lazy to argue with him. "If you haven't left for half an hour, I don't mind having someone tie you up and take you back."
She paused for a moment, then added, "If you can't take on the role of a father, then don't see Da Niu and the others again. Giving them hope only to disappoint them is like stabbing a knife into a wound again. If you have any sense at all, don't do that."
"Mom, I really didn't mean it. I don't know why they suddenly started crying."
Huang Chuan's explanation was flustered, and his unease kept growing, leaving his mind blank.
He felt so guilty towards his children that he was about to collapse. He wanted to make it up to them, but the result was hard to accept.
In just a short period of time, he, as a father, has already become unable to integrate into their lives. If he can no longer connect with them, within a year, he will definitely no longer have a place beside his children.
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