Chapter 275
Suru Dojo, a place that seems to have traveled through time and space and returned to reality from ambiguous memories.
Except for the pillars and a few special Demon Slayer Corps members - such as Tanjiro Kamado, Zenitsu Agatsuma, Inosuke Hashibira and Genya Fushigawa who have actually seen Komaji's fighting form, most of the other Demon Slayer Corps members who come here for training do not know his true identity.
This naturally brought Komaji and the Demon Slayer Corps closer together. Even the younger sister of Kamado named Nezuko always liked to stay in the dojo with her brother when she was awake. This pure teacher-student bond allowed Komaji to find a brief sense of belonging.
The blue spider lily that Muzan Muzan longed for was indeed not an ordinary thing.
After long-term nourishment and bathing in the sun after overcoming the sun, the smell of a ghost on him became weaker and weaker. Even his appearance began to shed that of a ghost without his special control, and became more and more like his human state.
This miraculous phenomenon made Tamayo very interested, and the drug production, which had already been very fruitful, soon made a breakthrough. However, Komaji decisively rejected the drug that could completely turn him back into a human.
It's not that I don't want to, I just don't have the qualifications.
Komaji knew when he was a human being that there is no such thing as sudden enlightenment or turning back in this world. He also did not believe in the saying "Put down the butcher knife and become a Buddha instantly". How could a person with blood on his hands walk out of the haze so easily?
Everyone - not just humans - must be responsible for what they do, no matter what the reason is. Facts are facts and cannot be denied.
He may have a regrettable past, but is there anyone in the Demon Slayer Corps whose past is not full of thorns?
If he was let off so easily, wouldn't those ordinary people who died at his hands, the Demon Slayers he killed, and the Pillars who insisted on their own path at his invitation, those sacrifices and those beliefs, become a joke?
Among all the people in the world, who is not worthy of sympathy?
He no longer has the opportunity and qualifications to turn back into a human so easily. Nezuko Kamado might be able to do it, but he definitely can't.
Even if he died in battle like this, his destination would definitely be hell.
Only after the sins have been redeemed and the soul is clean and innocent, can it be reincarnated and regain the qualification to live happily with family, friends and lovers.
Komaji has always known this and has been sincerely looking forward to that day.
Please let the sinners die in thorns and fire, and then let those who deserve happiness go on in peace.
What's more, if he, a demon who had overcome his fear of sunlight, completely turned back into a human, then Muzan Kibutsuji Muzan would definitely shift all his attention and covetousness from him to Ao.
He couldn't allow this to happen.
Komaji will make himself the target of Muzan Kibutsuji's evil plans.
Kouyashiki once mentioned a plan in which he would sacrifice himself in order to severely injure Muzan Muzan and drag him into a decisive battle.
Although his body has improved, he still wants to break the chains and curses of fate at the age he can see. He is not afraid of death. On the contrary, if his death can be the prelude to Muzan's tragic end, he will be happy to welcome the end.
This plan cannot be known to the Pillars, because they will not agree. And using his own death to make the Pillars' grief and anger reach their peak is also a function. However, his plan cannot be completed silently by him alone. He needs someone to assist him and maximize the benefits of death. Tamayo and Komaharu are good choices for these two collaborators.
——She can trust the Demon Slayer Corps and have the same goals, but she will not be held back by her feelings for him.
It was originally a good choice. Every battle involves sacrifice. The longer one has lived and the longer one has fought with Muzan Kibutsuji Muzan, the more clearly one knows.
However, Komaharu stubbornly believed that someone like Ubuyashiki Yoshiya should not die in this way, and should not die before dawn.
It has nothing to do with the bond they have established now, and it is different from the reason why he doesn't want anything to happen to Qing. It's just that he knows clearly that he may never be able to have the mentality and determination of Sanyashiki Yoshiya. That kind of strong inner heart is shocking.
He can't do it, so he admires people like this.
"No... Muzan wants to get you first, not you." Komaharu sat in front of Ubuyashiki Yoya, "Indeed, you are the leader of the Demon Slayer Corps. Muzan wants to destroy you and the Demon Slayer Corps. There is no doubt about that."
"But for him now, as long as he can overcome the sunlight, it doesn't matter what the Demon Slayer Corps is like. His first target is me."
"just me."
Komaji's voice wasn't actually very loud, but in this empty room where even the sound of his breathing was very obvious, it seemed as if even the echo could be picked up.
"But——" Just as Ubuyashiki Yoshiya was about to say something, Komaji interrupted him immediately.
Komaji himself is not good at talking, preaching, and he can't convince others, so he just goes at his own pace. "Besides, no matter from which aspect, I am the most suitable. I am a demon, and the explosion will not kill me directly. Muzan knows my strength very well, so with his arrogance, he will not really guard against me. He wants to absorb my body - active absorption, so that the medicine can have the greatest effect. This is something that none of you can do at once."
"It can only be me—it has to be me."
Those golden eyes shone brightly in the light-blocked room.
This is a decision made by fate, and everyone has something they have to do.
At that moment, Umayashiki Yoya understood everything.
It is not a question of whether he is willing to sacrifice himself, nor is it a question of whether he is willing to see others sacrifice themselves. This is a path that Komaji must take.
Komaji had already made up his mind. When he refused Tamayo's medicine, Komaji thought that if he turned into a human at this time, he would lose a large part of his combat power, so he didn't want to turn back into a human.
But now, he could only admit that Komaji was determined to die.
Just like when he was still being tortured by the curse, the end point had already been decided, and it was just a matter of taking that path to reach the end.
Even if it's not this time, when everything is over, Komaji will walk to the predetermined end on his own.
So, for a warrior like Komaji, dying on the battlefield is a hero, but dying after the war is a coward.
This is not a choice, and there is no choice.
Kouyashiki Yoya didn't say anything else. He was silent for a while. He knelt down, put his hands on the ground, and leaned down. "Then I'll leave it to Mr. Komaji."
There's nothing to persuade him about, as Ubuyashiki Yoshiya himself is the same type of person, so their thoughts are connected.
He could understand every word Komaji said from the bottom of his heart.
Once the decision is made, it is time to train, plan, prepare and make decisions step by step.
Qing's awakening did not change the process, but accelerated it.
It was as if the world was on the path it was supposed to be on, and Qing was merely the catalyst for this path.
People who care about each other don't necessarily have to move forward together. Even if they go to different focuses, some things will never change.
Strangely, one night before the final battle, Komaji had a very strange dream.
In the dream, Qing was drowning in the sea, sinking deeper and deeper.
Those empty eyes were like a closed window, and inside the window was another soul that kept knocking on the window, trying to get out.
It's like... asking for help.
Komaji vaguely felt that this did not seem like a dream.
He had experience fighting against psychic vampire magic, so when he first entered the Twelve Demon Months, he would of course need to engage in multiple bloody battles.
This place is more like a spiritual sea.
The person at the center is Qing’s spirit—or soul?
They are connected by a special force. This is not a naturally formed consciousness space, but it is constructed.
Under the power of the blue spider lily, he was constructed with the power of the blue spider lily. He himself did not have this ability, and Qingchen seemed to be pulled into this space while sinking to the bottom of the sea.
After eliminating all other options, the only one left is... Koiyuki.
Lian Xue constructed such a space and brought him and Qing here - it was definitely not meaningless.
Komaji followed Renyuki's train of thought and continued thinking - a soul trapped in a shell, asking for help.
There really was something about Qing that they couldn't understand.
The sea surface was like a mirror, he and Qing stood inside and outside the mirror.
Is it reflecting the same...situation?
Under special conditions, one loses the most original knowledge of oneself, changes one's name and surname, and then embarks on a path that one may not be willing to take, and loses the opportunity to find oneself again.
He closed his eyes and suddenly woke up.
Vaguely, he seemed to understand something.
Komaji didn't dare to confirm anything, but just like last time, what Renxue clearly conveyed could not be meaningless.
If it is the two sides of a mirror.
Then, as someone who once lost himself and was pulled back by Qing, I must also pull Qing back.
——The name is like a passing cloud.
No, it shouldn't be like this.
Just like his true personality is placed in the character "Komaji" rather than "Awaza".
What about Qing? What kind of name should be placed on Qing's personality and life?
The name is the shortest mantra, the starting point of everything and the anchor.
He didn't know Qing's real name, but he could remind Qing.
Stop saying that names are meaningless and like passing clouds.
Remember your name, remember the real you.
Just like he ended his life as "Aoza" and truly picked up "Komaji" again in hell. If he can't find the anchor, then end his life as "Ao" and pick up the name that truly belongs to him again at the end.
There is nothing to worry about, and nothing to be sad about.
Separation is never the end. As long as we live, our souls will meet again one day. !