Chapter 352: Even if we get wet in the snow together, our hair won’t turn white.
I don't know what happened to the weather. It was a sunny day, but it suddenly started snowing.
And the snow kept getting heavier and heavier. By evening, the whole capital city was covered in silver.
but
The common people on the streets of the market were not in a hurry to go back or anything, mainly because the heavy snow did not hinder them from enjoying the lanterns.
Although now it is just a drop in the ocean compared to the myriad lights during the Lantern Festival, many shops have already put up beautiful lanterns to attract customers, so many people come out to see them at night.
Xun Kuang and Xu Zuiyin didn’t actually stay in Zui Ya Ju for too long, mainly because of what happened today. The more Xun Kuang thought about it, the more he decided to tell his teacher in advance, after all, the old man was going to the south soon.
So he took some wine and food and went back to the Imperial College with Xu Zuiyin.
but.
Xun Kuang was kicked out before he could even drink a few glasses of wine or eat a few bites of food.
If it were in the past, Xun Kuang would have run to find Yuan Ruxi.
But now Yuan Ruxi is being taken care of by Mr. Shuiyun. Although it would be fine for him to go there, it would still be somewhat of a hindrance.
Xun Kuang was also a man of good judgment, so he did not go looking for it. Instead, he wandered outside the Imperial College and thought again about where he should go.
only
Sitting on the stone pier at the entrance of the Imperial College, Xun Kuang pouted and took out the lip rouge that he had kept in his sleeve.
His teacher kicked him out in order to ask him to find Ji Shuying. Even a fool could see that.
But the problem is
I don’t dare to go!
The birthday gifts for Ji Shuying were all delivered today by Xun Kuang, who asked Ji Shuying's student Gu Chiyu to deliver them.
"Where are you going?" Xun Kuang put his hands in his sleeves, just like a farmer working in the fields, not caring about his position as a minister.
Let's go to the flower garden.
No money!
Xun Kuang could shamelessly buy things on credit in study rooms, writing rooms, restaurants, and even silk shops!
But he never bought things on credit in brothels or other red-light districts, not even once.
They are all poor women. It’s not good to owe them money.
So you can’t go to the flower shop.
But going home is cold and there is no difference from squatting here, where you can even enjoy the lanterns.
"In such a huge capital city, there is no place for a great man like Xun Kuang to go!" Xun Kuang sighed.
But at this time, Xun Kuang, with his hands in his sleeves, habitually touched the penny sewn on his sleeves.
It's just a small penny, shiny and bright, but now it's covered with patina.
It was obvious that Xun Kuang was just playing with it in his hand.
Touching the penny, Xun Kuang was amazed and looked at the big lantern of a restaurant not far away.
The person who gave him this penny is now in the capital.
Xun Kuang saw him when he went to Shihua Pavilion to attend Liu Baishi's poetry meeting that day. Although he did not see the man appear at the venue, he should be in a private room.
Now, he should be in the inn? Or discussing business with someone?
Thinking of this, Xun Kuang smiled bitterly and shook his head. Why did he think of her?
But he didn't think too much about it and looked back at the market in front of him.
There are families or young couples everywhere on the street. Occasionally there is someone alone, they are in a hurry to get on their way, definitely not there to enjoy the lights and snow.
Under the light of the warm lanterns, the snow is flying, there are laughter and joy, and everything looks very warm.
In such a comparison, Xun Kuang, who was sitting alone at the gate of the Imperial College and looking at him as lonely and with nowhere to go, seemed a little out of place.
But Xun Kuang didn't seem to care. He just looked at the scene in front of him and thought about going back. He would just get beaten and scolded anyway.
However, Xun Siye did not notice that there was a carriage parked at the corner of the street. A beautiful lady lifted the curtain and looked at him and Xun Kuang with rippling eyes. She ordered the coachman to go to Xun Kuang.
At this time, a familiar voice came from behind Xun Kuang: "Brother, what are you doing squatting here alone?"
Xun Kuang turned around and saw Su Wan'er, who was wearing thick clothes, standing there.
Su Wan'er wrapped herself very thickly, but it was actually her mother Hong Shiyi who did that. She was mainly afraid that Su Wan'er would catch a cold, but her concern was a bit excessive.
But in fact, Su Wan'er knew that she looked too ugly like this, and it was too hot. But her mother was very happy after letting her dress like this, so she just wore it like this. It was just a little uncomfortable anyway, but her mother was happy, and she was happy too.
Seeing that it was Su Wan'er, Xun Kuang immediately asked with a smile: "Did you come out from your master?"
Su Wan'er nodded: "Well, I'm out. There are teachers accompanying the master, so I will go home early today."
Xun Kuang immediately cursed, "What the hell is that bastard Yuan Ruxi thinking! He lets a little girl run around in such a cold weather!"
Su Wan'er immediately shook her head: "No, Master and Teacher didn't let me come, but I thought that Master was alone. Although he had a teacher to take care of him, I am his closest person. I came to see him more. When he is in a better mood, his body will recover faster."
Xun Kuang was just joking, of course, but when he heard Su Wan'er's words, he reached out and rubbed Su Wan'er's head curiously: "You two were born from the same mother. Look at that little bastard Zhao Xin, and then look at you. The difference is too big."
However, after expressing his feelings, Xun Kuang smiled and asked, "Brother, would you like to walk with me for a while?"
Su Wan'er grinned: "Okay!"
Xun Kuang reached out and held Su Wan'er's hand.
Xun Kuang and Su Wan'er have their own relationship, so one is called senior brother and the other is called master. Su Wan'er felt uncomfortable at first, but gradually got used to it.
As for Xun Kuang, he doesn’t care about these things!
Su Wan'er looked at Xun Kuang and asked, "Brother, are you squatting at the gate because you have no money and nowhere to go?"
Actually, this was true, but when a little girl like Su Wan'er asked this directly, Xun Kuang certainly couldn't nod his head, so he immediately said in a serious tone: "Nonsense! Senior brother is enjoying the snow! Just before you called me, I was still thinking about the words written by our Queen, 'Suddenly, as if one night the spring breeze came, thousands of pear trees blossomed!'"
As he spoke, Xun Kuang looked at the heavy snow and said, "With such heavy snow, I guarantee that thousands of pear trees will bloom tomorrow."
Su Wan'er chuckled and said, "My brother said that you ran out of money the day before yesterday and wanted to cheat him, so I met you. You must be careful!"
Xun Kuang smiled when he heard this, but he was already thinking about how to deal with Su Zhaoxin.
However, Su Wan'er lowered her head and took out a small purse from her arms, then handed it to Xun Kuang and said with a smile: "Here, no need to lie, Senior Brother, I will give it to you myself, and Senior Brother will have a good meal."
Under the heavy snow, the little girl was smiling with an innocent look on her face.
And with this smile, the snow seemed like pear blossoms falling, and the cold wind turned into a warm spring breeze.
Xun Kuang looked down at Su Wan'er, pushed her hand back, and then sighed again: "You said that Su Zifan had a daughter like you, and Su Zhaoxin had a sister like you, how much virtue they must have accumulated in their previous lives!"
Su Wan'er smiled, then after thinking for a moment, she said bluntly, "That's right, it's a great deed!"
Xun Kuang was amused, and then said: "Take it back, Senior Brother, you are not short of money. The sage said that scholars should not be fascinated by money! And don't deal with people who use money to seduce others."
Su Wan'er chuckled when she heard this: "My elder sister said that you are very knowledgeable, but you often talk nonsense and use the title of a saint to deceive others."
Xun Kuang heard that Su Wan'er had seen through his nonsense. After all, these words were not said by a saint, but were made up by him just now.
But just when she was about to say, "What does your elder sister know!", she reacted in time and realized that she couldn't be scolded!
I just offended His Majesty today. If I offend Her Majesty again, things will get even worse!
However, he definitely couldn't take Su Wan'er's money, so he just refused it directly.
Seeing Xun Kuang like this, Su Wan'er naturally didn't do anything pretentious to push him and took it back.
On a snowy day, a large and a small group of people walked towards the market where the Su Mansion was located.
Along the way, sometimes people would look at the two of them and would whisper something like, "What a cute girl! This man is so lucky to have such a cute daughter."
When Xun Kuang heard this, he naturally smiled and wanted to explain, but felt it was unnecessary.
However, Su Wan'er smiled and told Xun Kuang not to explain, letting others just misunderstand her.
Xun Kuang smiled.
But when he saw Su Wan'er smiling, Xun Kuang's heart was moved.
finally
When they reached the corner of the market where the Su Mansion was located, Xun Kuang asked Su Wan'er to go home and even said that he would accompany her there.
Su Wan'er could see that when Senior Brother Xun said he was accompanying her, he was actually sending her home.
So he invited him home, but Xun Kuang refused.
So Su Wan'er had no choice but to bow, thank you, and then turned and left.
Before leaving, he wanted to give the money to Xun Kuang, but Xun Kuang urged him to take it back. The main reason was that he was collecting money from a little girl and he couldn't afford to lose face!
Su Wan'er giggled, turned around and went back. Before leaving, she asked Xun Kuang to put on two more clothes because it was cold!
Xun Kuang nodded in agreement.
Then the little girl turned around and was about to leave, but after running two steps, she ran back and motioned for Xun Kuang to bend down.
Xun Kuang squatted down and looked at Su Wan'er.
Su Wan'er whispered, "Brother, find a sister-in-law soon, so you won't be alone and have nowhere to go. I heard from my mother that my father used to wander around, but after getting married, he has been sticking to my mother."
After saying that, Su Wan'er turned and left.
Looking at Su Wan'er's back as she skipped home, Xun Kuang smiled and thought, this little girl, if only she were the Queen's sister, she would be so adorable!
but.
Thinking of this, Xun Kuang was about to put his hands in his sleeves and leave again.
But he looked at his hands and was suddenly stunned.
Mainly, I thought about the little hand I had just held, the person on the street, and the misunderstandings of others.
Also thought of
When he was young, he also dreamed of having children.
The girl's name is Xun Yuebai, which is taken from the name of Qiu Yuebai in the heart of the river.
The boy's name is Xun Junyi, which is derived from "Before I met the gentleman, my heart was sad. Now that I have met him, my heart is at peace."
but
I thought of what Su Wan'er said about finding a sister-in-law.
Xun Kuang couldn't help but think of Ji Shuying.
But after just a moment, he shook his head and refused to think about it.
Then
I couldn't help but think of that girl, and even more so, I thought of the fact that the names of my daughter and son were the same as those of that girl, and I got very excited at the time.
but.
It's all in the past. After all, she had her days and I had my messy days.
Then, Ji Shuying's image suddenly popped up in his mind. He thought that she should be celebrating her birthday now. After all, Gu Chiyu was there to accompany her.
Thinking of this, Xun Kuang showed a self-deprecating smile on his face, and then shook his head.
Xun Kuang, ah, Xun Kuang.
It is said that literati are more sad at night. If there is a little snow and rain, the sadness will be even stronger.
What kind of vulgar person are you, Xun Kuang, and how dare you imitate the scholars to do this?
Thinking of this, Xun Kuang turned around and said, "Hey! Let's go to Qingya Restaurant. You, Su Zifeng, have a big family and a lot of wealth. What's wrong with treating me to a meal and some wine?"
Thinking this way, Xun Kuang finally had a place to go.
only
Just after Xun Kuang turned around, he was stunned where he was.
Xun Siye, who was regarded by Yang Shanchang, Su Wenqing and other ministers in the court as the most sharp-tongued and eloquent person, did not know what to say at this moment.
He just held the penny in his sleeve.
The penny given by the woman in front of me.
For more than ten years, I missed the woman with all my heart at first, and then let it go. I don’t know whether I was thinking about her or just wanted to see her once but couldn’t forget her.
At this moment, Xun Kuang's expression was complicated and he was stunned. He didn't know what to do.
This Lord Dean, this talented man who never panicked in the face of difficulties, was a little confused at this moment.
The woman, or rather the beautiful woman who had been married for a long time, looked at Xun Kuang, smiled gently, walked forward and saluted: "When you were at the gate of the Imperial College, I wanted to come out to see you, but when I saw that Miss Su came out, I didn't come to disturb you."
After explaining this, the woman felt a little annoyed. Why did she have to explain this? But she also knew that it was because she was nervous. Even though she had imagined the scene of meeting Xun Kuang again countless times in her mind, she still felt a little uncomfortable.
But after a little adjustment, the woman looked at Xun Kuang and said, "Long time no see, Xun"
The term "brother Xun" was used more than ten years ago. It was not appropriate to call him that now, so the woman changed her words to "Long time no see, Xun Kuang."
Xun Kuang opened his lips several times, but he still didn't know how to speak. But when he heard the woman calling his name, his mood suddenly calmed down. He smiled and bowed, saying, "Long time no see, Madam Xin."
When she heard the name Madam Xin, a flash of self-mockery passed across the woman's face.
Then the woman smiled and said, "Can we chat?"
Xun Kuang nodded, but was about to talk about going to Qingya Restaurant.
The woman pointed to the noodle stall in front and said, "Let's go there."
Xun Kuang looked over and did not object.
But Xun Kuang looked at the woman, thought for a moment, broke the awkwardness, and said with a smile: "I haven't seen you for more than ten years. You are getting more and more beautiful!"
The woman smiled softly: "You have changed a lot."
Xun Kuang smiled when he heard this: "It's even more elegant."
The woman laughed a few times, then just looked at Xun Kuang, stretched out her hand to pinch his clothes, and then frowned: "It's so cold, why don't you wear more clothes."
Xun Kuang smiled and said, "Isn't this a habit of being thick-skinned? But, you are such a wealthy businessman, can you eat noodles?"
The woman laughed and scolded: "Rich businessmen don't eat? Besides, didn't you and I like to eat these street stalls before?"
Xun Kuang nodded: "That's right, eating anywhere doesn't count, it's all about a bowl of rice."
The two hadn't seen each other for more than ten years, but apart from the slight awkwardness at the beginning, they didn't know why. Perhaps it was because it had been too long and they had figured it out long ago, or perhaps it was for some other reason, but after a few words, there was no longer any awkwardness.
After sitting on the noodle stall and ordering two bowls of chopped green onion noodles, the woman looked at Xun Kuang and said, "Why don't you ask me why I came to see you?"
Xun Kuang shook his head: "It's not the same as before. I don't have so many questions to ask."
Hearing this, the woman was stunned.
He recalled the time when Xun Kuang stood at his doorstep and asked him "why?" in a heart-wrenching voice.
Thinking of this, the woman wanted to say the three words that she had wanted to say all the time in the past ten years, but she didn't say it in the end. Instead, she noticed Xun Kuang's sleeves as he picked up the hot noodle soup to drink. After a moment of hesitation, she said, "I still have it with me."
Xun Kuang was stunned for a moment, then he looked down at the money in his sleeve and said with a smile, "Are you not used to this?"
The woman smiled, then nodded and said, "It's better to take it with you. You spend money lavishly. Even if you become a high-ranking official in the court, you still don't know how to spend money. If you save a penny, you can always buy some sesame seed buns to eat."
Xun Kuang looked at the woman and asked, "You are not having trouble with your business and want to ask me for help. Tell me, who should I ask? I can ask the Queen for help. You are capable now, not like before when you were incompetent."
The woman immediately laughed and scolded: "What are you talking about? No matter what I am like, I still have some ways to do business. And this time I came to Beijing, I also wanted to find the shopkeeper Su of Jiangchun to discuss the transfer of my shops in the south. What ways can I use?"
Xun Kuang frowned: "Is there a problem with the business? Why do you want to transfer the shop?"
The woman shook her head. "That man died last year, so I thought about transferring the business. The business in the south is controlled by the two major chambers of commerce. We either join or give up. I thought about giving up and going to Nanyang to have a look. I have always heard how good Nanyang is, and I have always wanted to go there. The price offered by Shopkeeper Su is suitable, better than that of the two major chambers of commerce, so I came to Beijing to have a chat."
Xun Kuang understood and nodded, saying, "It's good to go. There will be trouble in the south soon. Although the Xin family is not a big family, it has some small influence in Gusu City. It will be good to disperse it early."
The woman naturally understood that Xun Kuang was trying to wake her up, but she didn't say much and just looked at Xun Kuang.
He was much older and shabbier.
but.
It’s still the same feeling as that schoolboy herding cows, and it’s still the same feeling of being full of curiosity and affection when I saw it for the first time.
Can.
I am no longer worthy.
Thinking of this, the woman smiled and looked at Xun Kuang and said, "That one penny, is that what I gave you before?"
Xun Kuang was drinking noodle soup, and when he heard this, he nodded: "Well, I have a lot of friends in the capital, and they are all happy to treat me to a meal. I don't need it, so I've kept it."
From the initial shock, then the confusion, to the calmness now.
Xun Kuang had thought countless times about what he would do when he met this woman, but now that he had seen her, he felt relieved for no reason.
have no idea!
Anyway, that feeling of uneasiness, as if I was worrying too much, has disappeared at this moment.
Moreover, my mood suddenly became relieved and my thoughts became clear.
When the woman heard this, she was stunned for a moment, then smiled and said, "That's not great, I was afraid it wasn't the one I gave!"
Xun Kuang frowned: "Girl, you think I'm living a miserable life? I'm fine."
At this point, Xun Kuang realized that he had used the same name to refer to the woman in front of him, so he wanted to apologize.
But the woman smiled and said, "I'm going to Southeast Asia this time and won't be back, so I thought I'd come to see you before I leave. I'm afraid I've not seen you for so many years, so I have to see you. And I know how you've been doing over the years, I know everything, you're not down at all. Although all the money has been given to the Lord Jijiu, you live a more comfortable life than anyone else. Every time I think of you being so carefree, I envy you so much."
Xun Kuang heard this and looked at the woman in front of him who was smiling as beautifully as before, but although she was clearly smiling, there was a sense of sadness.
After the woman finished her words, she continued, "I'm just curious. Do you like Miss Lan Yuan from the Flower Garden or Miss Lan Qing? It can't be Buyao. I heard from the girls in the Flower Garden that you always ask Buyao to accompany you for drinks. But I've seen that Buyao is not as pretty as Lan Qing, and Lan Yuan is prettier. As for Liu Baishi, although I know you like her very much, you don't have the money to hire her."
Xun Kuang was suddenly embarrassed when he heard this, and couldn't help but say: "Well, we haven't seen each other for so many years, and you suddenly brought up this, I feel a little embarrassed."
The woman chuckled, then coughed and said, "I also heard from the people in the Shihua Pavilion that you are not only popular with the girls in the Shihua Pavilion, but also with many girls in other brothels who like you and are eagerly looking forward to you redeeming them. Some even said that if you redeem them, even if they can't be your wife, they are willing to be your maidservants."
Xun Kuang was embarrassed and said immediately: "In fact, I also try not to make myself unpopular, but there is no way, there is no way. To use the words of our queen, I am just so outstanding, it is natural, what can I do!"
The woman laughed when she heard this, and then said, "If the Queen knew that you used her holy words like this, I don't know how she would punish you."
Xun Kuang immediately shook his head: "Not really, we have a very close relationship! We even met and chatted today."
After saying this, Xun Kuang looked at the woman, thought for a moment and then asked, "Have you ever thought about finding another one? I heard that after your master passed away, many people pursued you, including someone from the Ouyang family."
The woman was stunned for a moment, then shook her head: "No, I won't marry again. It's fine to be alone. And my family doesn't need me to marry anyone to save them."
There was a smile on her face when she said this, but the sadness was clearly revealed. It was not intentional on the woman's part, it was just like she was thinking of something and couldn't help feeling that way.
Just like
Just like the smile on my face all these years, it has always been covering up the sadness inside.
Xun Kuang looked at the woman, smiled and said, "That's good. You are free after all. Besides, you have your adopted niece and nephew with you, so you won't be lonely."
When the woman heard this, she looked at Xun Kuang in surprise.
Why did he know that they were his adopted niece and nephew?
and
She also knew that she was being pursued by someone from the Ouyang family.
Thinking of this, the woman's sad smile appeared again.
Oh, it turns out that he has been paying attention to me.
She has been paying attention to him.
But I can't see him because I feel ashamed, because I can't, and because I'm dirty.
But now she realized that he had been paying attention to her all along and even knew such a secret thing.
At this time.
The stall owner brought the noodles.
Xun Kuang was naturally not polite.
But after eating two bites, Xun Kuang looked at the woman who was still eating in an orderly manner as before, and said, "Let me make it clear first, I only have that one penny on me now, so you will pay the bill as before."
The woman smiled and said, "Isn't it always me who pays the bill?"
Xun Kuang chuckled and was no longer embarrassed. It was mainly because he didn't know why, but suddenly everything became open-minded.
Then there is naturally no such thing as any restrictions.
So, I continued eating the noodles immediately.
The woman looked at Xun Kuang eating like this, smiling helplessly, and wanted to reach out to help Xun Kuang with his hair, just like before.
But when he raised his hand, he finally put it back.
He smiled and said, "My hair is about to get into the noodle soup."
Xun Kuang was stunned for a moment when he heard this. He remembered that Ji Shuying had been helping him before, but when he did it, he remembered that it was the woman in front of him who helped him before.
So he couldn't help but smile and looked at the woman: "When are you going to Nanyang?"
The woman said, "Shopkeeper Su said he would send someone to go back with me. By then, the land deeds will be signed and we will set off in the spring. After all, the ship is our own merchant ship, so we can leave at any time."
Xun Kuang nodded, then lowered his head and continued eating.
Finally, he couldn't help but said, "Why don't we move to the capital? The capital is peaceful now."
The woman laughed when she heard this and nodded, "No, it's all set. We prepared it at the end of last year. Someone in our family has already gone there to prepare it."
Xun Kuang looked at the woman and wanted to say something else.
But the woman changed the subject and started talking about other things.
The two were not in a hurry to leave, they just chatted, but the things they talked about were just some things that happened to them. They both tacitly did not talk about their past, nor why the woman suddenly wanted to get married.
It was like two old friends who hadn’t seen each other for more than ten years. The more they talked, the less awkwardness and restraint they felt when they met.
but.
We must separate eventually.
After all, the snow was getting heavier and heavier, and the noodle stall owner had to close up his stall.
Two bowls of noodles, eight cents.
However, when the woman took out the money, it was exactly seven cents!
Then the woman looked at Xun Kuang and said, "Give me that one cent. I only have eight cents with me."
Xun Kuang was stunned for a moment, but looking at the woman, he hesitated to speak.
He could see what the woman meant, so he was a little hesitant, but suddenly, he let go, reached out and gently pulled, and the sleeve was torn a little, but Xun Kuang didn't care and handed the money to the woman.
The woman looked at the coin, which she knew had been held in her hand countless times. After a moment's hesitation, she merged it into the seven coins and handed them together to the shop owner.
Get up and leave.
Standing under the snow.
The woman's driver saw his wife coming out, so he prepared to leave.
Xun Kuang looked at the woman, and saw that in a moment the snow had fallen on her hair, turning it white.
The woman looked at Xun Kuang and also saw the snow falling on his head.
Xun Kuang, I don’t know what you think of her.
But this afternoon, she did hear that the Queen Mother once said, "Let's get wet in the snow together today and grow old together in this life."
Thinking of this, the woman smiled and looked at Xun Kuang: "Xun"
Just as she spoke, the woman thought for a moment and then revealed a playful expression: "Goodbye, Brother Xun. I wish Brother Xun good luck in literature!"
At this moment, the woman was no longer solemn, and looked like the young girl she was more than ten years ago.
Xun Kuang heard this long-lost address, looked at the woman and bowed, "I am Xun Kuang from Woniu Village, sending you off to sister Wen Yuan. I wish you a safe journey."
When the woman heard this name, she laughed in the snow.
The old coachman looked at his wife's smiling face and was stunned for a moment. This old man, who came from his wife's parents' home, had not seen his wife smile like this for many years.
The woman looked at Xun Kuang and said, "Then I'll leave."
Xun Kuang didn't look up, still maintaining the posture of bowing, not daring to look up for fear of crying.
The woman looked at Xun Kuang, pursing his lips and smiling, trying his best to endure something, and continued: "You should wear more clothes, it's very cold, and don't drink cold wine, warm it up, it's good for your health. Also, don't sit alone in the snow. Mr. Ji likes you so much, you should like her too, it's obvious that you have her in your heart, Brother Xun"
When she said this, the woman smiled and said, "I'm sorry for talking too much. I'm really leaving now!"
Xun Kuang did not raise his head and still maintained the bowing posture.
The woman smiled playfully: "I was holding it in at the beginning, but it suddenly became like this in the end. Let's go. Goodbye, Brother Xun."
The woman looked at Xun Kuang.
Goodbye, never see you again.
After turning around, the woman seemed to be enduring something, but when she looked back at Xun Kuang, she saw Xun Kuang looking at her with his hair dyed snow-white.
The Queen is a liar.
Obviously
Even if we get wet in the snow together, our hair won’t turn white.
Thinking of this, the woman didn't dare to look back at Xun Kuang, but got into the carriage directly.
But just got on the carriage
The woman clutched her sleeves, trying hard not to cry.
Don’t cry, Wen Yuan, don’t cry. This is your fate. It was determined before. You are not worthy of him. This is your fate.
Don't cry
But thinking of this, the woman looked down at the coin in her hand, and even more at the embroidery of Xun Kuang's name on the cuff of her sleeve.
Finally, I couldn't hold back my tears anymore.
She came to see him because she was leaving and wanted to see him for the last time.
But before coming, she thought of a lot of things.
I wanted to tell him that I didn't want to leave him back then.
Because there is no other way.
I still remember the promise I made to him to have two children, a boy and a girl. The boy would be named Xun Junyi and the girl would be named Xun Yuebai.
So, when she had no choice but to marry that man, she took medicine to prevent herself from having children, because she didn't want to get pregnant with that man's child.
She wanted to tell him that she knew everything about him.
She wanted to tell him that when he came yelling at the door of Wen's house that day, she was standing there listening and crying.
She wanted to tell him that she planted a large field of laurel at home.
She also wanted to tell him that the name Xun Kuang was embroidered on the cuffs of each of her clothes, because she had heard a saying that if a woman embroiders the name of her beloved man on her cuffs, it means that he is always in her hand.
But when I really met Brother Xun, I couldn’t say anything, not even a single thing.
He is that good.
Why tell him and disturb his life?
It's really me. I don't have that fate, and my body is dirty, so I'm not worthy of him.
Wen Yuan pinched her sleeves tightly, holding tightly the place where the two words "Xun Kuang" were embroidered, and also holding tightly the copper coin.
After crying for a while, he suddenly started laughing.
It was not the smile she had been using to hide her sadness all these years, but the smile of extreme joy that came from finally seeing the person she had dared not see.
Tears fell on my hands.
Brother Xun, you must be happy from now on.
Xun Kuang looked at the carriage going further and further away, turned around and looked at the noodle stall that was being packed up, walked up to the owner and wanted the money back, no matter what he offered.
But when the boss took out the few coins he had just received, Xun Kuang was stunned when he saw that his own coin was missing. He couldn't help but look at the carriage that had disappeared in the snowy night and smiled bitterly.
Then he pointed to a bench on the side and said, "Can I lie down on the bench first? You can clean it up later?"
Hearing this, the boss smiled and nodded: "As you please, I'll clean it up last."
Xun Kuang bowed to express his gratitude, then lay down on the bench and looked at the snowflakes outside.
He didn't expect her to come to him suddenly.
It was very sudden and unexpected.
but.
It's more of that feeling that can't be described.
It's like finally letting go.
But something feels wrong.
When he heard the news that Wen Yuan was going to get married, he rushed back overnight without even attending the official appointment ceremony.
But after returning.
Didn't meet.
He could feel that Wen Yuan was behind the door, and could feel that Wen Yuan was listening to his heart-wrenching screams, but they still hadn't met.
Then, he was told by a local friend that Wen Yuan's family business was ruined, and the eldest son of the Xin family insisted on marrying Wen Yuan before he was willing to save the Wen family.
Only Xin's family can save the Wen family, otherwise Wen Yuan's father and uncle will be imprisoned or exiled.
Even Xun Kuang, who had just passed the imperial examination and become the top scholar that year, could not save him.
Xun Kuang wanted to go to the wedding but was stopped. He also got a note from Wen Yuan which said "I can only marry him".
Xun Kuang was disheartened, but still wanted to find Wen Yuan, but all his efforts were in vain.
later
Xun Kuang returned to the capital and could do nothing.
Because Wen Yuan was already a married woman, she wanted to ask the teacher for help, but it was too late and there was nothing she could do.
When she wanted help the most, he had nothing.
At his most capable, she no longer needed help.
and
It turns out that the reason why I couldn't forget her after all these years was because I wanted to hear her say goodbye in person and wanted her to say goodbye to me in person.
And then, just now, we said goodbye.
But why.
It’s better not to meet!
Xun Kuang thought of the words of the Queen Mother, "What is love in this world? It makes people pledge to be together through life and death."
I couldn't help but smile bitterly.
Everyone says he is infatuated and romantic, but he knows what love is.
But think of this sentence
Just thinking about how sweet Her Majesty is, how could she write such a heartbreaking poem.
"Oh!"
Xun Kuang suddenly tilted his head and looked in the direction the carriage left, and couldn't help but smile, a little self-deprecating, but more of it was relief.
But look over there
Sudden!
A cold wind suddenly blew.
Xun Kuang's expression suddenly froze. He stood up from the bench and ran towards the carriage.
but.
After running a few steps, Xun Kuang fell down because the snow on the road was frozen, perhaps because there were too many people walking on it.
When people around saw this sloppy scholar fall down, many of them laughed.
Especially when they saw this scholar lying on the ground laughing bitterly, the sound was like crying and laughing, and they couldn't tell what it was, so they all said things like "he's crazy".
But a lady holding an umbrella and a lunch box walked up to Xun Kuang and looked down at him.
Xun Kuang also saw her.
The female teacher Ji Shuying asked: "Do you still want to pursue her? I know where she lives."
Xun Kuang looked at Ji Shuying, suddenly smiled, and then sat up.
The cold wind had stopped at this time.
Xun Kuang smiled, stood up from the ground, and looked at the carriage. Perhaps he felt that he looked ridiculous just now. After all, he had said goodbye to her, and he still wanted to chase her. His only wish was gone. He immediately shook his head and said, "Let's go home. It's over. It's all over."
Ji Shuying said "Oh" and left with Xun Kuang.
Xun Kuang looked at the food box in Ji Shuying's hand and asked, "What are you doing with the food box?"
Ji Shuying said: "I want you to celebrate my birthday with me."
Xun Kuang was a little embarrassed: "I have no money."
Ji Shuying smiled and said, "So I brought it myself."
Xun Kuang felt even more embarrassed.
But Xun Kuang looked at Ji Shuying: "Just now."
But just as she opened her mouth, Ji Shuying said, "Today is my birthday, don't tell me these things."
Xun Kuang sighed, but kept walking. He turned back to look at the direction the carriage left, smiled, sighed, and looked at Ji Shuying: "Shuying."
Ji Shuying looked at Xun Kuang.
Xun Kuang asked, "Can you lend me some money to buy some wine?"
Ji Shuying said lightly, "No, I won't lend it to you."
…
That year, he was herding cattle outside the village and reading a book on the cow's back.
She followed her father to collect rent from the fields and saw him.
That year, the wind was gentle, and the two children met each other in this way.
…
That year he was nineteen and she was seventeen. Under the laurel tree outside the city of Suzhou, she sent him to Beijing to take the imperial examination.
The wind is warm and sweet.
…
That year he won the first place in the imperial examination, but she was engaged.
It was raining and the wind was cold, bone-chillingly cold.
…
That year, she was a wealthy lady, and he was an important official in the court, holding real power.
It snowed and the two said goodbye.
The wind blew and it was very cold, but neither of them felt it.
Because the wind soon died down.
…
Ps: I won’t separate the chapters into 10,000 words for fear that the emotions will be interrupted.
(End of this chapter)
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