Chapter 1362 So, I Went Crazy
Su Chang'an looked at Mo Yue.
Mo Yue smiled knowingly and said, "There's no need to fight me, and if you do, I'll really kill you. Although I haven't passed the third level of the inner demon formation, as I said, Yi Weiting's inner demon formation is not like that of an ordinary martial artist. Otherwise, why do you think you have such strong killing power?"
Seeing Su Chang'an's puzzled expression, Mo Yue smiled and said, "Alright, I was planning to explain it to you properly this time, so you don't look silly and can't explain it clearly when you teach others to use Yiweiting."
As they spoke, Mo Yue took Su Chang'an's hand and lightly leaped onto the trunk of the apricot tree.
From this vantage point, you can see the giant white-tailed carp swimming in the water.
Mo Yue asked, "When you're eating, if you think something tastes good, do you eat more of it?"
Su Chang'an nodded without hesitation, but immediately said, "But I won't keep eating. I'll stop when I'm almost done, because I can continue eating next time."
Mo Yue said, "This is your choice, but some people will eat and drink to their heart's content. But there are also people who will eat only a little, chew slowly and then eat slowly."
Su Chang'an didn't understand why Mo Yue suddenly brought this up, but he just stared at Mo Yue.
Mo Yue smiled and said, "But there's another type of person who doesn't find this food delicious. After a small taste, they won't touch it again. What do you think eating this kind of thing is?"
Su Chang'an looked at the huge white carp in the pond, and after a moment's thought, said, "The Inner Demon Scheme."
Mo Yue smiled faintly: "The Inner Demon Trap is to magnify your deepest concerns, regrets, and most primal desires, and place them before you, forcing you to make a choice. But aren't we always making choices as we live?"
Su Chang'an looked at Mo Yue, who had suddenly become serious, and was taken aback.
Mo Yue gripped the tree trunk beneath her with both hands, swinging her legs as she looked at the carp: "The human heart is perilous, the Dao heart is subtle. This is the Heart Demon Formation. Our sect's techniques were created based on the principle that 'human nature is evil, and goodness is feigned.' The Heart Demon Formation tests human nature; the slightest carelessness will lead to collapse. Therefore, only those with great willpower can practice it. As a result, our sect's killing power has always been very strong, but it has always driven people mad. How can human nature withstand such a test?"
At this point, Mo Yue looked at Su Chang'an: "So I modified it, and when I created Yi Wei Ting, it no longer tested human nature, but made choices. Every choice determines the level of your cultivation. There is no right or wrong in choices, only no regrets. Just keep going. That's why the inner demon trap of Yi Wei Ting does not backfire."
When she got to this point, Mo Yue gave a self-deprecating laugh.
Su Chang'an then said, "But how can a person make a choice they won't regret?"
Mo Yue didn't deny it, but continued, "When you first crossed the threshold and faced the inner demons, you chose to protect your wife even at the cost of your life. The second time, you didn't run away from your mother and brother, but faced them head-on. The third time, you chose to believe in yourself because you believed what I said."
Upon hearing this, Su Chang'an felt slightly thirsty and lowered his eyes, but still said softly, "I made the wrong choice the second time."
Mo Yue glanced at Su Chang'an's profile: "I don't know, but the fact that you're here now, fighting with that old woman outside, means there's a problem. But it's also a choice, and there's no right or wrong. My understanding is that you haven't forgiven yourself because you're still blaming yourself for causing the deaths of your mother and brother."
Su Chang'an lowered his head and remained silent.
He remembered the time when he had just transmigrated to this world.
The woman excitedly hugged him tightly, crying out, "Chang'an, you're finally awake! What would I do if anything happened to you?"
He also recalled the young man who was so happy he stammered and stared straight at him.
This was true before, and it is true now.
Just thinking about those two made Su Chang'an's eyes involuntarily redden.
Mo Yue looked at Su Chang'an, placed her hand on Chang'an's head, gently rubbing it, and said softly, "His name is Li Jue."
Upon hearing this name, Su Chang'an looked at Mo Yue.
Mo Yue said, "It has the same name as your knife, right? His surname is Jiang, and his name is Jiang Lijue. He was the third-ranked scholar in the Great Duan. He played the zither very well and told me, 'Where the heart leads, the hand follows.' So he was also favored by the princess at the time. The emperor loved the princess very much, so he issued an edict to make him the princess's husband."
Mo Yue pointed to one side, "I remember there used to be a pavilion here, right?"
Mo Yue's eyes shimmered: "He said goodbye to me under that pavilion. I didn't think much of it. There are plenty of men, I don't need him. But in Chang'an, people's hearts really do ache. Especially when I think of his last words to me, 'Miss Ye, I'm so glad to have met you,' how eloquent he was. But just thinking about those words makes me so miserable. No amount of drinking helps. They say alcohol can make people forget things, but I found myself going crazy. To let a man drive me mad, how stupid of me. So I simply destroyed all my martial arts skills. I am Ye Hehua, but I am Ye Hehua, how could I really put up with this? So, just like the rumors in the martial arts world, I created the 'Yiwei Ting' technique overnight, returning to the end."
After a brief pause, Mo Yue said, "I killed everyone in the Princess's mansion, including him, but I didn't finish him off with one blow. I wanted to watch him die. But do you know what? He was looking at me and smiling, and I noticed that his fingers were broken, all ten of them were broken. He said, 'Miss Ye, it's so nice to see you.'"
Mo Yue suddenly gave a self-deprecating laugh: "Then he died, laughing as he died. Then I found out that the princess said if he didn't become the prince consort, she would have me captured, tortured, and his family and friends killed. He had no choice but to agree, but in the princess's mansion, he broke his own fingers and never touched the zither again. Then, I went mad and killed many, many people."
At this point, Mo Yue smiled and looked at Su Chang'an: "You know what? I once overheard him talking to his friend. He said that besides being pretty, I'm also very nice. He also said that if I don't like him, it doesn't matter, he will always secretly like me."
Mo Yue sighed, "But he died by my hand. During the days I went mad, I killed many, many people. The day I suddenly woke up was because I went to the place where I first met him, the pavilion under the apricot tree. I looked at the pavilion and it was as if I saw him, looking at me and saying, 'Miss Ye, I am so glad to have met you.'"
"Do you know? Chang'an, Yiwei Ting wasn't created because I was heartless, but because I liked him too much. It's said that love turned to hate, but if I didn't like him, how could I hate him? He's just a man. But do you know, I actually died in the third layer of the inner demon trap because... I bravely went to see him. He asked me, 'Miss, are you warm enough for the spring chill?' He asked me, 'Why are you frowning?' He asked me, 'When you open the window, do you see green mountains and clear waters, and a bright moon in the sky?' And so, I stayed in the inner demon trap."
"Isn't it funny that I actually died in the trap of my own inner demons?"
At this point, Mo Yue looked at the way Su Chang'an was looking at her, smiled gently, and hugged Su Chang'an in her arms: "Chang'an, I'm not saying this to comfort you, to make you forgive yourself, or to merge with the part of yourself that you can't accept. I just want to tell you that if you're afraid to face it, then don't go. Your mother and your brother want you to live well, so try your best to live. Don't think about anything else. Martial arts aren't that important. The people around you are what's important, aren't they? Your wife and your unborn child are still here."
(End of this chapter)
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