Chapter 83 Assistance
"I never expected to see you here..." The girl sitting in the wheelchair covered her mouth excitedly, staring at Lin Chiran in front of her.
Lin Chiran leaned down and sat on the chair next to him, showing a gentle smile: "What should I call you?"
The girl grabbed the corner of her clothes, took a deep breath, and introduced herself in a hurry: "My name is Zhao Tian..." Ah... she accidentally revealed her real name and looked around nervously. Fortunately, the other staff members were busy with other things, so it should have been only Lin Chiran who heard it.
"Hello, Miss Zhao. Thank you for participating in today's show." Lin Chiran noticed her panic and asked carefully, "Does Miss Zhao want to use her real name or a pseudonym in this show?"
Zhao Tian seemed a little hesitant, and spoke after a long while: "Would a real name be better?"
"There is no good or bad, it depends on what Miss Zhao thinks." Lin Chiran looked at the staff not far away and asked in a low voice: "Does the program team want you to use your real name?"
Zhao Tian nodded: "That's what they said when they contacted me, but it's not a mandatory requirement."
Zhao Tian, a girl sitting in a wheelchair, is a new writer with the pen name Yanxin. Some time ago, she won the Best Newcomer Award in a certain literary award for her novel "Xin Yi" which tells the stories of people with disabilities. After winning the award, this work was reprinted in large quantities and topped the sales charts of major bookstores.
The novel "Heart Chair" depicts a heroine who dreams of becoming a dancer, but loses the function of her lower limbs after an accident. A story of several breakdowns and reconciliations in a life filled with despair and anger.
The book's description of the protagonist's mentality, the inconveniences he encountered in life after the accident, etc. is extremely detailed and realistic. Therefore, after knowing that the author himself is a disabled person, many readers became curious about the author Yan Xin himself.
Zhao Tian herself doesn't like exposing herself to the public eye. When she received the invitation from the "ANC Special LoVe" program team, she prepared herself mentally for a long time before deciding to accept the invitation.
However, she still had some concerns about using her real name. Finally, she decided to participate in the recording of this program under the pen name Yanxin, hiding her face.
While the two were chatting about these things, members of Wax&Wane also arrived at the scene. After greeting Lin Chiran, they were taken away by the staff to fix the microphone.
When I came out again, the shooting scene was almost ready.
In order to achieve better results in the formal shooting, the members took this opportunity to sit down and have a brief exchange with the writer Yan Xin.
"Hello, Teacher Yanxin, we are Wax & Wane." Chen Xun took on the responsibility of captain and was about to introduce the members to her.
Zhao Tian looked at Lin Chiran who had stepped aside, and said to Shen Xun, "I know you." He called out each person's name in turn.
Hearing this, the members were a little surprised. First, I didn’t expect the writer Yan Xin to be so young, looking less than 30 years old; second, I was a little surprised that she knew everyone in Wax & Wane.
Chen Xun smiled and said, "It's great that you know us. What do you think about today's filming, Teacher Yan Xin?"
After looking at a few questions that he would ask later, Zhao Tian started a brief chat with a few people and became a little more familiar with them.
Lin Chiran watched from a distance, hoping that today's filming would go smoothly.
Everything is ready and we are entering the formal shooting phase. This exchange will focus on Yan Xin's work "Heart Chair" and some of her personal experiences.
After a brief greeting, the questions were asked step by step. Shen Xun asked the first question in a gentle tone: "Teacher Yan Xin, under what circumstances did you want to create the work "Heart Chair"? "
Zhao Tian said, "I originally wrote this novel for myself, and I didn't intend to submit it for publication."
"What opportunity made you choose to submit this novel for publication?"
Zhao Tian looked into the distance of the camera and said with some nostalgia: "At that time, I heard a sentence from the person who had always supported my spiritual world. He said that he wanted to do everything that only he could do."
The members nodded as she spoke, listening very attentively.
"That kind of persistent belief touched me and made me start to think whether there is something that only I can do. I thought about it for a long time. As a marginalized person in society, I cannot create more benefits and value. I have been a burden to others for a long time. What can only I do?"
Zhao Tian paused and said, "Of course, my thoughts have changed now. But at that time, after thinking about it, I only had this novel written for myself, so I decided to submit it."
Her tone became more serious: "People with disabilities may be considered a marginalized group in society by most people. Even I, as a member of this group, used to think so.
"But as a group of tens of millions of people, it is obviously not a minority in terms of numbers. Why is it so difficult to reach this group in real life at the same proportion as the population? Does this mean that many people who should be living normally in society are not seen by society? This is the story that "The Heart Chair" wants to write."
Shen Xun continued to ask: "Many readers mentioned that the story depicted in this work is very heavy. After the protagonist suffered a huge blow, his mental state was extremely bad for a time, and he had the idea of ending it all, but in the end he did not do it.
"Even at the end of the story, her living conditions have not improved, but she is no longer confused and chooses to face the cruelty of life. This is completely different from the inspirational stories we see nowadays. Teacher Yan Xin, how do you understand the conception when describing these?"
Zhao Tian pondered: "Our society is a society that advocates positive energy, but "Heart Chair" is not such a story. It is a story of ordinary people. In real life, there are not so many inspirational characters.
"Just like with a population of more than one billion, it is impossible for everyone to be a rich man." After making a harmless joke, she continued, "'The Heart Chair' is the story of an ordinary disabled person. There is no medical miracle, no extraordinary will, and even no decisiveness and determination to choose to leave. If I have to say, it is that I have a little more courage to face life. This may be the real state of many people, including me in the past."
Everyone seemed to be thinking about something, and Yu Jiqifeng continued to ask questions: "Teacher Yanxin, regarding the title of the book "Heart Chair", many readers understand that the wheelchair is a chair that helps the mind move forward. May I ask if there are any other deep meanings in this name?"
Zhao Tian was a little surprised. She didn't know what she was thinking. Suddenly she smiled and said, "Everyone's understanding is very gentle. In fact, the original meaning of this name is restraint. For the protagonist, this is the chair that trapped her. It not only made it difficult for her to reach her former dreams, but also bound her heart."
"But in the process of writing this novel, I suddenly realized that chairs are for resting. Becoming a professional dancer is an extremely difficult dream for the talented but not dazzling protagonist, who gave up countless other things for this. In a sense, it was even a 'dream' forced on her by her family.
"When she burned her dancing shoes and gave up completely, she leaned back in her wheelchair and suddenly felt a sense of relief that she shouldn't have. Guilt, relief and pain intertwined in her body, forming a cocoon that isolated her from the outside world. Only when she leaned back in the chair could she feel a brief sense of relief."
Ji Qifeng was fascinated by what he heard. Jingxing took over the topic according to the order: "We have learned part of the work. Teacher Yanxin, you mentioned in your acceptance speech that you have some similarities with the protagonist. What are they? Personal experience... or thoughts?"
Zhao Tian replied: "My experience is actually very different from that of the protagonist. In reality, there are congenital disabilities and acquired disabilities. The protagonist of the story has an acquired disability due to an accident, but I have been unable to walk independently since birth, and I have never experienced the feeling of walking independently without any assistive devices."
"It can be said that this story is completely my fantasy, but some of the experiences are similar. The protagonist did not dare to go out for a long time after the accident, until someone took her to the ice and snow park she once loved to go to. She sat on the ice sled and slid carefully on the ice with the strength of her upper limbs, and smiled for the first time in a long time.
I also had a similar experience, where I overcame my fear of going out because I was respected and treated equally. I am very grateful to the person who gave me great courage and allowed me to face the world again. "Having talked about this, Zhao Tian looked towards the camera and smiled faintly.
An Juesui said attentively: "Teacher Yanxin, you mentioned this person who means a lot to you several times just now. Could you please reveal a little bit about him?"
Zhao Tian looked at the camera and gave a mysterious smile.
An Juesui also noticed her gaze and said, "In fact, we have a special off-site guest to help. It seems that it is time for him to make his debut."
"Hello everyone, I'm Wax&Wane producer Lin Chiran, this time's off-site assistance guest." Following everyone's gaze, Lin Chiran walked into the camera with a smile: "Is there anything I can help you with?"
An Juesui smiled slyly: "Then I'll have to trouble Brother Lin for this step."
Lin Chiran looked helpless, and took over the topic with a smile: "Teacher Yan Xin, can you tell me more?"
"He is the one who saved me, my idol." Zhao Tian looked at him and spoke slowly in a calm tone: "For a long time, I couldn't go out alone. I was afraid of other people's eyes and afraid of causing trouble to the people around me. Until one day I saw him on TV."
"The idol said that he wanted to bring joy and smiles to everyone, and he tried too hard and made some jokes. I laughed along in front of the TV. At first, it was just to escape from real life and indulge myself in getting to know the idol day and night.
"But when I heard him say that he hoped that all those who liked and supported him could also be happy in their daily lives, I felt it was ridiculous. How could someone like me catch up to even one thousandth of the average person? I thought he was just saying it casually.
"Until I saw that he had opened a new project in his regular program, a troubled question and answer session. I wrote down all my pain on it as if I was venting, including the fact that I would never be able to go to their concerts in person."
Lin Chiran was very surprised when he heard this, and subconsciously looked at the program director on the side of the camera. This was not what was in the script.
But no one at the scene interrupted Zhao Tian. She spoke word by word: "I received a reply letter. It was a concert ticket with a safe seat for people with disabilities."
"That day, I walked out of the door without feeling the sunshine through the window for the first time in a long time. There were many friends with similar situations sitting near me. The stage lighting was beautiful and the singing was moving. He used voice and sign language to describe these to friends who wanted to understand but were bound by obstacles. We watched the performance together, which I will never forget in my life."
"This letter is like a dream, in which we have the same right and dignity to feel happy."
There was a red circle around Zhao Tian's eyes: "The sender's name is Lin Chiran."
As he finished speaking, warm drops of water slid down from the corners of his eyes.
Many years later, this tear is dedicated to the person who once opened that window for her.
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