"Aze, are you really leaving?" Long Musi stood at the city gate, looking at the carriage that was ready behind Xu Tianze.
He originally thought that since Xu Tianze discovered that his collapse was fake, in order to prevent him from disrupting their plans, Xu Tianze would definitely stay in Zhoushan City to monitor him.
Only in this way could their plan continue to be implemented, but things seemed to be different from what he expected. It was only the third day of the New Year, and Xu Tianze was ready to leave Zhoushan City.
"This is not my home. Why should I stay here?" Xu Tianze looked up at the plaque of Zhoushan City with a flat tone.
Then he retracted his gaze and looked at Long Muse who was standing in front of him. Long Muse was dressed in a light yellow casual suit. Although he still had the dignity of a noble man, he seemed to have lost his previous sharpness and became much more friendly.
"Besides, if I stay here, it won't be easy for you to continue doing what you want, right?"
"Aze, that's not what I meant." Long Musi's eyes felt a little weak, and he didn't dare to look at Xu Tianze.
He knew what Xu Tianze wanted, but he also knew what he wanted. The two of them had different opinions, and there was no common ground between them.
If it were someone else, Long Musi wouldn't care too much, but the person in front of him was the joy of his youth. Even though he no longer had a complete body, he still wanted to keep him by his side.
Past events kept coming to his mind, and Long Musi couldn't tell for a moment whether he was more concerned about that position or had more feelings for Xu Tianze.
"I know."
When Long Musi heard Xu Tianze's words, he looked up at Xu Tianze in surprise. Ever since returning to Shangjing City, he and Xu Tianze seemed to be separated by something. Even their calm conversations would be filled with calculations and falsehoods. However, Xu Tianze's "I know" just now was not disguised at all.
"There are no saints in this world. Most people are just swept up in the secular world." Xu Tianze's eyes flashed with loneliness, and his tone was also filled with sadness. "Maybe there are real saints, but I, Xu Tianze, am not one of them."
As he spoke, Xu Tianze raised his head and handed a long box in his hand to Long Musi: "Long Musi is Long Musi, and Xu Tianze is Xu Tianze. Xu Tianze should not ask Long Musi to give up his own interests based on his own perspective."
"I was narrow-minded in the past, but I forgot that you and I are different after all. From now on, there will be no more calculations between you and me."
After saying that, Xu Tianze didn't give Long Musi a chance. He turned around and got on the carriage, and ordered Xue Wei to drive away.
Xu Tianze was in high spirits and cheerful when he said goodbye to Long Musi, but he found it difficult to calm down once he got on the carriage. As soon as he closed his eyes, every little detail between him and Long Musi came to his mind.
Just as Xu Tianze himself said, Long Muse never did anything wrong, because just as he had his own limitations, Long Muse also had his own responsibilities.
The joy and innocence of childhood, the ignorance of the world in youth, and then the massacre of the Xu family, begging for help from Long Muse, and later the resentment that Long Muse did not put himself first in the choice.
It turned into calculations again and again, the familiarity was broken countless times, and the entanglement between love, hate, and emotions, Xu Tianze suddenly realized that he had never thought about the problem from Long Musi's perspective.
He never understood Long Musi's difficulties. Everything was what he thought it was, and he only thought about things based on his own interests.
It was precisely because of this realization that Xu Tianze decided to leave Zhoushan City as planned, because his choice was his, not Long Musi's.
He has reached this point due to various reasons, and he can only go on to the end. But Long Muse is different. Long Muse still has the right to make his own choices and the opportunity to be himself.
Letting Long Musi go was like letting himself go. When Xu Tianze opened his eyes, they had calmed down again. He lifted a corner of the car curtain and looked at the scenery that was constantly receding.
"Master, what are you giving to the prince?" Jiang Ti and Xichen looked at each other and spoke first.
Although he and Xichen had been waiting in the carriage, they still saw the actions of their master and King Jing. At the beginning, when they saw their master's sad expression, they naturally remained silent to give their master enough time to digest his emotions.
But now that he saw that his master was fine, Jiang Ti could no longer suppress his curiosity.
"Aren't you afraid that curiosity will kill your little kitty?" Xu Tianze lowered the car curtain and pinched Jiang Ti's cheek. Then his eyes became a little dazed. "That thing was never mine in the first place, so I can't say it's a gift. I can only say it's being returned to its original owner."
Long Musi stared at the carriage that was getting smaller and smaller, thinking carefully about Xu Tianze's parting words. Sometimes he would ask himself whether Xu Tianze was ignorant or he couldn't figure out what he wanted.
Now he could see clearly that Xu Tianze might be wrong, but such disputes always involve both parties. Then he opened the long box that Xu Tianze gave him.
When he saw the familiar scroll in the long box, Long Musi seemed to have thought of something. He threw the box to Long Er behind him and opened it impatiently.
The scroll showed a wanton and flamboyant young man in red, the same young man that Long Musi loved the most, except that there were two more inscriptions on it.
"In the past, when I was ignorant, love and dislike were all illusions. As I approach forty, love and dislike are only the product of youth."
"When one is young, he is ignorant of things; when one is young, he knows what he loves and hates. When he returns, he is full of calculations, and all the interactions are in vain."
As Long Musi looked at it, the scroll began to be dotted with tear marks. The tear marks were like scars that could never be removed, covering up the words. They were also like invisible blades that cut into the most private places, leaving no damage on the outside but full of holes on the inside.
"Did he leave me something else?" Long Musi's voice was a little hoarse.
It was clearly a question, but the tone in which it was asked was extremely certain.
Long Er held the long box and looked at Long San who had been silent beside him. Although he was always hanging around Xu Tianze, sometimes when he received a task or took over a shift, Long San was always by Xu Tianze's side.
If he doesn't have it, it means Xu Tianze gave the thing to Long San and asked Long San to pass it on to his own prince.
When Long San saw Long Er looking at him, he gave Long Er a look that told him not to say anything more, then he stepped forward and took out the small box he had been hiding on his body, replacing the scroll in Long Musi's hand.
"Forget it, forget it, it's better not to look at it." Long Musi's pupils shrank when he saw the box, and his trembling hands did not open the box in the end.
When Long Er saw the box in his prince's hand, he suddenly understood why Long San gave him a look before taking out the box.
Because he was the one who delivered the box on behalf of the prince, he naturally knew what was inside.
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