I picked up the paper, shone a flashlight on it, and saw the words written on it clearly.
"Brother, I'm sorry for all the trouble I've caused you these past few days. I know you've been worried that I might have some mental issues, and I've realized it myself. Sometimes I think too much, and I feel so guilty towards them."
“When I was at the research institute, every time I saw you all chatting and laughing during meals, I felt uneasy. Although you are my brother, Chen Feng and the others are my family who have gone through thick and thin with me. Because of what happened last time, I can’t let it go, so I have to go and find them.”
"Brother, I hope you won't come looking for me. Even if you do, you probably won't find me. I'm much, much stronger than you think. I'm not a weak woman. I've killed many people, including many zombies. I can live well on my own outside, so you don't need to worry. Although I really want to stay by your side and experience what it's like to be your little sister, brother, the world has changed. I'm not the same Yaoyao I used to be. I'm not that innocent and lively girl anymore. I have responsibilities. I have to go and find them. If they're dead, I have to avenge them. So, brother, if you can, I hope you turn back and don't come looking for me."
Even if you find me, I'll still find a way to escape. Brother, I hope we can meet again someday.
After reading what was written on the paper, I closed my eyes, my mind a complete mess.
I don't know what to do now, should I go find her and bring her back, or just let her go?
I was at a loss.
I got back into the car, put the note my little sister had left in my pocket, started the car, and began searching for her in Wutong City.
I know I won't find her by doing this. If she wants to hide, she can just find any corner in Wutong City, and I won't be able to find her.
Not to mention that it was only 5 o'clock when she knocked me unconscious, and now it's 10:30, more than five hours have passed. If she had found a car, she probably would have left Wutong City long ago.
And so, I wandered aimlessly around Wutong City for the entire night. I didn't go near the municipal government, since there were troops there, and my little sister certainly wouldn't go to such a place to die.
So I basically searched in the surrounding area.
I have seen some living people and some dead people.
So I searched all night in Wutong City, but I still couldn't find any trace of my little sister until dawn.
It's possible she's already left Wutong City.
It was already daylight, and staying in Wutong City was not a wise choice, so before six o'clock, I returned to the vicinity of the train station in the south of Wutong City to rest for a while.
I parked my car on the asphalt road outside the train station, closed my eyes, leaned back in my chair, and my mind went completely blank.
My younger sister left, and she left very decisively. From the time we found her until now, it's only been four or five days.
As for the next meeting, when is that? Will there even be a next time?
I gave a wry laugh and suddenly felt like a complete failure.
He couldn't even keep his own sister.
I hope her journey ahead goes smoothly and that she finds her companions. I hope that one day in the future, we can meet again, just like we did during Chinese New Year when we were kids, happily gathering together to talk about the future and the past.
All we can do now is hope.
...
Around noon, I returned to the research institute.
They were surprised to see me come back alone. I only said that my younger sister had run away and that I knew nothing else, which was indeed the case.
But Sister Jing and the others didn't believe me, so Sister Jing and Fei Lichao came to my room to ask me what had happened. I had to repeat what I had said before they believed me, and I emphasized it several times.
We were originally supposed to head to the central town this afternoon, but they seemed to be considering my emotional state, so they decided to leave tomorrow instead.
I have no objection to this matter; if we're leaving tomorrow, then we'll leave tomorrow.
I'm in a really mess right now, and I don't want to deal with what's going on in the central town.
After Sister Jing and the others left, I locked myself in my room, my mind completely blank.
To be honest, I'm very unwilling to accept this.
I suddenly felt so useless. If I could have really helped my little sister, maybe she wouldn't have left alone.
Ultimately, it's my own problem.
Since arriving at this research institute, I haven't made a single mistake, whether it's about the raiders or the Central Town issue, so at times my confidence has been a bit excessive.
I suppose my younger sister didn't leave at first because she thought I could help her in some way, but after these past few days, she must have realized that I wasn't capable of helping her, which is why she left, right?
I grabbed my head, feeling really frustrated.
My younger sister's departure left me feeling lost and directionless; a sense of regret lingered in my chest.
I didn't go out for dinner; Jingjie brought it over.
But looking at the hot rice in front of me, I felt conflicted. What was my little sister eating right now?
Is she suffering somewhere right now? Living a life of hardship, exposed to the elements?
I really want to find her and bring her back.
...
At night, I couldn't sleep, so I went to the roof of the research institute and saw Fei Lichao sitting on a stool keeping watch.
When he saw me coming over, he asked, "What's wrong? Can't you sleep?"
I nodded and said, "Yes, I can't sleep."
Fei Lichao asked, "Are you still worried about your sister?"
"Um."
Fei Lichao said, "Don't overthink it. Your sister isn't a child. She must have her reasons for doing this. Since she's survived until now, it means she'll definitely survive in the future."
I nodded and said, "I know, but I just feel that if she has something going on, why doesn't she tell me? Why does she have to bear all of this alone?"
Fei Lichao laughed and said, "I don't understand these things. If you ask me, I have no idea."
I glanced at Fei Lichao and asked, "What do you think I should do? My mind is a mess right now, and I don't know what to do. I have to go to the central town tomorrow, and I'm afraid I won't be able to handle things in my current state."
Fei Lichao reached into his pocket, pulled out a pack of cigarettes, shook the pack, and said, "What to do tomorrow is your business, I don't know what to do. As for now, have a smoke, maybe you'll figure it out after you finish it."
I paused for a moment, took the cigarette pack from his hand, shook out two cigarettes, handed them to him, lit one for him, and then lit one for myself.
Fei Lichao took a drag of his cigarette and said, "I was planning to tell you something when you got back, but I think I'll pass now."
(End of this chapter)
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