Chapter 137, Today is another day of good spirits

"Help me stab that guy, and I'll give you this steak."

The rich man, looking high and mighty, pointed at an old beggar on the other side.

He looked at the skinny boy jokingly.

Li Yun was a little confused. There was obviously no hatred between me and that person. In fact, he had felt sorry for me before and gave me porridge.

But the rich man passing by chose this old beggar. Why did he choose Li Yun, a kid, to do this?

Because because it's interesting.

The sight of a young, skinny, dying boy bursting into the form of a wild beast in order to survive is a pleasure for them to appreciate. Would I do that?

Li Yun didn't know. The hunger, wounds and the feeling of being on the verge of death had already made him a little confused.

But the desire to survive is still at work.

The rich man gave a fine knife.

kill.

You can survive. Make them happy and you can survive.

I can survive.

The singer's voice still lingers in my ears.

"Night sky sea, night sky sea."

“Tianhai is a city that never sleeps”

Suddenly.

Li Yun woke up again.

Is it waking up? I remember I was in Pig Cage City. How come the mottled walls and the yellow lights.

Such a shabby place.

Where is this place? Li Yun opened his eyes and got up again.

I found that I am no longer the young Fire Cloud Evil God.

But There is a mirror next to it.

Look in the mirror.

What is reflected is a small face that looks like Zunlong.

oh.

It turned out to be me.

This is the dormitory of the welfare home.

'Li Yun' once spent time in an orphanage. I am Li Yun.

A horizontal drift.

In my previous life, I contracted a disease due to careless friendships, traveled to a parallel world, and unfortunately suffered from schizophrenia. I am half worried and half happy about this disease. Although it is annoying most of the time, occasionally, it can still give me some friends who are easy to get along with, such as Murong Fu and the middle-aged scholar.

There are also annoying things like the evil young man who is about to become the Fire Cloud Evil God.

But. 'I' am Li Yun.

Before I came, he was also Li Yun, a man who had a dream of becoming an actor and almost starved to death in Hengdian.

Well, this point is consistent with me. We are all screws in the drift of Hengpiao and Beijingpiao.

What kind of person is he ?

An orphan living in an orphanage.

"So thin." Li Yun lifted up his clothes. Next to him was the mirror of the welfare home.

It turned out to be before Constitution +10.

I've been this thin since I was a child.

"I'm hungry and want to eat meat."

"You still want to eat meat. It's good enough that I let you eat."

The nurse in charge of Li Yun threw a big steamed bun to Li Yun.

I don't like steamed buns.

Because when I was a child, I ate steamed buns for every meal. I was hungry and full at one meal.

But Li Yun didn't hate them.

After all, it's a welfare home and a government agency, and it's good enough that they keep you alive.

"Your mother left you here."

"My mom. It turns out I have a mom."

Yes, how could I be born without a mother?

Li Yun recalled the song. [Night Sky Sea Night Sky Sea.]

Oh, this song, my mom has also sung it.

Mom said.

When she was playing this song on the radio on campus, he came over and said, "You listen to such an old song?"

'Aren't old songs good?'

The mother's figure is actually very vague.

At least.

For Li Yun now, when memories and dreams cut into her face, it is a mosaic. She is a very quiet woman who likes to recite poetry, read books and listen to classical music from the last century.

I can only feel that kind of tenderness from afar. A strange tenderness. "Mom."

"Where's Dad?"

"I lied to you before. Your father is not dead."

"Your father is in the film industry, and he's a very capable man."

"Then why doesn't he come to pick us up?"

"There's a huge gap between our family backgrounds. He couldn't defeat our parents, so he had to leave us. Don't blame him. He had no choice."

I didn't have fatherly love to begin with, and later my mother died of illness.

I grew up in an orphanage until I was 18 years old.

I didn’t even finish vocational high school, I already went out to work Occasionally when I see other people’s happy families, I always think that the happiness of parents holding their children’s hands and shopping together is not mine Because my mother once said

My father is in the film industry.

So, I also want to make a TV series.

So, I went to Hengcheng. I was empty.

The body is empty, the soul is empty, and the future is empty. But I have my own obsession with acting. I have to act even if I starve to death. I must act to "survive"

Li Yun stabbed the dagger into the beggar's chest.

The old beggar looked at Li Yun calmly. He recognized the little beggar. He was the one he had once been kind to... the one who had shown him kindness, but in the end, he pointed the knife at himself.

This is such an irony.

It was originally an ironic thing.

However, the old beggar's eyes were extremely calm.

This made Li Yun's initial sense of guilt even stronger.

Yes, it's guilt.

He had clearly saved me and given me a bowl of porridge, which prevented me from dying yesterday and allowed me to live until now.

But now, in order to stay alive, I stabbed the knife into his body.

He didn't even resist.

Come on, scold me.

Hit me now.

Come on, I'm nothing, I'm trash.

You can hit me, scold me, insult me, whatever you want, because I did such a despicable thing just to survive.

But the old man in front of him did not do so.

He just said it calmly.

"Survive."

at this time.

Li Yun also didn't see the old beggar have any hope for life in this world. Even being killed was so calm in his eyes.

There is no mistake in the poem, post, content, and read the book on 6, 9, and bar!

Li Yun couldn't see any light.

The perception of this world is all dark and gloomy, full of lights and feasting.

Even the act of 'being alive' does not belong to him. It does not belong to someone like him.

"Hahahaha! I said he would definitely kill people. Poor people like this, if you give them a little bit of benefit, they will kill or burn for you, hahaha."

"You really understand the poor, Boss Liu."

"Ha ha ha ha."

A piece of muddy beef was thrown in front of him, covered with black mud.

steak.

Smells so good.

It smells really good!

Even if it's steak covered in stinky water.

It still smells good.

"Survive."

"You are not a child without parents, it's just that mommy can no longer watch you grow up, I'm really sorry"

"In the orphanage, you must listen to the elders and teachers. You must study hard and live well. Even if I am not by your side, I am still here, in your memories."

Next to the bed in the ward.

The mother's gentle hands caressed Li Yun's face, and the warm feeling became more real.

There was also the pungent smell of medicine, which was also very real . Very real. That feeling, in Li Yun's body, very real, emerged the feeling of "I" really wanting to win back my mother.

But I was powerless and could only watch it all happen.

Her last wish was to keep herself alive.

From then on, I was alone. I felt lonely and isolated.

Li Yun felt uncomfortable, itchy, and even empty. The boy joined the gang naturally .

Maybe the Axe Gang or the Hammerhead Gang.

No matter what, in this place, if the poor want to survive, they can only become tools of the rich.

Whether it's providing entertainment.

Or do some dirty things.

But it is always a kind of being needed, just like a stinky toad.

Live on shamelessly.

Struggling to survive When the boy was able to stab the old man who helped him.

He is already dead.

I dare to fight and fight.

Dare to fight others with knives.

For a steak. A good steak. As long as I kill someone.

I can get steak. I can't just eat leftovers and stinky porridge. I can also get steak!

I. I. As long as I kill people, I hone my killing skills, I kill people, kill people, and become the ultimate killer. I will have countless steaks to eat . When Li Yun wakes up.

It's already late at night.

“I had a dream”

I dreamed that I became the young Fire Cloud Evil God.

I also dreamed about my own childhood.

The painful memories made Li Yun burst into tears . But soon, "This pain, this empty feeling, yes, that's right, mix his feelings into the 'Fire Cloud Evil God'. I can really feel it."

Li Yun felt like there was something wrong with his brain.

When memories of physical pain surface.

The first reaction was to make him the nourishment of the 'Fire Cloud Evil God'.

Let him help me act But no matter what, Li Yun was trying to recall the feeling in the dream just now.

Whether it is a teenager in a cannibalistic society.

I am still the same "me" who has no relatives and no one to rely on.

Mix them together.

Put them together. Confuse. Merge . Now.

Li Yun felt his mind was fuzzy, like paste. But that feeling brought him an incomparable and indescribable pleasure. He maintained this painful and fuzzy feeling.

When Li Yun came to Jenny's room on the third floor of "Pig Cage City", there was a mirror. It was also the dressing room for the entire crew.

Mirror at 12 o'clock at night Li Yun looked at himself in the mirror.

Repeatedly said.

"Either I beat the two of you to death, or you beat me to death."

When the memories of 'Fire Cloud Evil God' and 'my' pain were mixed together.

Put on a smile that was crazier than the pain.

I actually used my own painful trauma to act out my own drama——

I must be crazy.

[Today's host's mental state is judged to be: Dangerous! ]

[Does the host need this system to be temporarily blocked? ]

"Need not."

“That’s good.”

“That’s good.”

At this moment, Li Yun grabbed the mirror, widened his eyes, and looked at himself in the mirror.

"Either I beat the two of you to death, or you beat me to death."

"Either I beat the two of you to death, or you beat me to death!!!"

"Either I beat the two of you to death, or you beat me to death!!"

'Pig Cage City' at night. Li Yun's voice echoed in this man-made slum.

(End of this chapter)