Chapter 149: A Moment of Beauty

Gao Yuanyuan said goodbye to Li Yun, as she also had to go to film a scene.

The relationship between the two still remains at the level of tacit understanding.

after all.

My name is Li Yun.

I am not 'Song Qingshu'. Even if I am no different from 'Song Qingshu' physically, but mentally, Song Qingshu is long gone. Li Yun can tell the difference. I can't give her the dream of that infatuated senior brother on Mount Wudang. What she can't tell is Zhou Zhiruo and Gao Yuanyuan.

However, the relationship did not return to the beginning and remained at the level of colleagues.

She said.

If we have time, we can occasionally go out for a drink.

After drinking, I can also see you.

Li Yun said.

OK.

when.

When I want to see Senior Brother Qingshu.

Just come to me. At this time, Gao Yuanyuan said with a smile.

"Thank you"

"Need not."

When Gao Yuanyuan turned around and left, she was also a little confused. Was it Song Qingshu that I wanted to see ?

Li Yun was walking on the street, trying to find a cigarette to smoke.

Li Yun had the habit of smoking in his previous life, but he quit in this life.

After all, smoking is harmful to your body and your skin.

"Boss, give me a pack of Double Happiness"

"Five dollars."

"Okay."

“The prices here are really different from those in later times.”

Li Yun looked at the Hongshuangxi cigarettes in his hand. In later generations, the price of this cigarette would rise to 20 yuan, but now it is still only five yuan.

Smoke a cigarette, have some wine, and live a happy life. Then play a game, use the computer, read a comic, and catch up on Wen Riliang's "The God of War".

It seems like this guy's comic is almost finished.

Then I went to review and audition for the role of Lord Erlang.

The feeling of Erlang Shen is taken from the middle-aged scholar.

Find the feeling from this personality that occasionally chats with me Li Yun understands Erlang Xiansheng Zhenjun, a noble god. He is gentle and elegant, but also cold and ruthless He also has a kind of high divinity, and also has a place to connect with people.

Among the characters composed of these, Li Yun feels that the most important thing is actually his divinity and the humanity wrapped in his divinity.

That kind of superior attitude and temperament.

To perform the feeling of 'God'.

But the Erlang Shen in "The Lotus Lantern" is contradictory. He has divinity, but he also has a human-driven side. This is also the most interesting part.

In fact, Erlang Shen was not perfect at the beginning. He was also fighting. A fight from beginning to end. A fight with himself.

at this time.

Li Yun wanted to start from the perspective of a 'god man'. It just so happened that the biggest feature of this middle-aged scholar was his divinity, which seemed to be beyond the mortal world. After deciding the direction of the audition, Li Yun returned home and planned to wash up. When he was washing up in front of the mirror.

Li Yun looked at himself in the mirror.

It's 'Nie Ren Wang'.

Blink and close your eyes.

It became "Song Qingshu" again.

Then he became Cao Zhengchun, and then he became the Fire Cloud Evil God. "Didn't they say that my mental resistance was +5? Did they just throw these 5 points into the dog's stomach?"

Li Yun looked at the changes in his appearance and temperament in the mirror.

I had hallucinations.

There has been a change.

If it were anyone else, they would definitely collapse, go crazy, take medicine, and become depressed.

But Li Yun just wondered if the system was not powerful enough and whether he could incorporate this feeling into his acting.

However, Li Yun still felt that he had not yet encountered such a truly crazy acting skill. "Well, remember this feeling, and you will be able to use it for the next time."

Li Yun looked at the thousands of changes in the mirror with a cold brow, without any fluctuation.

Until the person in the mirror becomes 'myself'.

wrong.

Not 'me'.

But it was Li Yun.

Li Yun, who was abandoned by his family and thrown into an orphanage, eventually lost his mother and didn't even know the identity of his living father.

"The people who loved me are gone. I have nothing. I have lost everything. I don't want to live anymore. I wear a mask and no one expects me to live. I don't even know if I can live the way anyone expects me to live."

"We are all the same, we are all alone, no one cares about you, what they like and care about is the mask you wear, not you"

In the mirror, the childhood Li Yun was expressing his feelings with his young face.

Li Yun watched the release of memories like a bystander.

The world is grey.

It's gray.

is empty.

To him, this is how the world is.

And still unwilling.

The people who should love him don't love him.

People who shouldn't have left left him.

Alone.

There are so many misfortunes in the world. When a grain of dust falls on your shoulder, you will know how heavy it is. Although Li Yun can watch the memories of this body, his past, and everything about him with a cold eye, and although he can empathize and get close to his bones and soul, I am ultimately the one who traveled through time and space because of an unlucky disease.

I can relate.

But 'I' is definitely just 'I'.

certainly.

There was nothing wrong in what he said, the one thing that made fun of himself.

There is no mistake in the poem, post, content, and read the book on 6, 9, and bar!

Love, this thing, only appears when you are wearing a mask.

They only like the roles, or they like themselves who can play other roles.

Even with Jiang Chenggang, didn't he become friends with me because of my acting talent? Otherwise, it would still be the relationship between fellow villagers, and the relationship between a group leader and extras.

This kind of sorrow.

It still exists It is still there So much so that I can’t tell the difference between the person in the mirror, his changes, and the roles I have become.

Characters loved by people Thinking of this, Li Yun wanted to smoke.

Just at this moment.

Suddenly the sound of QQ rang, a beeping sound.

Li Yun looked at the clock hanging on the wall. It was already 11:11 pm.

QQ in this era still has some integrity. At least it doesn't pop up random ads to harass people. If it rings at such a time, it must be someone's problem.

It's very late now.

Who else would send a message? Li Yun was a little confused and got up and went back to his computer.

But when I saw it, I was stunned. That cat cartoon avatar.

It was a message from Liu Xixi. "Brother Li, Brother Li! Would you like to join us on New Year's Eve this year? I have fireworks to watch. I've been studying and practicing martial arts for the past two months, so I haven't had time to use the computer. (*^-^)."

Brother Li At this time.

Li Yun sent a message back.

"Okay!!!~ (Cat Head) Then why don't we go buy the fireworks ourselves? It will definitely feel better to set them off ourselves than to watch others do it."

"Oh, can I?"

For Liu Xixi, secretly making an appointment with others to watch fireworks was already forbidden by her mother, let alone setting off fireworks. At this time, the girl wrapped in teddy bear pajamas was even a little hesitant.

Until Li Yun continued.

"Sure. I'm a reliable adult. I can buy fireworks."

"(Uh-huh)!!"

In this era, fireworks have not been banned and can be seen and set off everywhere - of course, you can't cause trouble, because if you do, you will be held accountable.

Although with the development of the times, this thing will still be swept into the corner.

But at least, now you can experience this moment of beauty and bloom it with your own hands.

Yes, you can.

See you again I accepted Liu Xixi's invitation to set off fireworks together.

Li Yun turned around again, and the world in front of him was different. Everything in his field of vision had turned back into colorful tones, and the originally gray bathroom had become somewhat colorful.

The Fire Cloud Evil God, Cao Zhengchun, and Song Qingshu no longer appeared in the mirror. There was only me.

Only Li Yun.

Li Yun was stunned Then he smiled The cigarettes that were originally used to relieve my sorrow were thrown into the trash can... Well, they can't be wasted. Anyway, they can be returned if they are unopened.

But it’s only five dollars!

"Cigarettes are harmful to people, so you should continue to quit smoking. Go to sleep and prepare for the audition of Erlang Shen. You have to continue to treat your illness and continue to develop."

On the second day, Li Yun slept in for a long time. He had not slept well in the past few days. Today, he had not exercised for a long time and slept for a long time.

Li Yun made preparations to audition for the role of Erlang Shen, the God of War in The Lotus Lantern. The audition took place in the capital.

The benefits of being in Beijing are really tangible. Many crews hold auditions in Beijing. For example, "The Lotus Lantern" is a work of the central government, so the audition location is definitely in Beijing.

At this time, Li Yun continued to look at the mirror. There was only his handsome face in the mirror, but he still murmured.

"I know I am being influenced by you. I love beef and steamed buns. But I am not afraid of you. I will only continue to use you in my acting career. When I send you away, I will remember that I am Li Yun."

"besides."

"If you are obsessed with who your biological father is, then I think I will help you keep an eye out if I have time. After all, we are in this entertainment industry. If he is a movie star, then we will eventually meet him. The industry is so small, and there are only so many people in the entire entertainment industry. Of course, if your father is a flop in the movie industry, then I have nothing to say."

"You became an actor and a Hengpiao artist, perhaps to find your father, to be closer to your family, and to get his approval. This is not a wrong thing. It is definitely not wrong to desire the approval of your family. But there is one thing I have to make clear to you."

"My obsession with being an actor is that I want to become a brilliant actor with many faces. I want to cure my illness and get better. I want to reach the peak of my life. I want to meet more people and better people. I don't have any other obsession with your non-existent family affection."

Li Yun still solemnly distinguished the difference between "I" and "I": how I lived, how I died, how I traveled through time, and how I realized my dreams.

These are all in the deep memory, in the memory of the living 'me'.

"I can help you, but that's just helping you."

Then Li Yun turned and left . Not long after leaving the bathroom, he turned back and looked at the mirror.

"If he is really the bad guy I think he is, I will help you punch him if I have the chance."

"I don't have any psychological burden. After all, he is your father, not mine."

(End of this chapter)