Chapter 242, Psychosis



Chapter 242, Neurosis

At this time.

When you feel that your achievements have reached a new level.

The condition gradually 'worsened'? It can't be said to be worsened. It's just that more personalities appeared at the same time. This feeling to Li Yun was like if a drama required one person to play two roles.

I can definitely do it.

It holds two feelings at once. Kind of crazy.

But Li Yun still had some restlessness. "This time it has nothing to do with you businessmen. This time I want to use you, you despicable villain."

"Brother, how could I be a despicable person?"

The 'merchant' looked at Li Yun bitterly.

The mercenary and smooth appearance actually reveals a bit of evil . The evil appearance is the appearance of this "businessman" at this moment. The emotions revealed bit by bit.

Hey society In this mixed-up Bolan Street, it is no longer there.

But the gray industry is still there, just like the young lady just now, they are still looking for a job here. In the cracks and crevices of this society, they are looking for their own reason for survival. "Brother, you see, it is so difficult for us low-level people to get ahead. Look at her, look at her, him, him, him. What future can they have here? There is none. Either I bully others, or others bully me. If I don't join a gang, what can I do? If I don't hang out with them, who can I hang out with? Don't be so noble. Your nobility is useless. Being noble will only make you get bullied on this street. You will only be beaten to death."

The 'merchant' seemed to be looking at this familiar street in his own mind.

Explain it in a matter-of-fact way.

The chattering seemed to be stretched countless times. Li Yun felt a little tinnitus because of the "Bolan Street" in front of him.

It started to change, becoming like the 1980s.

Become more dilapidated.

And I became shorter.

I was born on Bowl Lane, the most chaotic, lowest, and most mixed street in Hong Kong. There were vendors selling fish balls, prostitutes, and illegal drugs. On this street, there was everything dark and gloomy that the dark world had. What kind of person was my mother? It was very common for someone born on this street to be without a father or a mother.

In the brothel, no one knew who the father was, and the mother had already died of illness.

Li Yun felt like he had turned into a child, thin and weak.

Wearing shoes with holes in them.

There are mud puddles everywhere.

They are all deep pits . It is better to die than to live like this - Li Yun thought.

Like a piece of trash coming into this world.

The rice at Potlan Street is not that delicious.

At least, Li Yun felt that he had to eat from prostitutes, gangsters, hawkers, and vendors.

This is quite difficult. "Hey, Zhanmizai, help me take this package to that uncle, and I will buy you some candy." The smoking elder sister gave Li Yun a pack of cigarettes.

What's in this cigarette box?

You know it without even thinking about it.

But Li Yun still had to do it.

Because if I don’t do this, I won’t even get candy. If I don’t do this, I’ll be ostracized by the people on this street, and if I’m ostracized, I won’t be able to survive. I’ll be deprived of the right to survive.

Faced with conscience and survival, even if Li Yun is disgusted, he can only choose to live selfishly.

Nothing is more important than surviving. When I don’t even have the right to survive, I have no right to choose dignity.

But the moment I took the 'cigarette box' in my hand.

I've already been destined to have one foot in the dark side of this society . I turned around and took him away with trembling hands.

And the laughter of the 'adults'.

They laughed, their laughter was shrill, laughing at how a little 'Jimmy' like me was such cheap labor that I could be used like a dog with just an expired candy.

Beating, exploitation, and even worse things... For a teenager living on this street.

It's been numb.

Dignity is worthless in the face of survival. Finally.

Li Yun still became a "fish ball boy".

He is also the most pitiful and the lowest class fish ball seller in Potlan Street.

Only Jimmy knew that for a man like him, becoming Yudanzai was something he had to do with all his strength.

This is something that can only be done carefully if you live to this time.

Very tired.

Very tired.

I have tried very hard.

But for Jimmy, who is alone, having a fish ball cart is enough to satisfy him. At least, if he has a fish ball cart.

Able to support oneself.

Maybe, I can walk out of Bowling Street and see the outside world. That world that makes people yearn for, yet somewhat unfamiliar.

"Very good"

Li Yun felt that he had gained unprecedented satisfaction. He had his own cart and finally no longer had to live in fear of death . The feeling of being forced to do bad things was not the most terrifying thing.

Instead, I have to do it, even get used to it, and even become numb to it. At least now, I don’t have to force myself to do it, right?

Occasionally, Li Yun would see accountants, lawyers, and doctors in suits coming to buy fish balls.

That's great. If I had the opportunity to study, I would also like to become a 'decent person' like them.

Live a decent life, don’t be servile, live with your head held high, and live with the respect of everyone.

Reality is like a slap in the face, shattering hope.

To become a fishball, you need permission even to have enough food and clothing. But the gang will not allow a person without gang membership to be in it.

You are not allowed to set up your place on this turf.

I confiscated it.

The wheelbarrow I depended on for survival was also gone. Fate played a powerful irony and joke on me. A very vicious joke.

Even Li Yun himself felt it was very vicious . I was born in the mud.

Back into the mud.

Finally, I had no choice but to give in. "If people like us want to live like human beings, we have to oppress others and exploit others. Joining a gang is my only chance to live like a human being. I have no choice, even if I have to lose my conscience. Do you think they don't want to study? They want to sell sex, they want to. I am in my teens, and I want to run around in school, not be taken in bed by perverted clients."

The 'merchant's' eyes seemed to be filled with a hint of fatigue.

But in the end he said it grimly.

There is no mistake in the poem, post, content, and read the book on 6-9!

"I have no choice, but I don't want my children to have no choice. I choose to join the society in order to survive. In order to survive, I also want to live a glorious life. I don't want to live on my knees! I don't want my children to have to sell fish balls or do valet parking after they are born. No, absolutely not. I want them to work in offices, live in high-rise buildings, and buy pineapple buns and milk tea during afternoon tea time. I don't want him to be like me."

"I don't want to go anywhere where everyone looks at me with contempt, like I'm trash. I can be trash in the mud, but my son can't be, and I don't want to be either."

"In order to achieve this goal, I will do whatever it takes. I really will do whatever it takes. Kill as many people as you want! Betray as many people as you want. I can do it, even if it means chopping people into pieces and feeding them to dogs. I can do it."

at this time.

The old street of Bolan in front of him returned to its original appearance, and the 'merchant' revealed his true face in front of Li Yun.

Not selfish and greedy.

Not being cautious.

The deeper meaning of "Jamie" is fierceness . If you climb out of the mud from the bottom, you are not greedy, fierce, or selfish.

There would be no 'Jami' as we know it today.

Because of selfishness and greed.

I am just selfish and greedy. I want to have more. I want to have more things that I, a 'Jimmy', am not qualified to have.

There is no such person as Jimi now, who even completed CPA by self-study.

On the basis of 'selfish' character.

Added 'Vicious'.

Even Li Yun himself has some personality traits.

A fierce person who is cruel to himself, who even defeated his own fear for the sake of his obsessive purpose [Character: Jimmy]

[Send-away Reward: Temperament Disguise +10]

【CPA Certified Public Accountant Capabilities】

[Who would have thought that a gangster from a low-level gang could eventually get a certified public accountant certificate? But even so, he still has to pay the price for the choice he made back then]

at this time.

Li Yun walked out of Bolan Old Street again.

"Boss, do you want to play? This is a new office lady. Oh my god, is it the psychopath just now?"

Amidst the neon lights, there was a young and beautiful girl wearing a cheap OL uniform.

After seeing that it was Li Yun.

I was shocked. The psychopath who was talking to himself just now? The crazy guy?

at this time.

Li Yun suddenly approached, and the young lady stepped back and spoke with a trembling voice.

"Little brother, I don't want to do business with you."

"No, what I meant is that you dropped your book."

Li Yun looked at the girl.

Then the girl looked carefully and saw that the book had fallen. Then she picked it up. It was a book teaching painting .

When she met Li Yun's eyes, the girl suddenly asked, " Should I say thank you? " However, Li Yun turned and left. "What's wrong? Did you say you met a psychopath?"

At this time, the gangster who was in charge of guarding the place came over and asked the girl.

The girl didn't know what to say.

"Well, I don't know." At this moment, the girl thought of the handsome young man's eyes just now and said with some contradiction: "Maybe I saw it wrong."

"I think you are more like a psychopath. You read a book while serving customers. Do you really think you are a student girl, nosy woman?" At this time, the gangster mocked the girl and said, "Don't be lazy. I will bring you a big customer."

Then he turned and left.

Only the girls were left here.

At this time, the girl murmured.

Yeah, is he crazy?

If someone looks at you as a normal person, then he must be a psychopath.

(End of this chapter)


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