Chapter 292, Can't tell

A middle-aged man.

A middle-aged man with no special skills or background, with elderly parents and young children to take care of. He has an old mother in her 70s and a little girl who is crying for food.

Waiting to eat, waiting to open the pot.

Otherwise you will feel hungry.

Wow, this middle-aged state.

It’s quite classic indeed.

Li Yun was very clearly aware of the changes in himself.

I became a middle-aged man with elderly parents and young children.

Hair loss and insomnia have become my lingering problems.

My growing belly and fatter figure are telling me that I am no longer young.

People will grow old.

When aging gradually creeps up on the body, people will feel powerless and fearful.

The same is true for Li Yun. When he feels that he is old, many things lose their meaning.

People will become numb.

"It turns out that I will get old one day." Li Yun laughed at himself at this time. It was really a bit strange to experience the feeling of mid-life crisis in advance.

I am still a young student in the prime of my youth.

But he is bound in an old body.

It turns out that this is what aging feels like. You lose a lot of things, your courage and drive, and your body and mind are all controlled by stress.

oppression.

As a middle-aged man with elderly parents and young children, Li Yun now faces a choice, which is definitely not a good choice: get laid off.

Then you need to work to support the children and parents.

Faced with such a situation, I am helpless and this is the best choice I can make at this time.

Just find a good job.

No matter what, the most important thing is to support my family, fortunately.

Fortunately, there is still a way out in my hometown.

A way to keep myself and my family alive.

There was a school there, and my job was to be a teacher there, an art teacher.

But to get into this school, you need a small gift, so I spent most of my savings to buy this place.

He even owed a large sum of money.

But think about it carefully, if you can earn it back in 20 years.

That's not bad either.

School for special children.

It's a full-time school and there's no teaching pressure. It's even a bit relaxing because you don't have to achieve any results, just get by.

That's all.

That will be enough.

Deaf and mute children cannot fully express their thoughts.

Maybe this is an easy job.

Not too much pressure, with a stable salary and able to support a family.

That's enough.

That's enough.

The gentle and elegant-looking principal, the life teacher, the class teacher, me, and a security guard.

The elders who make up this school.

"It would be nice if I could just live my life like this."

“Then there was the scene where I discovered the children were being molested.”

“I should be angry here.”

"Yes, I should be angry."

Li Yun was here, talking to himself, everything happened within the scope of his own thoughts. Anger was an expression of 'should'.

I will do what I should do.

At this time, Li Yun was wandering around this huge school. Although the school was so big and so empty, there were basically not many students.

"Teacher Liu, this is the class we are going to teach. There are not many people in the school, so please be tolerant."

The principal was a very polite person, so polite that Li Yun even felt a little at a loss.

"OK."

In this period of life.

Li Yun doesn't even spend much time in school, but instead spends more time at home.

A small house in the county town is occupied by an old mother who is not in good health but can still support herself, and a daughter. A single father and a daughter.

Life doesn't seem to be easy to maintain.

During this period, Li Yun spent most of his time living with his family. To be honest, Li Yun has become accustomed to this rhythm.

What is happiness as a middle-aged man?

Happiness is probably.

There is a family and a daughter.

Have a bite to eat and be healthy.

To be honest, Li Yun didn't expect that this period of immersion would be so enjoyable. After all, he was a man without a mother and no daughter.

Alone.

There is no such thing as family; it's just a bunch of illusions.

But even if it was just a dream, Li Yun had a kind of happiness that was hard to conceal. To be honest, that emotion called happiness was really addictive.

I am deeply trapped in it and cannot extricate myself.

Happiness is what you indulge in right here, right now.

A warm hug from my daughter is unforgettable.

It's hard to give up.

The daily family affairs lasted for a long time.

Li Yun is finally going to start working at that school.

Faced with a group of special children, they are very unfortunate, with congenital or acquired diseases that make them unable to speak, unable to hear, and they are marginalized people with various mental tendencies.

You are here, Teacher Liu.

The principal showed Li Yun his gentlest smile.

He is very nice to all the teachers in school and is usually gentle and kind.

Li Yun had an illusion for a while.

Maybe this principal is not as bad as imagined.

That’s what I originally thought.

Although the students all have their own defects, when the deaf and mute students say hello, teacher in sign language, Li Yun still feels that he has the responsibility as a teacher.

I became their teacher.

Life is just like this. Being a teacher may be a bit boring.

This is especially true when you are a teacher of these special children.

Until the vibrations coming from the bathroom, the silent sobs, and the fear in the students' eyes when they saw the principal.

The first time I came here.

Li Yun suddenly became furious.

Because those voices are so real.

I have a daughter too!

When I think of the innocent smiling faces of those students.

Thinking of them and my daughter’s age.

But when you have to suffer this kind of treatment.

The feeling of anger is difficult to suppress.

There is no mistake in the poem, post, content, and read the book on 6, 9, and bar!

The blood is boiling.

When halfway through the rush.

When I saw the principal's back.

Li Yun was stunned.

I was really stunned.

I also have a daughter. As a father, how can I bear to see such a situation happening in front of me, such a silent sin.

Yes, I can't bear it.

I want to rush in, I want to stop this atrocity from happening, I want to face my conscience!

But my steps froze involuntarily.

Yes, I have a daughter.

He could lay me off again at any time.

I am laid off, what should I do with my mother? What should I do with my daughter? At this time, I had my back to the principal, and the corresponding position was that of the little girl facing Li Yun.

The little girl in front of him couldn't speak or hear anything.

Her eyes said it.

Save me, save me quickly.

Please save me.

"What happened to Dad?"

"Yes, son, what's wrong with you?"

"What's wrong with me?"

This time after get off work.

Li Yun returned to his home in a daze, and the delicious meal prepared by his mother tasted like chewing wax.

Everything that happened during the day is still vivid in my mind. She clearly asked me for help and she clearly wanted me to save her so much.

But I did not respond to his expectations.

And the reasons are very real.

No, I have my own daughter.

I have to support my family.

I couldn't lose this job. How could I fight him alone in this small city where he was so entrenched? There would be no good outcome for me if I went against him.

What right do I have to go against him?

Yes, Li Yun was scared. He had to choose between his conscience and morality to support his family.

It turns out this is such a difficult thing to do.

It's really difficult.

"Damn it, damn it, damn it! What does other people's affairs have to do with me, Li Yun? I have my own daughter and my own mother. To get by is to have a background, not to be passionate. You are already middle-aged, don't you understand?"

Li Yun was still hypnotizing himself.

Paralyzed by the choices you made.

However, starting from today, when Li Yun stepped into the school, his mood was no longer the same as before.

Unlike usual times, I can put on a hypocritical smile and greet colleagues and the principal with whom I don’t have such a good relationship.

The principal has connections with people in the local education department.

Still a local.

Still a local tyrant.

"You are very good." The principal looked at Li Yun gently with a friendly expression.

Maybe it was because of yesterday.

He has actually discovered Li Yun.

But he did not expose his own dirty deeds.

Perhaps it was because they were considered to be of the same kind, that kind of intimate closeness made Li Yun feel nauseous and want to vomit.

Very disgusting.

This school is like hell. No matter how hypocritical a person is, he would feel sick and want to vomit after experiencing a scene like yesterday.

Because most people are normal.

There is no way to face all this openly.

But Li Yun still chose to remain silent.

This is selfish and also a torture to oneself.

Most people don't have the courage.

What's more, I have a family to support.

There is no way to do it.

Then when I went to class, facing yesterday's students and their numb eyes, I thought of her saying hello, teacher in sign language.

Li Yun lay down and had a dream.

Even Li Yun himself felt it was incredible. It turned out that I could sleep here. So is this world real or fake?

Li Yun didn't know, because everything was too real.

I don’t even know if the dream I’m having is a dream or not.

In the dream, the evil principal reached out his hand to his daughter.

No, no.

Li Yun was roaring, but the principal seemed not to hear him, and only the sound of his daughter crying was left.

At this moment, Li Yun felt like he was going crazy.

Am I dreaming? If not, where is this place? Is this a dream? Which reality is real?

By the way, I am actor Li Yun.

It’s still teacher Li Yun.

I can't tell the difference.

(End of this chapter)