Chapter 136
"You're not stuck abroad during your exchange. You can take time off to come back when your child is born. If that's not possible, you can go first and then apply for a partial course extension or complete it early. It's all possible. Don't waste such a good opportunity."
But he still thanked her politely and shook his head firmly.
Jiang Zhinian was puzzled: "Why?"
This is already the best arrangement. In this world, they are not the only ones facing such choices and dilemmas. A temporary separation is for a better future.
She thought of the sad youth novels she had read before, in which the male protagonist gave up the last big question in the college entrance examination for the female protagonist, so that he could go to the same university as her and the two of them could be together all the time.
She thought it was ridiculous after reading it.
It is obvious that if the male protagonist went to a better university, the two of them would have a better future. Life is not just about the short four years of college, and life is not just about love without self-achievement.
Facts have proved that every male protagonist who makes a wrong choice will regret it afterwards, and his relationship with the heroine will be affected. In the end, both of them can't let go and can't talk it out, so they can only break up.
She never expected that one day the same choice would happen to her, but she didn't want to end up like this with Shi Ye.
Shi Ye didn't understand why Jiang Zhinian reacted so strongly. He answered according to his own assumptions: "This is my responsibility. I must bear the consequences of the choices I made. Even if I have to make some sacrifices, it's worth it."
What Jiang Zhinian feared most now was the word "give up", just as she was clearly aware that Shi Ye did not understand her fear and terror.
He was just explaining the reason for his choice at this moment, but Jiang Zhinian was afraid that one day in the future, he would feel bad about the choice he made at this moment. He might not regret it, but it would hurt his heart. Maybe on a drunken night, he would wonder what his life would be like if he had made a different choice.
This conjecture was like a mountain pressing down on Jiang Zhinian's heart, making it hard for her to breathe. Her personality and growth trajectory destined her to be unable to accept the sacrifices of others with peace of mind, and it also made her always imagine and plan for the worst for things that had not yet happened.
Because she can't afford to lose, she is extra cautious.
But unfortunately, Shi Ye couldn't understand why Jiang Zhinian just couldn't believe that he really wouldn't regret this.
Things have reached a dead end.
Jiang Zhinian didn't want to waste Shi Ye's time, so he nodded and said, "I understand... Well, if there is a next time..."
She was stuck. Yes, if there was a next time, would Shi Ye make the same choice? After seeing Liu Ziming's sarcasm and ridicule, and the smug look on his face, would he still give up something without hesitation and think it was worth it?
She took a deep breath, and looked up at Shi Ye with red eyes: "If there is such an opportunity next time, I hope you will not consider me and just do what you really want to do. You know, when I first knew about this child, I considered becoming a single mother because I didn't want to drag you down because of my choice. So even if you have to leave us for a while because of work, I can totally accept it."
She has winter and summer vacations, and can also take maternity leave. If all else fails, she can bring her child to see Shi Ye. It will be the same. It will only be a short separation...
"But I don't accept it." Shi Ye's tone became a little cold and stiff, but he quickly realized this and tried his best to adjust.
He took a deep breath, thought for a moment and was about to say something when suddenly a girl ran out from the corridor behind them, lowered her head and bumped into Shi Ye's back in panic.
Shi Ye groaned, holding Jiang Zhinian and retreating to the side, only to see a very young girl lying on the ground. She didn't know where she fell, her face was pale, and she seemed unable to get up.
Shi Ye lowered his head and saw the hospital gown wrapped under her coat.
"Which one are you..."
The girl realized something, gritted her teeth, got up, and staggered away.
Shi Ye temporarily let go of Jiang Zhinian and asked her to wait aside. He then grabbed the girl's arm and said, "You can't leave."
The girl hurriedly dodged Shi Ye's arm, her legs softened and she fell to the ground again. Jiang Zhinian noticed that the girl's pants were stained with blood and exclaimed, "Don't move, you're bleeding."
The girl was obviously frightened by the blood beneath her. She clutched her stomach and cried, "Help, help me..."
Shi Ye frowned and looked at Jiang Zhinian: "Stand aside and don't come near. I'll go find someone."
If a patient has unexplained bleeding, it is best to use a transfer bed for safety. After instructing Jiang Zhinian, he turned around and ran quickly towards the emergency room.
Jiang Zhinian comforted the girl from a distance: "Lie down first and don't move. Someone will come to rescue you soon."
The girl hesitated for a moment, but still wanted to get up.
Jiang Zhinian said anxiously: "Hurry up and lie down, don't move."
The girl shook her head: "No, I have to go... Thank you, but I have no choice, I have to go, please, let me go."
"You've lost a lot of blood. If you leave now, what if..."
"It's okay, these... should be lochia." She didn't react at first and thought she was having heavy postpartum bleeding, but now she thinks that the blood she has leaked should be the lochia that will flow for a while after giving birth, so it's not a big problem.
Jiang Zhinian also realized that this girl was a pregnant woman who had just given birth to a child.
She said blankly: "What about your child...?"
The girl was stunned, and with a bit of embarrassed shame and cold determination, she said, "I can't support him. The hospital will probably send him to an orphanage."
She struggled to her feet, clutching her stomach and turning to run, but Jiang Zhinian stopped her, "Is it... a boy or a girl?"
The girl didn't expect the other party to ask this question. She paused, hesitated, turned her head and answered: "It's a girl."
"Healthy?"
"It should be... healthy..."
Jiang Zhinian wanted to say something, but her throat felt blocked. She felt that she should blame the mother for abandoning her child, but when she saw the young face in front of her, she couldn't say anything.
She was alone and had not yet prepared to be a mother. Perhaps for some other reason, she was forced to make this choice. She might not even be able to take care of herself in her life, and there was no way she could raise a child.
Jiang Zhinian couldn't blame her, she just felt sad. Tears soaked her eyes and blurred her vision, as if two time and space overlapped at this moment. She saw her mother who abandoned her that year. It should be the same as before, covering her injured and bleeding uterus that had not yet recovered, and resolutely abandoning her step by step.
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