Chapter 182
Shi Ye interrupted her explanation and said, "Is that all you want to say?"
He thought Jiang Zhinian would question him, or ask him whether he loved her or not, but she just nodded.
"Yes, that's what I wanted to ask."
"What about the others?"
"Anything else?" Jiang Zhinian was a little nervous, not knowing what else she should ask, or what else she could ask.
"Don't you want to know what's wrong with me?" Asperger's conditions, ranging from mild to severe, are very complicated, and the specific manifestations are also different. He thought Jiang Zhinian would care about this.
Jiang Zhinian only raised his head cautiously, glanced at Shi Ye, and whispered, "I know."
She had actually looked it up secretly, and it was nothing more than a problem of lack of emotion, an inability to empathize and understand human emotions. Oh, by the way, she also learned about the mechanism of S-level pheromones.
"Now that you know everything, aren't you angry? Angry that I deceived your feelings."
Shi Ye didn't know what was wrong with him. Jiang Zhinian was so considerate and digested the matter. Logically, he should be happy.
They can continue their mature way of getting along and practice his understanding of family.
Instead of forcing Jiang Zhinian into a corner like now, trying to figure out all her thoughts and true feelings.
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Jiang Zhinian lowered his head and said softly, "I understand your intimacy with me. It's to soothe my emotions and pheromones, right? I understand all that, and I don't think you're lying to me."
Come to think of it, Shi Ye never seemed to have said "love" to her, so it was certainly not a lie. He was just treating her well in his own way and wanted to build a warm and happy family with her. Everything was her wishful thinking.
"You've told me since we got married that you have no plans for a romantic relationship."
It's just that she forgot, but fortunately, she remembers it now.
Jiang Zhinian smiled again. "You said you just wanted a family, so you married me. I remember that during this period... you have always done very well. You have fulfilled your responsibilities as a husband and father to me and our children. So, in fact, you have done nothing wrong."
If she were to give Shi Ye a score, she would give him a perfect score.
Shi Ye was silent for a moment, a slightly complicated and contradictory expression on his face. After a long while, he continued, "So, what are your plans next?"
This question was actually quite revealing. According to his true feelings, he shouldn't have asked it. What if Jiang Zhinian was awakened by him and wanted to get out of her false emotions... he would have to go out in the rain.
Therefore, his question is actually a gamble. If he loses, he will lose everything, and if he wins, he will not get any extra rewards.
But he still gave up his rationality and asked.
Jiang Zhinian was also stuck on this question. She bit her lower lip lightly, raised her head, and looked at Shi Ye with a pleading look: "I really like my current life. Shi Ye, can you please not change? Let's just be responsible parents like we agreed to be and give our child a complete home, okay?"
She was very afraid that Shi Ye would choose to stay away from her because she knew his secret, which would bring earth-shaking changes to her life.
This is also the reason why she has been choosing to escape these days.
She doesn't want to change, not at all. Compared to love, her current life and the child she is about to have are what she wants most.
If the result of tracing back to the source is Shi Ye's departure, she would rather know nothing.
Shi Ye looked at Jiang Zhinian's beautiful eyes filled with tears, and a trace of inexplicable sadness flashed through his heart. He wanted to grasp that feeling, but it was like walking alone in the fog, and he couldn't find anything.
He lowered his eyes slightly, with an emotion that was almost sad, and nodded after a long time.
"If that's what you want, fine."
This was clearly the best ending, but as he looked at Jiang Zhinian's smile that had returned to her face, he couldn't tell what he was missing.
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Starting from the 34th week, Jiang Zhinian went to the hospital once a week for fetal heart monitoring.
Sitting on the sofa chair, the nurse gently lifted her clothes and tied the fetal heart monitoring device to her belly.
"Don't move or walk around during the checkup. Call me if you need any help. There's a method for counting fetal movements on the wall. Read it and learn it yourself. If you don't understand, ask me."
There were seven or eight pregnant women sitting in a room. The nurse was very busy. After giving instructions, she pulled the curtain and hurried away to deal with the problems of other pregnant women.
Jiang Zhinian sat obediently, listening to the "beep, beep" sound coming from his ears, and couldn't help but fall into his own thoughts.
Ever since she and Shi Ye had talked it out that day, the awkward feeling between them disappeared, but what followed was a sense of strangeness.
Jiang Zhinian originally thought that everything could go back to the past, but in fact, Shi Yeye was indeed treating her the same way as in the past, but it was she who felt unnatural.
She could no longer act intimately and naturally with Shi Ye as she did before. The feeling of guilt became stronger and stronger. Perhaps it was because she knew that she was not a favored child, so her words and actions always lacked a sense of justification.
She was like a snail, having finally stuck her head out, only to have it retracted.
I don’t know how long I was lost in thought before the nurse came in with a piece of paper.
"The fetal heart rate is very healthy, you can go now. Remember to count the fetal movements on time when you go back." She quickly pulled open the curtain, and Jiang Zhinian looked up and saw Shi Ye standing outside the door.
She walked out with the fetal heart rate monitoring image given by the nurse.
"Let me see."
Shi Ye took the dense and complex lines and looked at them carefully. Jiang Zhinian walked beside him, raising and lowering her hand. Shi Ye noticed her abnormality and gently held her arm.
"Be careful, it's slippery."
Jiang Zhinian said "Okay", hesitated for a moment, and then took Shi Ye's arm.
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"Teacher Xiao Jiang, the director asked me to tell you that there will be an exchange meeting at 3 pm. You should attend it with her."
"Me? Exchange meeting?"
"Yes, it seems that an international education group came to China for an inspection and wants to hold some cooperation and exchange seminars with our school. The director said you are an excellent teacher, so he brought you to participate."
Jiang Zhinian was a little surprised. After all, she was a newcomer with almost three years of work experience. It was not her turn to attend an international conference of this level.
Besides, she will be on maternity leave in two weeks. Such a good opportunity should be given to other people, why would she be asked to go?
"What are you thinking about? This is such a great opportunity, so many people want to go, you must not miss it."
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