Chapter 184: Wishful Thinking
She wanted to hurt Bai Yunshu to comfort the pain and deception in her heart, and also wanted to use this to warn Bai Yunshu not to set his sights on her again.
The dagger in her hand stabbed Bai Yunshu fiercely.
Bai Yunshu did not dodge, but maintained the posture of hugging her.
He was completely defenseless and the dagger pierced his abdomen.
“Hmm…”
Bai Yunshu's muffled groan was accompanied by the sound of cloth tearing.
In fact, when I didn’t react at first, I didn’t feel any pain.
She slowly lowered her head, looked at the dagger, and also looked at the hand holding the dagger.
Qi Ningzhu's eyes were red, as if he felt that one stab was not enough. He grabbed the dagger, pulled it out, and stabbed again.
Her sanity was long gone, and her mind was screaming to kill her.
It was as if she was back in the Demon Abyss. Every time she was ripped open, all she thought about was killing Bai Yunshu after she got out.
Now it seems like I have fulfilled my long-cherished wish in the Demon Abyss in disguise.
Blood gushed out, soon dyeing the white clothes red, and the dagger was still in her body.
"Little Ningzhu..."
Bai Yunshu called her softly, his eyes filled with confusion, incomprehension, and pain.
It would be great if I could really die in her hands. That way... it would be a form of atonement, but I won't die.
I won’t die, but it will hurt, especially now, my heart hurts so much.
When the dagger stabbed in for the second time, Qi Ningzhu was stunned at that moment, staring blankly at the dagger.
When Qi Ningzhu heard Bai Yunshu calling her, she took a deep breath to calm herself down and began to laugh with a hint of sarcasm.
"Why didn't you dodge? You could have dodged it! Why? Your cultivation level is so high! You could have dodged it. Even if you couldn't dodge the first blow, you could definitely dodge the second blow. Why?!"
"Do you think I will forgive you like this? You're dreaming! I will never forgive you, I will never forgive Tao Yiye. Your little pain is nothing compared to my 500 years!"
She said a lot. When she heard Qi Ningzhu mention her five hundred years of pain, Bai Yunshu looked at the dagger inserted into her abdomen, then slowly grasped it and pulled it out.
It was very painful when it was pulled out. The warm blood soaked her clothes and turned cold after a while.
She sucked in a breath of cold air and looked at the bright red blood on the dagger, feeling inexplicably funny.
It’s so good to still be in pain. Only in this way can I clearly feel that I am still alive...
Pain makes people sober and obsessed. Suddenly I realized that even when I took blood from my heart, it didn’t hurt as much as it does now.
She wiped it clean with her fingertips and handed it back to her.
"Little Ningzhu, don't you want to vent your anger? Come, let me clean it for you, and I will bear it."
She had a smile on her face, her pale complexion formed a sharp contrast with her crimson clothes, and her eyes were like an abyss, making people sink unconsciously.
Qi Ningzhu looked at the dagger in his hand, suddenly felt scared, and threw it aside.
Bai Yunshu's eyes...why was there still a hint of infatuation? Shouldn't she hate herself? Shouldn't she be fighting back now?
Qi Ningzhu stared at Bai Yunshu, as if trying to see a hint of regret in her eyes.
"Bai Yunshu...you are so scary."
She suddenly said a few words, but Bai Yunshu didn't say anything.
She didn't care about her own wounds and just hugged Qi Ningzhu tightly.
"Little Ningzhu, Ningzhu, disciple, little disciple, Yinhuan, little Huaner... No matter what you look like, I recognized you at first sight. I like you, very much. Can you try to like me, even just a little bit, just a little bit..."
She pleaded in a low voice, and Qi Ningzhu noticed that her warm blood had soaked through his clothes.
"Xiao Ningzhu... I'm the one who deserves to die. It's definitely me! My time now belongs to you. If you want to kill me, I won't resist, and I won't blame you..."
"I really regret not expressing my feelings to you earlier. This feeling is neither unbearable nor shameful..."
After hearing what she said, Qi Ningzhu wanted to push her away.
But she found that it was impossible.
Bai Yunshu hugged himself too tightly and kept repeating his name.
Qi Ningzhu suddenly gave up struggling and snorted coldly.
"No, I won't like you. I won't give you even a little bit of love. Everything is just your wishful thinking."
She answered very clearly and decisively. Bai Yunshu had been hugging her tightly, but after hearing her say that it was just her wishful thinking, he became helpless.
"My wishful thinking? But why did you provoke me when you were at Musheng Peak? Why did you care about everything? Why did you take care of everything? Even if it was fake before, then after spending these few days together, don't you feel the slightest bit moved?"
Bai Yunshu leaned on her shoulder, his voice very hoarse.
Qi Ningzhu suddenly laughed.
"Provoke? You're thinking too much. I would be like this to anyone. No matter who is my master, I would be so warm and kind to her. This kindness is not something that only you can have."
"Bai Yunshu, I'm telling you, if there wasn't the Gu worm, I would never have loved you. You don't deserve it. And... now that I know about the existence of the Gu worm, I can't love you either. Forget this idea. You really don't care about human ethics!"
Seeing Bai Yunshu in pain, she felt inexplicably happy for some reason and wanted to say these words to stimulate her.
"Yeah?"
Bai Yunshu's face was extremely pale. He suddenly smiled and asked her back.
She didn't like to cry, so she didn't have any tears at this time, but her heart was in pain, so much so that she couldn't breathe.
It was just like the day her master left her and told her that her fate was to die.
Confused, helpless, and even a little cold.
Qi Ningzhu did not answer her question, but just looked at her desperate eyes coldly.
Bai Yunshu suddenly staggered to his feet and slowly walked to the door.
Behind her was a trail of dripping blood.
It was so dense that it overflowed from the fingers and dyed the hands red.
She didn't even use spells or pills to repair it. Instead, she pressed harder on the wound, making the pain go an inch deeper.
This way, it is more real.
Bai Yunshu smiled indifferently.
"That's right. How could the real Xiao Ningzhu treat me like that? She wouldn't treat me like that. She was so bright and so good. She should live in my memory forever. How could you be her..."
"She would just follow me around, calling me Master all the time... Her eyes wouldn't be as red as they are now, but would be clear. She would have me in her heart and like me..."
"Ningzhu died a long time ago... she died a long time ago. She died five hundred years ago, right before my eyes. I'm going to find her. Go ahead, go ahead..."
Bai Yunshu murmured like a possessed man, and every word was filled with deep despair.
She held the door frame with one hand and covered her abdomen with the other, looked at the snow flying outside the door, and left without any reluctance.
She disappeared in the wind and snow, without even taking the umbrella she had been holding, nor asking for Qi Ningzhu, and walked away alone.
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