Deliberately taste it and extinguish the anger, forget the passion and kiss deeply to get drunk in the sunset
Qian Jianjun finished his art history class in a tangle of memories, ideals and reality. Gu Quyu did not disturb him obediently, but just lay on the table with her face tilted to the side, looking at her beloved man affectionately and greedily.
"Where are we going next?" Gu Quyu took the initiative to hold Qian Jianjun's hand and walked out of the classroom.
"Then you have free time. You can find a classroom that's not occupied to study, or go to the playground to exercise. It's up to you."
Gu Quyu glanced at the dimming sky and said, "Let's go to the playground. You've been playing basketball a lot lately, but I haven't seen you. I want to enjoy it today, but I'm afraid I won't have the chance again in the future."
"Okay, let's go to the stadium. There are sportswear in the bag. Let's go change." Qian Jianjun made sufficient preparations in advance.
They each went to the bathroom to change clothes. Qian Jianjun looked at Gu Quyu's thin back and couldn't help but called out, "Xiaoyu."
"Hmm?" Gu Quyu turned around.
"Cheer up..." Qian Jianjun hesitated, his reality still restraining him from making any more romantic promises. He lowered his voice, as if suppressing the desire that was about to overflow, and said, "This won't be the last day."
Gu Quyu smiled, her charm blossoming, more vivid and lively than beauty. Then she playfully blew a kiss. Qian Jianjun didn't respond, but accepted it.
The two of them went to the playground together, and soon Qian Jianjun joined a group of college students to play a three-on-three game.
When playing basketball with Xue Jiuyue before, Qian Jianjun had hoped to perform, but Qiu Nian and Ke Yike had more or less taken away a lot of his attention. But now, no one could steal his limelight, because he knew there were eyes following him everywhere, and he was the undisputed center stage star, bar none. Especially when facing his fellow players, this immense psychological advantage made him feel taller than them even when standing, and leaping like he was flying.
During breaks in the game, Gu Quyu would offer him a twist-off energy drink and wipe Qian Jianjun's sweat with a towel. His focused expression, a dazzling brilliance that captured all the world's descriptions of love, was captured in his eyes.
How could today be Gu Quyu's dream come true? This was clearly his own dream coming true. Qian Jianjun had almost rediscovered all his dreams from college.
The two of them scattered a shower of affection, some filled with envy, some with jealousy, and some with resentment. Qian Jianjun's smooth movements were met with numerous obstacles, his graceful movements with numerous confrontations. In his high spirits, Qian Jianjun didn't care—targeting key players was common. He quickly leaped high to grab a rebound, only to land with one foot on the flat ground.
"Ah..." Qian Jianjun fell heavily to the ground, causing Gu Quyu to exclaim.
Qian Jianjun was moved and heartbroken by the shouting. He struggled to his feet and angrily shouted at the player who had instigated the incident, "What are you doing?"
"You are not careful, why are you shouting?" The other person was tall and thin, with a wheat-colored complexion and a bit of a ruffian look.
"You..." Before Qian Jianjun could finish his sentence, the three opponents surrounded him and started talking at once, "You're not paying attention when playing basketball. What's it to others?"
"Are you here to play ball or to pick up girls? Are you the only one who knows how to show off?"
"You did this on purpose!" Qian Jianjun shouted angrily. He realized he was surrounded and alone. His teammates hadn't established a strong enough rapport with him and had already moved away.
"So what if it's intentional?"
"What do you want? Want to keep pretending? If you have the guts, do it yourself."
The three men surrounded him while provoking him. Without Lao Zhou around, Qian Jianjun felt threatened again after so many years.
"Jun, let's go!" When Gu Quyu's voice came, her delicate body had already squeezed in front of Qian Jianjun.
"Oh, a grown man relies on a woman for protection, this soft rice is really delicious."
Qian Jianjun was furious, the first insult he had endured in years. He was about to explode when a sensation as delicate as fat, as gentle as water, as sweet as honey quenched his rage. That feeling, that heartbeat, was fleeting yet felt eternal, a mere touch of the water yet weighed a thousand pounds, like a black hole, its immense gravity drawing away everything, even light.
"The video on my phone is on, and there are cameras around here. If you don't move away, these will be used as evidence by the police!" Gu Quyu ignored the gazes around her and pulled Qian Jianjun out. Her words frightened the three people and they finally did not dare to have a physical conflict.
"No, they are wrong!" Qian Jianjun, who had recovered, felt humiliated.
"Jun, I want to leave. You promised me that you would listen to me today."
Gu Quyu's gentle voice led Qian Jianjun silently out of the crowd. As the teasing and mocking continued behind him, Qian Jianjun felt a mixture of emotions. He had never been protected by a woman before, but now it was happening to him; he was competitive, but now this woman was pulling him back and letting the world unfold.
A small hill on the campus was now covered with rosy clouds, and the two sitting figures were also stretched out as if in longing.
"sorry!"
"Thank you!"
The tacit understanding of speaking at the same time made the two of them laugh easily and warmly, even the evening light was scattered.
"You speak first." Gu Quyu acted coquettishly.
Qian Jianjun didn't refuse. "Thank you for helping me out. Since I was little, I've imagined what it would be like if a girl advised me to take a step back instead of moving forward. Today I finally experienced it. How should I put it? I felt very relaxed, very grounded, very... I know this word is not appropriate, but I don't know why it came to my mind. It felt very peaceful. At that moment, an image flashed through my mind. I was a horse, lying on my side, with all four legs stretched out. And you were stroking my face."
"You are too tired. You don't have to fight for everything. It will be easier to take a step back occasionally. No matter you fight with them or not, you are a hero in my heart. I believe you can protect me, not by relying on your courage. If you can take a step back for me, I will think you are more manly in my heart, and I love you more." When he said this, Gu Quyu's face was redder than the sunset.
"Then why did you say those three words just now?"
"Without your consent..." Gu Quyu was still embarrassed to say it out loud, "I saw that you were about to explode. If you had cursed, the consequences would be disastrous. It would definitely be on the headlines tomorrow. Reporters can't distinguish right from wrong... So I just blocked your mouth..."
"Yes, tomorrow, tomorrow we will no longer be students... I really hope it will always be like this, I really hope the sunset will never set." Gu Quyu's words forced Qian Jianjun to face the reality and sigh.
"Thank you. I am very satisfied with just having this day. It will be something I will remember for the rest of my life."
"Xiaoyu, I..." Qian Jianjun didn't know how to face it. He felt bad. He didn't want to let down the beauty in front of him, but he had already let down a lot. But before he could finish, sweetness blocked his mouth again.
He was numb, hesitant, confused, compromised, and lost... The idyllic romance of this day, fueled by years of shared joy and sorrow, was now completely ignited by this tangerine romance. Nothing further needed to be taken; this pure, pure feeling was enough! All the surging emotions poured out along the intertwined paths, unending, culminating in a heart-wrenching, grueling, and unrequited love.
The curtain woven by the golden sunset was eventually eroded by time, leaving it broken and tattered. The moment they separated, Qian Jianjun's rationality flooded back into his empty body like a tide. Along with the deliberately forgotten Mei Rugu, she also appeared on Gu Quyu's similar face.
For the first time, really, I cheated.
Qian Jianjun said nothing. He began to feel sad, sob, and shrug his shoulders. Finally, he burst into tears, crying like a child. He sat there hunched over, curled up, and buried his face in his arms.
"Cry, it will be better if you cry..." Gu Quyu's weak arms powerfully hugged Qian Jianjun into her arms, and she whispered to herself: "I don't blame you, you don't have to take any responsibility, I couldn't help but kissed you. If I'm sorry, let me apologize to you this time! Consider it what I owe you, with this kiss, I have no regrets in this life. I don't blame you, I really don't blame you... If you feel tired, cry for a while, and have a good sleep when you are tired of crying. Tomorrow is a new beginning. Tomorrow is the weekend, you don't have to go to work, you can rest and find a new assistant. Xiao Chen from the human resources department can also take over first, I I told her you have a weak stomach and only drink black tea, especially Zhengshan Xiaozhong. She can hold her liquor quite well, and could stand in front of you. Silly girl, don't be so nice to every girl. Little girls always fantasize about having a hero to protect them. It's inevitable that she'll be attracted to you again, and you'll blame yourself even more. Don't I know you? You always take on all the responsibilities, is it something you owed others in your past life? Don't be so tired, relax a little. You've raised all those veterans of the group like pigs, isn't it all because of you? Silly girl, you're not everyone's shelter. It's enough for your arms to protect the ones you love most. Just have a clear conscience.
Gu Quyu's voice was low, as faint as the night, yet as lingering as dusk. Every word struck Qian Jianjun's heart, sending ripples through his consciousness. It wasn't until Gu Quyu's careless words, "a clear conscience," those four words Liu Che had first brought to Qian Jianjun, that they truly, like a morning bell, pointed Qian Jianjun in the fog.
He stopped crying, raised his head, looked at Gu Quyu with blurry tearful eyes, and said in a slightly hoarse voice: "I'm sorry, Xiaoyu. I know how good you are to me, especially in the past two days. Your feelings for me are almost irresistible to me! It's not that I don't have feelings for you..."
At this point, Qian Jianjun recalled the last time they got drunk at a food stall. "I just never thought about it in terms of a man and a woman, or maybe I've been trying to restrain myself. After all, I'm married! I don't want to hurt her, and I don't want to hurt you. I don't want to hurt anyone..."
Qian Jianjun's thoughts were still a little confused, but Gu Quyu listened quietly. "Especially since you're her cousin, this is even more hurtful! Of course, I can find a way to solve all of this, and I can ignore it. The biggest question right now is, is my heart empty? Are you in my heart just me or someone else's shadow? I need to find out, otherwise I'll be sorry for myself, and even more sorry for you! I don't want to do anything I'll regret again. I don't want to let down a girl, a good girl like you."
Gu Quyu bravely hugged Qian Jianjun again and whispered in his ear: "Don't worry, I understand you. Do what you want. A man with love and righteousness is the man I love! Hold me tight, today we are lovers, today only!"
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