Falling into infatuation and unable to save oneself, calling on old love or strong help
Cheng Qing's words startled Xue Jiuyue. "You mean he also sensed the restlessness in his heart, so he kept hypnotizing himself to strengthen the dam? What's the evidence?"
"There's no evidence, I'm just guessing!"
"Tsk, it's possible that they noticed your sexual feelings and told you!" Xue Jiuyue spoke casually and sharply to her best friends.
"It feels different, and there will be some subconscious behaviors. For example, I will unconsciously create a scene where it's just the two of us working overtime. For example, when we were having dinner that day and he came to deliver the materials, he could have just asked his assistant to deliver them."
"You mean, he's also suffering, trying hard to control his behavior, but at the same time finding reasonable excuses for himself?" Xue Jiuyue's analysis naturally reminded him of what "Spitting Star" said a few days ago - "We often choose a high-sounding excuse to hide deeper and more invisible motives!" Xue Jiuyue thought of himself, and also thought of Liu Che...
"I think so."
Xue Jiuyue was still unwilling to admit defeat, "Maybe he wanted to show respect to you. After all, you are the representative of the capital."
"It's possible. There are very reasonable reasons for things like working overtime. But even a high probability becomes a low probability once the numbers are multiplied."
"A small probability doesn't mean zero!"
"If I could think that way, I wouldn't be here!"
The most terrifying thing is the confusion of lucidity. Cheng Qing can make precise analyses and calculations, but she can't control her emotions. This may be the difference between humans and machines—as an observer, Xue Jiuyue clearly saw this. She tried her best to think of how to help her bestie out of her predicament. "Have you ever thought about what you really want? We can always be goal-oriented! Love, marriage, or sex?"
"If I tell you, we have sex! Will you want to break up with me?"
"You're not crazy about men, are you? You're so beautiful, if that's what you want, how can you still be lacking?"
"I only want to be with him! I know he has a wife and a family. I can't destroy his family or his feelings. I don't want him to hate me in the future! I just want him at least once, just for myself, for my memories!"
"Have you told him? If all you ask for is to be slept with for free once, without asking for anything else, completely free, I don't think any man would refuse, right?"
"If he was such a casual person, I probably wouldn't love him! Oh, people are just so mean!"
"Although I have no experience in this matter, I think that once someone can't let go, it will be bad. If what you guess is true, then if you really have something with him, it will make him suffer. Moreover, you must still have more expectations in your heart. Once you have it once, you will want more, and finally you will want it to last forever... It is very likely that having sex is just a packaging to hide those more immoral and irrational purposes. So your real purpose is most likely to destroy a family." Xue Jiuyue said it incisively.
"I, I..." Cheng Qing finally failed to deny it, "What should I do?"
Xue Jiyue really had no experience in this area, but in the past two years, due to her illness and under the influence of Liu Che, she had also read a lot of psychology books. She smiled and asked, "You are not really unopened, are you?"
"This..." Cheng Qing was so embarrassed that her face turned red and she didn't say anything else.
"I...you're so mean. You didn't even tell me!" Xue Jiuyue almost cursed. Then, blinking her big eyes, she asked curiously, "Tell me how you feel?"
Cheng Qing calmed down with a sip of coffee before muttering softly, "I don't know either!"
"and you……?"
"Do you remember the graduation party?"
"Well, then you disappeared. When I asked you, you said you were drunk... You didn't do that?"
"Yeah, it was a blur." Cheng Qing felt even more embarrassed when she said this. "The next day, I woke up and found that we were lying together. It seemed to hurt a little... I don't know if it was..."
"Who is it? Didn't you ask? Doesn't he have to take responsibility?" Xue Jiuyue turned into a questioning baby.
"That guy with a back!" Cheng Qing said the nickname of his classmate.
"Ah, him? He's so effeminate, how can you like him?"
"I also thought I wouldn't like him, but after drinking that day, I was in a daze and felt that he was gentle and considerate. And he was really handsome! He woke up first the next day and was even more panicked than me! He didn't know anything when I asked him. He said he was drunk and he didn't know anything..." Cheng Qing smiled as he recalled the youthful scenes deep in his memory.
"No trace or anything?"
"I had my period later...so I don't know either!" Cheng Qing suddenly realized: "Xue Jiuyue, do you still have something important to do? I still want to rely on you to find a solution!"
"Oh, oh, that's what I'm trying to do!" Xue Jiuyue quickly explained: "You don't even know this yourself, it's hard to deal with! If you've had it before, the worst that can happen is you can find a man to have sex with, and then think about it carefully. I heard that it's easier to see the truth in your heart when you release your desires."
In fact, this sentence was told to Xue Jiuyue by Tu Xinyue.
"Even if I have, I can't be so casual."
Xue Jiuyue also tried hard to change her friend's mind, "What if you two got pregnant that night? You would have already done it casually."
"I wasn't being casual! Like I said, I had some knee-jerk reactions. Ever since I was little, I've been taught that men should be masculine and confident! I admit I'm attracted to guys like that, but I don't really mind guys who look a bit effeminate. So that day, after we drank too much and he confessed his feelings, I foolishly went to get a room with him."
Facing his own heart again, Cheng Qing took another sip of coffee before continuing, "So even if it really happened, I wouldn't regret it. And we actually contacted each other for a while afterwards, but because we were in different places and faced various pressures, he didn't have the courage to resist at the time, and neither did I, so we didn't bother to reveal the veil of that night. It was beautiful just like that."
Before Xue Jiuyue could sigh, Cheng Qing added, "However, looking at his circle of friends the other day, he seemed to have come to Xialin."
"That's perfect! A stone from another mountain can be used to polish jade! Having something with him can be like revisiting our old memories. Maybe we can even achieve a happy ending."
"After so many years, maybe his child is already gone. And I'm clearly in love with someone else, so if I go back to him, I think this is even more shameless than being a mistress."
Xue Jiuyue didn't understand, "How is this worse than being a mistress...?"
Cheng Qing said confidently: "When a mistress hurts her love rival, this way she hurts the one who loves her!"
"Look, after all these years, it proves that you still have a place for him in your heart! If you two can finally get married, won't there be any hurt? Isn't this also for you to get to know yourself? You said it yourself, you don't know that you actually like his type."
Cheng Qing shook his head helplessly. "No, I can't accept it! My mind is full of Ren Hongyi. Like a magnet, the moment my thoughts wander, they're sucked back in."
"Yes, just like a magnet, you need a stronger external force to free you from its gravitational pull, and then you can completely get out of trouble."
"But Brother Beibei is not the stronger external force."
Xue Jiuyue patiently advised, "The closer we are, the stronger the attraction. An old classmate comes to Xialin, so we should at least show him some hospitality! I don't usually look at my phone, so I didn't pay attention. How about this, I invite him to my shop, and you come too?"
"Isn't it appropriate?"
"You're hiding from me, so you have to show some respect! When an old classmate comes, we have to show him some hospitality. Even if there were any conflicts in the past, we can just laugh it off when we meet. Especially since you're in this situation, it's a deal! Sit down for a while, I'll get my phone to contact him."
Xue Hongniang's efficiency was very high. She met this guy later that day, but she was quite surprised when they met.
Far from the image of a frail, pale, and sickly-looking boy, Beibei seemed to have been tempered by the brunt of life. He was still as fair-skinned, with long eyebrows and phoenix eyes, and his curly black hair was meticulously styled. But he was taller and more solidly built, appearing polite yet masculine. Only his features were vaguely recognizable from my memory; if I bumped my head on him on the street, I wouldn't recognize him.
After all, these were the effects of time, which Xue Jiuyue could still accept. What really shocked her was that she had seen this man before, and recently. With a little recollection, she found the result, "You, you, came here that day..."
"My old classmate's memory is still as good as ever. I came on the day of the cocktail party. I was afraid you would blame me for not visiting, so I tried to cover it up, thinking I would apologize another day. And since you asked me out today, I thought today would be the best day. I didn't expect it to escape your notice." The man handed over a handbag. "It's just a small token of my appreciation. Please forgive me, old classmate."
"You're such a jerk, Zeng Le! Not only have you become so successful after not seeing you for a few years, but you're even playing dirty with your old classmates! This is a sin! Gifts alone won't do. A bottle of red wine later would be a sign of sincerity!" It turned out that the "back-to-back guy" Xue Jiuyue and the others were talking about was Zeng Le, who had been chatting so happily with Qian Jianjun that day at the cocktail party. After Cheng Qing's earlier description, Xue Jiuyue knew Zeng Le was avoiding Cheng Qing.
"Then it's better to obey than to be respectful!"
The two old classmates talked about their experiences after graduation.
Xue Jiuyue asked intentionally or unintentionally: "How are you? Are you married?"
"No, I had a girlfriend before, but she broke up with me after a few days."
"Ah? A liar?"
"No, she said that our personalities were incompatible and we were only suitable to be best friends. We are really good friends now. She used to love hanging out at your place and even invited me over, but I was busy at the time and didn't get to see her. We broke up before I even showed up."
"Is there a cinnabar mole at the left corner of the eye?" Xue Jiuyue made a judgment.
"Yes, yes! It's her. Is she familiar to you?"
"Tu Xinyue, I'm quite familiar with her and we have a very good relationship!" Xue Jiuyue felt relieved. The men trained by Tu Xinyue were very effective without any side effects.
Zeng Le didn't know what Xue Jiuyue was thinking. "Well, she always said how great this place is and how great the boss lady is. I never thought it was you!"
As they chatted, Cheng Qing arrived. Unlike her previous appearances, she had on makeup and a black lace dress. She looked less professional and more charming. It seemed she was struggling to find her way out of her relationship troubles.
Zeng Le seemed to be caught in a rape scene. He stood up quickly, his tongue tied. "You, you, Xiaoqing, why are you here..."
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