Heartbroken, thinking of parents, filled with hope and gratitude
Xue Jiuyue's calm tone spoke of a pain unimaginable to ordinary people. The truthfulness of her words, yet the overflowing sadness, silently rippled and echoed throughout the ward, striking the girl's heart and opening a ray of light in the midst of despair.
"It was the first time I held hands with a boy. I was so happy at that time. It felt like he wasn't holding my hand, but my heart and my soul." The girl's voice was hoarse and she started crying again as she spoke. Her voice was intermittent. "He, he is a beast, a beast, a scumbag..."
The girl covered her face with her hands, sobbing uncontrollably, the hatred she couldn't hold back leaking out from between her fingers. When the girl gradually calmed down, Xue Jiuyue handed her a tissue and asked softly, "So you're punishing yourself for a beast?"
"It's not because of him! It's because I'm desperate about love!" the girl defended herself.
"The heart is also a muscle that needs exercise and polishing. Those scumbags who make us cry are just whetstones! You are just unlucky. The first melon seed you cracked was a bad one. Are you going to give up all the melon seeds? Besides, it would be the worst luck if the last melon seed you cracked was a bad one, right?" In order to ease the atmosphere, Xue Jiuyue made a plain and vivid analogy.
"But my heart aches so much, so much so that I can't bear it anymore. I feel so bad that I don't have the courage to love anymore! So I think it's better to just end it all!"
Xue Jiuyue smiled helplessly, then asked: "If you can't live without love, then what about me? I don't remember ever having love, and I don't know where my future love will be. I don't even dare to love when I want to, so how can I live?"
The girl was speechless. Xue Jiuyue spoke more seriously, "We live not only for ourselves, but also for our parents, relatives, and friends. We must live for everyone who cares about us. Especially our parents. How can we leave them with the greatest, deepest, and most terrible pain in the world? How can they live on? How selfish and cruel is that?"
"But I didn't protect my child well." The girl sobbed again. As she cried, she blamed herself, "His beastly father didn't recognize him and didn't want him, and I didn't protect him well either. I'm so useless..."
"Actually, I think..." Xue Jiuyue hesitated, still trying to decide her words, "I think this is a gift from God to you."
Seeing that the girl didn't react too strongly, Xue Jiuyue continued, "If it weren't for this accident, I don't know if I would have the courage to persuade you to give up - after all, every life is innocent and has the right to live. But I always believe that every life should be born from love, should be blessed, and should be the fruit of love, not the result of pain, mistakes or hatred."
The empty rhetoric didn't resonate. Xue Jiuyue put herself in the girl's shoes and said, "You're still so young, are you even 20? Do you want to raise a child by yourself? That's a child, a child who will grow up and think, a child who will ask you 'Where is my daddy' in the future, not a pet. You need to care for him meticulously, accompany him at all times, and teach him by example. Are you ready for all these? If not, then did you bring him into this world just to make him suffer, just to make him hate you? This is so irresponsible. Is there any essential difference between you and his father?"
"I, I, I didn't think about anything. I'm useless. I, no, shouldn't be alive..." The girl burst into tears again.
Seeing the little progress she had finally made, Xue Jiuyue, overwhelmed by endless tears, was at a loss as she suddenly remembered Mr. Qiu's formula for persuading people. She reached out to smooth the girl's hair away from her face and said tentatively, "Okay, silly girl, let's not discuss those ethical issues or make any assumptions. Look at you now, so young and beautiful. You think you don't have the courage to love, but there will be many handsome guys vying for you. Can you guarantee that you won't be tempted? How about I introduce you to one?"
Xue Jiuyue offered a lure of profit, but it had little effect. Still no response, at most her crying seemed to subside a little, though she wasn't sure if it was because she was tired.
Xue Jiuyue had no choice but to "sacrifice" Ke Yike to make this "benefit" more concrete. "Let me tell you a secret. It's about that handsome waiter in our store. He always glanced at you when you went to the coffee shop those few days. Even after you stopped going, he kept asking about you."
The crying gradually subsided amidst the secret. Xue Jiuyue, after making up stories, began to fabricate stories. "Later, the scumbag holding your hand hooked up with other girls in the coffee shop. The handsome guy in our store was furious and kicked the scumbag out, saying, 'You've taken such a beautiful goddess away, and you're still not satisfied. Get out! Otherwise, I'll beat you up every time I see you!' You know? It was the first time I saw him lose his temper. His long, narrow eyes were wide open at that time!"
Xue Jiuyue vividly described the scene in her imagination, then changed the subject and introduced him seriously, "His name is Ke Yike. He's an amazing cook. Not only is he the head chef of our cafe, he also mixes drinks for a bar. He also loves playing basketball. He was the captain of the champion team of the "Xia Lin City Men's 3x3 Basketball Tournament" some time ago, and he has gained many fans who call themselves 'Cocoa fans'. What do you think? Trust my judgment, he's a very handsome and sunny guy. How about I give him your contact information and say that I asked a friend to find out for him. What's your name?"
"Puff..." The girl burst into laughter, turning over and trying to sit up. Xue Jiuyue quickly held back the pain in her soul and helped her up, putting a pillow under her so she could lean comfortably.
"Thank you, Sister Yue. My name is Shu Xiaoxian. I'm a senior."
Xue Jiuyue was racking his brains, persuading and navigating his way through the situation, when the barrier before him suddenly collapsed. This illogical "surrender" instantly transformed into a tangled web of questions. Xue Jiuyue sat down again, observing the girl quietly. A flicker of life and spirit indeed rekindled in his dark eyes.
"You can call me Xiao Xian. I've thought it through. I was indeed too impulsive before! If it weren't for you and that big brother, I would have almost made a big mistake! He said it was you who arranged for him to follow me and saved me! I can't thank you enough for your kindness. My phone number is: 139XXXXXXXX. I just hope I'll have the chance to repay you in the future. But right now, I don't know if I can ask you for one more favor."
Her expression gradually recovered as she spoke, but her voice was still a little dry. Xue Jiuyue unscrewed a bottle of mineral water that should have been bought by Lao Zhou earlier, handed it to the girl, and said softly, "Speak, I will do my best."
Pure water, as pure as life itself, nourished all wounds, causing them to heal. Shu Xiaoxian's voice became much mellower. "I won't have any more foolish thoughts, so please don't inform my family or school."
"That's no problem, but..." Xue Jiuyue could understand Shu Xiaoxian's feelings, but the doubts in her heart had not been completely dispelled, so she was still a little hesitant.
Before she could finish, Shu Xiaoxian smiled and said, "Sister Yue, I really won't do anything stupid again. It's not because of that Ke Yike you mentioned. I know the handsome little brother you were talking about. I noticed him before, and there was only you in his eyes from beginning to end. I think you should be very clear about it. So he definitely won't notice me."
The white lie was exposed, leaving Xue Jiuyue, who was not good at lying, embarrassed and at a loss. She could almost hear the sizzling sound of her face being roasted on the crackling fire.
Fortunately, Shu Xiaoxian's voice interrupted her auditory hallucination.
"But the moment you told me this story finally made me think it through. It's not like we've never met before, but we're not familiar with each other either. Yet, to save me, a stranger to you, you first arranged for someone to keep an eye on me and save my life. Then, fearing I might become overwhelmed, you even exposed your own secrets and scars to enlighten me. You sacrificed so much to save a stranger's life, and as someone involved, I should cherish my own even more. Especially at the end, you made up this story to give me hope. Yes, hope! I knew it was just a white lie, but it still ignited hope in me. If I really did meet someone like that, someone who secretly followed me, secretly loved me, who would risk their lives for me, who would do anything for me, I think when I look back at my current sadness, it would be nothing to mention! So, I've completely figured it out. Don't worry about me anymore. Go back and rest. I'll come see you when I'm better."
Shu Xiaoxian, who had regained her sanity, could accurately grasp the thread of Xue Jiuyue's persuasion, which made Xue Jiuyue almost certain that Shu Xiaoxian would no longer do stupid things. However, since this matter involved human life, she still needed to add an insurance policy, "Silly girl, I believe you won't do stupid things again, but you just..."
Afraid that a straightforward expression would bring back sadness, Xue Jiuyue stumbled for a moment before continuing, "You are still very weak, and everything is inconvenient for you. You need to be taken care of."
The sensitive Shu Xiaoxian still caught the crux of Xue Jiuyue's deliberate avoidance. She smiled faintly, "Sister Yue, I have really thought it through. I am sorry for my baby, but it is better for God to let him return to heaven than to suffer in the world now. Putting aside the ethical issues, after all, it is a fait accompli. I feel sad for my child, but I am also my parents' child. I can't bring greater pain to my parents because of my child, right?"
"I'm completely relieved that you think so. But what I said is also true. You are really still weak and need to rest. You don't feel it now because you are young, but you will have all kinds of problems when you are old..." Unconsciously, the glory of motherhood also made Xue Jiuyue infected with the mother's muttering.
"Okay, okay, Sister Yue, it's just that it will be hard for you to be alone. There's really no need to stay with me all the time. You can go home later."
"It's okay, just rest and get some rest. I don't sleep well at night anyway and I tend to have nightmares. It's nice to have you here with me."
In the end, Qian Jianjun arranged for Shu Xiaoxian to be transferred to an intensive care unit with a companion bed. As for who would stay behind to care for Shu Xiaoxian, Zhou Ying and Lin Yiyi, who had arrived, took over. Xue Jiyue had been kicked out long ago...
As night slowly descended over the windows, everything folded its hands, ready to put away the day's drama. Returning home, the familiar warmth instantly lifted all the fatigue from within, yet also released the emotions that had been so fiercely suppressed. Xue Jiuyue and her parents sat on video for a long time, until the lights flickered outside the window and the moonlight shone brightly. Only then did they reluctantly end their longing and transfer the lingering emotions of their conversation online.
"Welcome back home, my lady." "Spit Star" immediately sent greetings in various ways.
Xue Jiuyue also joined in the laughter, "Xiao Xingzi, is everything alright in the mansion today?"
"Everything is fine in the mansion. The cats are quiet and the dogs are not noisy. But you, my dear, have encountered..."
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