The moonlight obscures my eyes and I cannot see the flowers. Her gentle words dispel my doubts and fill me with love.
A night of steady drizzle had clung to layers of fallen leaves, softening the hard road in front of the door. The fluttering leaves, carried by the wind, illuminated the gradually brightening eastern sky, adorning the still gloomy air with a fluttering, snow-like texture.
The roar of a car cut through the quiet morning, followed by the figure of Ke Yike running. He was barefoot, running while using all his strength to throw his voice in the direction of the speeding car in front of him, "Xue Jiyue, I love you, I love you..."
In the end, all the sounds didn't get far before they were surrounded and drowned out by the surrounding silence. Only Ke Yike was left lying on the ground, shedding silent tears that pained the silent morning.
When I get home, the warm running water can hardly wash away the memories I don’t want to face, let alone the people I need to face.
After changing into comfortable sportswear, although Xue Jiuyue still didn't know what to do, there was a blooming chrysanthemum in her heart, burning its delicate petals to resist the damn sadness of autumn.
"Hey, Zhou Ying, where are you? You haven't left yet, have you?... Don't go to the store today. Go to the factory and take a look. I'm worried about you not visiting for so long. Yes, yes... Check on the operations and do some quality checks. Hmm, hmm... You've been working so hard!"
A reasonable excuse to get Zhou Ying out of the way would make it less awkward to face Ke Yike again. Before the "instantaneous time" had passed, Xue Jiuyue stopped the car again. She walked to a mailbox on the side of the road, a stack of letters in her hand.
Xue Jiuyue stuffed the letters into the mailbox one by one in the predetermined order, filling the gap left by her departure. Even though she knew she was the recipient, she still delivered the letters slowly, reluctantly, and with tears in her eyes.
"When I forgot everything, I still remembered the promise I made to you to send the letter. Now that I remember everything, I am not qualified to think of you. I only now understand that intimate contact is not only, not only... Ye Yi, do you blame me? It's my fault. I shouldn't have let go so easily... I'm sorry, can you forgive me?"
Xue Jiuyue's low question received no answer, only the wind blew down a ginkgo leaf, which happened to fall on the last envelope.
Is it fate? Or just coincidence?
Xue Jiuyue sent out the last letter, and also put away the fallen leaf and her slightly better mood.
In the fleeting moments, Ke Yike huddled in the backstage, bewildered. Not knowing what to do, he habitually called out, "Ying'er?"
There was only a clear reply, "Not here."
He admitted that he missed Zhou Ying. As long as Zhou Ying was with him, he would always feel at ease, always be able to tell him what to do, and always have a pair of eyes watching him, giving him a stage and confidence.
He began to ask himself, do I love Sister Yue?
He was sure that it was love, and he would rather Xue Jiuyue sued him in court and let him go to jail, which would be better than what he was feeling now.
But Sister Yue said they weren't suitable, wasn't she? He himself clearly felt very tired, and he had to admit that he couldn't bring happiness to Sister Yue...
"Sister Yue is calling you!" Lin Yiyi's voice interrupted Ke Yike's thoughts. He didn't even notice Xue Jiuyue's arrival.
Ke Yike lowered his head, like a child who had made a mistake, "Sister Yue!"
"Sit down!" Xue Jiuyue's voice did not convey any emotion.
After Ke Yike sat down, she continued to ask: "Have you figured it out? What should we do next?"
Ke Yike nodded, still without looking up, "You're right, we are not suitable. I love you, but I can't give you happiness. I don't have the ability, and..."
"It's not that you're incompetent or anything. You're excellent, talented, and handsome. It's just that I have someone else in my heart. Since you woke up this morning, have you ever imagined what our future life would be like if we were together? Would you feel happy?"
"I……"
Xue Jiuyue interrupted Ke Yike's hesitation with a question, "Before my accident, you drank every day. Why?"
"My mind was in a mess at the time. I didn't want to think about it, but I couldn't help but think about it. It was really annoying."
"Are you thinking of Zhou Ying?"
Ke Yike raised his head and looked at Xue Jiuyue with surprise, "I thought about it, but it's so confusing."
"Zhou Ying is always so unknown, so it's easy for you to ignore her, especially since you only had eyes for me at that time."
"I don't know, Sister Yue, I really don't know. I was thinking about her just now..."
"How about this, before I came here, I prepared three plans for the future. You can choose one."
"you say."
"One, I have plans to expand our coffee shop into other cities. You and Zhou Ying will go and run a bridgehead first. Two, Zhou Ying will go alone, and you will stay. Three, you will leave alone. No matter which option you choose, after we finish talking today, I don't want you to disturb my life anymore. Last night was just a dream, forget it. If you can't do this, I'm leaving!"
Ke Yike understood Xue Jiuyue's decisive tone and gave an answer after a moment's thought. "I'll choose one. Zhou Ying and I will go. Sister Yue, I'm sorry. I was terribly wrong. Can I still be your brother?"
"Forget about last night. You are my brother. And we must forget last night. Otherwise, not only you, but I will also let her down."
"I'm sorry, Sister Yue, it's all my fault. I know Ying'er's feelings for me, I, I..."
"No, you don't!"
"I know she has always supported me silently and she is very good to me..."
Xue Jiuyue asked: "Anything else?"
"Actually, I found that I was very dependent on her. I don't know if that was love... But I clearly loved you. I told myself that I would use every ounce of my energy to love you. That's why I was so chaotic and drank every day."
"That's love, but you're blinded by obsession. That's love."
Xue Jiuyue's conclusion completely crushed Ke Yike. Tears streamed down his face, and he sobbed softly, "I'm sorry, Sister Yue. I'm so stupid. I made so many mistakes. I'm sorry for you, and I'm sorry for Ying'er..."
Seeing Ke Yike's current state, Xue Jiuyue felt relieved. "You've let her down so much! Remember that time when 'Ma Saner' asked you to drink? Did you always think that I helped you drink the remaining bottles of wine, and that you were grateful to me for that?"
"Isn't it?" The huge doubt made Ke Yike look over with tearful eyes.
"When I arrived that day, Zhou Ying had already finished the remaining three bottles of white wine."
"How is this possible? The first person I saw when I woke up from my coma was you."
"That's because Zhou Ying is receiving an IV drip in the room next to you."
"No, not Sister Yue! I know Zhou Ying is good to me, and I have thought it through. I really want to be with her, and I don't want to leave her... But, but what you said is not true..." Ke Yike was unwilling to believe it.
"Have I ever lied to you?"
"No, that can't be true. If it is true, why didn't you tell me?"
"Because she begged me not to tell you... Not just this time, but before your parents came to ask you to go back to your hometown, it was Zhou Ying who finally persuaded them using me as a pretext. She hoped you would stay. You can ask your parents about this in detail."
Ke Yike had to believe Xue Jiuyue's words, "Sister Yue, why are you telling me now..."
"Zhou Ying said that if she could have love, she hoped it would be the purest emotion, pure and flawless, without any other factors, including gratitude! So if you don't understand your feelings for her, I won't tell you."
"This, this is what she said." Ke Yi was probably certain that this was Zhou Ying's attitude. He also remembered what Zhou Ying had told him before, "She also told me that love is not about picking up products, it's not a multiple-choice question. Love is just the mutual understanding between two people, and it has nothing to do with others. It's enough to be yourself... I'm sorry for her, and I'm sorry for you!"
"You and her are just starting out, there's nothing to be sorry about! As for me, just forget about it! Go, pack up, and embrace a new life and new feelings!"
Just as Ke Yike was about to stand up, Xue Jiuyue remembered something, "Wait a minute, I'll keep the necklace you gave me. And I'll treasure it forever."
Ke Yike couldn't help but touch his neck, but heard Xue Jiuyue laugh and say, "Don't feel embarrassed to see Zhou Ying because of that tattoo. Did Zhou Ying design that necklace with you?"
"How do you know?"
"Because this is also a necklace she gave to herself. You know, Zhou Ying, whose full name is Chen Zhou Ying. Zhou Ying means chrysanthemum. The moonlight shape of the necklace represents both the moon and the chrysanthemum. The English letters Y or J, meaning the bright moon, are also the initials of Ju and Ying. You tattooed this pattern on your neck, but didn't you notice that Zhou Ying has been wearing collared clothes since that day?"
"you mean……?"
"Yes, she must have the same tattoo as yours. This silly girl must be afraid that one day you will be separated, but at least you have shared memories and the same tattoo. So the two necklaces you two have are couple necklaces, and this extra one of mine is a gift from you. Okay, go ahead..."
The dark clouds that had lingered all night gradually gave way to bright sunlight. Xue Jiuyue leaned back on the sofa, basking in the warm sunshine, feeling so comfortable that even her breathing slowed. But hidden beneath this quiet and peaceful state was a sorrow that she couldn't express even with all her tears and blood.
She told Ke Yike to forget the previous night as a dream. She wished the intoxicating night would be sealed and forgotten like the nightmare of the past, but could she? The emptiness left by Liu Che and Ye Yi's departure was filled with a misplaced love, hate, and sorrow. When Ke Yike was out of sight, she found herself even more difficult to face. This feeling of powerlessness even made her lose the courage to look for Liu Che.
"Hello, can you sit for a moment?"
A familiar voice helped Xue Jiuyue escape from the desert of fragmented thoughts. Looking up, she saw Gu Quyu sitting across from her. "Please take a seat."
Gu Quyu placed a gift box on the table and explained his purpose directly. "I heard you had an accident. I wanted to go to the hospital to show my support, but I was afraid of causing you trouble. Since Mr. Qian is away on a business trip today, I decided to take a break and come over. These are some nutritional supplements to improve your eyesight. I hope they will help you recover."
"You're too polite. If you can come and chat for a while, we're friends. I'm asking you to spend money, which I don't deserve."
"I wanted to come and thank you a long time ago, but your accident delayed me..."
"Oh, you want to thank me?" Xue Jiuyue was a little surprised.
"Yes, Mr. Qian told me everything. It was you who always protected me in front of him."
Xue Jiuyue suddenly understood. "Hey, it's not a big deal. I'm just telling you the truth. From our last chat, I felt that you were in love very hard. There's nothing wrong with loving someone!"
"There's nothing wrong with loving someone! Thank you for your understanding, thank you! But I want to thank you for more than that. You advised Mr. Qian to see himself and his feelings clearly. In fact, you also helped me see my feelings clearly!"
"oh?"
"Xinyue said that on the night she and Zeng Le went to see Mr. Qian and me, you specifically called her and asked her to find a way to switch rooms with me that night."
"Yes."
"But I thought that Mr. Qian would knock on Xinyue's door that night and find an excuse to change rooms with Xinyue. I didn't expect that I was not as clear as you. I thought that Mr. Qian would always be trapped by desire, so I wanted to start from this point and get on the bus first and then buy a ticket." Gu Quyu confessed what he had done.
"Mr. Qian doesn't have no feelings for you. He's just entangled in his feelings for your cousin, and he can't figure it out. But when he's really faced with uncontrollable desire, it doesn't matter to him whether he can make the distinction or not. What matters is whether he has feelings for you."
"Yes, so after I knew what happened that night, I completely understood. Mr. Qian still has feelings for me, but he still can't let go of my cousin. So my real opponent is still my cousin."
"In fact, there's no rival in love. The sweet-talking girl in my shop once said that love isn't about choosing a product, it's not a multiple-choice question. Love is simply the mutual understanding between two people, and it has nothing to do with others. Just being yourself is enough."
Gu Quyu sighed, "I always get inspiration from you. I really regret not coming here earlier, so I wouldn't have to do so much useless work."
"Including the medicine you carefully selected?"
"You know?"
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