The most heartbreaking thing is jealousy, which always makes the pain worse.
"Oh?" Liu Che thought for a moment. "It's very likely that this smell carries some special memory of yours, and your subconscious mind transfers it into your dream. But I can't say which came first, the smell in the dream or the smell in reality."
"Tsk, Xiao Ming, why don't you stroke your beard and shake your head and stop talking nonsense? I just like to see you talking nonsense seriously." Xue Jiuyue spoke very casually in front of Liu Che.
"The truth of the matter is often chaotic. The clearer it is, the more likely it is to be wrong. However, the truth is often worthless; only the wrong or biased is meaningful."
This time, Xue Jiuyue didn't laugh at Liu Che. "That's a bit novel. Let Xiao Ming tell you more about it."
"Great sounds are silent, great images are invisible. Compared to 'great', 'small' is biased or wrong, but only these 'small' things can be heard, seen, and perceived, and only then do they have value and meaning. Just like the cup in front of you, a painter will tell you it is a cylinder, a chemist will tell you it is glass, silicon dioxide... These descriptions are neither accurate nor comprehensive, but they all have value. The most comprehensive description of it is precisely the most vague description: it is a cup."
"Well, it's very similar to a point in my dream, 'Truth only makes sense in terms of choices, and time is only defined from the beginning of life.'"
"The truth is not important, what matters is the feeling? Is that right?" Liu Che asked with a smile.
"Well, that's it, isn't it?"
"It doesn't matter whether it's right or wrong, what matters is how you feel."
"I'm asking for your opinion." Xue Jiuyue asked probingly.
"In my opinion, ideas should ultimately guide practice. When encountering problems, just have a clear conscience."
"Why did you bring it up with a clear conscience?"
"Truth and right and wrong are all matters of the brain and rational thinking. Feelings, including emotions, are matters of the heart and emotions. My brain tells me what I should do, and I try my best! My heart tells me what I should do, and I try my best too! This way, I have a clear conscience. As for the outcome, I leave it to fate!"
This was not the first time Liu Che said this, especially the second half, but this time he seemed very relieved.
"You mean, I don't have to over-analyze the meaning or connotation of dreams, and I should just follow my feelings, right? For example, Brother Jiuye, the feeling I had towards him in my dream was very familiar, so he shouldn't harm me. The same goes for that doctor. And the smell of Gynostemma pentaphyllum, although I don't know its origin, I should just feel it more, right, Xiao Ming?" Xue Jiuyue often thought that what Liu Che said was to enlighten her.
The unexpected result made Liu Che smile even brighter. "That's right, just follow your feelings and don't think subconsciously! This is also what I meant when I advised you to let go of your obsession."
"Okay, got it! Let's get started!" Xue Jiuyue's thoughts jumped quickly, "Where did you put your eyebrow pencil? I'll help you get it. Don't wear gloves this time, it's itchy..."
"Oh, okay, the eyebrow pencil is on the table, I can just get it myself."
It turned out that when Xue Jiuyue came today, she had agreed that Liu Che would draw her eyebrows after the hypnosis was over.
Soon, the misty atmosphere once again enveloped the two of them like a flowing cloud or a handful of light smoke.
Although he was once again painting a realistic scene without the awkwardness of the first time, Liu Che was still so nervous that his hands were shaking.
Xue Jiuyue was even more shy than before. Last time, it was a coincidence, a burst of courage. This time, however, it was for this purpose, revealing her feelings like a confession. Although she made an excuse, "You draw beautifully, teach me again," this clumsy lie couldn't deceive herself. Xue Jiuyue was so embarrassed that she didn't know whether to open or close her eyes. If she opened her eyes, she was afraid she wouldn't be able to fully feel the gentleness between his eyebrows; if she closed her eyes, she was afraid that this dream would slip away and disappear in an instant.
"It's done!" From nervousness to concentration and then to selflessness, Liu Che finally got a work that he was satisfied with.
"I'll go check it out." Xue Jiuyue skillfully opened the cabinet door and peered into the mirror. Perhaps it was a psychological effect, but she felt her eyebrows were even more refined this time than the last. If the last time they were as ethereal as a fairy mountain, this time they had a touch more spirit.
"What a great painting! I thought last time was the peak, but I didn't expect there was a paradise above the peak. I feel like there's something different from last time. What's the difference, Xiao Ming?"
"No, I've always drawn like this. If there's any difference, it's that I really didn't dare last time. This time I'm a little braver, and maybe I used a little more force. I hope I didn't hurt you?" Liu Che was frank.
"No, it's very good."
As soon as Xue Jiuyue finished speaking, there was a knock on the door.
"Sorry, we have guests. Please come back later." Liu Che said loudly.
Xue Jiuyue advised: "No need, I should be leaving too, look who it is and go about your business!"
"Oh, that's good." Liu Che said loudly to the outside of the door: "Wait a moment, I'm coming right away."
The door opened, and it was Li Jingzi.
"Doctor Liu, I see your appointment is over an hour past. The director has a meeting in half an hour, so I came to tell you. Sorry to bother you."
"It's okay, Jingzi, it's me. I'm leaving now." Xue Jiuyue also came out after hearing the voice.
"Xiaoyue, long time no see. You look even more beautiful now." Li Jingzi looked at Xue Jiuyue for a while. "Your eyebrows are really beautifully drawn. Are they also drawn by Dr. Liu? They look better than mine."
Xue Jiuyue observed carefully after hearing this, and sure enough, Li Jingzi's eyebrows also had the ethereal and towering feeling unique to Liu Che lingering.
For a moment, it was as if the poisoned wine in the dream had been drunk down her throat. The world was spinning, she felt dizzy, her heart ached, and she felt hopeless. Even with Xue Jiuyue's usual self-control, she couldn't control this sudden emotion. She said without thinking, "No wonder..."
Finally, the flood beast was finally caught, and the anger surged in Xue Jiuyue's eyes. Xue Jiuyue summoned up the last bit of strength, endured all kinds of uncomfortable shocks and said goodbye to the two of them, but there was still a lot of deliberate sharpness in her words, "Mr. Qian asked me to go shopping, I'll leave first, you two can talk slowly."
After saying that, Xue Jiuyue rushed out of the door. The moment she turned around, tears streamed down her face. Her blurry eyes did not see the dazed and dejected Liu Che behind her.
Without Qian Jianjun, without a date, without shopping, nothing, Xue Jiuyue returned to her home alone.
The sunlight near noon could not warm the chill in her heart. Xue Jiuyue lay on the bed, hunched over, hugged her pillow and cried loudly.
I want to video chat with my parents, seeking the ever-present, ever-effective comfort, but I'm afraid they'll worry, so I have to bear it alone. Fortunately, as long as I close my eyes, I can always recall my father's kind face.
"Who made my little Shi angry? Why is she crying so hard?"
"Dad, Dad, I, I... I feel uncomfortable..."
"It's okay, it's okay, just have a good cry first..." Dad hugged the small, thin shoulders and comforted the child's sadness with his warm, thick and broad heart.
The endless tears soon turned into sobs in her father's arms, and then gradually stopped.
"Dad, my Ella is missing."
"Ella? The little elephant you always cuddle with when you sleep?"
"Yes, that's her."
"Dad will buy you a new one. The little elephant is dirty and broken, and its trunk is almost broken. Your mom almost threw it away during the last cleaning."
"No, no, I want my Ella."
"Dad has wanted to buy you an identical baby elephant for a long time, but it's out of stock. Now it's lost, what shall we do?"
"I want it, I want it, my Ella, she has been with me for several years..." The crying came again.
This time, the crying didn't last long, like a gentle drizzle that gradually died down. His father took a tissue and gently wiped away the tears and snot from his dirty little face. Then he said softly, "Xiao Shi, be good. You wanted it, but you lost it. Can crying solve the problem?"
"No! But Dad will find a way..."
"I'm sorry, Xiao Shi. There are many things that Dad can't do anything about."
"What should I do then? Wow..."
"Be good, don't cry. Didn't I just tell you that crying won't solve the problem?"
"Well, well, I, I miss Ella, I feel bad..."
"If it hurts, remember the lesson."
"What lesson?"
"Cherish, strive for it! Humans are so insignificant in this world, and there are so many things we cannot change. Just like we can't stop the passage of time, we can't stop birth, aging, sickness, and death, nor can we prevent joy and sorrow. But we can do our best to fight for what we want, and we must also do everything we can to cherish what we already have." Dad's words were profound. Looking at Xiao Shi's confused eyes, Dad said kindly, "Ella is gone, but don't you still have beautiful memories? Don't you cherish the time you spent together? Isn't that enough? Ella was with you when you opened your eyes before, and she is with you now when you close your eyes. Isn't it the same?"
"I understand. I can see Ella when I close my eyes." Xiao Shi was very sensible, but soon she wanted to sob again, "But, but I still feel sad. When I open my eyes, Ella is gone!"
"That means you don't love her enough. You dislike the fact that she can only accompany you when you close your eyes. Actually, Daddy tells you, close your eyes and feel Ella's presence with you, then she will be with you forever. Otherwise, you'll be like that little monkey you threw at the foot of your bed. In fact, it's with you every day, but you know what?"
"Okay, Dad, I love Ella very much. I will close my eyes and let her accompany me every day from now on."
"That's good, Xiao Shi, but it's not enough!"
"Why?"
"Because Xiao Shi hasn't learned to fight for it yet!"
"Strive for it? How do we strive for it?"
"Since you love her so much, you should try to keep her with you as much as possible and try not to lose her. Now that she's gone, you should try your best to analyze where she went."
"I looked for her. I searched the whole house but still couldn't find her." Xiaoyue said aggrievedly.
"Think again and see if you have taken her out."
"No, he slept with me last night."
"So when did you realize she was missing?"
"I didn't notice it when I went to school this morning, and I couldn't find it when I got home just now. I searched everywhere in the house. I asked my mom, but she said she didn't see it."
The father smiled and guided: "From last night to today, have there been any thieves in the house? Have there been any guests in the house? Can Ella walk on her own?"
"Ella won't leave. We've never had any thieves or guests come to our house. You have to ask Dad."
"Today we are the only ones at home."
"Ella won't walk by herself. There are only three of us at home. It's not me, mom, or dad. Could it be you? You don't usually clean the house!" Xiao Shi raised his little head, blinked his big eyes, and looked at his dad expectantly.
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