I have been
Calling again and again, responding again and again, Kong Lingyu always has endless patience towards Fang Huai.
He lowered his head and gently rubbed Fang Huai's head with his chin. He responded in a low voice over and over again: "I'm here, Mai Mai, I'm here."
Fang Huai nestled in Kong Lingyu's arms, holding Kong Lingyu's hand, just like when he was a child and was afraid of the dark when he slept alone. He called Kong Lingyu's name in a low voice and felt wronged, waiting for someone to come over. His light brown pupils were wet with tears, and he held Kong Lingyu's hand.
"I'm afraid."
"I'm here. Mai Mai can be afraid, can be sad, you can do anything, I'm always here."
An unknown amount of time passed before Fang Huai fell asleep, leaning against Kong Lingyu's broad shoulders. Kong Lingyu looked down at the person in his arms lovingly, his dark eyes and furrowed brows distressing him. He carried the person to the bed. The person was so light that it seemed as if he would break if he applied even a little force.
He extended his index finger and gently stroked Fang Huai's eyebrows, then withdrew his hand when he saw Fang Huai frown slightly.
Suddenly, Kong Lingyu's hand was grabbed by Fang Huai. Fang Huai opened his eyes, which were full of calmness, just like when the two first met.
At that time, little Maimai was squatting in the mossy corner of the wall, holding a teddy bear in his arms, looking at him quietly, with only him in his eyes.
"Kong Lingyu."
After a long time, Fang Huai seemed to realize what he was doing. He blinked, a hint of unnaturalness flashed in his eyes, and his fingers loosened and slowly let go of Kong Lingyu's hand.
But Kong Lingyu held Fang Huai's hand in his backhand. He sat beside Fang Huai, lifted Fang Huai's hand and put it against his hot lips, which made Fang Huai shudder. But now Fang Huai's brain was very slow, he did not react, but just looked at Kong Lingyu motionlessly.
His heavy eyelids were twitching, Kong Lingyu curled the corners of his lips, pretending not to notice the blush on Fang Huai's face. He stretched out his hand to cover Fang Huai's eyes, and his long eyelashes gently swept across his palm, causing waves of numbness.
Kong Lingyu's voice was like a gentle breeze, soft and gentle, "Maimai, go to sleep."
"I've always been here."
Fang Huai closed his eyes again in a daze. After making sure that the other person was asleep, Kong Lingyu slowly stood up and moved his stiff and numb legs.
He tiptoed out of the bedroom, found the cleaning tools, and swept away the debris in the living room. His eyes fell on the withered locust flowers on the ground. Kong Lingyu smiled, bent down to pick up the locust flowers on the ground, and gently placed them on the counter.
The bouquet of flowers he brought today was also opened and placed in a vase with water. It also contained locust flowers, but this time they were wilted.
Kong Lingyu looked at the somewhat listless locust flowers with a cold gaze. He was about to call the florist to send another bouquet, but gave up.
He placed the vase next to the bed, held his face and looked at the sleeping Fang Huai. He gently raised his hand and traced Fang Huai's face in the air, his plump forehead, delicate eyebrows, and the captivating teardrop mole at the end of his eyebrow. His fingertips gently touched the teardrop mole.
"Maimai."
Kong Lingyu sighed softly, "I've always been here."
Kong Lingyu didn't want outsiders to disrupt the atmosphere of their solitude, so he had someone report the flowers from the flower shop to him on time every day. He selected the bouquets and packaging materials through video, and only nodded and had them delivered when he was satisfied.
A few days ago, some of the locust flowers in Yanba regained their vitality. The buds were filled with water and looked fresh when placed on the light-colored bedside table.
Fang Huai was not as lively as the flower. When he woke up, he was unwilling to talk or eat. He would always run barefoot to the corridor when Kong Lingyu wasn't paying attention and stare at the closed door from afar. At first, Kong Lingyu thought Fang Huai wanted to go out, so he picked him up and carried him out.
But Fang Huai struggled so hard that he immediately realized he had made a mistake. He squatted down and looked into Fang Huai's eyes.
"Maimai, do you want to go out?"
Fang Huai blinked and didn't answer.
Kong Lingyu raised his eyebrows and locked the man in his arms, like a gangster who had robbed a man. "Then stay with me forever, okay? Wherever you go, I go."
Fang Huai struggled out of his arms, not knowing whether it was anger or shame, his face flushed red. He patted Kong Lingyu's shoulder with an unhappy look and said firmly, "No."
Looking at Fang Huai, who was obviously more lively, Kong Lingyu laughed heartily and let Fang Huai pat him, but a flash of unwillingness flashed in his eyes. He hugged Fang Huai and said, "Okay, let's talk about the future later."
"Can you tell me now? Why are you looking there?"
Fang Huai stopped talking and struggled to get out of his arms. Kong Lingyu locked his arms around Fang Huai's waist and rested his chin on the crook of Fang Huai's neck. "Don't want to say it?"
"It's okay if you don't tell me. I won't force you to do anything you want to do."
"Let's eat. I made locust flower rice tonight. Would you like to try it?" The man stood up suddenly, scaring Fang Huai. Fang Huai nervously grabbed Kong Lingyu's collar and accidentally tore it open, revealing a large area of muscles.
"Put me down, I'm not hungry!"
Fang Huai turned his face away in panic. Kong Lingyu didn't notice and carried him downstairs. His broad chest trembled slightly. His low and gentle voice was full of doting. "Can you eat a little tonight? I'm doing this very seriously."
"Oh, I prepared some honey. Would you like to try it, Mai Mai?"
"If you can't finish it, I'll eat it."
Fang Huai's originally resolute attitude began to soften. His eyes fell on Kong Lingyu's palm, and he couldn't say no.
For some unknown reason, Fang Huai suddenly asked:
"Kong Lingyu, do you like Sophora japonica flowers?"
Kong Lingyu didn't stop, "I like it."
"Why?"
"I like you." Kong Lingyu said without hesitation: "Because Sophora japonica allowed me to meet you."
Fang Huai stared blankly at Kong Lingyu's profile, "Because of me?"
"Yeah, I like you." I like you, so I like everything about you. Whatever you like, I like too.
Kong Lingyu placed the person on the chair and looked at Fang Huai seriously. His tall figure enveloped Fang Huai's entire body, and his words were straightforward and pure: "Maimai, I like you."
Fang Huai lowered his head, not wanting to look at him. Kong Lingyu's thin lips curled up slightly.
No hurry, he's not in a hurry.
......
Kong Lingyu is a guy who is very good at taking care of Fang Huai. He is considerate and does everything himself. If Fang Huai had not sternly refused, this guy would really help Fang Huai take a bath.
Fang Huai's mood fluctuates, but he is always able to sense it keenly and comfort him at the right time.
But sometimes he is not serious. In front of his beloved, he can't help but spread his feathers like a peacock, and he can't wait to sell the item to the buyer. Fang Huai declined this matter politely.
At night, Fang Huai was lying on the bed, his ears and face were red, and he stammered, asking Kong Lingyu to let go.
At this time, Kong Lingyu was sitting at the end of the bed, stubbornly holding a hot water bottle, warming his hands, and then putting them on Fang Huai's cold feet. He had healed his previous injuries, but Fang Huai's limbs were cold due to his physical condition. Fang Huai didn't take this matter to heart.
Kong Lingyu sat stubbornly at the end of the bed, holding the hot water bottle in his arms, and Fang Huai's feet in his arms, transferring his body temperature to Fang Huai through the thin cloth.
Fang Huai clearly felt the hot skin under his feet. His feet were burned red by Kong Lingyu's body temperature, and he struggled to pull his feet back.
But he was held by Kong Lingyu, "Kong Lingyu! Let go."
Fang Huai sat up in shame and anger, "Can you...use a hot water bottle?"
Looking into those dark eyes, he had the illusion that he was being stared at by a poisonous snake, as if if he refused again, the snake would wrap around him and drag him back to his cave.
"I like hot water bottles, so I use hot water bottles."
Seeing Fang Huai give in, Kong Lingyu took out the hot water bag regretfully and ran his rough fingertips across the white instep of her feet, causing her to tremble. Fang Huai quickly took out the hot water bag and wrapped her feet tightly with the quilt.
"As you say."
Kong Lingyu stood up to tuck in the quilt for Fang Huai, his brows lowered, which inexplicably made Fang Huai feel guilty.
After finishing everything, Kong Lingyu turned off the desk lamp, but did not leave. He sat by the bed and stared at Fang Huai.
Fang Huai blinked, as if unable to bear his blatant gaze, and turned his face away quietly. After hearing the man's chuckle, he turned his head angrily and looked at Kong Lingyu.
In front of Kong Lingyu, he seemed to become much more childish.
Fang Huai looked at Kong Lingyu, then glanced around the room. His eyelashes fluttered slightly. He swallowed and nervously called the man's name, "Kong Lingyu."
The man immediately moved closer to Fang Huai, "I'm here."
Fang Huai looked at the man's handsome profile and frowned: "Don't you think I'm annoying?"
"I can't do anything right and I always disappoint others. You'll be disappointed in me later too. Don't be so nice to me."
Kong Lingyu was obviously stunned when he heard Fang Huai's words. After coming to his senses, he said firmly: "No"
But Fang Huai didn't listen to his answer. His eyes were blank as he stared at the ceiling and muttered, "When I was little, I wanted my mother to look back at me, but because I cried, she didn't want me anymore. Later, I wanted to have a family. That year, the locust flowers were in full bloom, and I finally had a family... In my senior year of high school, I wanted to become a doctor. Now look, everything is messed up."
"Am I too greedy and that's why I messed everything up? They don't want me anymore... They are all disappointed in me, they don't want... they don't want me anymore." Fang Huai said softly, but at the end his tongue seemed to be out of control, and emotions surged up and overwhelmed him. He spoke more and more confused, and a feeling of powerlessness surrounded him.
He couldn't even utter a single sentence properly.
Fang Huai sat up and started coughing, his chest heaving violently. Tears rolled down his cheeks like beads, hitting Kong Lingyu's heart one by one.
“I’m not disappointed, I won’t be disappointed.”
Kong Lingyu hugged Fang Huai, who was out of control of his emotions, and slowly soothed him along his back with his hands. He patted Fang Huai's back gently and said in a gentle tone: "You won't be disappointed, Mai Mai."
"Maimai is the best person in the world. He will never abandon you, and he will never be disappointed."
"No regrets, never regrets."
"You can always do what you like, I will follow you, and I will always be with you as long as you don't mess up."
Kong Lingyu hugged Fang Huai from behind like he did when they were children, letting him lean on his arms, his chin resting on Fang Huai's neck, his arms around Fang Huai's waist, and responding to Fang Huai sentence by sentence.
"I will be with you. I will always be with you."
Fang Huai could clearly sense the man's gentle and soft voice, devoid of the usual flirtatiousness. He responded to her word by word, like an answer and a promise: "I won't regret it. Mai Mai is so good, how could I regret it?"
"Maimai, my Maimai."
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