Diyi pulled Lin Su's hand away, put his arms around his neck and kissed him.
All the worries about rules and status seemed to be thrown out of his mind at that moment. He just liked him.
That's it.
When lovers are together, they will of course want to be close to each other. Even if there is a barrier of status between them, their hearts are already together, and nothing can hinder it.
Even Lin Su thought so, but a guide who had lost his glands was really different from an ordinary guide. The glands were not just sexual characteristics, they secreted hormones. Without them, the guide would lose his estrus period, and a guide without estrus could not accept the existence of sentinels. Their body structure was different from that of ordinary people, otherwise the sentinels would find ordinary people to marry and have children. Sentinels and guides were naturally compatible. When one party seemed to have completely become an ordinary person, they could not be together physically.
Both of them noticed this, and the rising temperature suddenly cooled down. Lin Su reached out and held the person in his arms.
Diyi lay in his arms in silence for a while before saying, "That's normal. If you're with me, you won't be able to have a child. Actually, Platonic love is pretty good too."
"Is it really okay?" Lin Su looked at him pretending to be calm.
He has become accustomed to burying a lot of pain in his heart. Since it cannot be changed, he does not want to be sad about such things. However, some things cannot be said to be not sad.
"There's no other way." Diyitong said, leaning in his arms.
He thought they would have a good start, but reality dealt him a heavy blow, telling him what stolen time meant and what wishful thinking meant.
Even if this person doesn't care about having children or his body, who among lovers doesn't want to be close to each other, who can watch but not touch? A sexless marriage will never last long between humans, and even if it does, it has nothing to do with love.
[06. Is there any medicine to restore glands?] Lin Su asked.
The Origin World has everything. 06 searched the shops and said, "Some hosts, after using it, can recover as a medical miracle in three months, for only one million star coins."
[Yes, exchange for recovery potion.] Lin Su said.
06: [……]
"Isn't the effect the same?" Lin Su asked.
[Yes.] 06 said, [Using it to someone other than the host will cost double the price.]
It's the same, and the effect of the recovery potion is to restore all the organs of the body to their heyday, not just the glands. But that's called treating the disease with the right medicine, and the host generally wouldn't think of using the recovery potion for the host.
【Use it.】Lin
Su said.
He was not there when he was suffering, but now he is here, and he no longer wants to see the pain he has and can only hide it in his heart.
The potion didn't work immediately, and when Lin Su was silent for a long time, Diyitong lowered his eyes and said, "Do you think I'm a monster?"
He is clearly a guide, but he does not have any of the sexual characteristics of a guide. He is said to be an ordinary person, but he has residual pheromones. He is like a defective product, longing to have the best things in the world, but finding himself wishful thinking again and again.
"Don't say that about yourself." Lin Su stroked his hair and said, "No, even if you are always like this, I won't despise you. There are many ways to satisfy desires. You are my partner, not a tool for venting desires."
Diyi took a deep breath, his heart sinking even more. The better and more considerate this person was, the stronger his sense of guilt became. "Actually, we..." It's not...
He couldn't say it, it was too difficult. He knew he shouldn't dominate him like this, but he didn't want to let him go just like that, because if he let him live with someone else, he wouldn't be able to help but want to kill someone.
"What?" Lin Su asked with his head down.
"Actually, we are not lovers. I lied to you." Diyitong looked at him and said. He couldn't get over it in his heart. He didn't want to lie to such a person again.
His eyes dropped, and he felt the hand clasped around his waist loosen slightly. He waited for his death sentence, but heard a questioning voice above his head: "Do you want to break up with me?"
"Ah? No, we really aren't a couple." After saying it the first time, some things became easier to say. "I just took advantage of your amnesia to lie to you."
"Why did you lie to me?" Lin Su continued to ask.
Cheating is actually not a good thing. If you want to hide the truth, you can only weave one lie after another to cover up the truth. In the process of constant deception, you have to endure the condemnation in your heart.
After all, he didn't know that what he did was actually what Lin Su wanted, but Lin Su knew that what he did was what he wanted.
So you had no psychological burden when you lied to your wife, 06 Jiji muttered silently in his heart.
Diyi retreated from his embrace. If he stayed there, he would lose his composure. Only by being away from him could he say some things: "Because I like you."
"I like you too." Lin Su looked at him and said.
"You were deceived by me." Diyi looked up at him and said, "That's not true love.
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"Tangtang, I just lost my memory, not become stupid. I won't lose my judgment on whether I like someone or not just because I lost my memory." Lin Su looked at him and said, "Do you think I would let anyone in this world deceive me? Or if I like someone as long as they say they are my lover, then my love is too cheap."
Diyi looked at him blankly. Even though they were lying together, this man was not wearing the military uniform that represented his status. He looked exactly the same as before. Amnesia did not completely change him. He was still himself: "Lin Su..."
"Come here," Lin Su said, extending his hand. "I don't want to hear anything like breaking up or leaving from you again. If it happens again, I will leave without hesitation."
The words were indeed a bit cold and harsh, but Diyitong knew he was serious. He couldn't just leave, so he suppressed the feeling of being threatened. Diyitong moved over silently and was then held in Lin Su's arms. His voice became soft again: "If there are any problems or difficulties, we will solve them together. Don't think of taking advantage of me and then abandoning me."
"Who is the one who abandoned me in the end? You...you don't mind that I lied to you?" Diyi Tong suddenly didn't care about what he said before. If Lin Su had left without saying anything just because he had problems, he would also be very angry.
"So you have to give yourself to me." Lin Sutong said, his nose against his, "Tangtang, let me tell you a secret belonging to the empire's top sentinels."
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