Chapter 12 You're his dark history, he thinks you're bad luck...
Yu Wu and Ke Yanchen never crossed paths again, and she rarely saw him at school.
As for him, Yuwu really couldn't say for sure.
She felt she could never truly understand him, yet she greedily longed to possess him even for a moment.
A privileged young man like him would never understand the anxiety and unease she felt as she struggled to stand beside him on tiptoe.
Perhaps things will get better once he's less busy. She comforted herself.
Yet, she had a vague sixth sense that she and he were drifting further and further apart.
*
The swelling in her elbow also began to subside.
When he occasionally ran into Zhou Jin at school, he was noticeably more restrained. He would only give her a cold stare and refrain from any further provocation.
Ji Lingwei and Jian Mengyu's relationship is getting better and better, even better than Yu Wu and her before.
The two women frequently shared photos of their close friendship on social media, showing them exploring restaurants together, eating hot pot together, having afternoon tea together, and even spending the weekend together overnight.
In the photo, they smile with their eyes crinkling, kissing each other on the cheek. The caption reads: "We are each other's best sisters and will be together forever."
Yu Wu silently gave Ji Lingwei a thumbs up, but a sense of gloom settled in her heart. She began to miss Ji Lingwei's kindness and even repeatedly doubted whether she had been too harsh on her.
Just as Yu Wu was about to turn off her phone, she suddenly received a message from a linked account that caught her attention.
I really didn't expect you could tolerate her. She's plain-looking, wears ugly glasses, and her eyes are tiny, like a turtle's eyes.
It felt like my heart had been stabbed.
Yu Wu's breathing trembled slightly; she tried hard to control herself.
Ke Yanchen seemed to have replied to something, and then new messages came in from the other side.
She turned off the screen and kept telling herself to calm down.
...
I vaguely remember getting through Friday's daytime and finally the quiet of the night arrived.
Even though she knew she was alone at home, she still breathed carefully as she turned on her phone, gritting her teeth to control her heaving chest.
She made sure Ke Yanchen was asleep before logging into his account.
Holding my breath, I quickly scrolled through the chat history between Ke Yanchen and Song Man from that afternoon.
The room was eerily silent. She leaned against the headboard, her fingertips trembling uncontrollably.
Song Man: [I really didn't expect you could tolerate her. She's plain-looking, wears ugly glasses, and her eyes are as small as a turtle's.]
Ke Yanchen: [Hmm.]
Yu Wu swallowed nervously, her heart feeling as if it were being gripped tightly by an invisible hand, stagnant and unable to beat.
He did not deny Song Man's denigration of her.
He also thought she was unremarkable, and wondered if her eyes looked like turtle eyes.
Her breathing became heavy. She suppressed her racing thoughts and continued reading.
Song Man: [Are you bringing her to the party tomorrow, Saturday?]
Ke Yanchen: [Not bringing it.]
Song Man: [So you also think she's not presentable.]
Ke Yanchen: [Can we please stop mentioning her? It's bad luck.]
Song Man: [Who told you to have such poor taste? Are you just experiencing a fleeting infatuation? Her existence is truly a dark chapter in your history.]
Ke Yanchen: [Maybe. She's not my type of well-behaved little girl.]
Song Man: [Then what's your relationship with Xia Tingxue?]
Ke Yanchen: [Let's not talk about this anymore. I'll have the driver pick you up tomorrow, we'll go together.]
......
The rest of the chat history was about them discussing the party on Saturday.
Yu Wu then found the chat history between Ke Yanchen and Xia Tingxue.
The two added each other about two weeks ago, and their chat history in the last few days has been somewhat ambiguous.
Xia Tingxue: [You look kind of handsome today.]
Ke Yanchen: [You have a good eye.]
Xia Tingxue: [What are you doing?]
Ke Yanchen: [Thinking of you.]
...
Xia Tingxue: [Why aren't you replying to my messages? What are you doing? I'm angry!]
Ke Yanchen: [I'm here.]
Ke Yanchen: [I was just eating.]
Ke Yanchen: [It's okay to be angry, being angry is also cute.]
......
Xia Tingxue: [A new dessert shop recently opened in the city, and they say their tiramisu is the best! I haven't tried it yet!]
Ke Yanchen: [I'll buy it for you tomorrow.]
Xia Tingxue: [How can you be so kind?]
Ke Yanchen: [Only good to you.]
Xia Tingxue: [I'm shy!]
......
Such as these.
Every ambiguous word Ke Yanchen uttered struck Yu Wu's heart like a sharp whip, causing her to tremble in shock.
The account was linked at Ke Yanchen's request, who said that Yu Wu had the right to check his account at any time.
There has been no news from Yu Wu and Ke Yanchen's chat box for a very long time.
He didn't send him a message first, and Yu Wu assumed he was busy and was afraid of bothering him, so she didn't contact him either.
Even the rare opportunity to have a meal with him at school was only because of the broken friendship; she felt lonely and lost. Only after careful consideration did she dare to cautiously make a request.
It turns out he wasn't busy at all.
Originally, he thought she was unpresentable and that she brought bad luck.
Just as Ji Lingwei said, Ke Yanchen never formally introduced Yu Wu into his circle, nor did he even introduce her to his friends.
......
Xia Tingxue was the class beauty of the neighboring Class 5. That girl was very pretty, the kind of innocent and harmless good girl, the epitome of the pure and alluring style. Apart from her pair of captivating eyes that seemed to hold a clear autumn sky, her other features were quite ordinary, but together they were exceptionally beautiful. She was the kind of harmless, innocent flower that all boys would consider their white moonlight.
Ke Yanchen said that she was not the kind of obedient girl he liked.
It must have been that day when the two boys threw her sanitary napkins, and he saw her fierce reaction when she fought back.
He indeed saw her shrewish side.
But can't girls have their own sharp edges?
Are we not allowed to fight back when we're being bullied?
......
He knew perfectly well that they were linked accounts, yet he was still so unscrupulous, joining his friends in belittling and mocking her.
He knew perfectly well that she might check his account at any time, yet he still openly and blatantly maintained an ambiguous relationship with Xia Tingxue in their chat history.
He did it on purpose, deliberately letting Yuwu discover all of this.
Then wait for her to leave on her own.
......
She tried hard to comfort herself, "It's okay, you're not that ugly. You have your strengths too." Standing in front of the mirror, her reddened eyes filled with tears, she repeatedly reassured herself, "You have fair skin, you're 1.65 meters tall, and you have a slender figure. You're wonderful."
Yuwu, you're great.
Yuwu, you're not as bad as they say.
But it seems like none of it works anymore.
Everyone was belittling and mocking her; even Ke Yanchen said she was unlucky.
She choked back tears silently, the crystal tears falling one by one, her trembling teeth clenched so tightly that she refused to let out a single sob.
I look so ugly in the mirror, so incredibly ugly.
When she cried, she looked disheveled and unkempt, like a muddy dog with nowhere to go in a rainstorm.
Yuwu, you are really ugly, you deserve it.
You are a dark part of his past; he thinks you're bad luck.
You deserve what you got; you brought this upon yourself.
However, while everyone else could mock and target her, Ke Yanchen could not.
Ke Yanchen is really no good.
It was the collapse of a belief, the despair of being powerless to resist a sincerity that could not be reciprocated, and the overwhelming cries of grief struck her down.
Ke Yanchen once said so sincerely that he liked her, and the determination in his dark eyes is still imprinted in her heart. He himself said that he truly wanted to be with her for a lifetime.
He said he was sincere.
We promised to be together forever, so why did everything change all of a sudden? Why were all those promises just lies?
Ke Yanchen, you must not be a two-faced scoundrel.
Ke Yanchen, you can't just crush a girl's self-esteem like this.
Ke Yanchen, you can't play with people's true feelings, you can't do this.
Her already fragile dignity, painstakingly built up, was easily crushed into pieces amidst their laughter and playfulness, beyond repair.
If there's anything that can shatter your self-esteem in the deepest, most instantaneous way, it's when someone who once professed to love you, someone who once had the courage to defy the world to protect you, now joins others in trampling on your self-esteem, mocking and despising you.
If he didn't like her, why did he take the initiative to contact her in the first place?
Why did he fight for her, deal with Zhou Jin, come downstairs to hug her late at night, take her out to eat, write her letters, and make so many promises about the future?
She was carrying a bag full of shattered self-esteem, walking towards him humbly and timidly.
Why did Ke Yanchen have to tear away my fragile self-esteem, strangle my pure innocence, and brutally rip me apart with his own hands?
Why deceive those who are truly sincere?
Her self-esteem completely collapsed, and she clung to life like a lump of mud.
......
What's more painful than the end is dragging on endlessly. His ambiguous attitude drove Yuwu to the brink of collapse while simultaneously deceiving herself. Over and over again, until the wound was completely festering and rotting.
Because she really, really liked Ke Yanchen.
Children who lack love are unwilling to give up even the slightest bit of warmth.
On Saturday, Yu Wu spent the whole day in a daze, like a walking corpse, and then unexpectedly received a call from Ji Lingwei that evening.
"Yu Zi, I'm downstairs at your place, could you come down for a bit?" Ji Lingwei's tone was a little hesitant.
"Wait a moment," Yu Wu said, and immediately ran downstairs, where she indeed saw Ji Lingwei standing there.
Yu Wu rushed over and hugged her, suddenly feeling a little like crying.
She thought she desperately needed a pillar of support.
Ji Lingwei was also somewhat surprised. She placed her hands lightly on Yu Wu's slender waist, "Yu Zi..."
Yu Wu hugged her, her voice muffled: "I've thought a lot about this lately, and maybe I'm just being too sensitive."
Ji Lingwei looked at her from behind, her expression sincere, "Me too. I haven't been happy without you these past few days."
"Actually, I was just using Jian Mengyu at first. Who told her to be so willing to spend money and to treat you so badly? So I wanted to get revenge on her and make her bleed."
"When I go out with her, it's all just so she'll pay!"
"Later, because you misunderstood me, I could only continue to be friends with her."
"But I swear, both she and I are fake! Otherwise, I wouldn't have come to your house to find you!"
"I hope we can be okay. We promised to be friends for life, haven't you forgotten?"
"Back then on the playground, you were the one who abandoned me first. I never said anything about breaking up with you."
“I know you value Ke Yanchen and cherish him like a treasure. But sisterly affection is also very important.”
Yu Wu looked at Ji Lingwei, recalling all the happy times they had spent together. Her eyes welled up with tears, and her voice trembled with emotion.
"It's my fault."
"Because of Ke Yanchen, I often feel anxious and insecure. I apologize to you."
"Lingwei, let's go back to how we were before, okay?"
Ji Lingwei smiled and said, "Okay!"
That night, the two sisters talked for a long time downstairs. It was as if they had returned to the days when they could talk about anything.
It was so late that Ji Lingwei was finally able to leave reluctantly.
Ji Lingwei invited Yu Wu to have lunch together tomorrow at noon.
Yu Wu escorted her to the entrance of the residential area and then walked home alone.
She secretly vowed in her heart that she and Ji Lingwei would be good to each other.
*
The weather is getting colder and colder. When I woke up this morning, I found the sky outside my window was a white-gray, and it looked like it was going to rain.
It's almost the end of October, and summer clothes are no longer suitable. Yuwu has never owned an autumn coat in her life. Because autumn is too short, buying clothes isn't cost-effective.
Every autumn, she would shiver and "scramble" through it.
Aside from summer clothes, all she had was a thick, pilling cotton-padded coat. She rummaged through her drawers and cupboards at home for a long time before finally deciding to wear her autumn school uniform jacket out.
In the afternoon, Yu Wu went out early and first went to the bookstore to browse around, where she picked out a beautiful notebook for Ji Lingwei.
While queuing to pay, I encountered Jian Mengyu coming from the opposite direction.
She was dressed very elegantly, and behind her followed a beautiful woman who looked somewhat like her; she must be her mother.
She whispered a few words to her mother and walked straight into the mist.
"What a coincidence, we meet again!" Jian Mengyu said with a smile, holding Yu Wu's hand, but her gaze lingered on Yu Wu. She was a girl who had been pampered since childhood, and her exquisite attire at this moment fully revealed her proud little princess image.
Yu Wu was not used to her closeness, so she pulled her hand away and pursed her lips: "Hmm, it is quite a coincidence."
"You're still wearing your school uniform outside of school?" she exclaimed in surprise.
Yu Wu lowered her head and didn't respond to her.
Seeing Yu Wu's defiant expression, Jian Mengyu raised an eyebrow, crossed her arms, and finally tore off the mask she had been wearing for days, smiling smugly and disdainfully.
"You're still so arrogant? Do you know you're about to be finished?"
"What do you mean?" Yu Wu frowned slightly.
"What do I mean?" Jian Mengyu sneered, scrutinizing Yu Wu from head to toe, raising an eyebrow. "You'll find out this afternoon!"
"If you can, dress up nicely. Don't look like this, all dirty and filthy, like a rat in the gutter, not presentable."
"You're going to fall really hard, don't blame me for not warning you then!"
After she finished speaking, she walked towards her mother, who was selecting books not far away.
See you this afternoon!
Yu Wu stared at her receding figure, a sense of foreboding creeping over her. Just then, it was her turn to pay, and the clerk called her softly.
Yuwu could only turn around and pay the bill.
Continue read on readnovelmtl.com
