Chapter Forty-Seven
Xu Weiwei frowned and said, "But I am very insecure, and that's something I can't change. After all, he and I are two completely different people, like heaven and earth."
He's so wonderful, and I'm so inadequate. I'm simply not good enough for him. Everyone says a good marriage requires compatibility, even in modern society where people are more open-minded and less rigid.
But ideally, marriage should be based on equality; marrying up or down is extremely rare. Although I've earned a little money now, he's far, far richer than me.
Li Nan sneered and said, "What's so good about him? He's a flirtatious playboy. To be honest, you're lucky you don't mind him."
Anyway, if it were me, I would never be with someone like that. Even if someone confessed to him, he would still hug them. He must be out of his mind. Is he giving benefits to people who like him?
Even with girls, in modern times, although the rules between men and women aren't as strict, he's already hugged so many girls, how can he have the nerve to do that?
You're more than a match for him; he's the one who's not good enough for you. As an outsider, I want to say, you really shouldn't get too involved; it's unnecessary.
Xu Weiwei shook her head and explained seriously, "He is not a womanizer. He has never been in a relationship before. This is enough to prove that he is very serious about love and would rather be single than settle for less."
You should know that it's extremely rare for a guy as handsome and rich as him to have never been in a relationship; most of the time, he just starts a relationship casually.
Such a good man is really rare. He's not a womanizer. A real womanizer is someone who has many relationships, cheats on his wife, and gets involved with different people.
But he didn't. He hugged her only because he felt that the girl liked him so much, and he should make it up to her. Besides, they didn't even kiss, so what was wrong with a hug?
Li Nan chuckled and said, "Women in love are unbelievable; they start talking nonsense. Deep down, don't you really mind at all?"
I don't believe it. You're really that magnanimous? How could that be? If it were you, you would definitely mind a lot. Also, when I'm not filming, I don't hug people easily.
I am a person who is very aware of boundaries and can control the degree. In my opinion, hugging is an extremely intimate action. Many times, once you have hugged someone, your body may remember that person, and even their scent.
You might say, it's just a few seconds, why care so much? But you know what? I think falling in love with someone is the same way, it only takes a few seconds.
Having met and interacted with so many women, do you really believe he could remain unmoved and never be tempted? I certainly don't believe it; he must have moments of distraction.
Xu Weiwei was stung and cried out, "Then what can I do? What am I to him? Am I his girlfriend? Am I his wife? No, I'm a stranger to him."
Am I entitled to be jealous of someone who has no official status or identity? Right now, all I crave is for him to fall in love with me; I humbly beg and hope that he can love me.
How could I dare to make demands of him? Even though I mind some of the things he did in the past, I love him. What can I do about it? I can't.
I don't even dare to say a word to him now. I don't have the courage. I'm really scared and terrified. I don't want to miss him, but I know that there's a high chance he'll never be mine.
I believe that loving someone and being loved are both perceptible. My gaze lingered on him for a long time; could he really not notice at all? I don't believe it.
If he already sensed it, why did he react so calmly? He didn't make a sound at all. He must not like me very much to react like this.
If he really had feelings for me, he would definitely have given me some hints. The way he's acting clearly shows he has no interest in me, and I just can't see any hope.
There's only a sliver of hope, but I won't take that step. And once I do, based on my judgment, I expect the result will be extremely unsatisfactory and disappointing.
After all, I've seen all these bad signs. I'm not blind; I'm smart and can think. I really don't want to gamble on that tiny bit of hope.
Li Nan frowned and said, "There's a saying that goes, 'Those involved are often confused, while bystanders see clearly.' As the person involved, you may not have paid attention to many details."
Maybe he's already given you hints, but you just didn't pick up on them. Besides, you said he's already accepted countless confessions of love.
There must be a lot of people who secretly admire him. He's already experienced this kind of unrequited love many times, and he's probably become quite adept at it.
Even if someone is watching you, you can ignore it and continue doing your own thing with a great attitude. Someone like that might simply not have noticed you.
These are the two possibilities. Based on my personal analysis, I think the former is more likely, because yin and yang are always mutually reinforcing, and a coin has two sides.
Since you're so hesitant and afraid, he must have responded in some way; it should be a positive sign. He just hasn't shown it yet, or rather, he has made some indication that you haven't seen.
Besides, are you really going to give up like this? Are you willing to do it? You definitely aren't. You've been talking to me so much just to ease your emotions.
Giving up once will only lead to countless more times, but once you get back up, you can't afford to fall. I don't want you to spend the rest of your life in regret. Besides, being rejected isn't as terrible as you think.
Did you know that, just like when you choose to cut off contact with someone, versus someone actively cutting off contact with you, you're more likely to remember the latter than the former?
Because when you completely leave, that person becomes utterly unimportant to you, and your past liking for them might turn into disgust.
Just like the person you love, doesn't he have flaws? Of course he does. One major flaw I've witnessed firsthand is his willfulness. Last time, the recording of a variety show was interrupted because of him.
This hiatus lasted for more than half a year. Who has that much time in life to waste? Of course, he was paid. But some opportunities, once missed, are gone forever.
Did you know? A makeup artist I spoke to last time died in a car accident, three days after we finished filming. I'm not saying I blame her.
I was just thinking that if the recording time of the show hadn't changed, maybe she wouldn't have had the car accident, since she was always with me, doing my makeup and touching up my hair.
I know he definitely didn't want this accident to happen, and it wasn't his fault, so I can't blame him. But I still feel regret.
His impulsive act has burdened many staff members, including better photographers and makeup artists whose schedules were booked in advance. His actions have had a significant impact that cannot be fully compensated with money alone.
Xu Weiwei asked in confusion, "Isn't it good to get paid without having to do any work? If I were one of those staff members, I would be overjoyed. Many people treat going to work like going to a funeral; they don't even want to do anything."
It's so rare to have a chance to get money legitimately without having to work, isn't that amazing? I don't understand, I only wanted to participate in this variety show because I love him so much.
What are they thinking? They even have complaints. I can only say that this is just too bizarre. As a working person, I really don't want to go to work.
Besides, things I used to really enjoy become tedious once they become my job. I can't possibly enjoy something all the time. People who never get tired of something are truly amazing.
I've heard that this kind of practice is quite common in the industry. Logically speaking, you're in the entertainment industry and have seen far more than I have, so why are you so unaccustomed to it?
This variety show was originally organized specifically for him, so shouldn't everything revolve around him? He's already done enough, yet he's still willing to spend so much money.
We all benefited from this; we got the money anyway, and they even gave us the option to come or not.
If you choose to come, you'll receive an additional reward. The benefits are amazing, it's practically charity.
How could I possibly be dissatisfied? It's fine not to be grateful, but at least I shouldn't complain. Anyway, I genuinely think this is a fantastic thing; he's incredibly kind.
Li Nan rolled her eyes and said, "Your filter is way too strong, you know? I'm not actually blaming him. I just can't help but overthink when someone I know, someone I've had physical contact with, dies."
Is he completely without responsibility? Not entirely; I think he bears some responsibility. Of course, I know he wasn't a bad person and never intended to harm anyone. It's just that the tragedy has already occurred.
You don't know that person, so you might not feel the same way. But I'm different. I know the makeup artist's name and age, and I've even talked to her.
Xu Weiwei frowned and said, "Car accidents happen every moment in this world, and death can come at any time. To be honest, if I finish filming the variety show, and then on the third day I choose to climb a snow mountain, and then I have a hemorrhage, I will die."
I won't blame others. I made the choice myself, and it led to a bad outcome. So who's to blame? I can only blame myself.
He really did nothing wrong. It's like accidentally stepping on a group of ants while walking by; are you going to apologize to the ants? You probably don't even know if they died because you stepped on them.
Li Nan said painfully, "But she is a human being, not an ant. I can ignore the death of an ant, just as I can eat pork, mutton, and beef without caring about the death of pigs, sheep, or cows."
But she is a living, breathing human being, the same species as us. How can you compare a human to an ant, a pig, a cow, or a sheep?
Life has depth, and in my view, human life is far more noble, precious, and valuable than that of other animals.
Xu Weiwei shook her head and said, "I think you've gone mad with your cultivation. Everyone dies. Life is equal. No one's life is really so light and weightless."
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