Chapter 41 God
Chapter 41
Outside the floor-to-ceiling windows was an endless curtain of rain, the alley was shrouded in gray, with only the old street lamps emitting a dim light.
The pale yellow halo fell on the wet ground, like a rippling moon.
Chen Wan walked to the balcony, collected the clothes, and folded them and placed them on the rattan chair.
I glanced casually next door and saw that the lights in Lin Yu's house were still on.
She looked at the time. It was half past ten. Usually at this time, Lin Yu would have returned home.
The evening news is reporting that a typhoon is about to hit the south city, which will cause continuous heavy rain, and reminds citizens to take precautions.
The air was filled with a mixture of moisture and dust, and the heavy rain washed every corner thoroughly.
She remembered how Lin Yu had left in a hurry that morning, and wondered if he had encountered an important case and would not come back.
But after thinking for a while, Chen Wan decided to keep the balcony light on.
She stood on the balcony and looked towards the entrance of the alley for a long time.
After a while, a car slowly drove into the deep and dark alley, and its two bright headlights reflected long and thin raindrops.
Through this beam of light, Chen Wan noticed that the pomegranate tree downstairs seemed to be drooping in the heavy rain.
She cried out in amazement, realizing that she had forgotten to put up a tarpaulin for the pomegranate tree, and hurriedly turned around to look for tools.
The car was turned off and parked quietly outside the corridor.
Chen Wan recognized that it was Lin Yu's car. He stopped and turned back to where he was, holding onto the guardrail and looking carefully for a moment.
Then he picked up an umbrella and rushed downstairs quickly.
The wipers were shaking mechanically, but they still couldn't wipe away the water stains. Lin Yu listened to the rain hitting the glass window, as if it was seeping into his body.
He opened the car door and stood completely in the heavy rain.
The light from the street lamps was extremely dim in this bad weather and could not illuminate anything.
With a "pop", a slightly red pomegranate fell at his feet.
Lin Yu stared for a moment, then regained his composure. He walked to the pomegranate tree and saw the wooden frame swaying from side to side due to the violent storm.
A tree of half-red pomegranates swayed in the night.
He rolled up his sleeves, bent down slightly, crawled under the tree, and began to fiddle with the wooden frame.
Fine raindrops slid down from the treetops, and a cool feeling spread across his back.
My hair was wet and stuck to my ears, and the rain got into my eyes, making them feel sore.
Lin Yu wiped his face with his elbow, tightened the wire, and made sure the wooden frame was tight before he breathed a sigh of relief.
"Lin Yu!"
A voice was heard not far away, but it was not very clear because of the heavy rain.
Lin Yu stood up straight and looked over with an indifferent expression.
The noisy crackling sound of rain gradually faded away, and all that could be clearly heard was Chen Wan's voice, "Lin Yu, this way!"
The wind was very strong, and she ran over with an umbrella, staggering on the water.
The splashing water was lit up by the dim street lights, like tiny stars.
An umbrella approached him before Chen Wan himself, blocking the wind and rain.
Lin Yu's gaze fell on her face, and then he noticed her wet shoulders, which looked even thinner.
"Why don't you open an umbrella in such heavy rain?" She moved the umbrella closer and looked closely at Lin Yu's expression. "What's wrong with you?"
Lin Yu shook his head, took the umbrella, reached out and pulled Chen Wan closer until the edge of the umbrella completely covered her.
"It's okay." He said softly.
The night was dark, and Chen Wan couldn't see Lin Yu's expression clearly. He just felt that his words "it's okay" were imperceptibly deep.
There was a darkness in his eyes, hiding a surging undercurrent.
Lin Yu rarely remained silent like this. Chen Wan guessed that there must be some problems with the case.
"It's raining so heavily, let's go home first." She raised her head, raised the corners of her eyes, and smiled at him.
Lin Yu nodded, tilted the umbrella towards her, and said softly, "Okay, let's go home."
Neither of them spoke again until they finally reached the door.
Lin Yu folded the umbrella and handed it to Chen Wan, "Thank you."
Chen Wan stood there, watching him slowly push open the door. He had something to say, but he couldn't organize his words, so he could only stare at him.
Lin Yu saw her worry and forced a gentle smile. "I'm fine. I just encountered some troubles at work."
Chen Wan said "oh" and saw him turn around and walk to the entrance, about to close the door.
She finally finished her words and asked Lin Yu, "Have you eaten?"
Lin Yu raised his eyebrows slightly. He had been in a daze the whole afternoon and had no time to care about such things.
Sensing a fleeting look of confusion in his eyes, Chen Wan breathed a sigh of relief, thinking that he had finally found a suitable excuse.
"I haven't eaten yet either. Let's have dinner together," she said.
Then, when Lin Yu was distracted, Chen Wan grabbed his wrist and said without hesitation, "Come to my house for dinner."
Lin Yu lowered his eyelashes and looked at Chen Wan calmly. He felt the warmth from her palm, which made the coolness brought by the rain disappear a lot.
"good."
After changing his shoes and entering the living room, Chen Wan asked him to sit down first.
After a while, she took out a clean, loose towel and said, "Wipe your hair first."
Lin Yu took it, covered his head with it and wiped it casually a few times.
Chen Wan found it a little funny to see him wiping randomly.
She held Lin Yu's hand and looked at his slowly rising face.
The fluffy fabric clung to his well-defined jaw, and his expression softened.
"You are being too careless." She looked into Lin Yu's eyes and said softly.
The tone was soft and smiling.
Chen Wan wiped his hair very gently, rubbing his wet hair through the towel.
Lin Yu's tense mood finally eased a lot with her actions.
He lowered his head and saw the light and shadow reflected on the glass coffee table.
"I dried your clothes this morning. Go take a shower first. I'll go make dinner right away." Chen Wan put down the towel and took his clothes, pointing to the bathroom.
Lin Yu lifted his eyelids. The rain had dissipated and the soreness in his eyes had subsided a lot.
He took the clothes, thanked her softly, and went to the bathroom.
Chen Wan looked at his hesitant back and sighed slightly.
He walked into the kitchen, looked at the ingredients, and prepared to make Lin Yu’s favorite tomato noodles.
Lin Yu stood in the bathroom, staring at the blue and white checkered tiles in a daze.
He remembered that Yu Jiayi's hospital gown was also blue and white.
After a while, Lin Yu took off his clothes, closed his eyes, and turned on the shower head.
While waiting for the water temperature to change from cold to hot, he sorted out his tangled thoughts.
The misty white fog slowly covered his eyelids, giving him a warm and moist touch.
Gradually, Lin Yu felt a little soft and peaceful in his heart.
It seemed like a long time had passed before he heard Chen Wan talking.
Across the sound of dripping water, a little hazy, but more gentle "Lin Yu, are you done washing? Come out to eat first."
Lin Yu turned off the water, wiped his face, and responded to her loudly, "Okay."
Chen Wan just happened to walk to the table with two bowls of noodles. After placing the chopsticks, he called out to him, "Come and eat."
The warm yellow lights create a cozy atmosphere.
The noodles with ketchup have a rich aroma and seem very delicious late at night.
Lin Yu sniffed and regained his instincts.
He picked up the bowl, mixed the minced meat and marinade, took a big bite, and his cheeks bulged like a hamster.
Seeing him like this, Chen Wan wanted to laugh but held it back.
She stood up, took out a can of Coke from the refrigerator, opened the ring, and handed it to him. "Don't choke, drink some fat otaku happy water."
When Lin Yuzhen heard the words "fat house happy water" from her mouth, he choked, coughed twice, and then took a big gulp of Coke.
Then the bubbles choked the tip of his nose, causing it to turn red, and his eyes gradually became moist.
"Don't cry, is it really that delicious?"
Seeing him like this, Chen Wan also picked up a piece of noodles, tasted half a mouthful, and nodded, "It's indeed quite delicious."
Hearing this, Lin Yu chuckled, "Everything you cook tastes good."
Because Chen Wan tried to lighten the mood, Lin Yu's tense emotions relaxed a lot.
He ate the whole bowl of noodles cleanly, then began to clear the tableware and wash the dishes.
"I'll do it."
Chen Wan held his hand and pulled him to sit down. "I'll treat you to dinner. In exchange, can you tell me what troubles you encountered today?"
Lin Yu paused as he cleaned up the dishes. Chen Wan pulled his hand down again and asked, "Is that alright?"
She looked at him, her eyes filled with a warm yellow light, very gentle.
Lin Yu sat down, raised his hand and pressed his forehead. He didn't know how to express the myriad things in his mind.
Chen Wan was not in a hurry. He set the table and poured him a glass of warm water.
Then I sat next to him and waited quietly for him to speak.
After a while, Lin Yu started talking about Yu Jiayi and Yu Jiayun starting from their involvement in the trafficking case.
Chen Wan recalled the stunned look on his face when he saw the news that morning and sighed.
Lin Yu subconsciously rubbed his finger bones until the joints turned red and a burning pain came.
"If I hadn't given her that document and told her Yu Jiayun was dead, maybe she wouldn't have committed suicide."
When he mentioned the word "suicide", there was a restrained sadness in his low voice.
"You keep saying you want to protect us, but what's the result?"
Yu Jiayi's questions gradually overlapped with those of the boy who was murdered a long time ago.
"You want to find out the truth and then pull us out of this quagmire, saying you want to protect other innocent people, but what about us? Who will protect us?"
Today, he finally understood what Zhou Zongqi said.
“Good people can also have bad consciences.”
A negligence of duty by the county public security bureau led them to go astray.
The document he brought with him became the last straw that broke the camel's back in Yu Jiayi's life.
In order to get her confession, Lin Yu had actually thought of using Yu Jiayun's case as a breakthrough from the beginning.
But I didn't expect the ending to be so tragic and desperate.
The turbid rainwater and the bright red blood mixed together, flowing into streams, like invisible blades, cutting through Lin Yu's so-called rationality and conscience.
"If I hadn't left the ward, if..."
There is no if in this world.
Lin Yu's sorrow grew stronger and stronger. He placed his hand on his forehead and grabbed the ends of his hair, pulling them downwards.
Bloodshot gradually appeared in his eyes, which had always been clear. He clenched his teeth and tried his best to calm his breathing.
Like a volcano about to erupt, the unrelieved guilt and self-blame burned Lin Yu like magma, gradually reaching a critical point.
Seeing him like this, Chen Wan felt a surge of sadness in his heart.
She reached out and held Lin Yu's trembling fingers, pulling them apart very gently and slowly.
Then she stroked his messy hair, and her warm fingertips rested on his thin eyelids.
"Lin Yu, this isn't your fault. If it weren't for you, Yu Jiayun's identity might still be unknown. If it weren't for you, Yu Jiayi would have lived in a deception forever."
"If it weren't for you, they would have suffered even more."
Her voice seemed to have temperature, as warm as the morning light.
Lin Yu gradually raised his eyes and looked at her, a faint light appearing in his dark pupils.
Like the end of the long night and the dawn of the day.
In the silent gaze, Chen Wan's slender fingers slowly slid down along the corners of his eyes, and then stopped at the side of his face with sharp lines.
Lin Yu was stunned for a moment, his dense eyelashes drooping, concealing some restrained and complicated emotions.
The warm touch on his face slowed his senses, and his turbulent emotions slowly subsided.
Chen Wan's voice was slow and gentle, as he spoke word by word, "Lin Yu, you did nothing wrong. You simply did what a police officer should do. With testimony, the case can progress and more similar tragedies can be avoided. You are not the last straw, you are the new dawn."
"You said it was the police's negligence that led them down the path of crime, but that police officer wasn't you, so you don't need to bear this responsibility. Furthermore, you said you wanted to be a follower of the truth, but not all truths are black and white and acceptable to everyone."
"You feel pity for Yu Jiayi, but she also hurts other, weaker people. So there's no absolute good or evil in this world, only different perspectives."
"You and she had different positions and ultimately chose different paths, so her ending had nothing to do with you. You are not a god and are not responsible for her death."
Lin Yu stared at her in a daze, remembering what he had said to Song Xianzhe: "The police are a barrier between light and darkness, a balance between good and evil."
The police are not gods.
Seeing him like this, Chen Wan sighed softly, but held his hand even tighter.
I want to pass on all my warmth and affection to him.
"The world doesn't get better because the police act and do good, nor does it get worse because the police do nothing and allow evil to happen."
This world is already bad, Chen Wan looked into his eyes and thought, it is because of people like you that it becomes a little better.
Lin Yu felt the tenderness in Chen Wan's heart. He slowly pulled out his hand, covered the back of her hand, and wrapped up the soft warmth.
"I see."
He said.
Find out what the police saved.
Just like Chen Wan said, he is a new dawn. Instead of dwelling on himself, he should save other victims.
The police may not be able to eliminate crimes, but they can prevent more people from getting hurt.
I can’t be a savior, but I can be a guiding light.
"Thank you, Wanzai."
Hearing the relief in his tone, Chen Wan smiled sincerely, "You've done very well."
Because of you, I slowly escaped from chaos and touched the light.
You are a follower of the truth, and I am your devout believer.
You are the only god in my heart.
Thoughts: Although, I updated, hahaha, waiting to wake up and receive compliments. The last sentence is a paraphrase of the movie "Drowning Knife". I'm sorry that I didn't keep my promise to update every day. I may not be able to do it because it is too delicate and there is too much to express. So most of the time I was thinking about it, thinking about it. I thought about each line for a long time. I was afraid that it would be pretentious or chicken soup for the soul. But I also said that I wanted to practice my writing skills. I hope to write a little bit of emotion and resonance. I said before that I wanted to write about human nature. I don't know if I wrote it very heavy. There is also the redemption here. Lin Yu was in pain after experiencing this incident, but he held it in. Chen Wan comforted him and made him see the road after the confusion.
Lin Yu is Chen Wan’s light, and Wanzai is also Yuzai’s light.
Also, when Lin Yu saw the pomegranate tree, he went to repair the stand because he knew it was very important to Chen Wan. Both of them gave their umbrellas to each other. What I wanted to write about were details like this. They may be overlooked, but I think this is the essence of love. Caring about each other is better than caring about yourself at some point.
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